InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Secret Club ❯ The Mistake ( Chapter 18 )
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By: NinjaGamer 
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Hentai / Romance | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 11.24.2011 | Pages: 6 | Words: 9.9K | Visits: 1.5K | Status: Work In Progress
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Hentai / Romance | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 11.24.2011 | Pages: 6 | Words: 9.9K | Visits: 1.5K | Status: Work In Progress
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any characters associated with it. This story is rated for a mature audience.Lemon warning.
I know this chapter will anger some people, but it is necessary for the final chapters. I ask that you read to the end and read my notes at the bottom.
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Kagome awoke to an empty bed. This was not uncommon. Inuyasha always seemed to get up early. Rubbing the sleep from her eyes, she slowly rose to a sitting position, letting the covers fall away from her chest. The chill air caused her to quickly cover her bare breasts, rubbing her hands against the sides of her arms.
Sliding out from under the comfort of the warm covers, Kagome got to her feet and stretched. Any lingering sleepiness was driven out by the cold air. She didn’t bother getting dressed as she headed for the upstairs bathroom. It was a habit she had adopted rather recently. Everyone in the house had seen her naked multiple times, what was the purpose taking time to dress when she was only going to undress in a few minutes? Getting a slight thrill from it was just a bonus.
She glanced inside Sango’s room as she passed, catching sight of a sleeping Sango. Rubbing her arms harder, she made a mental note to turn the heat up more. Winter was just around the corner and the mornings were only going to get colder. Someone was already using the bathroom. Sliding inside, she quickly closed the door behind her to keep the warm air inside. It was obvious there were two people inside the shower. Her first thought was Miroku and Kikyo were taking a shower. Sliding the curtain aside, she was surprised to find Kikyo pressed against the tile wall, her body hidden by Inuyasha’s back. They were both grunting softly as Inuyasha steadily thrust his hips against her.
“K-Kagome,” she gasped, her voice an octave higher than usual. It was more in shock than embarrassment at being caught. Inuyasha glanced over his shoulder as Kagome slid the curtain back into place, her face heating. Her heart thundered in her chest. I told him he could do it, she reminded herself. The words did not stop a pang of jealousy from running through her. But he didn’t have to rush off to do it. “Is everything okay?” she heard Kikyo ask, her concern sounded genuine.
“Kagome, I—” Inuyasha started.
“Everything’s fine. I gave my blessing,” she said, backing away from the shower. “I’ll shower downstairs. Enjoy.” She found herself against the door, hesitating. A pregnant silence had fallen over the room, broken only by the steady run of water. Kikyo’s sudden squeal indicated they had resumed what Kagome had interrupted. Stepping out into the cold of the hall, she gently closed the door, cutting off a lustful moan. Closing her eyes, she took a few deep breaths. It’s fine. It’s fine, she repeated, fighting back the jealous feelings. Inuyasha sleeps with Sango all the time. This is just like that. Feeling her cheeks return to normal, she opened her eyes. After the initial shock had faded, she was able to see how much she was overreacting to the situation – or so she told herself. Something was off about it, but she couldn’t quite place it. Had she been disgusted or aroused by the sight? She was sure she didn’t want to find out.
The cold air against her skin broke into her thoughts. Shivering, she hurried off towards the downstairs bathroom. With luck, Miroku would still be using it. If Inuyasha was going to have his fun, why shouldn’t she?
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It was surprising how well Kikyo meshed with everyone. By the end of the first week, it felt as if she was a regular member of the house, not an unexpected visitor. Kagome was surprised at how quickly she became apathetic to her sisters presence. She no longer became flustered upon stumbling on her sister in an intimate moment – even if that intimate moment happened to be with Inuyasha. The sight still seemed to disturb her on a subconscious level. It wasn’t because she was sharing her future husband with her sister. Kagome knew how similar she looked to her sister. Yes, there were plenty of differences separating them, but given them only a quick glance and they appeared identical. So in a way, it was like watching her clone with Inuyasha. Whenever she would see Kikyo and Inuyasha together, she couldn’t help but wonder if that’s how she looked when they were together.
“I wonder if something’s wrong with me,” she muttered aloud. Across from her, Sango looked up in confusion.
“Huh?”
Her cheeks flushed a light shade of red, realizing she had spoken aloud. “Sorry, just thinking aloud.”
Sango had already taken an interest, setting her magazine down and focusing her attention on Kagome. “Come on, out with it.”
Sighing, Kagome hung her head. They were alone in the house at the moment, no one to overhear her concerns. “Do you think it’s weird that I’m allowing Kikyo to sleep with Inuyasha?”
Sango was silent for a few seconds. “A little, but that’s because I know why you two had your falling out.”
“Yeah, well that was the past. This past week, I’ve really noticed how much she’s changed, how different she is from the Kikyo I knew.” She paused before returning the conversation back to where it started. “So it’s not because she’s my sister?”
“No, but then again, I’m a horrible person to ask if you want a socially kosher answer.” Sango stared intently at her. “You are okay with it, right?”
“Of course,” she answered automatically. It surprised her how quickly it came out. It seemed like that was her go-to answer. She grinned. “God, we are such perverts.”
Her friend laughed. “I know, great isn’t it? Say, you ever think of… you know… with her.” Sango tried to make it sound like it was no big deal, but Kagome could hear the unease in her voice. It completely caught Kagome off guard. It took a few seconds just for her to register what her friend was asking.
“What? With Kikyo?!” Kagome was completely flabbergasted by her friend’s question. It was something that was light-years from Kagome’s mind, and suddenly she found herself face-to-face with it.
Sango knew she had asked something stupid, her face red in embarrassment. She was too far into it to deftly maneuver out, so, classic Sango, she bludgeoned forward. “W-well, not j-just you two. I-I mean, like – share Inuyasha with h-her. Or M-Miroku,” she added quickly. Kagome had never seen Sango so red before. That almost shocked her as much as the question. The lighthearted nature was gone. Sango was asking in earnest. Kagome wasn’t going to be able to brush it off with a small quip.
She found herself red faced as well, the heat of her cheeks radiating against the cooler air of the house. “I-I’ve never thought about it.”
Sango was shaking her head. “No, no of course not. Forget I asked.” She buried her head in her hands. “God I’m so stupid.”
“Sango?”
“No, no, please, I don’t know what came over me. Forget I asked.”
“Sango,” she repeated, her voice deeper than usual. Slowly, Sango peeked out from behind her hands. Her tone took a more gentle tone. “I’m not mad, talk to me.”
“Sorry,” she said, taking a deep breath. It was several minutes before she collected herself enough to speak. “Please don’t tell Miroku.”
The request took her completely by surprise. She was laughing before she could stop herself. “Sorry, sorry,” she said, struggling to reign in her laughter. “Don’t tell Miroku what?”
“That I’m a pervert,” she said, face reddening from Kagome’s laughter.
Reaching across the table, Kagome gently patted her hand. “Sango, I’m pretty sure he already knows that.”
“No, I mean… about what I asked earlier.”
Kagome felt her head tilt to the side. “Want to talk about it?”
“There’s nothing really to talk about.” Her eyes met with Kagome’s. “Maybe it’s because I don’t have a sister, but I find the idea incredibly hot. But you’re not me, you probably find the idea disgusting. I was stupid to ask. Sorry.”
“Stop beating yourself up. It’s fine. A question’s never hurt anyone, right?” Sango didn’t look convinced. “I’m not going to tell anyone and I don’t think any less of you.”
Sango chuckled nervously. “Well, I’m glad that wasn’t embarrassing or anything.”
Glad to have an outlet, Kagome had a hearty laugh, thankful the intense atmosphere had passed. She had probably just discovered one of Sango’s deepest secrets. Yes, it was weird, but then again, everyone was. Kagome was sure some of her secrets would shock Sango. Sango was entitled to her likes and dislikes, just like everyone else was, no matter how – odd – they may be. Kagome wasn’t a close-minded individual and refused to let this newly discovered side of Sango affect her feelings for her.
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Kagome had no way of knowing the power of Sango’s words until much later. She had written off the sudden discovery almost as soon as the conversation had ended. But what has been heard cannot be unheard. True to her word, her perception of her friend never changed. Sango was, and always would be, Sango, her dearest and most important friend. However, Sango’s idea had stayed with Kagome long after the words had faded. She had been forced to face something inconceivable on her own, and while she easily rejected it, it did not fade into the oblivion. It had rooted itself deep inside her, changing her in unperceivable ways.
She didn’t notice the changes right away. How her eyes lingered a few seconds longer on her sister as she walked past or how her heart beat a little faster at the sound of her impassioned cries. When she did catch herself staring, she quickly dismissed or suppressed any thoughts of something changing.
With a new partner in the house, things had become more sporadic. Inuyasha was coming over every night after work. Kagome was gone most of the day, finishing up work on her classes. When she returned, she usually found Sango, Miroku, and Kikyo together. She was usually able to borrow Miroku for a quick one to unwind after a stressful day. Out of the corner of her eye, she would watch Sango and Kikyo together as they waited for Miroku and her to finish. After Kagome finished, she would retire to her room to prepare for the next day until Inuyasha came.
Nearing the end of the second week, the five had become a lot more open. It was not uncommon for Kikyo to be riding Inuyasha with Kagome and Sango sharing Miroku right next to them. They never had a set ritual, preferring to just go with what felt right. This particular night, Kikyo had claimed both men, leading them seductively up the stairs while Kagome and Sango finished cleaning up dinner.
“Things have certainly gotten a lot crazier around here, haven’t they?” Sango said with an amused smile as she watched Miroku head up the stairs.
“You’re telling me.”
“It’s been fun though, right?”
“I guess so.” Kagome wasn’t sure if she enjoyed it as much as everyone else, but she wasn’t about to drag down anyone else’s fun.
“I wonder when she’s going back.” Kagome only shrugged in response. “I won’t lie, I’m going to miss her.”
“Maybe I will too,” Kagome reluctantly agreed. She grinned over at Sango. “Maybe.”
After cleaning up, the two women headed upstairs. “Kagome,” Sango said as she headed towards her room.
“Hmm?” she asked, turning around.
“Mind if I share your bed?”
Kagome found herself smiling. “You don’t have to ask.” As they headed towards her room, Kagome thought about how long it had been since she had been with only Sango. The last time she remembered was a very long time ago. Kagome paused as she passed Sango’s room. They had left the door wide open, Kikyo’s loud moans flooding the hallway. Her eyes fell on her sister, sandwiched between the two men, rocking from the force of their thrusts. Her heart was racing as her eyes took in the scene before her. Her sister’s skin glistening with sweat, breasts swaying above Inuyasha’s face, the look of pure bliss on her face as she leaned back to give an awkward kiss to Miroku. It was like all those years ago, only instead of disgust, she felt a slight pull towards the sight. She couldn’t look away, not in horror, but interest.
“You coming?” Sango asked behind her, snapping her out of her reverie.
