InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Talking in His Sleep ❯ Explanations prt.2 ( Chapter 5 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

[ ] Thinking

" " Speaking

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Miroku froze, shocked disbelief apparent in his wide eyes, making Kagome sit back further from him. He quickly found his voice however and had to ask what she meant. "You're saying Inuyasha raped you?"

Kagome shook her head, "I said he 'used' me, not raped, there's a difference."

"And what might that be?" Miroku watched her fiddling with her pants with a feeling he didn't want to know.

"A rape is forced, one person forcing another to submit," Kagome gulped, tears pooling in her eyes as her chin trembled, struggling to go on and feeling only slightly relieved when he seemed to understand.

"He didn't force you?"

"No"

Miroku nodded, picking up on her meaning. "I don't see how he used you then, Kagome, if you were... *ahem* a willing participant, I could say."

Kagome nodded before raising hurt eyes up to his again, "I'll admit it Miroku, I willingly gave myself to him. I let him take me and I enjoyed it. The actual act was everything I'd hoped my first time would be and more!" Her voice caught in her throat suddenly, her head dropping to gaze at the grass below once again. "It was when he said her name that I realized what had happened."

[NO!]

Miroku's heart stopped at the thought of Inuyasha saying Kikyo's name after being with Kagome. [Its not possible, he wouldn't do that. Not even Inuyasha's that stupid.] But even as he tried to deny it, he knew it was no use, the hanyou WAS that stupid sometimes. And this time he'd gone too far.

"Miroku?" Kagome's timid voice brought him out of his thoughts. "Gomen nasai."

"Nani?" the monk focused on the girl sitting curled up beside him. Her head hung low, shoulders slumped forward and shaking slightly with soft sobs. "Kagome, what do you have to be sorry for?"

"I just feel so... ashamed," Kagome looked up, showing her tear-streaked cheeks and guilt-ridden eyes. "I would never have done anything like that if I hadn't thought..."

"Hai, I know Kagome," Miroku reached over to wipe a few tears from her face, cupping her cheek in his hand. "You really love the baka, don't you?"

Kagome nodded, allowing him to move closer and hold her in a loose hug. All the hurt she'd thought she was finished with came back in a rush, causing her soft tears to become a flood and force her to lean on him for support. Holding her a bit more tightly, Miroku struggled with his own emotions over this new occurance, snapping out of it as she began speaking again.

"He used me Miroku! I would have never done that with just any guy but I've loved him for so long and I thought he'd finally realized it and come to love me too." A sob interrupted her before she continued. "He was so sweet and gentle and loving."

Lifting heartbroken eyes to his, Miroku struggled not to flinch at the pain he saw in her once-cheerful orbs. "He actually admitted his love! He kept repeating aishiteru and things like 'you belong to me' and... and... we were settling down to sleep when he sighed and pulled me tighter and... called out her name."

Anguished tears flowed from her eyes, her sobs muffled by his robes as he settled against the tree, holding her close and trying to soothe the poor girl in his arms. [What do you say to that? 'I'm sorry my best friend's an idiot?] Miroku held her tight and whispered soft re-assurances into her ear, promising she'd be ok and that everything would work out.

"I don't want to see him Miroku! I can't!" Kagome clung to his robes, "How can I travel with him after that?"

"Kagome, you know you can't give up on the quest for the jewel shards. You're the center of our group, you keep us together." Miroku sighed, "You're going to have to face him sometime, its inevitable."

"Why can't I hate him Miroku?" Kagome suddenly sat up and looked into his eyes again, "Shouldn't I? After what happened? I mean, I thought he was making love to me and he was just using my body in her place! And he called me a gaishou!"

[What the hell was he thinking?] Miroku's features hardened a bit, nodding at her, "I'll help you with him Kagome, just stick by my side and ignore him." Miroku looked up as the sound of a twig snapping nearby reached his ears. "He's coming."

Kagome slipped away and looked off toward the forest, away from the direction the grumbling was coming from. She stiffened as she heard Inuyasha stop a few feet away from them.

"When did you get back bitch?" he would have crossed his arms had Miroku's staff not suddenly hit him hard across the head just then.

"What the hell's your problem monk?" Inuyasha growled, already unnerved by the scent of Kagome and her tears that came from the baka with the staff.

"Just watch that mouth of yours Inuyasha!" Miroku helped Kagome stand and followed her towards the hut where the others were. "Don't follow us! We need to talk alone!"

