InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Strength Within ❯ Lose Control ( Chapter 5 )

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AN: Hey, I hope the last chapter cleared up a lot of stuff for you guys about what happened between the Kagome and Sesshomaru two years ago, and without further ado I give ya chapter 5.

Disclaimer: I don't own Inu.

Lose Control

I could've sworn it was a dream. But it's not. Or I'm having one hell of a hallucination.

Nope. It's real. He really is just lounging around in the living room watching TV…Wow…mmmhk…awkward…

It's not like I can just walk up to him and say - "Hey Kagome." "Hey Sessh."

……..

Well that was fairly easy.

(sigh) I really am a coward.

I cross the room and take my place beside him watching TV and glance at him. `He's really here…interesting, very interesting.'

"How long was I knocked out for?"

"You slept through the night."

"Really? Damn. Oh well, I'm gonna go out and get something to eat." and I added as an after thought. "I don't expect you to be here when I get back."

He turned to look at me. "Why is that?"

"Well I'm not going to entertain the idea of us becoming friends again when I'm sure you only intended to be courteous last night. I thank you for staying with me thus far but your presence no longer needed. I'm sure you have better things to do than to baby-sit me."

"No." He stated.

I quickly turned to him. "No?"

"No I don't have anything better else to do or I would've been doing it."

"Well that's comforting."

"Meaning I am here because I want to be. Meaning there is nothing more important to me right now than being here with you."

At those words I couldn't help but turn back into the old Kagome, not completely, but if anything only for a few seconds. So I did what the old Kagome would've done. I jumped on him.

"Really?"

He was quite taken by surprise when I jumped on him. With a WOOSH all the air was gone from his lungs. He just managed to gasp out a "No"

I sat up quickly. "What?"

"Yes! Of course I meant it now if you don't mind, removing your person from my lower region, I'm sure my kids would greatly appreciate it."

"Hmm?" I glance down in between us to find my knee in between his legs. You never saw a better tomato impersonation in your life. "Oh! Sorry." I said as I quickly jumped off him. He righted himself again then spoke, while facing me.

"You thought I only said those things yesterday out of courtesy?"

I looked down guiltily at my hands in my lap. "Well yeah, I mean is it that far fetched?" I turned to look up at him. "You left for god knows where for two years and all the while you were there, not a letter, phone call or anything. So it seemed like you just didn't care about me and our friendship anymore." All the while I said this his face slowly turned back into that familiar guarded expression he wore so much, like he felt guilty. "Then when last week you called out of the blue like that, it just felt forced. Like you called just so I couldn't say you didn't or something. Then when you showed up yesterday it just seemed more like anything that you were- I don't know- that you pitied me. That you thought I was so weak that I couldn't take care of myself so you came back, out of necessity and obligation not of want and free will."

He stared at me for a while before he made any attempt to address what I said. "Just because I didn't contact you doesn't mean I didn't want to." Was his cryptic response.

I gave him a deadpanned look and told him to get real. I got up to run upstairs and shower when he followed me.

"Why is it you have a hard time believing what I say?" Was what he asked when we reached my room.

"Well It's not like you give me a reason to. When you up and left like that, that really did some major damage to our friendship."

He grunted in response. I went over to grab my robe and turned to walk to my bathroom which was connected to my room. "Will it ever be the same?" He asked so low I almost didn't here. "That is entirely up to you."

And with that I disappeared behind the bathroom door locking it behind me when I heard "I'll be hear when you get out."

I smiled to myself and quickly washed as to not keep my guest waiting any longer. I exit and through on a pair of my white and purple Baby Phat smocked terry shorts along with the matching club tee and sneakers.

This is the longest I've gone without feeling sorry for myself. Maybe I need him more than I think I do.

I reach downstairs to find him in the kitchen making breakfast.

"Didn't know I had anything in the fridge."

"You didn't." Was his curt reply.

"Didn't know you could cook."

"I can."

"What are you making?" I sighed going over to the cabinets to get some dishes.

"Something." "I see you haven't changed much."

I put the dishes down and moved next to the stove to get the utensils. He removed the pan from the fire and turned towards me and stopped. I had yet to notice and went about with setting the island in the middle of the kitchen.

"I see you've changed." He said referring to my clothes.

I was bent over the counter arranging the silverware. "Oh yeah? How so?" He moved towards the counter and put the contents of the skillet on to a plate I had placed there. "Well for one you never used to wear clothes like THAT." He said motioning to my outfit while he turned towards the sink.

I looked down at myself. "And just what may I ask is wrong with what I am wearing?" He walked over and sat opposite me where I was still standing looking at my clothes. He looked up at me and said "Well you used to be modest not to mention a tomboy."

I narrowed my eyes at him and sat down on a stool. "Hm. I am still a tomboy, I'll have you know. It's just that I stopped with the martial arts and stuff." He looked up from his food at me. "You stopped fighting? Why?" I stopped eating. My gaze left his. "I stopped fighting because it re- I didn't have enough time with Track." `Shimatta! I hope he didn't notice that. The last thing I need is for him to know I stopped because it reminded me of him.' I chanced a glance at him and just caught how his eyes widened slightly before turning back to normal. `Damn! He noticed!'

"Damn!" I swore under my breathe. "And as for my modesty-" I quickly tried to make a save by changing the subject when he interrupted me.

"Its practically non-existent with those inconceivably short shorts and incredibly tight shirt." With that he continued eating like nothing happened while I sat there fuming with a light blush spread across my face.

"You are unbelievable you know that? There is absolutely nothing wrong with my shirt or my shorts! Hm." I crossed my arms over my chest and added "Why are you looking anyways."