“Yeah, sorry,” she said, pulling her eyes away. She quickly hurried into her room, afraid to look back. Her heart thundered in her ears, not from the erotic sight she had just witnessed or excitement from the upcoming sex with Sango. While she had a particular fondness for being sandwiched between two men like Kikyo had, it was not witnessing it that excited her.
Kagome was only half there as she returned Sango’s kisses, her hands simply going through the motions of undressing her. Her mind was still processing other things; like why she had been transfixed by the sight of her sister. God damn it Sango… why did you have to say something weird like that?
Sango only had a portion of her attention until her head slipped down between her legs. The moment her friends tongue touched her sensitive lips, all thoughts and worries fell away. Relaxing back on the bed, she closed her eyes, enjoying the pleasure Sango gave her. Her lips quivered as she took a shaky breath. There would be plenty of time to think about things later. Right now, she would just enjoy the moment and focus on returning the favor.
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“Inuyasha?”
“Yeah?” he asked, half turning his head towards her, his attention still on the menu. It was one of the rare moments they were alone. Kagome needed to get out of the house, catch a breather. It was the second week since Kikyo showed up, and all life seemed to be now was work and sex. This entire coffee run was a pretext to being alone with Inuyasha, even if only for an hour.
The coffee shop was loud enough to mask their conversation. The buzz of the other people talking and the grinding of coffee grounds were making it difficult to hear at a normal level. Still, she kept her voice down as she spoke, knowing Inuyasha could hear just fine. “Kikyo’s been here for a while now…” she started.
“Yeah,” he answered plainly. He rubbed his chin as his eyes moved over the menu.
“I notice you two have been spending a lot of time together.” To an outsider, it might sound innocent enough. Ever since Kagome gave her blessing, she noticed the two were together an awful lot. I don’t want to sound jealous but… It worried her a little. She knew Sango’s intentions. She had made it clear she was with Inuyasha for the great sex. Kikyo however… she was different. Kagome had no idea what her sister’s intentions were. Even if what she said about having a partner at home was true, she had made it clear she was perfectly willing to move to the next one at the snap of a finger.
This got Inuyasha’s attention. Ignoring the menu, he turned his eyes to her. “What’s this about?”
“Nothing,” Kagome said, trying to sound innocent. “I’m just making an observation.”
“Kagome, I know there is something deeper to this.” There was a slight pause. “You did give me permission.”
“I know.”
“Do you want me to stop?” he asked before she could say anything else.
“If I said yes, would you?” she challenged, meeting his gaze.
“Of course,” he answered immediately.
He didn’t even pause to think about it. “Really?” she sounded as surprised as she was.
He seemed bewildered by her surprise, then his eyes narrowed. “I know what’s going on.”
“You do?” she said, her heart skipping a beat.
He grinned. “You’re jealous.”
“I am not!” she said. It was a little too quick, too forceful. She marched forward in line, hoping to mask her embarrassment.
“You totally are!” he said, not letting her escape. His hand reached out to grab her arm, holding her back. “Kagome, look at me.” Turning, she stared into his golden eyes, trying her best to keep a pout on her lips. “There is nothing there.” Her eyes narrowed. “I swear it!” His eyes glanced nervously around; making sure no one was paying attention. “Let me ask you this: why are you always with Miroku?”
Her face flushed. “H-he’s fun to be with,” she said, embarrassed having to put words to her feelings. It was hard admitting that another man was just as fun to be with as your fiancée. Maybe more… The forbidden nature of it appealed to her, just as the threesomes and group sex did.
“Do you love him?”
“In a friend sort of way, yes,” she answered in a cautious tone.
“Well, it’s kind of like that for Kikyo and I. That’s it.” He paused. “And it would be a stretch to think of us as ‘friends.’”
“Really?”
̶ 0;Really,” he answered with a nod. She let out her breath, nodding slowly.
“Sorry,” she said. She should have trusted him more. Understood that what they shared was unique.
He squeezed her shoulder, giving her a wide smile. “It’s fine. Come on, let’s order and get home. People are waiting.”
She smiled back. Seeing him, she couldn’t help it. “Yeah,” she said, her right hand brushing over the ring on her finger.
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Kagome knew she had too much to drink. Unbalanced, she nearly tripped over her own legs exiting the taxi. She shook her head, blinking a few times in a vain attempt to bring some clarity to her mind.
“That will be $23 even,” the driver said, unfazed by her ruffled appearance.
She gave him a twenty and ten, waving the change away. He gave her a smile, touched the front of his ball cap, and drove away. Turning, she stumbled towards the house. Ugh, why did I drink so much? Instead of the virgin drinks she was supposed to get, she gave the bartender the signal to make it with the alcohol. She was drunk enough to lose some coordination, but sober enough to know tomorrow morning was going to be a bitch. Her dress was rumpled, her hair disheveled. Her bangs stuck to her forehead and the sweat made her feel disgusting.
Fumbling with the keys, she struggled to unlock the door. Her head was swimming as she tried key after key, temporarily forgetting which one it was. She giggled as she struggled to fit a key that was obviously too big to fit. “Silly Inuyasha… You’re not going to fit.” Her voice slurred slightly as she switched to the next key.
Finally, she managed to unlock the door and get herself inside. She immediately headed towards the shower, stripping as she went. The warm water against her skin felt amazing in her inebriated state. Her hand ran down her stomach before gently running over her slit. She closed her eyes, taking a deep breath. It was a little foggy, but she remembered sleeping with someone at the club. One of her customers got lucky in one of the dark corners of the club. Or was it two guys? She tried to think back on it, running a hand through her hair. Yeah… it was two. Someone had noticed what they were up to and decided to join. While only the guy buying her drinks was lucky enough to get actual penetration, the newcomer seemed perfectly happy with her blowjob.
Finished with the shower, Kagome dried herself off and wrapped the towel around herself. I’ll clean up the clothes tomorrow, she told herself as she climbed the stairs. She ignored Sango’s room as she passed, the door was closed anyways. She figured the four were probably fast asleep after a long night. Entering her room, she was surprised to find her bed occupied. The light from the hall illuminated the two figures as they moved in almost complete silence, their harsh breaths the only sound in the room.
Kikyo turned her head. In the dim light, Kagome could see her surprised look. Below her, Inuyasha looked over too. “Kagome! You’re home!” she gasped, stopping her rocking motion. Kagome noticed that she stopped with Inuyasha fully inside her.
“S-sorry,” Kagome said, trying to keep her voice from slurring with marginal success. She jerked her finger back over her shoulder. “I’ll go sleep in Sango’s bed…” she said, starting to turn around.
“Wait!” Kikyo said, stopping her. Pushing herself off Inuyasha, she hopped off the bed and moved towards her sister. Kagome couldn’t help but notice the effect her sisters energetic steps did, her breasts jiggling freely as she hopped over. Grabbing both of Kagome’s hands, she held them close, their eyes meeting. “Don’t tell me you forgot what today is.”
“Huh?” she said, shaking her head. She wasn’t comfortable so close to a naked Kikyo, but she was unable to step back. Kikyo’s grip on her hands prevented that.
“Kikyo,” Inuyasha said, pushing himself up on his elbows. “Don’t worry about it. She’s had a bit much to drink. Let her sleep.”
She glanced over her shoulder. “Oh, she can at least wish you a happy birthday.”
Kagome blinked in surprise. “B-birthday?” She had no idea it was his birthday. She looked around her sister to make eye contact with him. “Today?” He nodded slowly.
“You didn’t know?” Kikyo asked, surprised.
“I had no idea…” Kagome said, not quite believing she didn’t know such an important thing.
“Don’t worry about it. I never told you. Besides, I’ve never been big on celebrating my birthday.”
“Don’t say that!” Kikyo exclaimed. “It’s your birthday! A day for celebration!”
“I didn’t get you a gift,” Kagome said grimly, as if she was supposed to have known to get one, the alcohol still making her thoughts fuzzy. Kikyo and Inuyasha shared a look, before laughing at her rather silly statement. She pushed her lower lip out, knowing they were laughing at her. “What? It’s not funny!”
“Ah Kagome,” Kikyo said with a sigh. “I think we can find some way to celebrate.” With that, she leaned forward, her lips meeting hers. Kagome felt her body grow ridged, caught off guard by the unexpected kiss. Her sister gently pulled away, giving her an appraising look, studying her reaction.
“I… uh…” Kagome said stupidly. The combination of shock and alcohol made it impossible to deal with what just happened. Kikyo leaned in again. Kagome gave no resistance. She could feel her body slowly start to relax as a tongue ran across her lips. When their lips separated again, Kagome found herself meeting her sister’s gaze. She could see the unspoken question Kikyo was asking. Is it okay to go farther? Realization dawned on Kagome; still a little slow from the drinks. My god… she wants to have a threesome! Her eyes flicked over to Inuyasha. He looked as surprised as she was, but there was something else in his eyes: arousal.
Looking back at her sister, Kagome pulled a hand free. Reaching up, she gave a slight tug at her towel. It fell away, pooling around her feet. She watched as the smile grew across her sister’s face…
(Warning: The following lemon contains incest tones. If you do not wish to read this, please skip to the next bolded text.)
Kagome didn’t know if it was the work of the alcohol or her own latent desires coming to the surface, but it was like she had become possessed. Lips locked with her sister, she drove herself down onto Inuyasha with all the force she could muster. Her hips rolled and swayed as he bucked himself against her. Kikyo separated for breath, moaning as Inuyasha’s tongue snaked its way into her, wiggling and flicking around her sensitive spots. Bending back slightly, Kagome focused on driving herself as fast and hard as she could. Kikyo smiled as she reached over, cupping her flopping breasts. Kagome cried out, her mind going wild. She could feel her sister’s tongue against the exposed flesh, running along the gentle swell of her breasts to flick the nipples playfully.
Kagome smiled down at her sister before tossing her head back, a long, frustrated groan escaping her lips. She wanted it harder, faster. Below them, the bed creaked from the force, yet she desired more. “Oh god yes! Yes!” she cried, knuckles white as she gripped the bedding. Her orgasm was one of the most intense she had ever experienced. The room spun around her as her body jerked. For a brief second, she wondered if she was going to pass out as she shrieked loudly. Slowly, she managed to catch her breath, every exhale a soft moan.
“Good?” Kikyo asked with a smile.
Kagome grinned back. “The best,” she whispered before leaning to meet her with a kiss.
After a quick pause to move around, she found herself on her back with Kikyo’s head between her legs. Hands on the back of her sister’s head, she closed her eyes, enjoying the sensations her tongue brought. Somewhere in the back of her mind, there may have been a voice protesting this, shouting at how this entire situation was wrong. If it was there, Kagome never heard it. Her moans were full of encouraging words, urging her sister on. She could feel Kikyo’s face push against her lips with each of Inuyasha’s thrusts.
“I’m going to cum,” Inuyasha gasped, his eyes locking with hers. She could see the lust in his eyes. How much this was turning him on. Two sisters together, close enough that they might be twins. It was a man’s wet dream. She could see his eyes pleading with her. She knew what he wanted to hear.
“Cum in her,” she growled, Kikyo’s tongue still probing inside her. “Cum in my sister.”
