InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Something Always Holding You Back ❯ Chapter Two ( Chapter 2 )

Chapter Two:

As Sesshoumaru started to leave the hallway his head was clouded. He was not sure what happen. He remembered her speaking but there was a small window, tiny window where he couldn't recall what occurred. Nor an explanation of the look on the human's face. He growled deep. His beast. It was the only solution.

Have you figure it out yet? his beast asked in a low serious voice. Sesshoumaru did not reply. I am surprised you haven't figured it out sooner. All the tiny window of black outs, not knowing how to got so close to her. Not realizing how you came upon her in your path constantly this past year? his beast was now letting off a low happy rumble.

Sesshoumaru's eyes widened. `What have you done?' he viscously demanded.

You really should have noticed years ago. The first moment we saw her. It was over.

`You can't possibly tell me that y-` he broke off what he was going to say. His mind was calculating the past year's events. Everything that he missed and blew off was clear. His beast had chosen their mate long ago.

I was becoming impatient with you. You stubborn baka. I was through letting you handle this. You kept turning a blind eye to the attraction you had to her because she was constantly with your brother. You fool. If I had not stepped in when I did, we would have been doomed before we even got a chance.

Sesshoumaru narrowed his gaze. It was true. He had tolerated her presence often. He did not shun her away like the demon bitches. He did not even let human's get close enough to him to send them away. Apprehension washed over him. He somehow felt….lighter? Like a burden he had not realized he was carrying was gone. He had found his mate.

`That does not mean I feel for her. She is our mate. Nothing more,' Sesshoumaru stated to his beast. His beast was actually taken off guard by the lack of resistance. Sesshoumaru was agreeing that she was indeed his true mate, and he was just walking it off. His beast was unsettled. It knew this was going to blow up.

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Sesshoumaru watched from a distance his icy mask melting as he watched Kagome break. His beast had been planning for this for over a year, but he did not expect it to actually hurt. At first he hated that his beast chose a mere human for a mate, but the more he thought about it, the more he was drawn to her. He started to see what his beast saw. Yet, he still did not think that a demon of his stature would feel much for the female. He had feelings, sure, but he was just use to safely hiding them away. He surprised himself. He wanted to go to her. Wanted to hold her and comfort her. His beast was demanding it, but it was different. He himself wanted to do it. He also knew he could not go to her yet. She had to come to him. He wanted her…

He paused and blinked at that thought. He didn't want her to come to him; he needed her to. He started to feel distain for the feeling. He did not need anything. It was a strange thought and a feeling that he did not like.

His beast growled at him in frustration. Will you just go to her? Now!

`You know that I can't. And you drive me crazy with your constant commentary to my life,' Sesshoumaru responded to his inner beast. A beast, the very animalistic side of being a demon. His other half.

You will comfort our mate right now, the beast rattled against the mental cage Sesshoumaru kept him in. His mate. The one person he would be linked to mind, body and soul until the end of time. Not even death would separate them. Each demon had only one mate. It had to be a perfect match. An inner beast chose the mate. The other half had to comply or there would be deathly consequences. His beast ironically selected a human. He still despised humans. But her. No she was different. Kagome was his.

He watched her intently and forced himself to walk away. She had to come to him. The way she was now, he could not help her. She had to overcome this herself. Even his brother knew that much for how dense he normally is.

Sesshoumaru growled at the thought of his brother. He had been tormented between wanting to rip his arms off for being so close to his mate these past months. For touching her he wanted to kill him. But, he did not and could not. His beast would not allow something that would hurt their mate so much to happen. Much to his dislike. Not to mention how upset their father would be if one of his sons happen to…disappear.

As he turned towards the parking lot he smirked. He knew Kagome would not take to this easily. He liked the challenge. He loved the hunt. Stalking his prey and finally devouring them gave him a rush like no other. He was feeling that rush now. He was antsy to get the chase on. He had her where he wanted her and now it was her turn to make the move. It had taken months to get her to this one spot. He would be waiting anxiously. No longer will he hold himself back.

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Sesshoumaru scanned the campus from his perch on top the bell tower. He was not going to allow any danger to come to his human. He was irritated that Kagome was so unwise to stay on campus after nightfall. There were many demons in the college and town that would cause trouble. He narrowed his gaze as he watched her as she sat under the tree.

`Ah, yes you are amused by this?'

Very.

`I have better things to do than babysit our human.'

Nothing is better than being near your mate.

Sesshoumaru rolled his eyes at his beast. “We do not need to be near her,” he said out loud.

You will be snapped out of that arrogant way of thinking soon enough.

“Your are starting to bore me, beast.”

His beast chuckled. Sesshoumaru was becoming very annoyed. What if another demon approaches her?

`We did not pick such a weak mate. She can defend herself well enough,' Sesshoumaru stated. His beast paused. Sesshoumaru sighed enjoying the silence.

He scanned the surrounding area once again before settling his eyes on her. As she lay on her back his beast began to almost purr in content. Her long curls lightly danced in the breeze. The moonlight made her deep chestnut hair glow in contrast to the dark night.

