InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Pages of My Life ❯ Aftertaste ( Chapter 20 )

A/N: Hey everyone! Your humble author is back with another update, a bit of a longer one this time too (yay). Now this chapter is starting a bit different because I've decided to add one more point of view to tell the story from, Kouga's. I wrestled with the idea but in the end decided I did want his first person involved even if it is only for this chapter so you could see some of HIS thoughts on what's happening. There won't be any other first person characters just for the sake of confusion so don't expect any. I don't even expect Kouga's pov to show up more than this one time, but maybe twice, we'll see ;p.

 

BlackLotus: *eyebrow arch* Oh look at the ideas you just gave me…truthfully I've never had to look into court ordered action because I've been lucky enough to never find myself in a situation quite that bad; so thank you very much for your suggestion! I'm going to be doing some research now for sure, but that's a really great tip! And other than that I'm glad you're still enjoying the story, it's going to pick up speed now and change quite a bit so hold on hehe. Thanks so much for your review!

 

NOTE: This chapter also has a scene that has violence and abuse and might not be easy to read if I have any younger readers out there. So please, as always, use your own discretion. It's not my `dark' story for no reason ;) Also we have not one, but two song lyrics mentioned in this chapter! Both of these I've planned to use in this story since I started it and I really suggest checking them out. You can probably find them on myspace or youtube if you don't want to download them. They're both such amazing and beautiful songs! Thanks to everyone reading, I hope you like the new chapter! Ja! Laurell~

 

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::Kouga's POV::

 

My blood was boiling by the time I made it home that night and threw open the door stomping in. A few of the freshmen scattered when they saw me, I could only imagined how I looked from the amount of blood that had been on the arena floor. I still couldn't believe it, he fucking hit me.

 

I grabbed a beer out of the fridge, it was about the only thing that sounded appeasing right now and leaned against the counter chugging it. Taking two more in my hands I walked up the stairs, the pledges and fellow members alike pressing themselves to the walls or darting away from me. They knew how to fear me, they knew how to respect me, he would be learning soon.

 

I couldn't even figure out who I wanted to tear apart more. That made it twice Kagome's…-he had hit me. Twice he had actually struck me, and in her fucking defense. Kagome was mine, and she always would be. She was mine to say and do what I pleased to and right now I was tolerating her little stunts because I knew she would smarten up and come back to me. That was when I would finally cast her aside, once I was done with her. I would ruin her, no matter how long it took.

 

Mine is an act of love
Mine is a wish to solve
And mine is to sink by your side

 

I walked into my bathroom and grimaced from my reflection. Wetting a wash cloth I gritted my teeth wiping the various dried blood off my face and poking at a dark bruise forming on my cheek. This would not be good.

 

Who did that little bitch think she was anyways? Flaunting around campus with her new boyfriend like she was some sort of great catch and they were so happy. It made my stomach twist to just see her face, knowing everything she had done and what a fool I had been to fall for her deception. My muscles were still tense beneath their bruises and I paced my room killing another beer in the process and trying to calm myself down. Kagome always was the only one that could make me this angry…

 

All she had done was harp on me, not to drink so much, not to spend so much time here, not to talk to her that way. As if a man like me would ever be controlled by a woman as weak as she was. Listening to that mouth got so old; she never shut up no matter how many times I told her to. I didn't want to get rough with her but she never fucking learned. I don't know why she always had to make everything so difficult for her.

 

But even after all her bullshit I dealt with, all the things I forgave her for; she tries to make me out to be the bad guy?! It was sickening, her lies never stopped.

 

You are to be amused
And you are never to be confused

In your first love
Your first time

 

“Hey Kou- Holy shit what happened to you?!” Suikotsu yelled walking into my room. I glared up at him not saying anything.

 

“You went after that Kagome girl again didn't you? Let me guess, she had someone with her this time.” Ban one of my other brothers said from the doorway, his eyes locked on mine. I was not in the mood for his rivalries.

 

“Why do you still insist on chasing that girl down? It's like your obsessed with fucking with her, I mean what did she ever do-” He didn't have time to finish that sentence before I had him shoved against the wall my hand curled around his collar fisting it up tightly around his neck.

 

“You don't know a fucking thing about it, so shut your mouth.” Suikotsu was silent behind us and I tightened my grip until his face started to flood red and he nodded. Releasing my hold on his collar he dropped abruptly and sagged against the wall coughing. I trudged back down the stairs ready and eager for someone to even look at me the wrong way but everyone had the sense to stay out of my line of attack not daring to look up when I slammed the back door and threw my beer bottle out into the lawn on my way out.

  

Why a doll so they tell me
Cause she is mine
Faith and fully mine…

 

Stalking through the dark campus I lit up a stray cigarette in my jacket pocket and remembered how she used to smoke them with me when she was most upset. It was a strange ritual that followed after our fights, the only times she was quiet was right after when she smoked. It had started to become the only time I could stand her. I was sick of those tears and the sobbing pleads, I don't know why I kept her around as long as I did. For some reason I thought I still wanted her, or more specifically I wasn't about to give a woman I had been with to anyone else. Without me she would have been whoring herself all over campus anyway. She was mine, and I would let her go when I was good and ready.

 

I must say
This love hasn't changed me
Cause I feel fine
Faith and fully mine

 

Every time she tried to leave I just got angrier and the less I wanted her to. If she wanted to go so badly I'd let her, but there wouldn't be anything left of her by the time I was done. I knew she had to be cheating on me by the end of it, it was all there in her silent defiance's of me, her outbursts and trying to stand up for herself which was just comical. Hearing my brother's confirm it was the last card to drop, and with it the whole house fell.

 

I must have seen too much skin
Much more than I needed to
And much more than I wanted, to dream

 

I'm so much better off without her, but no matter how many girls I'm with I can't stop thinking of her. Whenever I see that pretty face the rage boils right up to my skin again. It's like I can't control myself when I'm around her, I want to shut her up for good. The way she mocks me with everything she does, the balls to bring another man anywhere around I might have been. It was obvious she was still trying to humiliate me; I hadn't scared her quite enough. But there was ample time for that; she would pay for her grievances against me.

 

I must have felt so much pain
It's funny how some things do remain

It isn't true that things do change
Isn't it strange how pain remains

 

“I'm far from done with you Kagome…” I mumbled between my pants of smoke leaning far out on the railings of the schools dark boardwalk. “You are mine.”

 

But don't look sad, because it isn't sad
Now that I have you…to myself…

  

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