InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Nature of Change ❯ The Essay ( Chapter 8 )

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Higurashi Kagome
Philosophy II, T-Th Period 2
Professor Stephens
Personal Journal Assignment


The Nature of Change


There comes a time in every human's life that we seek out solace and comfort in another. Regardless, we cannot deny our baser instincts, the need to connect to other human beings. So between  the need to survive, and the importance of our emotional comforts, we must find the middle between nature and nurture to continue to exist.
Three questions were presented in accordance to the requirements of this personal assignment. The first that shall be discussed is “What has affected me to have me make the choices I have?”. The situation that brings on the relevance of the question is the matter of a wish. A desire to escape fear and turmoil amidst a dark and tumultuous time, when the thought of being trapped alone was more than could be bared. The choice that was made was driven by survival and the loss was tantamount to everything I held sacred; in essence, my first love was gone from my life thereafter.
The second question presented was how it was to affect this universe and the alternate universes we may reside in. There are endless possibilities from the choice I had made. In some universe, I may have met that man again, or I may have given up the will to live, or I may have never made that wish altogether. It has affected my present reality in such a fashion that I would have continued in an emotional stasis unless something else had acted as a catalyst to induce a want to emerge from within my own self-induced prison.
Lastly, “what is the nature of man for us to have come to those decisions?”. To my own opinion, it all comes down to the human  heart, and the balance within between fear and strength of will. What had caused such weakness, whether instinctively driven or emotionally driven, is an answer lost to me. From what I feel, it was perhaps in essence both; being a creature both borne from the need to be social and as in personality a human that despised being alone, I succumbed to my fears of the unknown.
It was noted to dissect the choices we would have made if we could have changed it. Before, I would have said I wished I could have been stronger, purer, or more willful. Now I say I wish to change it not, for then I would not be who I am today. The perfectly imperfect human being. If I had made another decision, I would not have started a new  journey with an open heart with another being who may or may not stay by my side. That does not diminish the experience, rather enhances it with the promise of a new sort of unknown... pregnant with the possibility of something greater and fantastical if I allow it to happen.
It is in my opinion, no higher or lower than any others, but rather a neutral party speaking from a personal experience vast amongst billions of experiences from the collective whole... If I was to chase after an alternate universe, with millions of alternate personalities and probabilities, I would never live in my own universe to the fullest extent and instead be caught forever in the cycle of...

A/n: I almost feel like this is the last chapter, but I may update it once or twice more... If this is the case, hooray! If not... well, thank you for enjoying this little experiment with me. I had something I had wanted to say, and I hope I said it. From my heart to your own readers, I hope you took a message from this story as I brought it forth from the bottom of my heart. I love you all.



Peace and Light,

Blessed be

Luna-