His eyes slide down her body slowly absorbing the image. Her slender petite form appeared even smaller from the high distance he was at. Sesshoumaru's burning eyes paused at her curves and delicate hips. He was glad he couldn't smell her. She was starting to do agonizing things to him. And she wasn't even trying, nor did she know he was watching her. She made him feel things no other female demon had made him feel before.

He smugly smiled. Sure, he had been with other females before. They all flocked around him, practically laying themselves out for him. His gut suddenly twisted as imagines of Kagome flashed. Her soft flesh bare before him. Underneath him. His beast rumbled in deep satisfaction at the images. Sesshoumaru's heart started to beat faster, skipping beats. His skin started to tingle in excitement and his stomach felt weightless turning into knots. He shifted uncomfortably not sure how to react. He licked his dry lips unconsciously and his lust filled gaze fell back onto the women. His lungs filled quickly and he couldn't breath. A soft groan barely escaped his lips as he felt a thick heat grow through his whole being. The normally in control demon was at a loss when his body ignored his mind as he willed the feeling away before it went straight to his groin. The heat began to swell and the medal pole he tightly held onto began to protest at the amount of force he was exerting onto it.

He was disappointed and thankful when Kagome sat up. Her movement snapped him out of the trance before he lost all will power and went to her. Sesshoumaru was almost left breathless at the sudden rush of intense emotions that coursed through him. Sesshoumaru desperately needed some sort of distraction. As Kagome sat up, he noticed something about her demeanor. He examined her expression trying to figure out what she was thinking. He was sure it was nowhere near the thoughts that would not leave his fogged mind. Never had Sesshoumaru felt something like that before. It felt as though his chest still tingled with an unnamed sensation. He heard a blissful rumble come from deep inside him.

Very amusing.

Sesshoumaru pushed his beast back away from his thoughts. He closely watched her as she stood up picking up her things and started to head towards her car. He growled deeply at himself as the fog started to clear from his mind. He took off with intense speed into the foothills. Once he was sure he was far away from any unsuspecting ears, both demon as well as human, he stopped in a clearing. Pure, hot anger started to rise within him.

He flexed his claws roaring as he attacked a helpless tree. Than another, and another. Until he was calm enough to have formable thoughts again. The roar echoed throughout the forest. He was breathing heavily as the trees fell. The loud splintering crashes scattered the wildlife that hadn't already run from fear of his outrage. He felt his beast start to come out for the depths of his mind. He quickly wrapping around it and locked it tightly away. His aura was whipping and clashing against the cool night. Any demon within miles of him, would be able to sense his outrage.

“I do not need anything,” he hissed to his beast. No response. “I do not need her, or anyone for that matter.” He growled loudly when his beast refused to respond again. Normally he couldn't get his other half to shut up. Now it infuriated him that it would not consult him. Tell him otherwise. To tell him that he was right. “You will not be allowed the,” Sesshoumaru paused, “privileges I have allowed you lately beast. I no longer wish your commentary and you will be chained in your cage where you belong.” His mind couldn't focus fully. He could still feel the strong emotions that his beast was emanating off; Sesshoumaru needed to lock his beast away farther.

He paced around the trees breathing still uneven. The silver moonlight lit his path. He was furious with himself for feeling anything. For letting his beast affect him so. Sesshoumaru had never, under any circumstances, allowed himself to lust after any female. Inner turmoil grew and lashed out within him. Somewhere seeded deep in his core he was feeling sick at the thought of pushing Kagome away. The storm started to grow, deep and dark. He never needed to feel anything, for anyone. She was his mate, yes. That did not mean he had to feel anything towards her. She was to produce his heir and provide for the future pups. That was it. The dark looming storm in his being was being to swirl and erupted. Threatening to swallow him.

A vicious growl escaped deep from his chest. She would be his pawn, nothing more. He would go about this mating his own way. Sesshoumaru narrowed his eyes. He was frantic to find a way to put the raging storm at bay. He ignored it and pushed it away. Willing it away. There was no need to feel such things. There was no need for him to have a mate at this point in his life. He would wait until it was time to have an heir. His beast would stay locked away until he chose it was time to mate her, so it would not to interfere any longer.

Sesshoumaru's beast knew he was being defeated and the storm withered away. He had lost, and his beast could only hope that Sesshoumaru would come to his senses before it was too late.

Sesshoumaru paused. If he was not to mate her, than there was still the issue of other males getting to close. Sesshoumaru clenched his hands into fists tightly. A snarl erupted the frustrated demon. His brother's scent has been engulfed around her for years. That has kept most male pursuers away, but it was not good enough. All demons would know that his family was somehow connected to the female as Inuyasha's scent was always on her. After a few moments of debating another solution, he knew that it was only best to keep it as the way it was.

His mind was racing. He was cursing himself for letting his beast control him for too long now. Kagome knew. She figured it out and she was planning on doing something about it. He just could not figure out what it was. The look on her face could have meant a handful of things. He would have to prepare himself for anything she was willing to throw at him. As long as she knew she was his, he wouldn't have to worry much about her. Just keep an eye on her and go about his life as he was before he started to needlessly pursue her. He would not allow himself to have any weaknesses.