InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The World Through His Eyes ❯ Faint ( Chapter 6 )
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By: The_Purple_Ghost 
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Shoujo / Angst / Romance / Psychological / Drama | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 03.26.2006 | Pages: 3 | Words: 5.9K | Visits: 911 | Status: Work In Progress
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Shoujo / Angst / Romance / Psychological / Drama | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 03.26.2006 | Pages: 3 | Words: 5.9K | Visits: 911 | Status: Work In Progress
Disclaimer: Lets see…if I owned Inuyasha…*gets evil grin* Oh, the things I would do! But alas, I own him not…neither do I own the song that is used below.
::R ECAP:: “The spell…I can…feel…your pain…” Inuyasha would have dropped her had he been standing up. “What do you mean?” He didn’t wait for her answer before he rolled her onto her side and yanked up her shirt. “Inuyasha! What-?” Kagome drew in a sharp breath when she felt his fingers pressing on an especially tender spot on her ribs. She couldn’t help the blush that rose on her cheeks as a slight breeze played over her exposed skin. “You have fucking hoof marks, Kagome.” His voice was rough with suppressed emotion and Kagome blinked. “Oh.” Was all she could think to say to that. Inuyasha pulled her back into his lap and stood up. “ ’Oh.’ that’s all you can fucking say? OH? My injuries are showing up on your body and all you can say is oh?” He was angry but somehow Kagome knew that it wasn’t at her, just at the fact that she’d been hurt. She opened her mouth to speak but his growl stopped her. “I think it’s time we had a chat with Kaede-baba about this spell, and this time I’ll kill anyone who interrupts.” ::END RECAP:: Chapter 6: Faint
I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ ; The journey back to camp was a quiet one for Inuyasha and Kagome. She was a little surprised at just how far Kikyou had carried her away from the site if the battle. Kikyou. Everything always came back to the undead miko in the end. Kagome sighed and tried not to squirm in Inuyasha’s grip too much. For some reason, Kami-sama only knows why, he had decided to carry her back to camp bridal style. “Stop your wiggling little girl!” Inuyasha tightened his grip on Kagome’s body to hold her still. “If you don’t want me to move around maybe you should let me just ride on your back,” Kagome snapped. “I’d be more comfortable there anyway,” she continued under her breath. Inuyasha frowned as the emotional bond they shared flared up in his mind. “Feh, why are you so upset? And don’t try to deny that something’s the matter, I can feel that something’s really not right with you.” He glared down at her sternly, forgetting that the effect would be wasted because she couldn’t see it. ‘I was kidnapped by a dead woman, and he thinks something’s ‘not right with me’? I’m beginning to see why Miroku says Inuyasha’s simple minded. He’s acting like nothing happened. But still…’ “Stop looking at me.” Kagome turned her face away from him. ‘…How could I ever tell him all those things Kikyou told me? This is all too much! I don’t want to be held responsible for Kikyou’s second death; yet, I can’t help but feel that she doesn’t belong in this world. She shouldn’t have ever been brought back…but what about Inuyasha’s feelings? He still loves her…. Would he hate me if he knew I was the cause of her fading from this world…Of course he would hate me if I didn’t tell him! But…but will he blame me…Will he think that I somehow knew that this would happen, that I want Kikyou to die? Don’t you though? No! I…I don’t know! Maybe I would feel differently if she hadn’t already died once…hadn’t already lived her own life…But Inuyasha…I…I just want him to be happy…Everything’s always for him.’ Inuyasha glanced down at the girl in his arms. She didn’t seem to notice that he was again staring at her. He could feel the confusion of emotions that were spiraling through her mind. One of her thoughts kept bleeding over into his mind and echoed repeatedly there. ‘What should I do? I don’t want it to be my fault! What should I do?’ For a moment he was a loss for what could be causing Kagome to be so torn up emotionally. Okay, sure some of the things that had happened to them lately were upsetting. Like his wounds appearing on her body, or their inability to be physically separated by more than a half-mile without painful side effects. There was also the fact that occasionally he could hear her thoughts but Inuyasha didn’t think she’d picked up on that fact yet. After all she was a bit thick in the head sometimes. “If you care for my reincarnation so much why don’t you ask her what our conversation was about.” He remembered Kikyou’s words from the glade. ‘I can’t believe I forgot all about that! I was so concerned about Kagome…I never gave a second thought about why Kikyou took her away from me. I wonder if that’s what has her so upset. What could Kikyou have said to her?’ “Oi, bitch, what did Kikyou mean when she said that I should ask you about your conversation with her? Why did she take you in the first place?” He demanded, bringing the girl from her swirling thoughts. “I don’t know.” Kagome lied. She just couldn’t bring herself to tell him anything yet. Maybe after she talked to Kaede and found out more about the spell she would tell him about her conversation with her incarnation. She blinked when a deep growl started to vibrate in Inuyasha’s chest. “Don’t lie to me! Even if I couldn’t feel what was going on in that half broken brain of yours I’d still know that you were lying!” He stopped walking forward and looked down at her impatiently. He could feel that she was hiding something from him and that thought scared him almost as bad as the thought of her being hurt. “Inuyasha, please don’t make me talk about it right now. I need time to think it over.” She pleaded with him wearily, but her hanyou turned a deaf ear to her pleas. “Tell me.” ‘I have to know what you’re not telling me. I have to know why you don’t trust me enough to tell me what she said.’ “No.” Abruptly he started moving again, but it didn’t last long. Kagome let out a little gasp when one of her many bruises was jarred as Inuyasha plopped down on the ground. “What do you think your doing? We need to get back to camp. I need to make sure that Shippou is okay! Miroku and Sango probably need help finding that shard. I—“ “I’m sure that the brat is fine, you baby him too much anyway, and I doubt that the other two need us either. As for what I’m doing, we’re not going anywhere until you talk to me.” He shifted her into a more comfortable position in his lap and then pulled her close to his chest. He wrapped one arm around Kagome’s waist and another around her shoulders so that his haori sleeves would protect her from the cool spring breeze that was blowing through the forest. Kagome couldn’t help but blush at their closeness. She noticed that he was looking at her face closely and she buried it down into his red sleeve. Inuyasha’s behavior was really starting to confuse her; shouldn’t he have left her by now to go find Kikyou? Yet here he was holding her close to his heart and demanding that she talk to him instead of finding the one he was supposed to love. “I’m not going to tell you anything.” Her voice was muffled but Inuyasha could still make out her words. “Then we’ll just be sitting here for a long time,” Inuyasha informed her and sat back against the tree to make himself comfortable. He heard her huff and smiled. It wouldn’t be long now before his Kagome would crack. ‘MY Kagome? Where did that come from? And why does it sound so…right? Why did it feel so right to hold her close…especially after I was so worried about her?’ “I’ll tell you every thing after I talk to Kaede, I promise Inuyasha.” Kagome tried again to reason with the stubborn inu-hanyou. “…” “Inuyasha, I want to go back to the village now!” She tried to roll out of his lap but he just strengthened his grip on her. “Inuyasha! I’ll say the “s” word!” That got his attention. He narrowed his eyes at her. “You wouldn’t dare, bitch! If you do, you’ll be crushed underneath me!” “That’s it! I don’t care at this point! SI---“ “KAGOME!” The red-orange bundle of fluff that landed on her chest interrupted her from finishing the dreaded subdue words. Inuyasha relaxed slightly in relief at the distraction. That is until he saw her wince with pain when Shippou started to bounce up and down on her lap. “Oi brat! Kagome’s hurt! You shouldn’t be jumping on her like that!” He reached out to grab the kit by the tail to fling him off but Kagome stopped him. She sent him a well aimed glare then pulled the kitsune close. “Don’t worry about it Shippou-chan. Now, are you okay? She didn’t hurt you did she?” Kagome lightly used her hands to “see” if the baby youkai had any injuries. “Hai, Kagome I’m fine! She only put me to sleep for a little while, but I was so worried about you when I woke up and you weren’t there! I was sure that nasty, bad lady had hurt you!” She felt his small shoulders begin shake with sobs and tears spring to her own eyes. “Don’t cry little one. I’m okay…nothing’s going to happen to me. I promise!” She tried to reassure him but nothing she said seemed to work. After almost ten minutes of Kagome rocking a hysterical Shippou back and forth in her lap, Inuyasha finally could take no more. He