"It's not like it's very hard to." I got up to get some wine to go with our meal. "If you'd rather me not look then maybe you shouldn't show." He paused and looked up at me again when I returned with the wine and glasses.

"Well maybe I want to show someone else and not you. Can't I selectively display?"

His eyes darkened. "Ahh yes. My half-wit brother ne? Well then maybe you should save those type of clothes for him and not waste them on me."

You know I've had about enough as I can take of this bull. I got up to clear the table since neither of us were eating (The whole meal probably lasted around half-an-hour to forty minutes). "Oh don't worry about that hon. I've got plenty worse than what I've got on for ol' Inu boy."

You see there is something you need to know about me. I can't handle very much liquor and anytime I do drink my vocabulary tends to get a little out of date or country if you will. It doesn't happen all the time just some and, well as you've guessed it this is just one of those times.

Sesshomaru's eyes narrowed. He knew what happened between me and his brother, so I guess the alcohol made him a little unnerved I guess.

He grunted and turned his head finishing his last glass. I came over picked up mine and walked over to his side and hopped up on the counter so that I was a little ways from him and just a little shorter. "Awww what's wrong? Is little Sesshy still mad that I hooked up with his brother?" He turned back to look at me with piercing eyes but I never wavered once. "Awww are you still sore about me courting your lousy brother?"

"Half (referring to his brother) and yes." I halted from bringing my glass to my lips. "And why is that?" He arose from his stool and stood in front of me. He took the glass from my hands and placed it behind me. He positioned both his hands on either side of my legs while giving me the same look he did before. It was that same look he gave me two years ago that I couldn't figure out.

My eyes grew heavy. My lids were barely open as I stared back at him. My breathe came out in light pants as my chest slowly rose and fell anticipating his next move.

Is it ok to lust after a friend?

I've known him all my life and not once have I looked at him the way I look at him now. A very cute, muscular, vision of absolute desired perfection. Oh yes. He is desired, very much so. In fact there is very little holding me from taking him right now.

"You deserve more than that bastard of a brother of mine can ever give you." He dipped his head lower to mine as I brought my arms up around his neck. "Really? Now how can I attain as such?" He brought his lips to touching my ears. It brought a pleasant shiver down my body as he recited these next words. "Why go looking for what you've already attained?"

I was barely holding it together. I guess I had more to drink than I thought if I'm doing all of this with Sessho. But then again, why does it feel so…right?

-Sesshomaru-

What am I doing? I shouldn't be here. I shouldn't do this, but…there is no excuse. I want her and…I think I'm drunk…Well this is pleasant.

My first time with her and we're both drunk off our asses. This is just great.

-Kagome-

It's funny really. A month ago I never would've thought any of this would've happened. I never would've thought my family would've died, never would've thought Inuyasha would cheat and dump me in such a horrid way… well actually naw I did kinda see that coming, but I digress. I never would've thought I would be making out with my best friend on my kitchen counter, but it is what I'm doing now.

His eyes were just so powerful, they just kind of pulled me in and next thing I know we were passionately kissing. His hands came to rub my thighs as I wrapped my legs around his waist.

It was like there was a million lightning blots going throw my body. My stomach took on a warm pooling feeling as he slowly thrust the bulge in his pants towards my warm center.

I moaned into his mouth and my legs tightened around him drawing him closer to me as his hands moved up my back to tangle in my hair. He brought one hand around my front to slowly knead my breast. I arched against him and we broke our kiss. I moaned as he kissed down my jaw and sucked on my neck. He removed my shirt and bra and began to suck on my breast. I was in heaven. Never had I had this done to me before. I never let Inuyasha touch me in this way. It just didn't seem right with him, it felt like he tried to hard or something. Like he was only going out with me just so we could fuck. Guess I was right.

My hands tangled in his hair messaging his scalp as he sucked and kneaded my other breast. I was feeling kind of antsy. It was like that fire I had spoke of before, when Inuyasha had kissed me, except this was like a raging inferno burning under my skin and deep within my belly. I just needed him now.

"Sesshomaru please." I pleaded as he stopped to kiss back up my neck. He smirked as he drew me into another passionate kiss as he unbuttoned his shirt. "Please what?" and he again kissed and lapped at my neck. I was getting a bit impatient. I toed off my shoes and socks. My hands came from his neck to trail down his chest and to his pants. He gave a sharp intake of breathe when I came in contact with that now very apparent projection in his pants. I made quick work of unbuckling his belt and pants. They gave way to gravity as they fell to his ankles, leaving him clad in only his boxers.

I smirked as he groaned while I messaged his lower region. He closed his eyes and leaned his head on my shoulder as his hands trailed down to rest at my shorts. I stopped my ministrations to hold his neck as he lifted me to remove the rest of my clothing.

We both looked straight on onto each others eyes. It was kind of like we weren't drunk on the account we weren't really all that ruff. It was all slow and deliberate.

My arms stayed on his neck as he, with one hand dragged down his boxers and positioned himself to enter me while his other arm wrapped around my waist. I loosened my legs a little to give him room but as soon as he drove it home I held on to him like it was my life line. You know people say that it's suppose to hurt your first time, but for me it was pure pleasure. Maybe it was that I couldn't remember it or the alcohol just numbed me or something, but I swear all I felt was him inside me.

It felt so right to be with him like that. To have him inside me, for my arms to be around his neck, his arms around my waist, his name on my lips and mine on his. This is the way it should be. I think I -I love him.

Too bad I won't remember any of this tomorrow.

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U Aren't I a stinker.