InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Summer of My Demon Lover ❯ I Never Want To See Again ( Chapter 9 )

I know, people want to kill me right now since this update has taken a while, oh well, me no care. Thanks for all of the reviews, I hope you like this though it is shorter.

WARNING: Err...pretty much everything from all of the other chapters.

DISCLAIMER: Me no own Inuyasha, The Summer Of My German Soldier, or the song that I used which is sung by Juliana Hatfield.

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Well my asumption of a great friendship that I had a few weeks back was actually right. I spent everyday of the past three weeks with Sesshoumaru. He never talked about himself, or his family, but he was still nice to be around. We still fight all of the time, but it just wouldn't be the same if we didn't.

Shippou has taken a liking to him also, even if Sesshoumaru glares at him like there is no tomorrow. I was having so much fun with my new friend that I almost forgot one major thing. My birthday is in less than a week, I didn't know how I could forget it, but Sesshoumaru had something to do with it. Spending time with him made me forget about how horrible it is at home, because I know that at least for a few hours I'm free from pain, I'm free to be me.

"Just a few more days," I whispered as I looked at myself in the mirror.

My father took his wife and my brother out shopping. Souta needed some new clothes, and his wife just couldn't resist spending my fathers money. I was alone for the most part, Kaede was here, but she was busy with her work and will probably leave as soon as everyone gets home. She doesn't like my father or his wife, she never says anything, but you can tell by the way she looks at them, like she wants to say something but she cannot bring herself to do so. In a way I admire Kaede, she has this way of looking on the bright side of things, something I have trouble doing.

Draw the shades to close my eyes
(I never want to see again)
I found the cost of courage high
(Sometimes hard to pay)
I hear the song the sirens sing
(Calling on the shore for me)
So sell your soul and try to fly
(The teather still remains)
And all the finer things they laid apon my table
Smiled as their hooks were slowly sinking in

I am going to see Sesshoumaru today, he always makes me feel better, just being near him makes me feel like something is finally right in the world. I've never felt like this, like I have a real friend that cares about me, even if its only a little. I never had anyone that really cared for me after my mother died, well there is always Souta and Kaede, and of course Shippou, but that is different then what Sesshoumaru means to me. I think of them as my family, my real family, but Sesshoumaru is a friend, one that I will always hold very close to my heart even when he's long gone, because he is taking the time to get to know me and what kind of person that I am.

"Kagome," I heard Kaede call from the living room, she must have been cleaning.

"I'll be right there," I called back as I made my way down the stairs from my room.

I took the stairs two at a time, I only did this when no one was around to tell me not to, or to punish me for being a foolish child.

"Yes?" I asked as soon as I walked into the living room, Kaede was sitting down, probably resting from doing so much work at her age.

"I was told to tell ye that your father will not be home tonight, he decided that it would be fun to visit your grandmother for the night," Kaede informed me as she fanned herself with some newspaper my father had neglected to throw out.

I was shocked, they always took me to see my grandmother, she was the only other person that loved me. She never thought it was my fault that my mother was killed, and she always made my father be nice to me. She will not be happy that he is not bringing me to see her just like I'm not happy. This is the one time that I wanted to go with them, and of course its the one time that they did not let me. They never let me out with them when they went shopping, they said that it would just be a waste of space since I had no reason to be there.

"Okay, I think I'm going to go read," I said, and went back to my room without waiting for an answer.

I sat down on my bed and picked up a book that I had been reading the night before. My step-mother always told me that reading was for girls who could not get boyfriends, but I never paid it any mind. My mother always read to me, and I loved it ever since. I loved how reading put you in a world far away from your own, even if it was just for a little while.

"This would be the perfect time to visit Sesshoumaru," I said to myself when I realized what my father and step-mother being away meant.

I put my book back down and went out my window, though there was no reason for me not to use the backdoor, I suppose I just felt like it. I walked away from the house without looking back as I made my way into the forest. I would have gone and visited Shippou, but he had been feeling ill and did not want to get me sick, though that did not stop me from bringing him some soup and reading him a story the night before.

"I'll visit him later, he is probably sleeping right now," I decided as I walked past the lake and to my home away from home.

"Sesshouaru," I called as I knocked on the door, though I did own this place, it was the polite thing to do.

Like usual though, he was not there. I knocked again, only louder, to make sure, but he still did not answer.

"Where is he now? He always seems to be gone when I come by," I sighed as I sat down infront of the door.

"Does that not tell you something?"

"Yes, it tells me that you are a jerk," and there we are, back to our bickering.

"I could be a real jerk if you ever so wish it," he said as he sat down beside me.

"You know, you're not a jerk, you're an asshole,"

"Why, thank you." he said with that smirk on his face.