leaned forward and gently tried to pry the kit from her. Shippou fought hard to stay in her arms, calling out her name loudly as if Naraku himself was trying to rip them apart. Inuyasha folded his ears down close to his head to protect them from the distraught baby’s crying. “Shippou, calm down and listen to me! Use your nose.” He shook the kit slightly and demanded, “Does she smell like she’s going to die? Can you smell blood on her strongly? Tell me if she’s okay.” Shippou stopped sobbing long enough to sniff the air around his surrogate mother. His little face screwed up in concentration before he tentatively reached out and patted her cheek. “You’re really okay! But you smell like Inuyasha.” Shippou informed her as he snuggled close to Kagome’s heart. His breathing was still slightly ragged from his sobbing and every once in awhile a hiccup forced its way out. “Feh. Of course she smells like me, I’ve been carrying her around since I found her.” Inuyasha rolled his eyes. Shippou didn’t hear him though, because he was already falling asleep in Kagome’s arms. “All his crying really must have taken his energy, poor little guy.” Kagome ran her fingers through the kitsunes russet hair as she smiled down at him. Inuyasha shifted her around in his lap so that he could wrap both of them into his protective embrace. He leaned in close to whisper in her ear. “Okay Kagome, now that the brat’s settled down you’re going to tell me what Kikyou said to you.” His excuse for getting this close to her, for holding her in his lap for so long, was that he wanted to force her to talk to him. It had nothing to do with the fact that her slight weight in his lap seemed so natural, or the way she shivered when his breath played over soft skin of her neck reassured him that she was okay. He would never admit to needing the same reassurance as the baby kitsune had needed. “Inuyasha, I---“ “Are we interrupting something?” Inuyasha growled deep in his throat as Miroku and Sango appeared in the clearing riding Kirara. ‘Damn Miroku and his since of timing.’ Inuyasha was sure Kagome was about to tell him what he wanted to know, but that perverted monk had to ruin the moment. “No, n-nothing like that Miroku-sama.” Kagome answered when it became apparent that Inuyasha was just going to growl at their friends. She struggled to get up out of his lap and this time he let her move to the ground next to him. “Are you okay, Kagome-chan?” Sango asked, coming forward to hug her friend, ignoring Inuyasha’s glare. “Just a few bruises, but did you two find the shard?” Kagome brushed off the questions about her health in favor of the jewel shard. In her eyes the shard was much more important than her health. Sango held out a faintly glowing shard and dropped it into Kagome’s outstretched palm. “It would have been easier to find it if this baka had left that centaur demon in larger pieces. As it was we had to wait until it started regenerating before we could find the shard.” The demon exterminator sent the sulking hanyou a glare. Kagome smiled slightly when Inuyasha ‘feh’ed and mumbled something under his breath that was too low for the rest of them to hear. She reached over and patted his leg. “Well, if you all don’t mind, I’d like to get back to camp and take a nap. And if I’m tired, I know you all must be exhausted.” She struggled to stand up with a sleeping Shippou in her arms. Sango saw the kit and motioned to Kagome that she would take him. “Miroku-sama and I will ride Kirara, so I can hold him.” Kagome smiled again, but shook her head. “No, that’s okay. He was really upset before he dropped off to sleep. I think it’ll be better for him if I just hold him for a while.” Sango nodded her head in assent and mounted up on Kirara before Miroku. “Don’t even think about it, monk.” She told Miroku when she got settled. He quickly moved his hand away from her bottom. “Your lack of faith in my innocent intentions wounds me to the quick, Sango-sama!” She just rolled her eyes at his offended-act. “Just keep your hands to yourself!” “No one ever understands me.” He sighed as if the weight of the world rested on his shoulders. Kagome smiled as the arguing pair flew out of Inuyasha’s sight. She chuckled a little at the thought of Miroku ever learning to keep his hands to himself, and then grimaced at the twinge of pain the laughing caused. “Feh, weak human.” Inuyasha scooped her up gently and started walking toward camp. “You don’t have to carry me you know,” she told him in a weary voice. He just looked down at her. “If I don’t carry you it’ll take you all day to get back to camp.” He tucked her instinctively in closer to his body heat when the breeze turned colder. “Thank you.” Kagome’s voice was almost too quiet for him to