InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Ninja ❯ Sesshoumaru's Inner Turmoil ( Chapter 15 )

CHAPTER 15: Sesshoumaru's Inner Turmoil

 

Kai took Rin's hand in her own and led her back towards the camp she shared with Sesshoumaru and Jaken after saying goodnight to the arguing boys. Shippo walked along beside them until he reached Kaede's hut. His little face got sad as he asked “Will Kagome ever come back?”

 

“Yes, Shippo” replied Kai. “We'll be sure to get her back. I'm sure she misses you and is trying everything on her end of the well to get to you.” This made him feel better and he said goodnight to Rin and Kai with a smile and ran into the hut.

 

At the campsite, Jaken was busy preparing his lord's things for the next day when they were supposed to leave. He had his body armour cleaned, polished and repaired where needed. Sesshoumaru took care of his own swords and forbade Jaken to ever touch them. They were now resting in their sheaths beside him as he sat on a blanket by the fire watching as Kai and Rin approached. His outer haori coat and obi were off and folded neatly under the swords. He looked very casual sitting there in only his shatsu and hakama pants, his tail wrapped loosely over his shoulder. Kai gave a dreamy sigh just looking at him.

 

“Tell me a story” begged Rin. Kai looked to Sesshoumaru for permission and he gave a small nod.

 

Kai tucked Rin into her blankets by the fire and began to tell her one of her favourite stories, Beauty and the Beast. The little girl was fascinated by the story but soon fell asleep before it was finished. Jaken had been listening intently as well and found him self disappointed when Kai stopped. Don't tell me I'm starting to like the human. No, no, no he berated himself.

 

Kai got up to leave and found herself standing in front of Sesshoumaru whom had moved so quietly she hadn't heard him get up. “Guess I'll have to finish the story another time, with your permission my lord demon of course”, she said bowing. When she stood upright again she found him looking at her. She could not read his expression but knew he was thinking something so she just stood there looking back into his smouldering gold eyes waiting for him to finish, twisting her head slightly to the right.

 

Although nothing in Sesshoumaru's face or posture showed anything, inside he was having quite the heated argument with himself. When Kai had been telling her story to Rin, Sesshoumaru had been paying attention to Kai. He had not really listened to the story itself, but rather her voice. It had a nice quality to it and soon he was feeling quite comfortable as if he could listen to her voice for the rest of his long life. Her light, delicate scent played across his nose and he found himself inhaling it deeply so it would be locked into his olfactory memory, thinking it reminded him of honey and nuts, sweet but not overpowering. This is when the argument started.

 

What do I care what she smells like? She's just a human.

 

You like her.

 

This Sesshoumaru does not like humans.

 

You want to be with her, you use any excuse to be near her: and what about Rin?

 

Rin is different she is just a child and needs my protection.

 

You want to protect Kai.

 

No.

 

It was at this point that Kai had finished her story and stood to leave. Sesshoumaru realised he didn't want her to go and without thinking what he was doing, stood up to block her way. She had said something to him but he wasn't paying attention, he just stood there looking into her green eyes. When she had twisted her head to the right he remembered the first time he had met her she had done that and he found it quite endearing.

 

That side of him that he had been arguing with yelled out Kiss her!

 

NO

 

Yes, you know you want to and you want to do more too.

 

An image of her sucking her fingers at the well popped into his head causing a light twitch to be felt in his nether regions.

 

NO!

 

Why do you fight this? She wants you as well, that voice said slyly

 

Sesshoumaru was surprised by this thought since it was coming from himself. Did he really think she wanted him? And why did that please him.

 

By now Jaken had looked up from his work curiously, wondering why it had gotten so quiet all of a sudden. He saw his lord and that human looking into each others eyes and a feeling of dread descended upon him. He's not going to kiss her? he thought his eyes going large. He saw his master almost imperceptibly move in towards her. Oh no, no my lord, don't do it, Jaken wailed to himself.

 

The decision or indecision as the case may be, was taken out of Sesshoumaru's hands as Kai, instinctively reacting to his small body cue, stood on her tiptoes and pressed her lips lightly to his. She unconsciously sent out her aura, seeking his demon aura and it responded, entwining itself with hers, trying to overpower it. She felt the strength of his as it tried to grab on and hers danced away from it, trying not to let it completely overwhelm her.

 

Sesshoumaru had never felt anything like this in his life. He was no virgin but being full demon he had just taken his pleasure as he needed. His partners, always being full demons themselves, responded in kind and any intimate contact had always been rough and emotionless. Kissing was not something that was done and he felt like he was floating; a tingling sensation had started at his lips and was now coursing through the rest of his body. He brought his arm around her small waist returning her kiss.

 

TAKE HER, screamed out his demon instincts.

 

With all his well practiced control he smothered his demon emotions. He did not want to hurt her and, he tried to convince himself, he was only allowing this because he was curious as to what his father and brother saw in this ritual.

 

Kai felt his aura begin to calm down and swim with hers more gently. She felt wonderful, who would know that one's first kiss could feel like this. She felt breathless and light headed but also strong and powerful at the same time. She grew bolder and gently touched her tongue to his lips wrapping her good arm around his neck.

 

He felt her tongue touch him and he opened his mouth enough for his to reach out and touch hers. Electric shocks went up and down his spine making his head swim with the pleasure of it. Sesshoumaru had never felt such a thing and was completely lost in the sensations as he stroked his tongue against hers.

 

Jaken, meanwhile, was collapsed on the ground, his claws gripping into the dirt, his eyes large and filling with water. It's all over now, he cried to himself. My poor lord, we'll never be rid of her now.

 

They gently pulled apart both breathing a little heavier, their faces flushed as they looked at each other with wonder. Their auras were still twisting together, easing apart slowly, loathe to be without the other. They stepped apart both noticing for the first time the imp who was sitting on the ground staring at them.

 

“I best get back” said Kai self consciously. “Goodnight, my lord demon” she added touching her fingers lightly to her lips after she had turned to walk back towards Kaede's.

 

“Goodnight” Sesshoumaru replied ignoring his long time servant and feeling more complete that he had in his very long life. He watched her walk away until he could see her no more.