InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Strength Within ❯ Way Back When ( Chapter 4 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

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AN : Thanx for all your great reviews, it means a lot to me and I wanna thank LethiferousChatelaine for helping me out with this chapter and giving me what helpful suggestions she could to help better this chapter and my writing. Now on with the story!

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Way Back When

I slowly roused from my tear induced rest. I don't even call it sleep anymore. Why should I? People sleep to gain back the energy lost while awake, am I not wrong? So why is it that when I wake up I'm always tiered? I could sleep for hours and hours yet it would not make the slightest bit of difference. That angers me. And not just that, it frustrates me too 'cause not only am I constantly tired but I have yet to dream since that day.

I lay still in my bed with my eyes still closed searching the darkness of my closed lids for that innocent smile perfected by my little sis,

that knowing one adorned by my father,

that-wait hold on a minute. What was that? What the fuck was that noise?

I suddenly spring up from my bed remembering exactly what happened before I was knocked out.

'He came back'

Well it seems that I can dream if I am to come up with this bull crap and actually believe it. Hm. I roughly through myself back on my bed now thoroughly pissed off at myself for remembering him. 'It only causes more pain to know he's not anywhere near.'

You see the little thing about Kagome and Sesshomaru is that they grew up together. They both live in the wealthy part of town with estates and such and are about one block apart from each other. Their parents were long time friends with each other so they practically saw each other everyday. Not to mention when she started school she was sent to the same private school as he as well as Inuyasha.

Now Inuyasha. Hm. Inuyasha. He was Kagome's bully, not that Kagome herself was a push over, but he would always just do something to annoy her. Pushing her books out of her hand while she walked down the hallway, trying to trip her down a flight of stairs, or always staring fist fights with her.

Now Sesshomaru. Ha. Sesshomaru. He was Kagome's knight in shining armor. Whatever Inu did he did opposite. When her books were knocked down he would help her pick them up, when she would trip he would catch her, and when Inu would start fights he would actually let her beat his ass only because it amused him to watch. He would eventually pull her off when he though he had enough or was unconscious but either way it kind of explains why Inuyasha is so absent minded all the time.

Sesshomaru and Kagome were the best of friends. Wherever one was the other was not far behind. They would walk to school together with Inuyasha lagging behind them shooting death glares at the back of Sessho's head. Now even though Sessho seemed to be stolid to everyone else, Kagome always knew exactly what he was feeling. For her, his eyes was a window to his soul that only she could look through.

Sigh. 'Yeah we were best friends until he up an left one day two years ago. And what a memorable day that was.'

I was 16 at the time with him being 18. Now I don't consider myself to be ditzy or absent minded, so one day when Inuyasha comes up to me confessing his love to me, I was floored. I was shocked into silence the whole time. We were in his living room. I had come to drag Sesshomaru out to see a movie when Inu cornered me. It seemed that every time I was there for Sesshomaru, Inu would sneer at me. I finally got fed up with it and asked him what his deal was and that's when he confessed. While he was talking he started advancing and backed me into against the wall. Amidst all of his talking and record breaking gentle words I never noticed the pair of eyes on us and if I had I never would've kissed him.






While Inu was talking to me I was so over come with emotion that I kind of just, well jumped him almost. And it being my first kiss I think I was more than memorable. I could tell he was rather shocked by my actions. Hell I was pretty stunned by my actions as well, but not as stunned as the person standing in the hall. After the initial shock we both just kind of went on autopilot and my hands tangled in his hair as his held my waist. We kind of turned around to where he was leaning on the wall instead of me. Ya know to tell you the truth I never even thought of him in that way until he said something. It's like it was lying dormant inside of me or something and his confession broke its confines. I actually did kinda like him, I mean he could be an asshole sometimes, but other times like now he was so uncharacteristically sweet.







It was like I couldn't get enough of him. I was so deprived of something I didn't even know I wanted. We broke our kiss as I kissed down his jaw and missed the smirk he through towards the hallway. He suddenly grabbed my face and kissed me hard on the lips and next thing I knew I was moaning into his mouth as his tongue caressed mine.

We turned around again and he pushed me up against the wall nipping and licking my neck. I moaned again, I was in pure ecstasy. All these new feelings running through my virgin body lit me on fire. I hugged his neck and looked over his shoulder through my heavy lust filled eyes and was startled to find a pair of tawny eyes meet mine. Tawny heartbroken eyes. I immediately pushed Inuyasha off of me.





"What's wrong?" He questioned but I wasn't hearing. Inadvertently my heart clenched at the thought of Sesshomaru witnessing our little display. The glowing eyes had disappeared from the hallway and I couldn't be sure that I had seen them, but for some unexplainable reason I just knew he was there. I ran out of the room calling his name and dashed to his room. I found it locked where I tentatively knocked, and called out his name where only slight footsteps and other various noises were my answer.





