InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Heart Says in Silence, What it Fears to Say Aloud ❯ Realizations ( Chapter 20 )
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Title: The Heart Says in Silence, What it Fears to Say Aloud
Chapter Twenty: You May Not See It But I Do…
The sun rose slowly, telling the hanyou that soon would be the time to fall back to the ground, their friends, and the reality that maybe last night hadn't changed anything.
The heavenly handful in his arms stirred as though sensing the same pains he'd had mere moments ago.
“Inu-yasha, how long have you been up?”
“Not long.”
Kagome turned to her side, as she'd originally been the night before. She inhaled the distinct yet wholly wonderful scent that was Inu-yasha, breathing it in as though it would be the last chance she'd get.
“Things will be the same when we get down.”
There it was done, he'd said what they both feared and it didn't make it any better when it was out in the open.
“They don't have to be.” She whispered.
“Keh” it wasn't spoken in a gruff or angry tone, it was defeated and lost.
Kagome's head lay cradled under the hanyou's chin, “Do you want things to stay the same?”
The fire inside her marvelous soul was slowly dying as though fearing he would say “yes.” Yes, he wanted to forget the moments they'd shared. Inu-yasha wanted to forget about saving Kagome from Katsuro. He wanted to pretend that last night—that the kiss had never happened, and that maybe—just maybe he'd be better off without her.
“Keh, are you that stupid, wench?” the hanyou spoke angrily as though she should already know the answer, as though she were deliberately goading him.
“Can we go back down now?” Kagome whispered, it would be better to be hurt now then to wait for it, knowing it was coming would make the pain that much worse.
“I don't want things to be the same! Dammit it to hell, Kagome, how can you think that?” his grip on her arm tightened, and surely it would leave a noticeable bruise. Inu-yasha noticed this and let go hastily.
“Kikyo…you still…feel for her.”
He groaned and leaned back against the tree with his hands formed into fists against his forehead, “Things are different, I told you, Kagome.”
“You say it, but you don't mean it.”
Inu-yasha's face broke away from his hands as he stared at Kagome as though she were an object on display in a museum.
“How in the hell do I not mean it, wench?”
“Things aren't going to change, Inu-yasha. You aren't going to change not for anyone.”
“What do you want me to prove? I'm here with you aren't I?” he made her look at him, see him, anything to make her notice that he was hers.
Inu-yasha's mouth dominated hers, one hand on her back and the other on the base of her head making it impossible for her lips to stray from his. The hanyou's kisses bordered on cruel, they were powerful—overwhelming and inescapable.
Kagome couldn't resist him but with each kiss he gave she couldn't help but wonder if she was right, if one day he would realize that she wasn't what he wanted.
After all the time they'd spent together and after all they'd been through how could she not wonder or worry if the next time he saw his first love would be that last time that Inu-yasha would return to her.
But with each kiss Inu-yasha gave Kagome feverishly gave back, clinging to him as though he were the only thing that could keep her from breaking, and maybe if she let go she wouldn't come back.
“Kagome, will you...let me…. stay with you?”
The same words she'd said to him once before, when for a moment she'd fooled herself into thinking she could live without him. Like countless times before, Kagome thought given time she could breakaway from the hanyou's thrall. She'd asked Inu-yasha if he would allow her to be with him, he'd said “yes.”
Kagome smiled as a though the sun would rise from her mouth, it was brilliant; radiant—anything awe inspiring.