"What the hell's your problem Miroku?" Inuyasha easily caught up with them, glowering at the monk but also trying to catch a good look at Kagome, who was looking away from them.

Miroku merely shook his head and sent him a glare, settling one hand on the small of Kagome's back to lead her away from the hanyou. To Inuyasha's surprise, Kagome didn't react to his touch as she normally did. Instead of giving a squeak and slapping him silly, she moved closer to him, sliding one arm around his waist, and resting her head against his shoulder. Miroku gave a sad little smile and another glare at the hanyou before moving his hand up to wrap around her shoulders and hold her close.

"Let's go sowewhere else Kagome," Miroku led her away from the hut and continued walking towards the Goshinboku with her settled against him quietly.

Her voice was soft, but audible to his ears as she spoke over her shoulder to Inuyasha telling him not to follow them. "Unless you want to eat dirt from here to the other side of the world, I'd stay away if I were you."

"But Kagome!" Inuyasha whined, surprised by her cold reply.

"Don't Inuyasha."

Walking away with Miroku, Kagome sighed and was relieved when they arrived at the familiar tree, sitting across one another on its upraised roots comfortably. Kagome was the one to break the silence between them, biting her lip nervously for a moment. "What am I going to do Miroku?"

"Kagome I know this is difficult for you, but I cannot help you if I don't fully understand what happened last night. I don't know how you ended up with Kouga or what happened this morning." Miroku took one of her hands in his and gently coaxed her into talking.

Twenty minutes later, they sat quietly, Kagome once again looking down at the floor guiltily. "And to top things off, Kouga's feeling really guilty over not saving me. He thinks it was the humans who took my virginity."

Miroku nodded, frowning for a moment before speaking, "Kagome, have you stopped to think of the consequences that last night's events might bring? You may end up with chil..."

"No," Kagome interrupted, "I went back to my time where there is a pill given to young women to prevent them from concieving. Its given by the University's nursing staff to girls like me, who've been violated, but it has to be taken the day after the event occurs, which is why I was in such a hurry to get home."

"Such marvels they have in your time Kagome, I'd love to see some of these things," Miroku sighed and stood. "Well, my advice to you would be, for the time being, to continue to allow Kouga to believe it was the humans who hurt you."

"But..."

"And also use this story with Inuyasha and the others." Miroku hurried to explain, "Inuyasha has no recollection of what occured last night Kagome, he was drinking sake with the villagers before he went to bed and we both know he has almost no tolerance for it. He was probably so drunk he saw you as Kikyo once again and thinks it was her he slept with."

"Okay," Kagome gulped past the knot in her throat at the thought. Feeling a familiar presence nearby, she sighed and crossed her arms, speaking calmly.

"SIT"

Inuyasha gave a yelp, falling head-first from the branch he'd hidden on and growling low in his throat as his head hit the dirt rather roughly. "Damned bitch."

Waiting impatiently for the spell to wear off, Kagome listened as he stood and took a step, turning with a glare. "I SAID SIT!"

To her delight, Inuyasha crashed to the ground with another growl, yelling up at her. "Fuck woman! What the hell's gotten into you?!"

"What'd I tell you about following us?" Miroku came over and shocked Inuyasha by grabbing the neck of his haori pulling him up far enough to glare into his eyes. "Did you listen in on our conversation?"

"No, I just got here," Inuyasha pushed himself away, wiping two 'sits' worth of dirt off his face. "Kaede was worried that you were out late so she sent me to find you."

"We'll go back now," Miroku watched Inuyasha frown angrily at Kagome, wondering what could make him look at her that way.

The reason was unfortunately quite obvious as she stretched her arms over her head, her shirt and sweatshirt raising a bit so a part of her stomach and waist peeked out. The site of her skin nearly matching her sweats too painful a sight for him, Miroku turned his head away sharply, turning back quickly enough when Kagome let out a squeak.

"Don't!" Kagome stepped away from Inuyasha, tripping on the root she'd sat on and flying over it to land flat on her back. A pained moan escaped her, followed by another squeak when she found her shirt being lifted by a hanyou squatting above her, a low growl emanating from his throat.

[What the hell happened to her?] Inuyasha ignored her struggling while he lifted her shirt higher to inspect her bruised body, surprised when a strange force suddenly pulled him away from her. As he tumbled to the ground where Miroku had been standing, he managed to see the monk re-adjusting the prayer beads on his hand and hurrying over to Kagome's side.