Closing his eyes, he gave a few powerful thrusts before gasping. As his orgasm faded, the three collapsed to the bed, gasping for air. The silence stretched on as their breathing returned to normal.
“Inuyasha?” Kagome said, her voice soft.
“Yeah?” he asked, raising his head to meet her gaze.
She smiled, warmth bubbling up from inside. “Happy birthday.”
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(Okay, it’s safe again)
Inuyasha had pushed himself harder than he ever had before, the three finally collapsing in exhaustion early in the morning. Kagome found herself to the right of him, Kikyo on the other side. Both had cuddled against him, their hands linked as they fell asleep.
Kagome was not one to remember her dreams, let alone know she was in one. It was an odd feeling and sometimes disorienting. It was like her mind would not make up its mind on whether she was a part of the dream, or witnessing it; her point of view constantly switching from first person to third.
Kagome knew she was married. The wedding ring on her finger replaced the engagement ring. She was Inuyasha’s apartment – no – it was their apartment now. It was odd how foreign it seemed yet still felt like home. They had been married a few years, Inuyasha working hard to get his own business off the ground while she remained at home. She was tutoring someone… a neighbor’s kid. Books of various subjects sat ignored on the desk, a lonely lamp shining light down on the unused texts. On the bed, Kagome watched herself as the young man madly slammed himself against her. His raw power and youthful energy made up for his lack of technique, but with her help, he was getting better.
It was surreal, watching herself with this younger man. Seeing her smile, urging the kid on, giving him tips, moaning when he did something right. Finished, they calmly cleaned themselves, discarding the used condom in the trash beside the bed. She was shocked to find it almost full, knowing Inuyasha never used condoms with her.
Her dream self was already getting dressed, a businesslike manner about her. “See? I knew you could do it. You just needed the proper motivation.” Her gaze moved towards a test that sat atop the text books. A large ‘B’ was written at the top of the first page.
The boy was grinning as he got up from the bed. “Thanks… for everything.”
With a smile, she moved over to give him a kiss on the forehead. “Keep it up and we’ll see some improvement… in both areas,” she said, her eyes moving down to his semi-erect cock.
“I will Mrs. Taisho!”
“Good. Come on, get dressed. We still need to go over tonight’s homework…”
The scene shifted before her conscious self, the bedroom replaced by the kitchen. Looking over her shoulder, Kagome could see the dinner table had been set with an extra plate. Her dream-self moved busily around the kitchen. There was a faint glow about her that caused her to smile. It was painfully obvious how happy she was. The love just poured from her. If this is what my life will be like…
Things moved quickly. Inuyasha returned home from work. He introduced the man with him as a prospective client. He was a balding, short, round thing; not exactly the easiest on the eyes. They were having dinner. Kagome never faked her smiles, laughing where appropriate. Inuyasha was hard at work, still trying to sell his company to the uneasy man. After dinner, Kagome served them sake, letting them discuss business as she cleaned up. The man was warming up to the Inuyasha, but the company was still new, untested.
The man excused himself to the bathroom. Kagome followed him down the hall. She flicked a light switch next to the locked door as they went into the bedroom. Her dream-self smiled towards Inuyasha as she slowly closed the door behind her. Kagome watched as her dream-self offered herself to the man. She was loud, screaming as she rode his unimpressive erection. It was more for the man’s benefit than what she was actually feeling. It was obvious the man loved every second of it. Her dream-self was being loud on purpose, to make it clear to Inuyasha what was happening behind the closed door. Kagome watched in disgust. The dream Kagome wasn’t enjoying the sex. Her enjoyment came from her partner being someone other than her husband.
Another used condom was added to the waste bin. The man shook hands with Inuyasha. Complements about Kagome were passed between the two. An agreement was made and the man left with a large smile on his face. From the doorway, a naked Kagome watched Inuyasha return from the hall. She hit the light switch, turning off the hidden camera’s planted in their living room.
It took a second for Kagome to realize what was happening in her dream world. Inuyasha had discovered his joy of videotaping Kagome with others. Their second bedroom had been converted into a video editing and storage room. Inside were scores of edited video, categorized by groupings. The more Kagome focused on this, the more the dream revealed. Kagome and men +3, Kagome and woman, Kagome and man, Kagome and woman and man, Kagome and Sango, Kagome and Miroku, Kagome Miroku and Sango, Inuyasha and Sango, Inuyasha Kagome and woman… the list went on. She was also surprised to discover Inuyasha had started a website, uploading his favorite video’s to share to the world. Her dream-self was quite popular online as well as off.
Kagome tried to dig deeper, trying to discover when Inuyasha became obsessed with videotaping her and when she had become okay with it, but as she struggled, the scene faded. The harder she tried to stop it, the quicker it dissipated.
It was snowing outside; she could see it gathering out on their balcony. They were celebrating a holiday. Kagome was overjoyed to see her mother there. Souta too. To her surprise, Kikyo and Maiko were there as well. Everyone was enjoying a nice dinner and wine. They were getting along, no fights, no arguments, and no looks of disappointment from their mother. After a wonderful night, their mother left, giving them all a kiss on the cheek before leaving with Souta. Kikyo and Maiko stayed, saying they would help clean up.
No sooner had their mother left the door, the four were in the bedroom. Maiko had her turn first with Inuyasha while the two sisters enjoyed each other. As Kagome watched, an unsettling feeling crept over her. The dream Kagome was happy, that much was clear. Everything she did was joyfully and willingly. Is this what my life will really be like? She forced herself to look away as her mirror image shared her husband with her sister. Her eyes rested on the waste bin by the bed. It was always mostly full. Never, in any dream sequence, did she see it empty. Kagome knew it was emptied on a regular basis too…
With her not focusing on the four, the scene switched again. This time, it was her and Inuyasha’s anniversary. She found herself smiling, feeling herself calm down as Inuyasha alone came into view. At least our anniversary is together. The scene expanded, coming into focus. He was standing off to the side, watching as several men huddled around her dream-self. Anniversary after anniversary, she knew they recreated the night Inuyasha proposed. She knew the men around her. They were all married men in the apartment complex. She slept with them all on a regular basis, just never all at once… except for this one day every year. For most, they had permission from their wives. After all, they could hardly deny their husbands a night with Kagome while they happily shared a night with Inuyasha. For the others, they somehow managed to keep a secret despite the rather common knowledge of Kagome’s… openness.
Kagome turned her back on the sight. There has to be a night of just Inuyasha and I. She thought back to her wedding night. The pieces of her wedding dress were scattered across the hotel room floor. One of the reasons why Inuyasha paid the small fortune for the room was for the massive bed. There was where Kagome found them. Inuyasha was with Kikyo and Maiko. Beside him were the new bride, riding the best man and making out with the maid of honor. The entire scene seemed to move like it was in fast-forward. They switched positions and partners freely. Sango got her wish: watching intently as Kagome and Kikyo enjoyed each other and Miroku before moving to Inuyasha after thoroughly exhausting him.
Watching, she held a hand to her mouth, horrified. The dream Kagome loved every second of it. She didn’t care it was the night of her wedding. She didn’t care that one of the women she was having sex with was her sister. She didn’t care that she spent most of her time with men other than her husband.
Scene after scene flashed past her. More men. More women. Their collection of videos steadily grew. It eventually outgrew that room, causing Inuyasha to convert his office into an additional storage room. Kagome’s website went through crests of popularity as hundreds of thousands streamed videos of her and her exploits. The only time Kagome could find Inuyasha and her alone together was when they were watching on of her videos. They would play it, making love to the sounds of her with other men and women.
They never had kids. It was a mutual agreement that Kagome readily agreed to. It allowed them to continue living freely, and most importantly, it allowed Kagome to keep her numerous sexual partners.
No, she thought, shaking the dream equivalent of her head. No! I don’t want this! She was watching her other self, sandwiched between two men. Neither were Inuyasha, and she didn’t seem to care. Her eyes were closed, moaning in pure bliss as they pounded themselves against her. A third man appeared, moving to the side of her. Opening her eyes, she locked gazes with herself. Teasingly, she reached out to grab the new cock. Her tongue stretched out, giving it a lick before sliding it into her mouth. Her eyes never left as her head moved side to side, sliding it deeper down her throat. She released it with a ‘pop,’ half-closing her eyes as she moaned deeply. A smug smile appeared on her lips.
“I don’t want this,” she told herself, transfixed on her mirror image. The men seemed oblivious to anything besides pleasuring the woman between them.
“Oh please, I think we both know that isn’t true,” she cooed, grunting as the men increased their pace. She broke eye contact, gasping as the man behind reached around to fondle her breasts. Raising her head again, their eyes met once more. Her hand reached up to stroke the third man’s erection as it hovered inches from her face. “After all, aren’t you doing this now?”
Kagome’s mouth worked, but no words formed. Her mirror image laughed, it was a haunting laugh; one that echoed through every crack in her mind. “More men!” she cried. Kagome forced herself to step away as men began to appear from nothing. “More!” she cried, louder. Kagome was backpedaling as fast as she could, men appearing all around her. “MORE!”
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“No!R 21; Kagome gasped, shooting up in bed. The world swam around her, blackness threatening to take her. The light from her window nearly blinded her. Pain thudded in her head, causing her to press her palms against her temples and squeeze. She was covered in sweat, her portion of the covers kicked off. She slowly forced her eyes open, taking in the world around her. Turning her head, she found Inuyasha sleeping soundly, a thin smile on his face. Seeing him, she felt herself calming down, her nightmare starting to fade. Then her eyes settled on the woman beside him. Memories of the night before flooded back. Kagome’s cheeks flushed as her eyes widened at the sight of her nude sister.
I didn’t… we didn’t… Her eyes darted between Inuyasha and Kikyo. Oh god, no, no, no! She leapt from the bed, hand covering her mouth. She nearly went face first into the floor as her food caught in the covers. Shaking it loose, she bolted to the bathroom. She gaged as her stomach twisted, shoving everything it had upwards. Kagome let out a sob as her body dry heaved several times, her stomach trying to remove what it did not have.
Exhausted, she rolled away from the toilet, collapsing against the wall. Sango appeared at the door, a concerned look on her face. Her eyes moved from her to the toilet, then back to her. “Good god Kagome, are you okay?” she asked, rushing to her side.
“Sango…” Kagome whimpered, tears burning in her eyes. Sango wrapped her arms around her. Kagome had no idea how cold she was until she felt her friend’s warmth.
“What’s wrong?” Sango asked softly, holding her tightly.
“I slept with her,” she sobbed, the tears running uncontrollably. “What the fuck is wrong with me? I slept with my sister! My own sister!”
“It’s okay Kagome,” Sango said tenderly, trying to get her away from the freezing wall. “It was just a bad experience. It’s not the first mistake you made drunk.”