Evil, evil smirk, why do you love to tease me so?

Another pill I'm to consume
(To make me learn to feel again)
Followed by another one
(To make me loose the same)
God if I could recognize
(The things to make me whole again)
And draw this air into my lungs
(Remember how to breathe)
For as the curtain rose I danced as I was able
Felt my deception slowly sinking in

Against my better judgement though, my mind went to a question I had been asking myself for weeks, and for some reason I felt the need to ask Sesshoumaru.

"Are we friends?" I asked, almost regretting that I did.

"I thought so. Why, do you not think we are?"

"I do, but I want to know what kind of friends." this was getting out of hand now.

"What do you mean?" he asked, genuinely confused.

"I mean, are we the kind of friends that spend time together, but if we are sperated for more than a few months we will forget each other. Or are we good friends, friends that care for each other?" I know I sounded stupid, but I really needed to know, I really needed another good friend.

He was silent for the longest time, I almost thought that he would burst out laughing at me.

"I say that we are good friends," when he said that my heart did backflips.

"Really? I thought so too, but I was not sure what you thought," I had to stop myself before I started talking a mile a minute, I tend to do that when I get really happy.

It was silent again, but this time it was a happy sort of silence, one I could deal with just as long as Sesshoumaru was there with me. It was nice to have another friend, to have something that my father could not take away from me.

"Would you like to go to the lake?" Sesshoumaru asked, which surprised me, he is never the one to suggest things to do.

"Sure," I said and then stood up.

It did not take long to get there, and once we did I ran and jumped into the water. The water felt good on my skin, the day had be unusually hot and it felt good to swim in the cool water.

"You should come it, it feels really good." I said as I shook the wet hair out of my face.

Sesshoumaru seemed to think about it, but I could not tell what he was thinking. He had a small smile on his face, though it was a bit hard to see because of how small it really was. I love it when he smiles though, it fits him better than any smirk or cold look.

"I suppose it would not hurt," he answered before he walked straight into the water.

I smiled when he got in, I knew at that point that we were really becoming good friends. He did not seem to notice the change from hot to cold, or at least he did not show it like usual. I suddenly got a brilliant idea as I was swimming. Sesshoumaru was just standing there, not paying attention to me, so I thought it would be a good idea to splash him, so I did.

"This means war," he declared after he slowly turned and looked at me.

`Brilliant Kagome, just brilliant.' I thought to myself as I waited for him to get me back.

It only took a second for him to splash me back, but his was much bigger since he is bigger than I am. I was soaked again, and was having so much fun as I started to splash him again.

"Sesshoumaru was right, this is a war." I thought as the splashing continued.

We played in the water for the rest of the day, it was so much fun just acting like children. We swam and splashed each other with water before we got out to dry off. We laid on the grass watching the clouds before the sun began to set.

"I should be getting home." I finally had to say, though I did not want to go.

"I will walk you there." Sesshoumaru said as he stood up and then helped me to stand.

"Are you sure?" I asked, not wanting to be a bother to him.

"Hai. Now let us go, it is getting late."

I followed behind Sesshoumaru as we walked out of the forest. He slowed down after a minute so that I could catch up to him, though it did not take long to get back to my house. When we got there I froze, my father was home, I could hear him yelling from all the way outside. I did not want to go in, but I knew that I had too.

"I'll see you later Sesshoumaru. Thank you for walking me home and for the wonderful day," I finally said, though it came out in a whisper.

He just nodded and then walked away. I gulped as I looked at my house, I needed to go in and get this over with, so I walked to my window and went through.

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Normal POV

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Sesshoumau stopped just before he walked into the forest, he did not know why but he had to go back. He walked back to the spot where he had left Kagome, only when he got there he could hear her screaming. He walked over and peered into a window, inside he saw Kagome on the floor, blood was all over her arms and a little was on her face.

"She is hurt, but there is nothing I can do." he thought to himself as he continued to watch.

The man he figured was her father was hitting her in the face, then he began to kick her in the stomach.

"This is not how a human family should act,"

So I turn to you my love
(For the solace that is there)
And offer any cherished thing
(For a slight reprieve)
I hoped that you might find me here
(And I could learn to smile again)
As a balm for these wounds
(Take away the sting)

Sesshoumaru knew that he could only watch, to interfere would mean his death. He watched on, happy when the man finally left Kagome to sob on her bedroom floor. He wanted to comfort her, but he pushed those thoughts aside as he walked away, walking back to the forest to try and escape the guilt that he now felt.

"I have to leave. I am not suppose to feel anything for her, I have to leave while I still have a chance,"

With that said Sesshoumaru made his way back to where he had been staying, planning on leaving the next morning, no matter what.

And as the band did play your body I did cradle
I should have known that song would have to end