"Kagome daijobu?"

She nodded, curling up on her side with her eyes closed. Miroku whirled on the hanyou, who was lifting himself up and growling in anger. The monk's own eyes burned in rage as he yelled at his friend, "What are you thinking?! We told you to keep away for a reason!"

"You knew?!" Inuyasha stormed towards him, ready to punch his lights out when Kagome slammed him back to the ground. A string of curses were mumbled into the dirt as she sat him a good five times. [Bitch is going to break my back!]

"Come Kagome, let's get you inside," Miroku helped her up and held her close again while they walked away from the furious hanyou. "Don't even think of coming near the hut Inuyasha, I'm putting up wards tonight."

[What the hell's gotten into them?] Inuyasha sighed, forcing himself to relax as the spell wore off and the pain in his back lessened. [What could have happened to Kagome? I can't believe Kouga would hurt her or let her get hurt like that.]

Standing and heading towards the hut, he was dismayed to find the door covered in scrolls, Miroku obviously had kept his word and blocked him out. [What is his problem? And why's he holding her so close? He'd better not be getting any ideas!] With an angry glare at the hut, he turned and would have headed to the forest if the sound of soft sobbing hadn't stopped him in his tracks.

[What keeps making Kagome cry?] His anger faded suddenly, replaced by a feeling of hurt dejection at her confiding in the monk instead of himself. [What'd I do for her to avoid me? I always thought I was her best friend.] Moving onto the roof of the hut, he crawled over to the back where Kaede's small room was located. Kagome's soft crying was muffled, but his ears could hear it clearly and he wished he could do something to help.

Knowing he wouldn't be able to sleep while she was in so much pain, he decided against leaving and lay back, listening carefully in hopes she'd fall asleep soon, if only to help her stop thinking of whatever was bothering her.


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"Kagome!"

Shippo's excited shout alerted turned everyone's attention towards the door of the hut. Surely enough, the young girl stood wiping her sleepy eyes and yawning. "Ohyao minna-san," she managed a small smile and stretched again, excusing herself quickly as she headed towards the woods.

"I have to meet with Kouga-ku... um, with Kouga at the well, I'll be back in a while," she surprised them by grabbing Miroku's hand and pulling along with her. "You don't mind if I borrow him ne-?"

"Of course not Kagome-chan," Sango and Kaede stared wide-eyed at the girl ignoring Inuyasha and tugging the monk with her.

"Inuyasha what's this all about? What happened?" Shippo crossed his arms and glared at him, "She didn't even hug me!"

"Feh, that's not my problem kid!" Jumping up into the nearest tree and quickly followed their scent towards the well. He wasn't surprised to pick up on Kouga's scent too once he got close enough. Stopping at the sound of hushed voices, he settled onto a branch to watch them from afar.

"Get out here baka, I can hear you," Kouga glared in his direction, bringing a growl from the hanyou approaching them. "Don't get me started dog-turd, I already told you the only reason you live is Kagome."

"What the hell'd you do to her anyway?" Inuyasha crossed his arms and stood a bit away from them all.

"Kouga didn't do anything," Kagome interrupted, moving to stand between the two of them with her back to Inuyasha again, continuing the conversation they'd been in before he came. "I understand you have to stay with your pack Kouga, that's where you belong, just like I belong here with my pack. I just wanted to thank you again for..."

"Don't thank me!" Kouga's hands shot out to grab her arms, eyes looking into hers with that same pain and guilt she'd seen before. "You shouldn't thank me! Why can't you get that in your head Kagome?"

[Oh Kami why do I have to do this?] Kagome sniffled and stepped up to him, wrapping her arms around his neck as he moved to hold her. Her choked up voice was muffled by her arms and his neck a bit, but still loud enough for him and the others to hear. "You did save me. It could have been so much worse Kouga!"

Kagome sighed and relaxed against him, savoring the feel of his warmth surrounding her. [I feel so safe here with you. Why couldn't I have fallen in love with you Kouga? You're so sweet, you don't deserve this!] To everyone's surprise, she pulled back and kissed his cheek.

Grant you, this was no small peck. The kiss was soft, sweet, heart-felt and lasted long enough to convey her thanks and fondness for the wolf. As she stepped back and slid her hands down from his neck, she blushed and looked down at her tennis shoe digging into the ground.