“No, you don’t understand,” she gasped, trying to keep herself together. It wasn’t working well. “The fucked up part was that I liked it…”
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A hot shower helped Kagome calm down. She stood with her head down, letting the water pound against her head as she thought. She had two main concerns, the first being the incident with Kikyo, the other, and maybe the more disturbing of the two, was her dream. To her dismay, the alcohol did nothing to impair her memories of last night. It would have been better if she had awoken to not remember anything. Yes, she would still be able to piece together that something had happened between the three, but she wouldn’t know in such… detail. Living with the knowledge of what she had done, and how much she had enjoyed it, was going to be a heavy burden.
The dream was its own set of problems. Kagome didn’t believe in visions, but her subconscious had really pulled a number on her. That she remembered it at all was a testament to how much it had shocked her. Until now, sex had always been just that. She loved it, all of it. Still, she wanted a special someone in her life. Inuyasha was a compromise between her two desires that was almost too good to be true. He was a man she truly loved, and loved her back, yet was more than happy to allow her the freedom to have other lovers. Even when they finally married, Kagome had every intention of continuing this way of life. The dream put some things into perspective. She had a long life before her. Inuyasha would be a part of it, but his role seemed so small. There was something wrong with the one she loved being delegated to such a small role in her life. In the dream, Inuyasha had been nothing more than another sex partner she just so happened to life with. She didn’t want that. She didn’t want Inuyasha to be something so distant. The path she was following just seemed so… empty. In the dream, she was using sex to fill that emptiness, mistaking the temporary pleasure for true happiness. She deserved better, and so did Inuyasha.
Turning the water off, Kagome took her time drying off. She dreaded leaving the comfort of the bathroom, knowing the inevitable confrontation would come. Inuyasha and Kikyo were undoubtedly awake by now. Maybe they are having a morning fuck… Her stomach twisted, remembering last night. What would she do if they were? What if they asked her to join? Was this going to become a common occurrence? She leaned towards the sink, her arms holding her weight up. Head up, she stared at her reflection in the foggy mirror. “What the hell are you doing Kagome?” she asked the reflection, standing up to run her hands through her wet hair.
She held up her left hand, staring at the ring on her finger. Everything she was doing with her life betrayed what it stood for. It would be hard. Even knowing it had to be done, she still fought against it, trying to find reasons to continue. She couldn’t – wouldn’t – let things continue like this. Giving all this up wasn’t what worried her. In time, she knew she would be okay. Inuyasha on the other hand…
Taking a shaky breath, she stared at the woman in the mirror. This would be the last time she saw her. From this point on, she was going to make things how they should have been from the start.
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“Kagome.” Kikyo’s voice was soft. Her manner was difficult to read. She seemed subdued, embarrassed, maybe even ashamed. Maybe I’m not the only one regretting last night. It wouldn’t make it better, but maybe it would help.
“Kikyo,” her voice was low as well. She could feel her face heating at the sight of her sister, unable to stop the images of her naked, face contorted in pleasure. Even now, Kagome felt the pull towards her. Knowing it was wrong only made the yearning stronger. Why am I always attracted to the taboo? It had started with sleeping with her best friend’s boyfriend and spiraled wildly out from there. The orgies, gangbangs, swinging, and ultimately incest; all of them spawned from her attraction to the ‘wrongness.’
“Listen, about last night…” her sister started. Her eyes were down, unable to meet the ones so similar to her own. “I… I don’t know what came over me.”
“I know.”
“No, you… you have an excuse. You were drunk, not all there. But me… I wanted it. I wanted you.”
“I did too.” She had to be honest. Lying about it wouldn’t make the problem go away. She needed to face it directly. Still, admitting it… She could feel her face heating up. “I enjoyed it too. Way more than I should have.”
Kikyo seemed surprised by her admission, finally meeting her eye. “Y-you enjoyed it?” It was clear she had not been expecting to hear that. The distress in her voice was apparent.
“But it’s not something I want to repeat.” Her words had an instant effect on Kikyo. She visibly relaxed, like a great burden had been lifted. Kagome realized how afraid her sister had been about her wanting a repeat experience.
“I… I see. M-me too, I don’t…” Once more, she looked away.
“Kikyo?” she reached out to place her hand on her sister’s shoulder. She tensed briefly at the touch, but quickly relaxed, looking up. “What happened, happened. In a way, I’m thankful this happened.”
“Really?”
Kagome gave a firm nod. “It gave me the kick in the ass I needed to do what I needed to do a long time ago.” She sighed. “This lesson had a high price tag however. I… I don’t want what happened to come between us. We’ve changed a lot over the years. I want us to be sisters again.”
There was a long pause. Kikyo slowly shook her head, chuckling softly. “Since when did you become the older sister?” Looking up, she wore a forced smile. “I… I want that too. Maybe after some time…”
Kagome nodded in agreement. “We fucked up pretty bad, haven’t we?”
“Yeah… I’m going to go back home. Maiko and I… We are going to have a long talk.”
Kagome wrapped her sister in a hug, the other returning it with equal fervor. What struck Kagome as odd was how the incident had brought them closer, yet struck a wedge between them. In time, things would be better. She wished her sister the best. It seemed like she had learned something by this as well. When they met again, maybe both of them would be ready to be sisters again.
“Good-bye Kagome,” Kikyo said, pulling away. “I’m sorry, about everything.”
“Don’t worry about it. This needed to be done, I just kept denying it.”
As she walked past, Kikyo rested her hand on Kagome’s shoulder, giving it a quick squeeze. “Good luck with everything. I really hope things work out.”
Kagome took a deep breath. “Yeah… Me too.”
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“Inuyasha?” ; Kagome called out softly. She almost felt glad when she didn’t hear his answer right away. Stepping into her room, she closed the door behind her. Inuyasha was busy pulling his pants up. “Inuyasha?” she asked again. This time, he looked back at her.
“Kagome!” he said, a wide smile plastered on his face. He looked like he had just won the lotto. “Morning!” he said, moving over to her to give her a quick kiss before searching around the floor. “Have you seen my shirt?”
She felt her throat tighten. Just do it. Get it out there. If you don’t say it now, you never will. “Inuyasha, we need to talk.” Those five words were the hardest she had ever spoken. She almost wasn’t able to get them out.
He was still looking around for his shirt. “This is about last night, isn’t it?”
“Yeah.” Kagome was surprised things were going so well. I haven’t gotten to the hard part yet.
Inuyasha stopped looking around and turned to her, approaching her slowly. Kagome didn’t resist as he bent forward to plant a soft kiss on her lips. “Kagome, you have no idea how much last night meant to me. I don’t think it will ever be topped. I mean… wow… just wow… Incredible doesn’t even begin to describe it.”
She knew he would love it, but a part of her wished he was as disturbed by it as she had been. “Inuyasha, last night was a mistake.”
“What? No! No, it was wonderful! Listen, if it was because you two are sisters…”
“No! I mean, yes!” She pressed her fingers against her temples, not looking at him. “I just… I just don’t think we should be doing this anymore.” She was amazed she didn’t pass out. It certainly felt like she was ready to. But I said it! I said it!
“Do what?”
“This!” she said, gesturing to the floor. Yes, most of the clothes were her own, but several of Sango’s bras and panties were scattered around as well. She was sure one of the black bras was Kikyo’s as well. “We are engaged, and I think… maybe we should start acting like it.”
There was a long silence. “What are you trying to tell me?”
“That… we shouldn’t be with other people.” Her words pained her far more than she was comfortable with.
The silence was longer this time. “Even Sango and Miroku?”
“Yes,” she said, feeling like she was tearing a chuck out of herself in the process. She had debated briefly excluding them from the ban, but knew that if she allowed it, she would eventually find herself back where she was now. If we’re going to do this, we do it all the way.
“You really want this?” he said, his voice low.
“I do,” she said with a nod.
“And what about me?”
“I… what?” she was thrown off by his question.
“Did you think of what I wanted when you decided on this?” He sounded angry. “Did you talk to me about this before deciding how I would live my life?”
“W-we’re talking now.”
He snorted. “Yeah, after you made the decision.”
“Inuyasha,” she said stepping forward. “I don’t want to live like this. I don’t want to be this person!”
“This person?” he said, his voice rising.
“The slut who sleeps with anyone willing! The whore who happily shares the man she loves! The nymphomaniac who enjoys sleeping with her sister!” she yelled, unable to keep her emotions in check. She wasn’t angry at him, not really. The anger stemmed in herself, for letting herself become what she hated.
“You mean the woman I love!” he yelled. Kagome was shocked into silence. He continued, his voice lower than normal. “You say you don’t want to be this woman, but she – you – are who I feel in love with.”
Kagome could feel the sting of tears, her vision blurring. “So, what…? What are you saying?”
He sighed, shaking his head. “I think last night shook you up.” His voice was abnormally calm. “I understand last night could be a little weird for you—”
“A little? A little?! Inuyasha, I slept with my sister!”
“You enjoyed it every bit as I did and don’t you dare say otherwise!”
“God damnit Inuyasha! Have you not listened to anything I’ve said?”
“Oh I hear you just fine. You know what I hear? Lies. You are lying to yourself Kagome.”
Tears ran down her face. “How could you say that?”
“Because we’ve been down this road before. You wrestle with your conscience about how wrong it is, how much you don’t want this. Yet this always ends the same way, you happily spreading your legs to Miroku or a dozen other guys. You know what I think? I think you get off on this tortured morality bullshit.”
“You fucking bastard!”
“Oh, so now I’m the bastard? I’m not the one demanding a radical shift in a relationship. All because of what? You had a threesome with your sister. Please Kagome, I think you can think of a few things worse than that.”
“Get out,” she growled, seething in rage.
He sighed. “Fine, I will. When you finally come to your senses, let me know.”
“Come to my senses?” Her voice sounded eerily calm. She felt detached, like this was all happening to someone else.
“Yes. Just, give yourself some time. When you realize the mistake you are making—”
“Mistake? Mistake?” She violently wiped the tears from her cheeks.
Inuyasha’s voice was soft, like he was speaking to a child. “Kagome, I know you, I know what you like. You love this life too much to give it up.”
A fresh tear fell from her eye. Her hand took a life of its own, easily sliding the ring from her finger. It was amazing how long she had been wearing it. The skin where the ring had sat was already lighter than the skin around it. She all but threw it at the surprised Inuyasha. “Then you obviously don’t know me as well as you thought.” With that, she slammed her door in his face.
Her heart pounded, eyes widening as she realized what had just happened. She was tempted to throw open the door and beg forgiveness, but something held her back. She was not the one at fault here. She waited, staring at the door. Any second, he would open the door. They would realize how horribly out of control everything had gotten. He would realize how serious she was about this. They would talk everything out, compromise. There would be major lifestyle changes for both of them. Maybe she was wrong about cutting everything out. Surely having the occasional fling with Miroku and Sango wouldn’t hurt. She didn’t love them like she did Inuyasha, but there was still a strong connection with them. The sex was more than a mindless lust for release. Hell, she would even forgive him if he had a few moments of infidelity.
But the door never opened. After a long silence, she heard him move away from the door. It felt like a hole had been ripped open in her chest. Collapsing to her knees, she could do nothing to stop the flow of tears.
