InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Stream of Consciousness: A LiveJournal Collection ❯ Veiled ( Chapter 91 )
[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]
By: King Baka 
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Hentai / Comedy / Angst | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 04.18.2011 | Pages: 1 | Words: 531 | Visits: 577 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Hentai / Comedy / Angst | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 04.18.2011 | Pages: 1 | Words: 531 | Visits: 577 | Status: Completed
Title: Veiled
Community: IB4Y
Theme: Conceal
Place Earned: 2nd
Rating: PG-13
Universe: post-manga canon
Word count: 434
Summary: A nineteen-year-old Rin ponders her relationship with Sesshoumaru.
Warnings: none
Veiled
How long do we conceal our true selves from each other, Sesshoumaru? How many more nights must I lie awake, wishing for your warm body next to mine? You must realize it by now, that I will have no other. No human man could ever compare. I am enthralled by you, those golden orbs which sparkle with real feeling for me, and only me. I know you are conflicted, your pride as a daiyoukai warring with the desires of your heart. I see them when you look at me, how you hesitate and glance over your shoulder before departing for yet another stretch of days which seem empty compared to when you are by my side. You try to hide yourself from me, Sesshoumaru, but I see you clearly.
So why do I conceal my feelings? Why do I not simply reveal them openly to you? Perhaps I fear the inevitable resolution, that your pride will win out in that moment and you will reject me. Or perhaps it is because I am influenced by the happy couple I am privileged to call neighbors. Kagome has told me all about her romantic adventures with Inuyasha. She never forced him to choose between herself and his former love, and in the end her patience was rewarded. Their lives are filled with contentment, the young children only adding to the connection between them. I have never seen two souls so in love.
My jealousy hits me hard at times, and used to fill me with shame. But Kagome understands; she comforted me after noticing my envy, telling me everything would work out eventually. I try to believe her, to keep the faith, but every time you depart in the same calm, aloof manner a small part of me perishes.
I am not a child anymore, Sesshoumaru. This will be my nineteenth summer; most women my age are already married and siring children. You may have centuries left to live, but I do not. Before you know it, I will be an old woman. I hope you do not make me wait much longer. I do not know how many more days I can spend alone, without the comfort of a man to share my life with. I desire children, Sesshoumaru, and if you will not give them to me, perhaps someone else will. I may be forced to confess my feelings soon after all. At least then I would be free of this veiled existence, where even two individuals who know each other as well as you and I, try to hide who they truly are.
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Community: IB4Y
Theme: Conceal
Place Earned: 2nd
Rating: PG-13
Universe: post-manga canon
Word count: 434
Summary: A nineteen-year-old Rin ponders her relationship with Sesshoumaru.
Warnings: none
Veiled
How long do we conceal our true selves from each other, Sesshoumaru? How many more nights must I lie awake, wishing for your warm body next to mine? You must realize it by now, that I will have no other. No human man could ever compare. I am enthralled by you, those golden orbs which sparkle with real feeling for me, and only me. I know you are conflicted, your pride as a daiyoukai warring with the desires of your heart. I see them when you look at me, how you hesitate and glance over your shoulder before departing for yet another stretch of days which seem empty compared to when you are by my side. You try to hide yourself from me, Sesshoumaru, but I see you clearly.
So why do I conceal my feelings? Why do I not simply reveal them openly to you? Perhaps I fear the inevitable resolution, that your pride will win out in that moment and you will reject me. Or perhaps it is because I am influenced by the happy couple I am privileged to call neighbors. Kagome has told me all about her romantic adventures with Inuyasha. She never forced him to choose between herself and his former love, and in the end her patience was rewarded. Their lives are filled with contentment, the young children only adding to the connection between them. I have never seen two souls so in love.
My jealousy hits me hard at times, and used to fill me with shame. But Kagome understands; she comforted me after noticing my envy, telling me everything would work out eventually. I try to believe her, to keep the faith, but every time you depart in the same calm, aloof manner a small part of me perishes.
I am not a child anymore, Sesshoumaru. This will be my nineteenth summer; most women my age are already married and siring children. You may have centuries left to live, but I do not. Before you know it, I will be an old woman. I hope you do not make me wait much longer. I do not know how many more days I can spend alone, without the comfort of a man to share my life with. I desire children, Sesshoumaru, and if you will not give them to me, perhaps someone else will. I may be forced to confess my feelings soon after all. At least then I would be free of this veiled existence, where even two individuals who know each other as well as you and I, try to hide who they truly are.
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