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I wish I had more reviewers, but oh well there isn't anything I can do about it. Oh well Dragon Man 180 you're still my favorite person in the world as long as you keep reviewing!!! ^_^ I've decided that each emotion will have it's own song that best fits it. The lords will be able to hear the songs. If the songs happen to have a 'future' reference please live with it, I know that they wouldn't know what it would mean!

"Talking."

'Thinking.'

Lyrics

Umbri's Memories

PLEASE R&R

Loneliness and Longing

Normal P.O.V.

The first thing Intaisho, Maseru, and Haru noticed when they entered the chamber was how suddenly their emotions went wild. Never had they ever felt so utterly alone and lost. The surprise of the emotional pain caused each of them to gasp. It only lasted for a couple of minutes but that was more than enough for the lords.

"What was that?" Intaisho asked. He didn't even realize he had said it out loud.

"I told you that you would feel some of what Umbri feels." Pride answered irritability. 'Don't they listen to a word that I say?'

"Was what we just felt the most lonely Umbri's ever been?" questioned Haru.

"What you just felt was the loneliness and longing that Umbri feels on a daily bases," sighed Pride. "I guess that I'm so used to feeling it that it didn't really make a difference to me when I passed over."

"She feels this every day?" asked Maseru.

"Yes, on some certain days it's a whole lot worse. If you stick around Umbri long enough you'll find out when those days are. But don't actually expect to talk to her those days; normally she'll go off on her own on them. No one dares to bug her then, she's extremely temperamental on them. Even her "admirers" leave her alone those days."

"But why?" said Intaisho.

"It's not my place to tell, besides you're smart you should be able to figure it out eventually. Now come on we must find Loneliness and Longing."

For the first time the lords surveyed their surroundings, it was very dark, and they seemed to be in a maze.

"Loneliness and longing will most likely be at the end of the maze." continued Pride.

"How will we know if we're going the right way?" Maseru asked.

"Let the loneliness and longing in your hearts guide you." Pride answered.

And with that they started walking into the maze. Suddenly they were hit with a handful of Umbri's memories. They saw them as if they were actually standing right by her side when they were originally happening.

Umbri was standing on the edge of a town. She looked about thirteen. She cast a spell on herself to make her look human and walked in. as she walked by some children a little boy invited her to play a game with them, she looked cautious but joined anyway. They played for hours, and when it was time to go the boy's parents that invited her to play with them asked her where she lived. She said nowhere and the boy's parents invited her to stay with them. Intaisho, Maseru, and Haru felt her joy at the invitation. She stayed at their house for about a week. One day when Umbri was out on a walk a group of bandits came to town, they separated the men, women, and children. When Umbri came back she saw the bandits about to kill the boy that she had been living with. Her eyes flashed from crimson red to pure black then back to red again. She dropped her concealment spell and charged the bandits. Intaisho, Maseru, and Haru felt her anger and blood lust. She killed every single one of them. When her rage subsided she turned to the boy and his family and started to walk towards them. They screamed not to hurt them and called her a monster. Then they started to throw rocks at her. They felt her confusion. Soon other villagers joined in with the throwing of rocks and insults. It was obvious that she did not want to hurt them, even if they were doing this to her; she let them chase her out of the village. When she was deep into the forest she stopped running and asked herself, "What did I do wrong?" they felt longing and loneliness.

Playground school bell rings again.

Rain clouds come to play again.

"WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?!?!?!" yelled Intaisho.

"I told you that you would be going through some of her memories, did I not?" said Pride angrily.

"So you did, but you didn't tell us that we would feel what she felt during them."

"I did to."

"No you didn't."

"Did to."

"Did not."

"Did to."

"Did not."

"Intaisho!" Maseru said as he elbowed him. "She's Umbri's Pride remember? She won't admit that she forgot."

"I DIDN'T FORGET!!!!" yelled Pride.

"Yes we believe you." Maseru said.

"Like I'm that stupid."

"Just drop it for now." Haru said.

"Fine." sighed Umbri. "Come, if we keep on running into more memories that means we're going the right way." With that they all started walking again.

"What's with the music?" Haru suddenly asked.

"Each chamber has it's own song that best describes it, when Umbri is alone often times she'll sing to let out some of her feelings, so it's only natural that her emotions do the same thing in side their chambers." answered Pride.

They continued to walk.

Umbri looked about five years old. She was standing in front of a demon. It's body, cloths and all were completely black so you couldn't tell if it was male or female, and voiced changed to sound like a males and females. It was obvious that Umbri did not want them to know who this really was. It started yelling at her for being too dependent on others. She said that she was lonely. The figure then started to beat her and tell her that she did not know what real loneliness is but for the next five years she would. They felt scared and a sense of forbidding. After 'It' was done beating her it dragged Umbri by her hair, outside and into a small stone room. Its width was small about the size of a small prison, but its height was tall, there was a small window at the top. 'It' chained her to the wall inside; the chain was long, almost as long as the structure itself. Once she was chained the figure told her that if she ever came out before it came to get her that it would give her a beating she would never forget, 'it' then closed and locked the stone door. Umbri, using her wings flew up to the top of her 'prison' to look out the window, only to find out that the chain was too just short for her to get to see out the window. They felt sadness, disbelief, and anger. For the next five years she was kept in there, the stonewalls made the winters extra cold and summers extra hot. Food and water was thrown to her from the window every so often, she never saw who did it, and no one ever came to see her. They felt loneliness and longing.