Kouga felt as if his heart were soaring, a wide smile spreading on his face as he lifted her face up to kiss her forehead as he had before, if a bit more enthusiastically. He looked at the stunned houshi behind her and became serious again, "Watch over her well, I leave her under your care."

"Hai," Miroku nodded and released the breath he realized he'd been holding as the wolf hugged Kagome one more time, kissed the top of her head and was off.

[What the...?!] Inuyasha remained frozen in place, staring at the blushing girl who saddened at the wolf's departure. [She can't be in love with him! She just... CAN'T!]

Following them silently back towards the hut, he wondered when things had changed so drastically without him knowing. [When was the last time we saw Kouga? Last month? Was she this nice to him then?]

Kagome's voice brought him out of his thoughts, making him also realize that they were back at the village and with the others. "Could we go inside please? I really don't feel comfortable out here."

"Of course Kagome-chan," Sango followed them inside, watching Inuyasha follow carefully. "We removed the scrolls this morning."

"Thanks," he grumbled, stepping inside, surprised to find Kagome kneeling with her hands demurely set in her lap, her eyes focused on the fire pit in the center of the room.

Her voice was soft and insecure as she spoke, "I know you're all curious about what's going on and I want to apologize for my odd behavior lately. I've had to deal with a lot since the night before last, in a relatively short period of time."

She wavered for a moment, closing her eyes and taking a deep breath, exhaling slowly before she continued. "I'd really rather not talk about what happened and I beg you not to make me explain."

"If that's how you feel, of course we won't pressure you Kagome," Sango smiled, sending Miroku a look that showed she expected to hear about it later.

He shook his head sadly and focused on Kagome again, "Would you like to rest for a little while? You didn't get much sleep last night."

"Iie, I'll be ok," Kagome yawned and stretched again, having not seemed to remember the last time she had done so.

"Damnit wench we're not going anywhere until you explain what happened!" Inuyasha exploded, once again infuriated by the sight of her bruised skin. "What the fuck were you doing with Kouga? And why are you black and blue all over?"

"None of your damned business Inuyasha!" Kagome snapped, standing and grabbing her bag, which she'd been relieved to see they'd brought.

"What?!" Inuyasha jumped to his feet and stomped over to stand in front of her, hands on his hips and a feral growl rising in his throat. "What'd you just say?"

Kagome threw her head back, eyes sparkling in her own anger, "I said it was none of your damned business and I meant it."

Caught by surprise, she yelped when her arms were roughly grabbed and she was lifted off her feet with a slight shake. "What the hell's gotten into you?"

A blow to his head was the only reply he got, forcing him to let her go and whirl to the monk behind him angrily. Miroku's anger was at the same level as his and he stood his ground, glaring right back at the furious hanyou. "Don't you dare touch Kagome that way again baka!"

"Since when do you order me around?" Inuyasha growled, "Besides we all know I'd never hurt the bitch."

"Don't call me that!" Kagome smacked him on the head, not flinching when he turned with a growl towards her. "My name's Kagome, use anything other than that to refer to me and I'll make you regret it!"

"What the hell's your problem? Upset because your lover had to leave you here?" he was growling at the thought of her sleeping wtih Kouga, although the change in her scent made it obvious what had happened between them.

"SIT!"

Kagome glared down at the boy by her feet, tears swimming in her eyes once again at the memory of him calling her a gaishou a few days earlier. "Kouga is just a friend! He saved me from those humans you buried after they attacked me!"

"You were attacked?" Shippo's eyes widened as he looked her over for any injuries.

"Hai, but I'm fine," Kagome turned to the doorway, "Thank you for everything Kaede-sama, we'll see you soon."

"Let's get going," Miroku stepped on Inuyasha's back as he followed Kagome outside, smirking at the enraged hanyou.

As Sango and Shippo followed, carefully avoiding him, they hurried to catch up, ignoring his cursing as Kagome sat him again from afar. [She really is out to break me] Inuyasha growled, waiting for the spell to go away. [I'll find out soon enough what happened, just watch me!]

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Once again, I'm apologizing for the delay in updating, my computer has a virus, I've had mid-terms, lost a job and my car in the past month so I haven't been able to write as much as I wanted to, not to mention I'm in the process of writing about five stories, but this just moved up a notch on my priorities and I promise to have the next chapter up by Friday.

Gomen nasai! Ja matta!