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Now, before everyone rages, I had planned from the very beginning for this to happen. There are only one or two chapters left plus the epilogue. Yes, things are looking bad, but I promise you it will be okay! I only ask that you stick around to read the next chapter.
Phew. Okay, now that I’ve said that, I hope to see you around for the next chapter.
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I know this chapter will anger some people, but it is necessary for the final chapters. I ask that you read to the end and read my notes at the bottom.
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Kagome awoke to an empty bed. This was not uncommon. Inuyasha always seemed to get up early. Rubbing the sleep from her eyes, she slowly rose to a sitting position, letting the covers fall away from her chest. The chill air caused her to quickly cover her bare breasts, rubbing her hands against the sides of her arms.
Sliding out from under the comfort of the warm covers, Kagome got to her feet and stretched. Any lingering sleepiness was driven out by the cold air. She didn’t bother getting dressed as she headed for the upstairs bathroom. It was a habit she had adopted rather recently. Everyone in the house had seen her naked multiple times, what was the purpose taking time to dress when she was only going to undress in a few minutes? Getting a slight thrill from it was just a bonus.
She glanced inside Sango’s room as she passed, catching sight of a sleeping Sango. Rubbing her arms harder, she made a mental note to turn the heat up more. Winter was just around the corner and the mornings were only going to get colder. Someone was already using the bathroom. Sliding inside, she quickly closed the door behind her to keep the warm air inside. It was obvious there were two people inside the shower. Her first thought was Miroku and Kikyo were taking a shower. Sliding the curtain aside, she was surprised to find Kikyo pressed against the tile wall, her body hidden by Inuyasha’s back. They were both grunting softly as Inuyasha steadily thrust his hips against her.
“K-Kagome,” she gasped, her voice an octave higher than usual. It was more in shock than embarrassment at being caught. Inuyasha glanced over his shoulder as Kagome slid the curtain back into place, her face heating. Her heart thundered in her chest. I told him he could do it, she reminded herself. The words did not stop a pang of jealousy from running through her. But he didn’t have to rush off to do it. “Is everything okay?” she heard Kikyo ask, her concern sounded genuine.
“Kagome, I—” Inuyasha started.
“Everything’s fine. I gave my blessing,” she said, backing away from the shower. “I’ll shower downstairs. Enjoy.” She found herself against the door, hesitating. A pregnant silence had fallen over the room, broken only by the steady run of water. Kikyo’s sudden squeal indicated they had resumed what Kagome had interrupted. Stepping out into the cold of the hall, she gently closed the door, cutting off a lustful moan. Closing her eyes, she took a few deep breaths. It’s fine. It’s fine, she repeated, fighting back the jealous feelings. Inuyasha sleeps with Sango all the time. This is just like that. Feeling her cheeks return to normal, she opened her eyes. After the initial shock had faded, she was able to see how much she was overreacting to the situation – or so she told herself. Something was off about it, but she couldn’t quite place it. Had she been disgusted or aroused by the sight? She was sure she didn’t want to find out.
The cold air against her skin broke into her thoughts. Shivering, she hurried off towards the downstairs bathroom. With luck, Miroku would still be using it. If Inuyasha was going to have his fun, why shouldn’t she?
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It was surprising how well Kikyo meshed with everyone. By the end of the first week, it felt as if she was a regular member of the house, not an unexpected visitor. Kagome was surprised at how quickly she became apathetic to her sisters presence. She no longer became flustered upon stumbling on her sister in an intimate moment – even if that intimate moment happened to be with Inuyasha. The sight still seemed to disturb her on a subconscious level. It wasn’t because she was sharing her future husband with her sister. Kagome knew how similar she looked to her sister. Yes, there were plenty of differences separating them, but given them only a quick glance and they appeared identical. So in a way, it was like watching her clone with Inuyasha. Whenever she would see Kikyo and Inuyasha together, she couldn’t help but wonder if that’s how she looked when they were together.
“I wonder if something’s wrong with me,” she muttered aloud. Across from her, Sango looked up in confusion.
“Huh?”
Her cheeks flushed a light shade of red, realizing she had spoken aloud. “Sorry, just thinking aloud.”
Sango had already taken an interest, setting her magazine down and focusing her attention on Kagome. “Come on, out with it.”
Sighing, Kagome hung her head. They were alone in the house at the moment, no one to overhear her concerns. “Do you think it’s weird that I’m allowing Kikyo to sleep with Inuyasha?”
Sango was silent for a few seconds. “A little, but that’s because I know why you two had your falling out.”
“Yeah, well that was the past. This past week, I’ve really noticed how much she’s changed, how different she is from the Kikyo I knew.” She paused before returning the conversation back to where it started. “So it’s not because she’s my sister?”
“No, but then again, I’m a horrible person to ask if you want a socially kosher answer.” Sango stared intently at her. “You are okay with it, right?”
“Of course,” she answered automatically. It surprised her how quickly it came out. It seemed like that was her go-to answer. She grinned. “God, we are such perverts.”
Her friend laughed. “I know, great isn’t it? Say, you ever think of… you know… with her.” Sango tried to make it sound like it was no big deal, but Kagome could hear the unease in her voice. It completely caught Kagome off guard. It took a few seconds just for her to register what her friend was asking.
“What? With Kikyo?!” Kagome was completely flabbergasted by her friend’s question. It was something that was light-years from Kagome’s mind, and suddenly she found herself face-to-face with it.
Sango knew she had asked something stupid, her face red in embarrassment. She was too far into it to deftly maneuver out, so, classic Sango, she bludgeoned forward. “W-well, not j-just you two. I-I mean, like – share Inuyasha with h-her. Or M-Miroku,” she added quickly. Kagome had never seen Sango so red before. That almost shocked her as much as the question. The lighthearted nature was gone. Sango was asking in earnest. Kagome wasn’t going to be able to brush it off with a small quip.
She found herself red faced as well, the heat of her cheeks radiating against the cooler air of the house. “I-I’ve never thought about it.”
Sango was shaking her head. “No, no of course not. Forget I asked.” She buried her head in her hands. “God I’m so stupid.”
“Sango?”
“No, no, please, I don’t know what came over me. Forget I asked.”
“Sango,” she repeated, her voice deeper than usual. Slowly, Sango peeked out from behind her hands. Her tone took a more gentle tone. “I’m not mad, talk to me.”
“Sorry,” she said, taking a deep breath. It was several minutes before she collected herself enough to speak. “Please don’t tell Miroku.”
The request took her completely by surprise. She was laughing before she could stop herself. “Sorry, sorry,” she said, struggling to reign in her laughter. “Don’t tell Miroku what?”
“That I’m a pervert,” she said, face reddening from Kagome’s laughter.
Reaching across the table, Kagome gently patted her hand. “Sango, I’m pretty sure he already knows that.”
“No, I mean… about what I asked earlier.”
Kagome felt her head tilt to the side. “Want to talk about it?”
“There’s nothing really to talk about.” Her eyes met with Kagome’s. “Maybe it’s because I don’t have a sister, but I find the idea incredibly hot. But you’re not me, you probably find the idea disgusting. I was stupid to ask. Sorry.”
“Stop beating yourself up. It’s fine. A question’s never hurt anyone, right?” Sango didn’t look convinced. “I’m not going to tell anyone and I don’t think any less of you.”
Sango chuckled nervously. “Well, I’m glad that wasn’t embarrassing or anything.”
Glad to have an outlet, Kagome had a hearty laugh, thankful the intense atmosphere had passed. She had probably just discovered one of Sango’s deepest secrets. Yes, it was weird, but then again, everyone was. Kagome was sure some of her secrets would shock Sango. Sango was entitled to her likes and dislikes, just like everyone else was, no matter how – odd – they may be. Kagome wasn’t a close-minded individual and refused to let this newly discovered side of Sango affect her feelings for her.
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Kagome had no way of knowing the power of Sango’s words until much later. She had written off the sudden discovery almost as soon as the conversation had ended. But what has been heard cannot be unheard. True to her word, her perception of her friend never changed. Sango was, and always would be, Sango, her dearest and most important friend. However, Sango’s idea had stayed with Kagome long after the words had faded. She had been forced to face something inconceivable on her own, and while she easily rejected it, it did not fade into the oblivion. It had rooted itself deep inside her, changing her in unperceivable ways.
She didn’t notice the changes right away. How her eyes lingered a few seconds longer on her sister as she walked past or how her heart beat a little faster at the sound of her impassioned cries. When she did catch herself staring, she quickly dismissed or suppressed any thoughts of something changing.
With a new partner in the house, things had become more sporadic. Inuyasha was coming over every night after work. Kagome was gone most of the day, finishing up work on her classes. When she returned, she usually found Sango, Miroku, and Kikyo together. She was usually able to borrow Miroku for a quick one to unwind after a stressful day. Out of the corner of her eye, she would watch Sango and Kikyo together as they waited for Miroku and her to finish. After Kagome finished, she would retire to her room to prepare for the next day until Inuyasha came.
Nearing the end of the second week, the five had become a lot more open. It was not uncommon for Kikyo to be riding Inuyasha with Kagome and Sango sharing Miroku right next to them. They never had a set ritual, preferring to just go with what felt right. This particular night, Kikyo had claimed both men, leading them seductively up the stairs while Kagome and Sango finished cleaning up dinner.
“Things have certainly gotten a lot crazier around here, haven’t they?” Sango said with an amused smile as she watched Miroku head up the stairs.
“You’re telling me.”
“It’s been fun though, right?”
“I guess so.” Kagome wasn’t sure if she enjoyed it as much as everyone else, but she wasn’t about to drag down anyone else’s fun.
“I wonder when she’s going back.” Kagome only shrugged in response. “I won’t lie, I’m going to miss her.”
“Maybe I will too,” Kagome reluctantly agreed. She grinned over at Sango. “Maybe.”
After cleaning up, the two women headed upstairs. “Kagome,” Sango said as she headed towards her room.
“Hmm?” she asked, turning around.
“Mind if I share your bed?”
Kagome found herself smiling. “You don’t have to ask.” As they headed towards her room, Kagome thought about how long it had been since she had been with only Sango. The last time she remembered was a very long time ago. Kagome paused as she passed Sango’s room. They had left the door wide open, Kikyo’s loud moans flooding the hallway. Her eyes fell on her sister, sandwiched between the two men, rocking from the force of their thrusts. Her heart was racing as her eyes took in the scene before her. Her sister’s skin glistening with sweat, breasts swaying above Inuyasha’s face, the look of pure bliss on her face as she leaned back to give an awkward kiss to Miroku. It was like all those years ago, only instead of disgust, she felt a slight pull towards the sight. She couldn’t look away, not in horror, but interest.
“You coming?” Sango asked behind her, snapping her out of her reverie.
“Yeah, sorry,” she said, pulling her eyes away. She quickly hurried into her room, afraid to look back. Her heart thundered in her ears, not from the erotic sight she had just witnessed or excitement from the upcoming sex with Sango. While she had a particular fondness for being sandwiched between two men like Kikyo had, it was not witnessing it that excited her.