hear. “For what?” His voice had also lowered. “For saving me, for staying with me even when I know you probably wanted to run after Kikyou, and for not pushing me anymore about telling you.” She rested her head against his shoulder and allowed herself to relax in his arms. “Feh, you’re not off the hook yet wench, I just don’t feel like fighting with you right now.” He totally missed her knowing smile. “Is it okay if I sleep?” she asked him in an already sleep-slurred voice. “Whatever.” He listened for a minute as her breathing evened out to match that of the kit napping in her arms. “I promise I’ll keep you safe, Kagome, even if it means keeping you safe from Kikyou.” He whispered the words to the sleeping girl with a determined look in his eyes. Shippou stirred in his sleep for a moment and heard the hanyou's declaration. “I’ll help keep her safe too Inuyasha…” ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Darkness had fallen over the camp and Kagome sat with her back against a tree. She watched as Shippou chased some early season fireflies in the tall grasses beyond the firelight. She was thankful that Inuyasha was giving her the chance to watch his antics. As his childish giggles drifted by on the evening breeze Kagome let her thoughts turn inward. ‘Kikyou. Everything always leads back to you doesn’t it? It you hadn’t had the shikon no tama burned with your body I wouldn’t have been born with it. If I wasn’t your reincarnation I’d never be able to travel down the well. Inuyasha could have been happier if you had lived…. But no, I don’t really believe that in my heart. You wanted Inuyasha to turn human for you. You were ashamed to love a hanyou….I don’t think he would have been truly happy as a human…even if it was for you. A part of me is very thankful toward you. It’s because of you and the shikon that I met Inuyasha and yet, a part of me hates you. How will he ever notice me when his first love refuses to stay dead? Now…now I have to deal with this present situation. If I don’t say anything…you’ll just fade away…Inuyasha will be able to move on…to maybe be happy again. He wouldn’t have to choose between us! All I have to do is not tell him that our binding is killing you. Could I live with myself if I didn’t say anything? I’d be responsible for Kikyou’s second death. This is too much for me to deal with by myself! I should just let him choose once and for all. But I’m afraid…’ Kagome felt tears coming to her eyes and she squeezed them tightly shut. She knew if she cried Inuyasha’s sensitive nose would pick up on it immediately. “What’s the matter with you now, bitch?” Inuyasha’s voice came from close to her right and made her jump a bit. She grabbed her pounding heart and glared toward the spot where she knew he was crouching. “Don’t scare me like that! And you know I hate it when you call me that.” Through his eyes she could see that her nose was a little red, a sure sign that she was close to tears. “Okay Ka. Go. Me. Tell me what’s wrong.” He moved closer to her and sat down. Kagome wanted to shiver when she felt some of his soft hair brush her face, but she managed to stay still. “I’m fine Inuyasha. I just have lots to think about.” She reached over to pat his knee but found her hand captured in his much larger one. “What did I tell you about lying to me?” His voice was stern and serious but Kagome refused to back down as she tried to tug her hand out of his grasp. “I’m not lying! You should trust my word when I say I’m fine.” Why was he being so persistent? If she could just piss him off, Kagome knew he’d go away and pout in some random tree and then she’d be left in peace. “You forget that I can sense your emotions, little girl. And pissing me off won’t work this time. You and I need to have a conversation about what happened today.” With that he tugged hard on her hand to pull her up. Kagome tried to pull away from his grip but Inuyasha was having none of it. “Leave me alone Inuyasha! I still don’t want to talk about it.” “I know you don’t want to talk about it.” His voice was smug and Kagome felt her ire rising. He was rubbing the fact that he practically knew what she was thinking in. “SIT BOY!” She yelled in frustration, not caring that his grip on her arm would cause her to fall too or that the pain he felt by being thrown into the ground would transfer to her. Inuyasha crashed to the ground---but without much force. Kagome felt her heart sink into her stomach. As loud as she’d shouted, he should have left a huge Inuyasha shaped crater in the ground, but she doubted he’d even have a bruise. “What just happened?” Miroku asked Sango from their spot next to the campfire. She just shook her head in confusion. “I don’t know…Inuyasha should have splattered…or at