-Sesshomaru POV-

'How could I be so stupid!' I thought angrily as I began furiously packing as I remembered the look in her eyes. I decided to go ahead with what my father suggested I do long ago and leave before this goes too far. 'God! I was such a fool.' I seethed as I heard her run up the stairs and to my door. 'I can't blame her though.' And so for a second my eyes softened but then came upon my katana and wakazshi (AN: another sword that's shorter than a katana) and hardened once again. 'I was foolish to be 'friends' with her for this long knowing what would happen.' I walked before the wall where they were hung up. I gritted my teeth and clenched my fists 'Why me Father!'





-Outside his door-

Crash

"What was that! Sesshomaru?" I yelled "That's it I'm coming in!" I moved back some and ran full force towards his door and kicking it off its hinges. (AN: If anyone has seen the movie The Transporter or the commercial, ya'll know the kick I'm talking about.) I stood up from the splintered wood and slight dust to see Sesshomaru with his arm seemingly caught in the wall. "What the hell are you doing?" I ran over to him and touch his arm. He quickly sent me a glare that stopped me in my tracks as realization dawned on me. "So you killed your wall?" I questioned. "I kissed your brother so you punched a hole through your wall?" His eyes narrowed at me as I pulled his hand forcibly from the wall. I looked in his eyes when he suddenly pulled his arm from me. They looked so hurt, like I betrayed him. "Hey come on Sessho I know you hate your brother but he isn't all that bad." I said trying to get him to forgive me when instead all I got was a growl.

I tried to touch his arm again but he recoiled, that kinda hurt. "Hey come on we're still friends right?" And he sneered at me. Can you believe it! The bastard sneered at me! "Hey it wasn't like we were going out or anything or that we even felt that way about each other, so stop acting like an asshole and let me see your goddamn hand!" Something about that didn't sound quite right and it looked like Sesshomaru was giving me the death glare of the century. My heart skipped a beat at how cold he could be towards me. It's as if all those years of companionship went out the window. My temper deflated as I realized he might actually hate me. "Hey, I'm sorry Sessho, if-if you have a problem with it then there's nothing to worry about." I said no longer looking at his eyes but at the floor that separated us.

-Sesshomaru-

I could hear her knock down my door. Guess all those years of Tae Kwon Do and Tai Chi lessons paid off, but I refused to face her. Although it was not her fault, I can still blame her. She's so oblivious that it's painful. It's better to make a clean break now. She'll find out sooner or later butfor now she shall remain unaware of my job as well as her father's and mine.
But I can't leave her like thisshe'll hate mebut if I want to protect her

- Normal POV (not Kag ome's but regular Third Person)-

Sesshomaru's eyes lightened and he extended his arm for her. She looked up surprised and sighed. She grasped his hand and held it up to examine it. "You are such an asshole." He stared at me the whole time I inspected his hand. There was nothing more than a few cuts and scraps, but it was bruised like never before. "Your just terrific you know that?" Kagome said dragging him into his bathroom.

"It's not as bad as it looks." Was the first he'd said the whole time she was there. "Yeah, just tell that to your parents when they see your room. You know I'll never understand men and their need to destroy things." "This said from the girl who beat up Mickey Mouse because he looked at her weird." Kagome sat him down on a chair and moved to the medicine cabinet. "Hey don't start that with me. I was like 12 and he was like a what- 34 year pervert checking me out. What was I suppose to do?"

-Kagome-

I'm glad that the mirth returned to his eyes after that statement. Guys are so weird. Oh well what are ya gonna do about it?

I cleaned it out and bandaged his hand up. "I'll be surprised if you'll be able to even hold your sword with that hand in a week." I kidded as we left the bathroom and was met with his luggage that I had missed earlier in my hurry to clean his hand on his bed. "Planning a trip I don't know about?" He sighed "Yes, my father requires my assistance in Tokyo." I turned to face him "When are you leaving?" "Now." I did a double take. "Hm? Ok .W-WHAT? When were you planning on telling me, when you were on the fucking plane?" He turned and looked at me. "Would it matter if I did?" What is he getting at? " Of course it would! You're my best friendunless" He sighed again "I don't hate you Kagome." "Then why are you doing this? When will you be back?" "I'm not sure I'm coming back." I gawked at him. His face looked just as always. Clam. Indifferent. Apathetic. He was serious Your serious aren't you? You were gonna leave and you weren't even going to tell me. My face betrayed how hurt I was. I was just as impassive as he, as I stared deep into his amber eyes and for the first time in my life I couldn't read them. I couldn't define the emotion, I couldn't tell what he was thinking and that scared me. Have a nice trip. And with that I left the room stepping over his mahogany door, out into the hallway, down the stairs and out the door.

That was the last time we had spoken. After I left, the next day me and Inuyasha became official. I guess at first I did it because I was mad at Sesshomaru and wanted a fill in for that part of my life, but after a while I thought I loved him. I guess now I realize I didn't considering I could care less about him now. Or maybe is it that I have more important things to worry about. Come to think about it I haven't really assessed my feelings on him since that call a while back. All I know is that he's a bastard and that's that.

Thud

OK I know I heard that, and there's not suppose to be anyone here but me. Maybe it wasn't a dream...Maybe he is back.