And they kept walking.

Has no one told you she's not breathing?

Hello I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to.

Hello.

Umbri looked about fourteen years old. Umbri watched as a family celebrated the return for their son, he had just come back from war. They felt jealously and longing. Umbri saw how much he was missed and loved. He had people that would be sad and cry if he died. They once again felt jealously and longing. When the family noticed Umbri they tried to chase her off their land, and she let them. When they stopped chasing her she looked back at them. They were once again partying as if nothing had happened. They felt loneliness and longing.

And they kept walking.

If I smile and don't believe.

Soon I know I'll wake from this dream.

Umbri looked about twelve. She was playing with another child, a female demon pup. When it's mother came she saw Umbri and snatched her pup away from her, she then kicked Umbri into a nearby tree. They felt Umbri's pain, sadness, and confusion. "Don't play with things like that. They're not in our class." "But Kaasan, "No buts she's below you." "But why?" the mother just looked at her pup, she realized she didn't have an answer. "It's just the way things are." "Oh," the pup said sadly. Umbri had just been standing by the tree watching them. The mother demon started dragging her pup away, but before she could bring her pup into the forest the pup tuned around to Umbri. "Bye." She said sadly. "Bye." Umbri whispered back. With that the young pup was dragged away. And they felt loneliness and longing.

And they kept on walking.

Don't try to fix me I'm not broken.

Umbri looked about fifteen. She was sitting on top of a cliff watching the sunset. "Rico." she whispered. "I never miss a sunset, do you still watch them too? From where ever you are now?" They felt loneliness and longing

And they kept walking.

Hello I'm the lie living for you so you can hide.

They saw many other memories of Umbri in similar situations, and always the last thing they felt was loneliness and longing. Until finally they came to the end of the maze, but just as they were about to step out they caught one final memory.

Umbri looked about seven. They watched as Umbri asked the thing they had seen earlier beating her ask why everyone hated her and said she didn't belong with them. The figure said it's because her blood is so dirty and evil that everybody hates her and doesn't want her around. That no body wants someone who has a dark heart such as hers hanging around them. They felt her sadness. She then asked it where she belonged. And it said, "No where, something like you has no place in this world. The only reason you live is because I need you to serve me but you're even below servants, lower then slaves. You and your dirty blood will be accepted by no one but me." They felt loneliness and longing. They also felt utterly alone.

And they kept walking.

Don't cry.

After they stepped out of the maze they saw Loneliness and Longing. She looked just like Umbri except her eyes were dark and dull. (Since loneliness and longing are emotions that are close together they only have one form, they just have two names, same goes for any other emotion that has two different names)

Pride turned to Intaisho, Maseru, and Haru. "Don't say anything, I can do this myself you'll just make things worse." She then turned back to Loneliness and Longing.

"Loneliness, Longing." Pride greeted. (I'm calling Loneliness and Longing LL from now on it's annoying to keep writing it out.)

"Pride." LL greeted back. Her voice sounded… well it sounded longing. (I wonder why???)

"You know what I need to do right."

"I do."

"Are you going to let me absorb you the nice way or the hard way?"

"Why do you keep doing this? You're not happy either. Umbri almost never stands up for herself unless someone really pisses her off, she's cornered like an animal, or if she feels like she needs to prove herself. You're always taking a beating. Can't you see Umbri doesn't want to wake up from this? We're all happy where we are at the moment. Right now all I hold are the times when Umbri wasn't lonely or longing for something. And I know all you hold at the moment are memories of when Umbri's pride was quenched. But the second we're all absorbed into the heart all the memories will come back and we'll all be unhappy again. Tell me why do you bother?"

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping.

"Because we aren't meant to be separated, and Umbri isn't meant to be stuck in here forever. We don't belong here."

"We don't belong anywhere."

"True, right now we don't, but one day we will, I just know it. So what do you say?"

"Like I have a choice in the matter, we all know you're stronger then me. Just hurry up and do it so we can once again get on with our miserable existence." grumbled LL.

"It's been a pleasure like always." and with that said Pride walked up to LL and embraced her. Slowly LL turned into a dark purple gas and flew inside Pride. Pride's appearance changed slightly, she looked more tired and her eyes got a bit duller.

Hello I'm still here.

All that's left of yesterday.

"Well that was easier then I thought. Come on I know where the door that leads out of here is, and I know where we're going next."

"Where?" Intaisho asked.

Pride just ignored him and kept on walking.

"Where are we going next?" Intaisho tried again.

Pride suddenly pushed in a tile and the wall opposite of them collapsed to revile a door. Pride walked up to it and was about to enter it when Intaisho pulled her back.

"Where are we going next?" he yelled.

"Paranoia."

And with that Pride walked through the door and was shortly followed by Intaisho, Maseru, and Haru.

End Chapter

Next Chapter: Paranoia

Wow this chapter was longer then I expected. Sorry it took so long to update, the DVDs I ordered came and I have been watching them for the past three days. Hope you liked this chapter, I think it's pretty good, not very happy. Don't expect any of the next few chapters to put warm and fuzzys into your hearts because they're not, but it'll get happy again eventually I promise!!! ^_^