least the spell should have lasted longer…but look he’s getting up already!” She pointed over to where Inuyasha was pushing himself up with an evil gleam in his eye. “Kagome. Why did you do that?” His voice was calm and the others of the group gave an involuntary shiver. A calm Inuyasha was almost as scary as an out of control Inuyasha. “I wanted to get away from you,” she spat, although Sango noticed that her hands were shaking slightly. “Because you’re hiding something from me that happened today?” He moved closer to her like a predator slowly stalking its prey. “NO!” Kagome realized immediately after the fact that maybe her answer came too quickly. She backed away from him until she found her back pressed against the tree she’d been leaning against earlier. “I think you’re lying to me again Kagome.” One of his clawed hands rested above her head and he leaned in closer to her face. Kagome could feel his warm breath fanning over her and she gulped. “I-I’m not l-lying!” She managed to squeak out, hating herself for letting him affect her so much but worse was knowing that he knew what he was doing to her. “Kagome.” “I’m not…” She tried one last time to convince him even though she knew it was hopeless. “Kagome, you’re going to tell me what’s been bothering you right now,” he commanded her, sure that she would now tell him everything he wanted to know. Kagome opened her mouth but no sound came out. All she could think about was that he knew what he was doing to her; he was willingly using her own emotions against her. “No, I will not tell you anything! How dare you! How dare you use my feelings about you to your advantage! Don’t you care about how that makes me feel?” She was beating her fist against his chest and sobbing in anger. Inuyasha was completely surprised at her words. He hadn’t meant to use her feelings to his advantage nor had he meant to cause her to start crying such gut wrenching sobs. Shippou noticed for the first time the tension that was thick in the clearing. He turned to find his surrogate mother to reassure himself that she was okay. Only to see that she was sobbing into Inuyasha’s chest while punching him. “Kagome!” He cried out and hurried toward her. He wad determined to find out what the hanyou had done now to drive her to tears, but before he could start chewing on Inuyasha’s ears he felt a hand grip his tail. “Hey! What do you think your doing?” He yelled at the monk, who was keeping him away from his adopted mother. “I think Inuyasha and Kagome-sama should work this out on their own, Shippou-chan. If you jump in there now you’ll only make it worse.” The little kit’s shoulders drooped at the monk’s words. Sango took pity on him and pulled the little youkai into her lap. “Don’t worry Shippou-chan. Inuyasha might be a baka most of the time but he would never hurt Kagome-sama on purpose.” For his part, Inuyasha finally managed to shake himself out of his trance and look down at the girl who was weakly punching him and sobbing into his chest. Slowly he raised his arms to encircle her slim waist, but as soon as Kagome felt him touch her she jerked away. “NO! Don’t you dare touch me.” Suddenly her eyes widened and she grabbed her head. There were no words she could find to describe what happened next. It was as if she were seeing through her eyes and Inuyasha’s at the same time. For a brief moment her vision cleared and she looked up into his golden eyes that were so full of confusion and worry, then pain came crashing in on her. “Kagome!” Inuyasha caught her easily as she fell forward. For a moment he hadn’t been able to feel her through their connection, and it had shaken him badly. For the second time that day he was left holding an unconscious Kagome tightly to his chest. “What happened to her Inuyasha?” The others had rushed over when the young miko collapsed. Inuyasha tightened his grip on Kagome’s body and sent a warning growl Sango’s way when she looked as if she’d try to take Kagome from him. “I think it has something to do with that fucking spell. I’m going to take her to Kaede-baba’s village right now. You can all follow in the morning it you want.” He took a great leap into the air and then disappeared into the darkness. Sango held Shippou a bit closer and looked over at Miroku. His troubled _expression did nothing to help her feel better. “Do you think she’s going to be okay?” she asked hesitantly. “I don’t know, Sango-sama, but if anyone has the answers Kaede-sama will.” He wrapped an arm around her waist--to comfort her, of course. “Monk, if you don’t remove your hand I’ll break it!” “Okay Sango—“ “I when I said remove I meant for you to keep your wandering hands to yourself, not move them to other parts of my body!” “No one understands me!”
