InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Heart Says in Silence, What it Fears to Say Aloud ❯ Frailty ( Chapter 13 )

Title: The Heart Says in Silence, What it Fears to Say Aloud

Chapter Thirteen: Frailty

The silver-haired hanyou sat in the high branches of the tree. The comforting glow of the sun had long gone and without the gentle miko there was nothing left to relieve his heart.

Inu-yasha went to sit in Goshinboku every night for the past week or so to wait for Kagome should she come in the night. But she still hadn't come after a fortnight!

He wanted to go through the well and bring her back, he normally would have by now but something inside informed the headstrong half-demon that he shouldn't go, that nothing good would greet him in the modern land.

It unnerved him almost to the point of crumbling why the miko hadn't returned but being the stubborn hanyou he was he didn't go to her for his own reasons.

Then it hit him like smack in the face, that scent of lavender and roses, it enthralled him and frightened him (though he would never admit it) all at the same time.

Before the hanyou knew what he was doing he ran to the well, feet hitting the earth rapidly and the wind carrying to his destination, it all seemed second nature to him. Then he was right before her as she sat on the well.

Confusion marred his brow as he walked only to a foot before her but he couldn't help but happy at the same time as he took in her presence.

"What'cha doing sittin' around, wench?" he smiled.

Apparently she hadn't noted his arrival because her head jerked up at the sound of his voice, for an instant she appeared confused but within another she was smiling at him, easing his confusion.

Kagome stood up to face him and he took her bag before grabbing a few strands of hair and sniffing him, he took into recognition the slighter alteration of her scent.

It was faint but he could smell the trace of another person on her, distinctly male but not her brother or grandfather.

The hanyou couldn't help the possessiveness that came over him without a moment's hesitation.

Kagome's smile faltered when she noticed that he could smell Katsuro on her and the sadness that was in his eyes made her ashamed.

I should've taken a shower before coming here. I should've remembered how he acts when I'm with Koga so why would he be fine with it if I was with someone else in my own time?

"Who the hell where you with wench?" his tone demanding and unsettling, she couldn't help but want to crawl under a rock `til he left.

I wish I hadn't - - Wait! He's the one who can't make up his mind, it's not my fault if I start seeing someone else, and he wasn't even seeing me to begin with.

Kagome's anger rushed to her head and she pushed at him with her finger, "What does it matter who I was with? Why would you care?"

"Just tell me who he is, wench, so I can cut him to pieces with my Tetsusaiga." He said through his teeth, trying to keep from screaming at the thought of her with someone else.

"You can't hurt him, Inu-yasha."

"Is he that important to you?!" His voice didn't show it but his heart begged that she said no and hoped that he didn't mean nearly as much to her as he did.

"I like him, ok. Katsuro is really nice to me and he likes me."

"Like hell I'm ever letting you go back there again!"

He put her book bag on the ground and readied Tetsusaiga to destroy the well, the one thing that separated them.

She ran in front of the sword, "No, you can't do that Inu-yasha, it's my home."

"If you go back there, I'm going with you."

"I have to go back sometime, Inu-yasha, I live there."

He sheathed Tetsusaiga and put his hands in his sleeves, "I'll go with you."

She knew that she couldn't change his mind and at the same time he couldn't change hers.

"Fine, but I'm going to see him again."

"Like fucking hell, if you see him again I'll…."

"I can date whoever I want Inu-yasha."

A pang fill his heart and he could feel it begin to crumble, but he shook her moon-light colored hair and took her bag onto his back.

The hanyou walked to the path that led back to the village where Miroku, Sango, and Shippo were.

"Come on, wench."

"Didn't you hear me, Inu-yasha?"

She started towards him and looked into the molten fire of his eyes.

"You know better, Kagome." He whispered, and in that moment Kagome didn't know what she was supposed to do, she wanted to see Katsuro but….Inu-Yasha…..

"Come on, wench." He called to her and she realized that he was further up then she was.

The miko ran up to him and wished her thoughts away at least for the time being and Katsuro was forgotten….momentarily.

"So you went out with this Katsuro person, Kagome?" Sango questioned as she washed herself with the scented Vanilla body wash that the miko had brought to her.

Kagome sighed and laid her back against the side of the hot spring, "I don't know, I liked him when I was back in the modern era, but when I'm here……."

"With Inu-yasha?" the youkai exterminator questioned.

The miko nodded and closed her eyes, "When I'm with him everything's different, even if I we're fighting I can't help but know I love him."

"But?"

"We're not happy together; at least if I'm with Katsuro things will be different."

"Do you love him?"

Kagome shook her head and worked the shampoo into a thick lather, "I've only known him for two weeks."

"Inu-yasha won't like it."

Kagome nodded towards Sango and handed her the blue shampoo bottle.

"I know but I can't go on this way. He doesn't love me, not the way I want."

Sango shook her head and touched her friend's shoulder, "He loves you Kagome, I'm sure of it."

"You, Miroku, and Shippo may see it but I don't. There's no security in my feelings for him."

A tear left the young miko's eye and she rinsed her ebony locks, it was done.

"So what will you do about this new enemy of yours Inu-yasha?" the monk spoke up from across the hanyou, as he stood guard for the two girls as they left to bathe. Inu-yasha was at a suitable distance from them so he couldn't hear them but close enough to get to them in only a matter of seconds.

"What new enemy have I got lecher?"

"It seems our Kagome has found another adversary for you, in the form of a male from her time."

"Keh, it means nothing."

The monk sat next to him and sighed at the stubbornness of the hanyou.

"Surely you cannot think that you can continue on this way and that Kagome will stick around forever?"

Miroku's words unsettled Inu-yasha, they were his fear; his nightmare to come.

"I've told you before Inu-yasha, Kagome is a wonderful girl but even she cannot wait for a thing that seems like it will never come."

"She's not going anywhere." He spoke gruffly, apparently taking his friend's words as a threat.

"So you will tell her?"

The half-demon said nothing and looked to the far off edge of the forest.

The prayers that could never be heard lay deep within his heart, along with the dreams of so many others who couldn't say the things that would set them free, free from the chains of uncertainty.

"And my fears of acceptance are what keep me awake at night. The thought of him with you is what keeps my blood burning. My loving you is what lets me know that I'm alive." ~Enchanted Dreamer from a hanyou's perspective.

"And love is the noblest frailty of the mind."~ John Dryden.

A/N:

Things are going to be pretty bumpy and scary later so enjoy the confusion while it lasts.

There will also be a few lemons later but I will only put the acceptable versions up on fanfiction.net, however I will make them available to you somehow. I'll let you know how it'll work.

I'm so happy for the reviews I've gotten! More will be much appreciated!