InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Heart Says in Silence, What it Fears to Say Aloud ❯ Vinidicated ( Chapter 4 )
Title: The Heart Says in Silence, What it Fears to Say Aloud
Chapter Four:Vindicated
Kagome looked up to the night sky, watching the stars; little glimmers of hope in the darkness. Her knees to her chest and her heart heavy she sighed.
Things have never seemed so difficult. If only I could trust that Inu-yasha cared but it's too late for that now, isn't it? I have to give up on him. I need to *gulp* look for better things. Oh who are you kidding Kagome? No one's better than him!
Hope dangles on string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of which has caught my eye
And roped me in so mesmerizing
So hypnotizing
I am captivated
Said demon came beside her, with his legs on top of the other and his hands the same way, he sat Indian-style.
Kagome had been so distant from him ever since she'd been back. After she'd told him not to ask about the wolf-leader he'd wondered what had happened at the wolf den.
Even though the miko was right next to him, she might as well have been miles away. So many things the hanyou had wanted to ask her but didn't say anything because he chose not to for no real reason at all.
Kagome hasn't said a word to me since then. I wonder what she's thinking about.
"Aren't you going to eat?"
The miko shook her head at the hanyou and dropped her gaze from him to her hands.
"I don't feel like eating right now."
"Why didn't you go back to your own time?" he didn't mean it to come out so roughly but of course it did, making the miko madder than he wished.
"Oh, I'm sorry I didn't know I was supposed to do whatever you wanted me to do?! Maybe I should just go away and never come back, than you could look for the jewel shards without me holding you back!"
I am vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right, I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning u p so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
"I never said that!"
"Wasn't that what you wanted? For me to go?"
Her words were true, he had told her to go, through the silence between them after Kagome had seen him with Kikyo; he'd told her whom he'd chosen.
But the words he that went through the sad atmosphere weren't the words he'd spoken to her in silence, when everyone was asleep he'd be by her side and tell her things that couldn't go past his lips during the day.
His eyes told her things that were entirely contradictory from what she'd seen in the golden orbs earlier that week.
"Should I go, Inu-yasha, should I leave?"
The moments passed by them so slowly that one couldn't be sure if years had passed or minutes.
So clear like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated
So motivated
I am certain now that I am……
"I can't leave Shippo, but if it's what you want you won't have to see me anymore."
Inu-yasha let the depth of her words sink through him. If she left him alone could he truly go on? He needed Kagome with him of that much he was sure, but could he keep her with him knowing that in the end he was promised to be with the dead miko and not her?
I am vindicated
I am selfish, I am wrong
I am right, I swearI'mright
Swore I knew all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
The hanyou shook his head and got the food Sango had prepared for them all. He handed it to her and told her, "You have to eat something if we're going to continue tomorrow."
Words that were unsaid made their way to the miko's ear and she understood.
`Stay with me'
It wouldn't change anything as of yet, she couldn't be certain how he meant it and couldn't know how he truly felt but at least now she knew that he wanted her to stay, if only while anyway.
So turnup the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my fingertips
Trace the moment
Fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'll be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
Oh, Inu-yasha don't you know? I'd do whatever you asked of me; anything. I can't compare to Kikyo, but maybe one day I won't have to. I'm falling even more in love with you Inu-yasha. Can you imagine how far I'm already in?
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
Kagome, I don't what's going happen anymore but don't leave me, not now. I know how much it kills you to see her and that I should let you go, but I need you too much.
I am vindicated
I am selfish, I am wrong
I am right, I swear I'm right
Swore I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in myself the things you swore you saw yourself
Kagome nodded and accepted the fish and rice.
"I'll eat it."
Things were not finished between them, not yet by a long shot but at least now they knew they had to be together.
Inu-yasha's eyes watched the girl as she prepared for bed, her sleeping bag sprawled out for her and Shippo.
They young kitsune sat by Kagome as she brushed her hair before bed and rattled on to her about how much he had missed her while she away. The girl told him that she wouldn't leave him again and that she'd missed him as well.
The two settled into bed and let the stars wash over them, with the hanyou to watch over the pair and the demon slayer and monk who weren't far off.
He sat on the branch of a high tree, a slight smile on his face as he looked down `her.'
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
A/N: Hey I just wanted to thank Pinayazngrl, FushigiYugiFan80, Shinobi-chan, Anime-Devil-101, FirePrincessTheOneAndOnly, and PurpleFr0g for their reviews. I really appreciate them. Just keep it up guys! ^_^ The song used in bold italics is "Vindicated" by Dashboard Confessional.