Kagome was only half there as she returned Sango’s kisses, her hands simply going through the motions of undressing her. Her mind was still processing other things; like why she had been transfixed by the sight of her sister. God damn it Sango… why did you have to say something weird like that?
Sango only had a portion of her attention until her head slipped down between her legs. The moment her friends tongue touched her sensitive lips, all thoughts and worries fell away. Relaxing back on the bed, she closed her eyes, enjoying the pleasure Sango gave her. Her lips quivered as she took a shaky breath. There would be plenty of time to think about things later. Right now, she would just enjoy the moment and focus on returning the favor.
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“Inuyasha?”
“Yeah?” he asked, half turning his head towards her, his attention still on the menu. It was one of the rare moments they were alone. Kagome needed to get out of the house, catch a breather. It was the second week since Kikyo showed up, and all life seemed to be now was work and sex. This entire coffee run was a pretext to being alone with Inuyasha, even if only for an hour.
The coffee shop was loud enough to mask their conversation. The buzz of the other people talking and the grinding of coffee grounds were making it difficult to hear at a normal level. Still, she kept her voice down as she spoke, knowing Inuyasha could hear just fine. “Kikyo’s been here for a while now…” she started.
“Yeah,” he answered plainly. He rubbed his chin as his eyes moved over the menu.
“I notice you two have been spending a lot of time together.” To an outsider, it might sound innocent enough. Ever since Kagome gave her blessing, she noticed the two were together an awful lot. I don’t want to sound jealous but… It worried her a little. She knew Sango’s intentions. She had made it clear she was with Inuyasha for the great sex. Kikyo however… she was different. Kagome had no idea what her sister’s intentions were. Even if what she said about having a partner at home was true, she had made it clear she was perfectly willing to move to the next one at the snap of a finger.
This got Inuyasha’s attention. Ignoring the menu, he turned his eyes to her. “What’s this about?”
“Nothing,” Kagome said, trying to sound innocent. “I’m just making an observation.”
“Kagome, I know there is something deeper to this.” There was a slight pause. “You did give me permission.”
“I know.”
“Do you want me to stop?” he asked before she could say anything else.
“If I said yes, would you?” she challenged, meeting his gaze.
“Of course,” he answered immediately.
He didn’t even pause to think about it. “Really?” she sounded as surprised as she was.
He seemed bewildered by her surprise, then his eyes narrowed. “I know what’s going on.”
“You do?” she said, her heart skipping a beat.
He grinned. “You’re jealous.”
“I am not!” she said. It was a little too quick, too forceful. She marched forward in line, hoping to mask her embarrassment.
“You totally are!” he said, not letting her escape. His hand reached out to grab her arm, holding her back. “Kagome, look at me.” Turning, she stared into his golden eyes, trying her best to keep a pout on her lips. “There is nothing there.” Her eyes narrowed. “I swear it!” His eyes glanced nervously around; making sure no one was paying attention. “Let me ask you this: why are you always with Miroku?”
Her face flushed. “H-he’s fun to be with,” she said, embarrassed having to put words to her feelings. It was hard admitting that another man was just as fun to be with as your fiancée. Maybe more… The forbidden nature of it appealed to her, just as the threesomes and group sex did.
“Do you love him?”
“In a friend sort of way, yes,” she answered in a cautious tone.
“Well, it’s kind of like that for Kikyo and I. That’s it.” He paused. “And it would be a stretch to think of us as ‘friends.’”
“Really?”
̶ 0;Really,” he answered with a nod. She let out her breath, nodding slowly.
“Sorry,” she said. She should have trusted him more. Understood that what they shared was unique.
He squeezed her shoulder, giving her a wide smile. “It’s fine. Come on, let’s order and get home. People are waiting.”
She smiled back. Seeing him, she couldn’t help it. “Yeah,” she said, her right hand brushing over the ring on her finger.
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Kagome knew she had too much to drink. Unbalanced, she nearly tripped over her own legs exiting the taxi. She shook her head, blinking a few times in a vain attempt to bring some clarity to her mind.
“That will be $23 even,” the driver said, unfazed by her ruffled appearance.
She gave him a twenty and ten, waving the change away. He gave her a smile, touched the front of his ball cap, and drove away. Turning, she stumbled towards the house. Ugh, why did I drink so much? Instead of the virgin drinks she was supposed to get, she gave the bartender the signal to make it with the alcohol. She was drunk enough to lose some coordination, but sober enough to know tomorrow morning was going to be a bitch. Her dress was rumpled, her hair disheveled. Her bangs stuck to her forehead and the sweat made her feel disgusting.
Fumbling with the keys, she struggled to unlock the door. Her head was swimming as she tried key after key, temporarily forgetting which one it was. She giggled as she struggled to fit a key that was obviously too big to fit. “Silly Inuyasha… You’re not going to fit.” Her voice slurred slightly as she switched to the next key.
Finally, she managed to unlock the door and get herself inside. She immediately headed towards the shower, stripping as she went. The warm water against her skin felt amazing in her inebriated state. Her hand ran down her stomach before gently running over her slit. She closed her eyes, taking a deep breath. It was a little foggy, but she remembered sleeping with someone at the club. One of her customers got lucky in one of the dark corners of the club. Or was it two guys? She tried to think back on it, running a hand through her hair. Yeah… it was two. Someone had noticed what they were up to and decided to join. While only the guy buying her drinks was lucky enough to get actual penetration, the newcomer seemed perfectly happy with her blowjob.
Finished with the shower, Kagome dried herself off and wrapped the towel around herself. I’ll clean up the clothes tomorrow, she told herself as she climbed the stairs. She ignored Sango’s room as she passed, the door was closed anyways. She figured the four were probably fast asleep after a long night. Entering her room, she was surprised to find her bed occupied. The light from the hall illuminated the two figures as they moved in almost complete silence, their harsh breaths the only sound in the room.
Kikyo turned her head. In the dim light, Kagome could see her surprised look. Below her, Inuyasha looked over too. “Kagome! You’re home!” she gasped, stopping her rocking motion. Kagome noticed that she stopped with Inuyasha fully inside her.
“S-sorry,” Kagome said, trying to keep her voice from slurring with marginal success. She jerked her finger back over her shoulder. “I’ll go sleep in Sango’s bed…” she said, starting to turn around.
“Wait!” Kikyo said, stopping her. Pushing herself off Inuyasha, she hopped off the bed and moved towards her sister. Kagome couldn’t help but notice the effect her sisters energetic steps did, her breasts jiggling freely as she hopped over. Grabbing both of Kagome’s hands, she held them close, their eyes meeting. “Don’t tell me you forgot what today is.”
“Huh?” she said, shaking her head. She wasn’t comfortable so close to a naked Kikyo, but she was unable to step back. Kikyo’s grip on her hands prevented that.
“Kikyo,” Inuyasha said, pushing himself up on his elbows. “Don’t worry about it. She’s had a bit much to drink. Let her sleep.”
She glanced over her shoulder. “Oh, she can at least wish you a happy birthday.”
Kagome blinked in surprise. “B-birthday?” She had no idea it was his birthday. She looked around her sister to make eye contact with him. “Today?” He nodded slowly.
“You didn’t know?” Kikyo asked, surprised.
“I had no idea…” Kagome said, not quite believing she didn’t know such an important thing.
“Don’t worry about it. I never told you. Besides, I’ve never been big on celebrating my birthday.”
“Don’t say that!” Kikyo exclaimed. “It’s your birthday! A day for celebration!”
“I didn’t get you a gift,” Kagome said grimly, as if she was supposed to have known to get one, the alcohol still making her thoughts fuzzy. Kikyo and Inuyasha shared a look, before laughing at her rather silly statement. She pushed her lower lip out, knowing they were laughing at her. “What? It’s not funny!”
“Ah Kagome,” Kikyo said with a sigh. “I think we can find some way to celebrate.” With that, she leaned forward, her lips meeting hers. Kagome felt her body grow ridged, caught off guard by the unexpected kiss. Her sister gently pulled away, giving her an appraising look, studying her reaction.
“I… uh…” Kagome said stupidly. The combination of shock and alcohol made it impossible to deal with what just happened. Kikyo leaned in again. Kagome gave no resistance. She could feel her body slowly start to relax as a tongue ran across her lips. When their lips separated again, Kagome found herself meeting her sister’s gaze. She could see the unspoken question Kikyo was asking. Is it okay to go farther? Realization dawned on Kagome; still a little slow from the drinks. My god… she wants to have a threesome! Her eyes flicked over to Inuyasha. He looked as surprised as she was, but there was something else in his eyes: arousal.
Looking back at her sister, Kagome pulled a hand free. Reaching up, she gave a slight tug at her towel. It fell away, pooling around her feet. She watched as the smile grew across her sister’s face…
(Warning: The following lemon contains incest tones. If you do not wish to read this, please skip to the next bolded text.)
Kagome didn’t know if it was the work of the alcohol or her own latent desires coming to the surface, but it was like she had become possessed. Lips locked with her sister, she drove herself down onto Inuyasha with all the force she could muster. Her hips rolled and swayed as he bucked himself against her. Kikyo separated for breath, moaning as Inuyasha’s tongue snaked its way into her, wiggling and flicking around her sensitive spots. Bending back slightly, Kagome focused on driving herself as fast and hard as she could. Kikyo smiled as she reached over, cupping her flopping breasts. Kagome cried out, her mind going wild. She could feel her sister’s tongue against the exposed flesh, running along the gentle swell of her breasts to flick the nipples playfully.
Kagome smiled down at her sister before tossing her head back, a long, frustrated groan escaping her lips. She wanted it harder, faster. Below them, the bed creaked from the force, yet she desired more. “Oh god yes! Yes!” she cried, knuckles white as she gripped the bedding. Her orgasm was one of the most intense she had ever experienced. The room spun around her as her body jerked. For a brief second, she wondered if she was going to pass out as she shrieked loudly. Slowly, she managed to catch her breath, every exhale a soft moan.
“Good?” Kikyo asked with a smile.
Kagome grinned back. “The best,” she whispered before leaning to meet her with a kiss.
After a quick pause to move around, she found herself on her back with Kikyo’s head between her legs. Hands on the back of her sister’s head, she closed her eyes, enjoying the sensations her tongue brought. Somewhere in the back of her mind, there may have been a voice protesting this, shouting at how this entire situation was wrong. If it was there, Kagome never heard it. Her moans were full of encouraging words, urging her sister on. She could feel Kikyo’s face push against her lips with each of Inuyasha’s thrusts.
“I’m going to cum,” Inuyasha gasped, his eyes locking with hers. She could see the lust in his eyes. How much this was turning him on. Two sisters together, close enough that they might be twins. It was a man’s wet dream. She could see his eyes pleading with her. She knew what he wanted to hear.
“Cum in her,” she growled, Kikyo’s tongue still probing inside her. “Cum in my sister.”
Closing his eyes, he gave a few powerful thrusts before gasping. As his orgasm faded, the three collapsed to the bed, gasping for air. The silence stretched on as their breathing returned to normal.
“Inuyasha?” Kagome said, her voice soft.
