InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Heart Says in Silence, What it Fears to Say Aloud ❯ Just Hate How it Sounds ( Chapter 2 )

Title: The Heart Says in Silence, What it Fears to Speak Aloud

Chapter Two: I Just Hate How It Sounds

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Inu-yasha stared at the sun as it rose in the distance. He watched as Kami painted the sky with miraculous colors. There was orange, pink, yellow, and some red; each color vibrant and lovely, just like his Kagome.

He sighed and closed his eyes, since when had she been `his Kagome?'

I've never been man…er demon enough to let her know how I…………it doesn't matter anymore. She's gone and I promised my life to Kikyo.

Restless tonight, because I wasted the light

Between all these times I drew a really thin line

It's nothing I planned

Not that I can, but you should be mine across that line

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away

For one thing, just for one thing

If I sorted it out

If I knew all about, this one thing

Wouldn't that be something?

I promise I might, might walk on by

Maybe next time, but not this time

Even though I know, I don't want to know

Yeah I guess I know, I just hate how it sounds

If Inu-yasha had met Kagome first then maybe they would have had a chance, but the maybes were just wishful thinking. Maybe things could have gone differently, but they didn't.

He couldn't let himself fall anymore in love with Kagome, not with Kikyo around.

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Kagome opened her eyes and when she saw that she was in the same cave as the one she went to sleep in, she wished she could go back to sleep and make it all a dream again.

The miko couldn't fight the sense of awakening any longer and sat up on the mat. She ran her hands through her hair and was disgusted with how it felt. She knew she probably didn't look much better than her hair felt and sighed.

I must look horrible.

"Are you hungry, Kagome?" the wolf-leader stood before her a concerned expression plagued his features, his feelings for her evident.

She nodded and managed a weak smile. Koga knew it was there to make him feel better alone and smiled at her attempt for him.

"I'll go your food for you."

While she'd been at the den Koga hadn't advanced on her at all. He'd made her feel comfortable and she was grateful for him more now then ever.

Maybe she should have fallen in love with the wolf-leader instead. If she could choose who to love it would've been him. With Koga she wouldn't have to question his feelings in the slightest.

Later on he'd brought her, her food and stayed with her till she had finished and took the `tray' from her, leaving her to her thoughts.

Loving Inu-yasha was the easiest thing to do but at the same time it killed her.

Kagome raised her knees to her chest and laid her arms and head upon them. She couldn't leave because of him. Kagome still had Miroku…, Sango,……and poor little Shippo. How could she leave him after all that time of being there for him, loving him?

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away

For one thing, just for one thing

If I sorted it out

If I knew all about, this one thing

Wouldn't that be something?

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away

For one thing, just for one thing

If I sorted it out

If I knew all about, this one thing

Wouldn't that be something?

Even though I know

I don't want to know

Yeah I guess I know, I just hate how it sounds

Kagome closed her eyes and let two tears leave her eyes as she prepared to go back; back to where she was……needed.

Koga came up to her as she was about to go find him.

"Where are you going?" he said in a gruff but yet comforting manner.

Kagome sighed, looked to the ground, and twiddled her fingers.

"You're going back to him?"

The miko said nothing and the wolf-leader took that as a `yes' to his question.

"He hurt you Kagome and you're going back to him!"

She shook her head and looked up at him with unshed tears.

"I'm not going back for him. Shippo and the others they still need me, whether or not he does."

"When you came to me, I knew he had hurt you. I wouldn't do that."

She smiled up at him, wishing more and more that she could love him.

"I know."

Kagome's arms wrapped around him, once the shock receded he too embraced her, inhaling her scent.

"I'll be here for you, Kagome."

She nodded into his chest and with that they parted.

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Inu-yasha had been silent ever since his talk with Miroku. His thoughts consumed with the image of a laughing girl that came five hundred and fifty years too late.

The hanyou had tried to find a way to make a relationship work but it couldn't. He had to die with Kikyo and Kagome couldn't be in a relationship like that.

Even though I know

I don't want to know

Yeah I guess I know, I just hate how it sounds

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away

For one thing, just for one thing

If I sorted it out

If I knew all about, this one thing

Wouldn't that be something?

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Kagome made her way to the village with a sad yet hopeful song in her heart. Even if the one she loved didn't need her; didn't want her, she was still needed.

There were too many people, too many things she had to do, she couldn't blow it all over one thing, no matter how much it pained her.

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away

For one thing, just for one thing

If I sorted it out

If I knew all about, this one thing

Wouldn't that be something?

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away

For one thing, just for one thing

If I sorted it out

If I knew all about, this one thing

Wouldn't that be something?

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A/N: The song in bold is "One Thing" by Finger Eleven.