“Yeah?” he asked, raising his head to meet her gaze.
She smiled, warmth bubbling up from inside. “Happy birthday.”
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(Okay, it’s safe again)
Inuyasha had pushed himself harder than he ever had before, the three finally collapsing in exhaustion early in the morning. Kagome found herself to the right of him, Kikyo on the other side. Both had cuddled against him, their hands linked as they fell asleep.
Kagome was not one to remember her dreams, let alone know she was in one. It was an odd feeling and sometimes disorienting. It was like her mind would not make up its mind on whether she was a part of the dream, or witnessing it; her point of view constantly switching from first person to third.
Kagome knew she was married. The wedding ring on her finger replaced the engagement ring. She was Inuyasha’s apartment – no – it was their apartment now. It was odd how foreign it seemed yet still felt like home. They had been married a few years, Inuyasha working hard to get his own business off the ground while she remained at home. She was tutoring someone… a neighbor’s kid. Books of various subjects sat ignored on the desk, a lonely lamp shining light down on the unused texts. On the bed, Kagome watched herself as the young man madly slammed himself against her. His raw power and youthful energy made up for his lack of technique, but with her help, he was getting better.
It was surreal, watching herself with this younger man. Seeing her smile, urging the kid on, giving him tips, moaning when he did something right. Finished, they calmly cleaned themselves, discarding the used condom in the trash beside the bed. She was shocked to find it almost full, knowing Inuyasha never used condoms with her.
Her dream self was already getting dressed, a businesslike manner about her. “See? I knew you could do it. You just needed the proper motivation.” Her gaze moved towards a test that sat atop the text books. A large ‘B’ was written at the top of the first page.
The boy was grinning as he got up from the bed. “Thanks… for everything.”
With a smile, she moved over to give him a kiss on the forehead. “Keep it up and we’ll see some improvement… in both areas,” she said, her eyes moving down to his semi-erect cock.
“I will Mrs. Taisho!”
“Good. Come on, get dressed. We still need to go over tonight’s homework…”
The scene shifted before her conscious self, the bedroom replaced by the kitchen. Looking over her shoulder, Kagome could see the dinner table had been set with an extra plate. Her dream-self moved busily around the kitchen. There was a faint glow about her that caused her to smile. It was painfully obvious how happy she was. The love just poured from her. If this is what my life will be like…
Things moved quickly. Inuyasha returned home from work. He introduced the man with him as a prospective client. He was a balding, short, round thing; not exactly the easiest on the eyes. They were having dinner. Kagome never faked her smiles, laughing where appropriate. Inuyasha was hard at work, still trying to sell his company to the uneasy man. After dinner, Kagome served them sake, letting them discuss business as she cleaned up. The man was warming up to the Inuyasha, but the company was still new, untested.
The man excused himself to the bathroom. Kagome followed him down the hall. She flicked a light switch next to the locked door as they went into the bedroom. Her dream-self smiled towards Inuyasha as she slowly closed the door behind her. Kagome watched as her dream-self offered herself to the man. She was loud, screaming as she rode his unimpressive erection. It was more for the man’s benefit than what she was actually feeling. It was obvious the man loved every second of it. Her dream-self was being loud on purpose, to make it clear to Inuyasha what was happening behind the closed door. Kagome watched in disgust. The dream Kagome wasn’t enjoying the sex. Her enjoyment came from her partner being someone other than her husband.
Another used condom was added to the waste bin. The man shook hands with Inuyasha. Complements about Kagome were passed between the two. An agreement was made and the man left with a large smile on his face. From the doorway, a naked Kagome watched Inuyasha return from the hall. She hit the light switch, turning off the hidden camera’s planted in their living room.
It took a second for Kagome to realize what was happening in her dream world. Inuyasha had discovered his joy of videotaping Kagome with others. Their second bedroom had been converted into a video editing and storage room. Inside were scores of edited video, categorized by groupings. The more Kagome focused on this, the more the dream revealed. Kagome and men +3, Kagome and woman, Kagome and man, Kagome and woman and man, Kagome and Sango, Kagome and Miroku, Kagome Miroku and Sango, Inuyasha and Sango, Inuyasha Kagome and woman… the list went on. She was also surprised to discover Inuyasha had started a website, uploading his favorite video’s to share to the world. Her dream-self was quite popular online as well as off.
Kagome tried to dig deeper, trying to discover when Inuyasha became obsessed with videotaping her and when she had become okay with it, but as she struggled, the scene faded. The harder she tried to stop it, the quicker it dissipated.
It was snowing outside; she could see it gathering out on their balcony. They were celebrating a holiday. Kagome was overjoyed to see her mother there. Souta too. To her surprise, Kikyo and Maiko were there as well. Everyone was enjoying a nice dinner and wine. They were getting along, no fights, no arguments, and no looks of disappointment from their mother. After a wonderful night, their mother left, giving them all a kiss on the cheek before leaving with Souta. Kikyo and Maiko stayed, saying they would help clean up.
No sooner had their mother left the door, the four were in the bedroom. Maiko had her turn first with Inuyasha while the two sisters enjoyed each other. As Kagome watched, an unsettling feeling crept over her. The dream Kagome was happy, that much was clear. Everything she did was joyfully and willingly. Is this what my life will really be like? She forced herself to look away as her mirror image shared her husband with her sister. Her eyes rested on the waste bin by the bed. It was always mostly full. Never, in any dream sequence, did she see it empty. Kagome knew it was emptied on a regular basis too…
With her not focusing on the four, the scene switched again. This time, it was her and Inuyasha’s anniversary. She found herself smiling, feeling herself calm down as Inuyasha alone came into view. At least our anniversary is together. The scene expanded, coming into focus. He was standing off to the side, watching as several men huddled around her dream-self. Anniversary after anniversary, she knew they recreated the night Inuyasha proposed. She knew the men around her. They were all married men in the apartment complex. She slept with them all on a regular basis, just never all at once… except for this one day every year. For most, they had permission from their wives. After all, they could hardly deny their husbands a night with Kagome while they happily shared a night with Inuyasha. For the others, they somehow managed to keep a secret despite the rather common knowledge of Kagome’s… openness.
Kagome turned her back on the sight. There has to be a night of just Inuyasha and I. She thought back to her wedding night. The pieces of her wedding dress were scattered across the hotel room floor. One of the reasons why Inuyasha paid the small fortune for the room was for the massive bed. There was where Kagome found them. Inuyasha was with Kikyo and Maiko. Beside him were the new bride, riding the best man and making out with the maid of honor. The entire scene seemed to move like it was in fast-forward. They switched positions and partners freely. Sango got her wish: watching intently as Kagome and Kikyo enjoyed each other and Miroku before moving to Inuyasha after thoroughly exhausting him.
Watching, she held a hand to her mouth, horrified. The dream Kagome loved every second of it. She didn’t care it was the night of her wedding. She didn’t care that one of the women she was having sex with was her sister. She didn’t care that she spent most of her time with men other than her husband.
Scene after scene flashed past her. More men. More women. Their collection of videos steadily grew. It eventually outgrew that room, causing Inuyasha to convert his office into an additional storage room. Kagome’s website went through crests of popularity as hundreds of thousands streamed videos of her and her exploits. The only time Kagome could find Inuyasha and her alone together was when they were watching on of her videos. They would play it, making love to the sounds of her with other men and women.
They never had kids. It was a mutual agreement that Kagome readily agreed to. It allowed them to continue living freely, and most importantly, it allowed Kagome to keep her numerous sexual partners.
No, she thought, shaking the dream equivalent of her head. No! I don’t want this! She was watching her other self, sandwiched between two men. Neither were Inuyasha, and she didn’t seem to care. Her eyes were closed, moaning in pure bliss as they pounded themselves against her. A third man appeared, moving to the side of her. Opening her eyes, she locked gazes with herself. Teasingly, she reached out to grab the new cock. Her tongue stretched out, giving it a lick before sliding it into her mouth. Her eyes never left as her head moved side to side, sliding it deeper down her throat. She released it with a ‘pop,’ half-closing her eyes as she moaned deeply. A smug smile appeared on her lips.
“I don’t want this,” she told herself, transfixed on her mirror image. The men seemed oblivious to anything besides pleasuring the woman between them.
“Oh please, I think we both know that isn’t true,” she cooed, grunting as the men increased their pace. She broke eye contact, gasping as the man behind reached around to fondle her breasts. Raising her head again, their eyes met once more. Her hand reached up to stroke the third man’s erection as it hovered inches from her face. “After all, aren’t you doing this now?”
Kagome’s mouth worked, but no words formed. Her mirror image laughed, it was a haunting laugh; one that echoed through every crack in her mind. “More men!” she cried. Kagome forced herself to step away as men began to appear from nothing. “More!” she cried, louder. Kagome was backpedaling as fast as she could, men appearing all around her. “MORE!”
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“No!R 21; Kagome gasped, shooting up in bed. The world swam around her, blackness threatening to take her. The light from her window nearly blinded her. Pain thudded in her head, causing her to press her palms against her temples and squeeze. She was covered in sweat, her portion of the covers kicked off. She slowly forced her eyes open, taking in the world around her. Turning her head, she found Inuyasha sleeping soundly, a thin smile on his face. Seeing him, she felt herself calming down, her nightmare starting to fade. Then her eyes settled on the woman beside him. Memories of the night before flooded back. Kagome’s cheeks flushed as her eyes widened at the sight of her nude sister.
I didn’t… we didn’t… Her eyes darted between Inuyasha and Kikyo. Oh god, no, no, no! She leapt from the bed, hand covering her mouth. She nearly went face first into the floor as her food caught in the covers. Shaking it loose, she bolted to the bathroom. She gaged as her stomach twisted, shoving everything it had upwards. Kagome let out a sob as her body dry heaved several times, her stomach trying to remove what it did not have.
Exhausted, she rolled away from the toilet, collapsing against the wall. Sango appeared at the door, a concerned look on her face. Her eyes moved from her to the toilet, then back to her. “Good god Kagome, are you okay?” she asked, rushing to her side.
“Sango…” Kagome whimpered, tears burning in her eyes. Sango wrapped her arms around her. Kagome had no idea how cold she was until she felt her friend’s warmth.
“What’s wrong?” Sango asked softly, holding her tightly.
“I slept with her,” she sobbed, the tears running uncontrollably. “What the fuck is wrong with me? I slept with my sister! My own sister!”
“It’s okay Kagome,” Sango said tenderly, trying to get her away from the freezing wall. “It was just a bad experience. It’s not the first mistake you made drunk.”
“No, you don’t understand,” she gasped, trying to keep herself together. It wasn’t working well. “The fucked up part was that I liked it…”
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A hot shower helped Kagome calm down. She stood with her head down, letting the water pound against her head as she thought. She had two main concerns, the first being the incident with Kikyo, the other, and maybe the more disturbing of the two, was her dream. To her dismay, the alcohol did nothing to impair her memories of last night. It would have been better if she had awoken to not remember anything. Yes, she would still be able to piece together that something had happened between the three, but she wouldn’t know in such… detail. Living with the knowledge of what she had done, and how much she had enjoyed it, was going to be a heavy burden.
The dream was its own set of problems. Kagome didn’t believe in visions, but her subconscious had really pulled a number on her. That she remembered it at all was a testament to how much it had shocked her. Until now, sex had always been just that. She loved it, all of it. Still, she wanted a special someone in her life. Inuyasha was a compromise between her two desires that was almost too good to be true. He was a man she truly loved, and loved her back, yet was more than happy to allow her the freedom to have other lovers. Even when they finally married, Kagome had every intention of continuing this way of life. The dream put some things into perspective. She had a long life before her. Inuyasha would be a part of it, but his role seemed so small. There was something wrong with the one she loved being delegated to such a small role in her life. In the dream, Inuyasha had been nothing more than another sex partner she just so happened to life with. She didn’t want that. She didn’t want Inuyasha to be something so distant. The path she was following just seemed so… empty. In the dream, she was using sex to fill that emptiness, mistaking the temporary pleasure for true happiness. She deserved better, and so did Inuyasha.
Turning the water off, Kagome took her time drying off. She dreaded leaving the comfort of the bathroom, knowing the inevitable confrontation would come. Inuyasha and Kikyo were undoubtedly awake by now. Maybe they are having a morning fuck… Her stomach twisted, remembering last night. What would she do if they were? What if they asked her to join? Was this going to become a common occurrence? She leaned towards the sink, her arms holding her weight up. Head up, she stared at her reflection in the foggy mirror. “What the hell are you doing Kagome?” she asked the reflection, standing up to run her hands through her wet hair.
She held up her left hand, staring at the ring on her finger. Everything she was doing with her life betrayed what it stood for. It would be hard. Even knowing it had to be done, she still fought against it, trying to find reasons to continue. She couldn’t – wouldn’t – let things continue like this. Giving all this up wasn’t what worried her. In time, she knew she would be okay. Inuyasha on the other hand…
Taking a shaky breath, she stared at the woman in the mirror. This would be the last time she saw her. From this point on, she was going to make things how they should have been from the start.
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“Kagome.” Kikyo’s voice was soft. Her manner was difficult to read. She seemed subdued, embarrassed, maybe even ashamed. Maybe I’m not the only one regretting last night. It wouldn’t make it better, but maybe it would help.
“Kikyo,” her voice was low as well. She could feel her face heating at the sight of her sister, unable to stop the images of her naked, face contorted in pleasure. Even now, Kagome felt the pull towards her. Knowing it was wrong only made the yearning stronger. Why am I always attracted to the taboo? It had started with sleeping with her best friend’s boyfriend and spiraled wildly out from there. The orgies, gangbangs, swinging, and ultimately incest; all of them spawned from her attraction to the ‘wrongness.’
“Listen, about last night…” her sister started. Her eyes were down, unable to meet the ones so similar to her own. “I… I don’t know what came over me.”
“I know.”
“No, you… you have an excuse. You were drunk, not all there. But me… I wanted it. I wanted you.”
“I did too.” She had to be honest. Lying about it wouldn’t make the problem go away. She needed to face it directly. Still, admitting it… She could feel her face heating up. “I enjoyed it too. Way more than I should have.”
Kikyo seemed surprised by her admission, finally meeting her eye. “Y-you enjoyed it?” It was clear she had not been expecting to hear that. The distress in her voice was apparent.
“But it’s not something I want to repeat.” Her words had an instant effect on Kikyo. She visibly relaxed, like a great burden had been lifted. Kagome realized how afraid her sister had been about her wanting a repeat experience.
“I… I see. M-me too, I don’t…” Once more, she looked away.
“Kikyo?” she reached out to place her hand on her sister’s shoulder. She tensed briefly at the touch, but quickly relaxed, looking up. “What happened, happened. In a way, I’m thankful this happened.”
“Really?”
Kagome gave a firm nod. “It gave me the kick in the ass I needed to do what I needed to do a long time ago.” She sighed. “This lesson had a high price tag however. I… I don’t want what happened to come between us. We’ve changed a lot over the years. I want us to be sisters again.”
There was a long pause. Kikyo slowly shook her head, chuckling softly. “Since when did you become the older sister?” Looking up, she wore a forced smile. “I… I want that too. Maybe after some time…”
Kagome nodded in agreement. “We fucked up pretty bad, haven’t we?”
“Yeah… I’m going to go back home. Maiko and I… We are going to have a long talk.”
Kagome wrapped her sister in a hug, the other returning it with equal fervor. What struck Kagome as odd was how the incident had brought them closer, yet struck a wedge between them. In time, things would be better. She wished her sister the best. It seemed like she had learned something by this as well. When they met again, maybe both of them would be ready to be sisters again.
“Good-bye Kagome,” Kikyo said, pulling away. “I’m sorry, about everything.”
“Don’t worry about it. This needed to be done, I just kept denying it.”
As she walked past, Kikyo rested her hand on Kagome’s shoulder, giving it a quick squeeze. “Good luck with everything. I really hope things work out.”
Kagome took a deep breath. “Yeah… Me too.”
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“Inuyasha?” ; Kagome called out softly. She almost felt glad when she didn’t hear his answer right away. Stepping into her room, she closed the door behind her. Inuyasha was busy pulling his pants up. “Inuyasha?” she asked again. This time, he looked back at her.
“Kagome!” he said, a wide smile plastered on his face. He looked like he had just won the lotto. “Morning!” he said, moving over to her to give her a quick kiss before searching around the floor. “Have you seen my shirt?”
She felt her throat tighten. Just do it. Get it out there. If you don’t say it now, you never will. “Inuyasha, we need to talk.” Those five words were the hardest she had ever spoken. She almost wasn’t able to get them out.
He was still looking around for his shirt. “This is about last night, isn’t it?”
“Yeah.” Kagome was surprised things were going so well. I haven’t gotten to the hard part yet.
Inuyasha stopped looking around and turned to her, approaching her slowly. Kagome didn’t resist as he bent forward to plant a soft kiss on her lips. “Kagome, you have no idea how much last night meant to me. I don’t think it will ever be topped. I mean… wow… just wow… Incredible doesn’t even begin to describe it.”
She knew he would love it, but a part of her wished he was as disturbed by it as she had been. “Inuyasha, last night was a mistake.”
“What? No! No, it was wonderful! Listen, if it was because you two are sisters…”
“No! I mean, yes!” She pressed her fingers against her temples, not looking at him. “I just… I just don’t think we should be doing this anymore.” She was amazed she didn’t pass out. It certainly felt like she was ready to. But I said it! I said it!
“Do what?”
“This!” she said, gesturing to the floor. Yes, most of the clothes were her own, but several of Sango’s bras and panties were scattered around as well. She was sure one of the black bras was Kikyo’s as well. “We are engaged, and I think… maybe we should start acting like it.”
There was a long silence. “What are you trying to tell me?”
“That… we shouldn’t be with other people.” Her words pained her far more than she was comfortable with.
The silence was longer this time. “Even Sango and Miroku?”
“Yes,” she said, feeling like she was tearing a chuck out of herself in the process. She had debated briefly excluding them from the ban, but knew that if she allowed it, she would eventually find herself back where she was now. If we’re going to do this, we do it all the way.
“You really want this?” he said, his voice low.
“I do,” she said with a nod.
“And what about me?”
“I… what?” she was thrown off by his question.
“Did you think of what I wanted when you decided on this?” He sounded angry. “Did you talk to me about this before deciding how I would live my life?”
“W-we’re talking now.”
He snorted. “Yeah, after you made the decision.”
“Inuyasha,” she said stepping forward. “I don’t want to live like this. I don’t want to be this person!”
“This person?” he said, his voice rising.
“The slut who sleeps with anyone willing! The whore who happily shares the man she loves! The nymphomaniac who enjoys sleeping with her sister!” she yelled, unable to keep her emotions in check. She wasn’t angry at him, not really. The anger stemmed in herself, for letting herself become what she hated.
“You mean the woman I love!” he yelled. Kagome was shocked into silence. He continued, his voice lower than normal. “You say you don’t want to be this woman, but she – you – are who I feel in love with.”
Kagome could feel the sting of tears, her vision blurring. “So, what…? What are you saying?”
He sighed, shaking his head. “I think last night shook you up.” His voice was abnormally calm. “I understand last night could be a little weird for you—”
“A little? A little?! Inuyasha, I slept with my sister!”
“You enjoyed it every bit as I did and don’t you dare say otherwise!”
“God damnit Inuyasha! Have you not listened to anything I’ve said?”
“Oh I hear you just fine. You know what I hear? Lies. You are lying to yourself Kagome.”
Tears ran down her face. “How could you say that?”
“Because we’ve been down this road before. You wrestle with your conscience about how wrong it is, how much you don’t want this. Yet this always ends the same way, you happily spreading your legs to Miroku or a dozen other guys. You know what I think? I think you get off on this tortured morality bullshit.”
“You fucking bastard!”
“Oh, so now I’m the bastard? I’m not the one demanding a radical shift in a relationship. All because of what? You had a threesome with your sister. Please Kagome, I think you can think of a few things worse than that.”
“Get out,” she growled, seething in rage.
He sighed. “Fine, I will. When you finally come to your senses, let me know.”
“Come to my senses?” Her voice sounded eerily calm. She felt detached, like this was all happening to someone else.
“Yes. Just, give yourself some time. When you realize the mistake you are making—”
“Mistake? Mistake?” She violently wiped the tears from her cheeks.
Inuyasha’s voice was soft, like he was speaking to a child. “Kagome, I know you, I know what you like. You love this life too much to give it up.”
A fresh tear fell from her eye. Her hand took a life of its own, easily sliding the ring from her finger. It was amazing how long she had been wearing it. The skin where the ring had sat was already lighter than the skin around it. She all but threw it at the surprised Inuyasha. “Then you obviously don’t know me as well as you thought.” With that, she slammed her door in his face.
Her heart pounded, eyes widening as she realized what had just happened. She was tempted to throw open the door and beg forgiveness, but something held her back. She was not the one at fault here. She waited, staring at the door. Any second, he would open the door. They would realize how horribly out of control everything had gotten. He would realize how serious she was about this. They would talk everything out, compromise. There would be major lifestyle changes for both of them. Maybe she was wrong about cutting everything out. Surely having the occasional fling with Miroku and Sango wouldn’t hurt. She didn’t love them like she did Inuyasha, but there was still a strong connection with them. The sex was more than a mindless lust for release. Hell, she would even forgive him if he had a few moments of infidelity.
But the door never opened. After a long silence, she heard him move away from the door. It felt like a hole had been ripped open in her chest. Collapsing to her knees, she could do nothing to stop the flow of tears.
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Now, before everyone rages, I had planned from the very beginning for this to happen. There are only one or two chapters left plus the epilogue. Yes, things are looking bad, but I promise you it will be okay! I only ask that you stick around to read the next chapter.
Phew. Okay, now that I’ve said that, I hope to see you around for the next chapter.
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