~*~ Now, if any of you get offended when someone has strong, bitchy opinions, then you might just want to skip the rant below. For all of you up and coming writers I have a few words for you…NEVER, I repeat, NEVER…let me reiterate N-E-V-E-R tell people that you suck at writing summaries! I don’t care if IT is true! Don’t say stuff like that! I have gotten to the point that if some one says that I stop reading the fic. Obviously you don’t have any faith in yourself so why should I have any faith in your writing? On a smaller scale, advertising that this is your first time writing isn’t a good idea anyway. It hints that you have no confidence in your ability to write well in character fics. You people are just using that as an excuse for if you fic bombs… I know you can all write!!! I’ve read the stories here, and I’ll be the first to admit that a few of the stories on ff.net blow…but please people have faith in yourself!! You don’t have to keep it a secret that this is your first time to write a story…just don’t put it in bold font. Now, about a summery…if you can’t think of anything to write ABOUT your fic, use a snippet of the chapter as a promo. I’m very sorry that I just said all that up there…I’m PMSing right now…and it kinda just wrote itself…but I feel better now…it does make me sad that so many good writers fall back on crutches just because they don’t believe in their own writing ability. Here are the review responses…I promise not to bite anymore! Emania: Don’t worry about coherent reviews…I understand the mush-mind thing…happens to me at the worse times!! Geminidragon: Okay…let me make up a convincing explanation of this plot hole…Okay, you see the spell had already begun to warp…So even though they weren’t linked at the moment, just enough of a residue of the link was left behind that Inuyasha could feel that she needed him! HA! I came up with an on the spot answer for a plot hole! Thanks for pointing it out to me though! Morlana: You get the giant cookie this time! Thanks for telling me how it’s spelled! I so needed my beta last chapter! Thanks for filling in for Julie! Tsukitani: I can only name three at the moment, regrettably when my compy died a sew weeks ago I lost all my down loaded copies of stories…Moo-Moo-Chan has one called Speechless here’s the promo--- Sixteen year-old Kagome doesn’t talk. She's been like this for the past three years. Her family wants her to start a regular school again, so that she might start speaking to people. They want someone to watch over her. His name is Inuyasha. Inu/Kag The next is called Saved by BookWorm12 , it only starts out with Kagome not talking though. Kagome and Souta Higuarashi are finally saved from their abusive Mother and adopted by the Inutaisho famly! What will happen? Read to find out! R&R please! And the last, but my favorite is Sight Unseen by SylverAngel. Kagome goes blind in this one =) You can find this fic here (just take out the spaces) http://www. iridescent-dreams. net / iy/ index.htm What good is a Shikon detector…that can’t see the shards? I can think of a few more, but I can’t seem to remember there names or where to find them. ArificialWatermelonFlavoring: Problems are going to keep popping up for a bit more…thanks for encouraging me. Kibo: I’m glad you stayed around for the second chapter! A lot of people have said that they liked the dream sequences…Maybe I’ll put in some more *taps fingered to chin* Serena63083: I agree with you. I’m strictly against Inu/Kik pairings…and thanks for understanding the college thing! LadyInuyasha711: I guess you still don’t know if Kaede knew what the spell would do huh? Sorry! The Unknown: You get two big cookies for this info! Now we all know why demons bite to prove their love! Kokoro: Maybe we should have a fanfiction wide funeral for Kikyou…or better yet someone could write about the Inu-gumi finally laying her to rest (without Inuyasha going to the after life with her) Dia: I have hopelessly drawn someone into my web! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA*chokecoughchoke* I find myself interested in the bond thing too, although I know a little bit more than you…I don’t know much more *grins* I guess we can all learn together! Kawaiiwolf: I hope this was quick enough. Katergator: *blushes* thank you! Hanyou Queen: hmm…I really didn’t hate her…until that ep. Last week…then I hated her for all of about 24 hours…now I just feel sorry for Inuyasha. Simply Turquoise: I’m glad you liked the preview, I hope you like the chapter just as well. Cat Youkai: I’m glad you found it cute…I think… And that’s a wrap for the responses….there will be no preview this chapter…as I haven’t written the next chapter…but I’ll give you a summery…just special for all of those that have made it this far down. Kaede tells them that they’re souls are changing her spell and she doesn’t think they can ever be unbound. All the stress finally gets to Kagome and she says that they must be unbound because of Kikyou. The next day Kagome asks it Kaede can at least try to unclasp their souls. So the question is…Will they lose their link? I guess you’ll find out next time…although as always it might be more than a week! Bye bye! Hitomi Lei sighing out.
::R ECAP:: “The spell…I can…feel…your pain…” Inuyasha would have dropped her had he been standing up. “What do you mean?” He didn’t wait for her answer before he rolled her onto her side and yanked up her shirt. “Inuyasha! What-?” Kagome drew in a sharp breath when she felt his fingers pressing on an especially tender spot on her ribs. She couldn’t help the blush that rose on her cheeks as a slight breeze played over her exposed skin. “You have fucking hoof marks, Kagome.” His voice was rough with suppressed emotion and Kagome blinked. “Oh.” Was all she could think to say to that. Inuyasha pulled her back into his lap and stood up. “ ’Oh.’ that’s all you can fucking say? OH? My injuries are showing up on your body and all you can say is oh?” He was angry but somehow Kagome knew that it wasn’t at her, just at the fact that she’d been hurt. She opened her mouth to speak but his growl stopped her. “I think it’s time we had a chat with Kaede-baba about this spell, and this time I’ll kill anyone who interrupts.” ::END RECAP:: Chapter 6: Faint
I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ ; The journey back to camp was a quiet one for Inuyasha and Kagome. She was a little surprised at just how far Kikyou had carried her away from the site if the battle. Kikyou. Everything always came back to the undead miko in the end. Kagome sighed and tried not to squirm in Inuyasha’s grip too much. For some reason, Kami-sama only knows why, he had decided to carry her back to camp bridal style. “Stop your wiggling little girl!” Inuyasha tightened his grip on Kagome’s body to hold her still. “If you don’t want me to move around maybe you should let me just ride on your back,” Kagome snapped. “I’d be more comfortable there anyway,” she continued under her breath. Inuyasha frowned as the emotional bond they shared flared up in his mind. “Feh, why are you so upset? And don’t try to deny that something’s the matter, I can feel that something’s really not right with you.” He glared down at her sternly, forgetting that the effect would be wasted because she couldn’t see it. ‘I was kidnapped by a dead woman, and he thinks something’s ‘not right with me’? I’m beginning to see why Miroku says Inuyasha’s simple minded. He’s acting like nothing happened. But still…’ “Stop looking at me.” Kagome turned her face away from him. ‘…How could I ever tell him all those things Kikyou told me? This is all too much! I don’t want to be held responsible for Kikyou’s second death; yet, I can’t help but feel that she doesn’t belong in this world. She shouldn’t have ever been brought back…but what about Inuyasha’s feelings? He still loves her…. Would he hate me if he knew I was the cause of her fading from this world…Of course he would hate me if I didn’t tell him! But…but will he blame me…Will he think that I somehow knew that this would happen, that I want Kikyou to die? Don’t you though? No! I…I don’t know! Maybe I would feel differently if she hadn’t already died once…hadn’t already lived her own life…But Inuyasha…I…I just want him to be happy…Everything’s always for him.’ Inuyasha glanced down at the girl in his arms. She didn’t seem to notice that he was again staring at her. He could feel the confusion of emotions that were spiraling through her mind. One of her thoughts kept bleeding over into his mind and echoed repeatedly there. ‘What should I do? I don’t want it to be my fault! What should I do?’ For a moment he was a loss for what could be causing Kagome to be so torn up emotionally. Okay, sure some of the things that had happened to them lately were upsetting. Like his wounds appearing on her body, or their inability to be physically separated by more than a half-mile without painful side effects. There was also the fact that occasionally he could hear her thoughts but Inuyasha didn’t think she’d picked up on that fact yet. After all she was a bit thick in the head sometimes. “If you care for my reincarnation so much why don’t you ask her what our conversation was about.” He remembered Kikyou’s words from the glade. ‘I can’t believe I forgot all about that! I was so concerned about Kagome…I never gave a second thought about why Kikyou took her away from me. I wonder if that’s what has her so upset. What could Kikyou have said to her?’ “Oi, bitch, what did Kikyou mean when she said that I should ask you about your conversation with her? Why did she take you in the first place?” He demanded, bringing the girl from her swirling thoughts. “I don’t know.” Kagome lied. She just couldn’t bring herself to tell him anything yet. Maybe after she talked to Kaede and found out more about the spell she would tell him about her conversation with her incarnation. She blinked when a deep growl started to vibrate in Inuyasha’s chest. “Don’t lie to me! Even if I couldn’t feel what was going on in that half broken brain of yours I’d still know that you were lying!” He stopped walking forward and looked down at her impatiently. He could feel that she was hiding something from him and that thought scared him almost as bad as the thought of her being hurt. “Inuyasha, please don’t make me talk about it right now. I need time to think it over.” She pleaded with him wearily, but her hanyou turned a deaf ear to her pleas. “Tell me.” ‘I have to know what you’re not telling me. I have to know why you don’t trust me enough to tell me what she said.’ “No.” Abruptly he started moving again, but it didn’t last long. Kagome let out a little gasp when one of her many bruises was jarred as Inuyasha plopped down on the ground. “What do you think your doing? We need to get back to camp. I need to make sure that Shippou is okay! Miroku and Sango probably need help finding that shard. I—“ “I’m sure that the brat is fine, you baby him too much anyway, and I doubt that the other two need us either. As for what I’m doing, we’re not going anywhere until you talk to me.” He shifted her into a more comfortable position in his lap and then pulled her close to his chest. He wrapped one arm around Kagome’s waist and another around her shoulders so that his haori sleeves would protect her from the cool spring breeze that was blowing through the forest. Kagome couldn’t help but blush at their closeness. She noticed that he was looking at her face closely and she buried it down into his red sleeve. Inuyasha’s behavior was really starting to confuse her; shouldn’t he have left her by now to go find Kikyou? Yet here he was holding her close to his heart and demanding that she talk to him instead of finding the one he was supposed to love. “I’m not going to tell you anything.” Her voice was muffled but Inuyasha could still make out her words. “Then we’ll just be sitting here for a long time,” Inuyasha informed her and sat back against the tree to make himself comfortable. He heard her huff and smiled. It wouldn’t be long now before his Kagome would crack. ‘MY Kagome? Where did that come from? And why does it sound so…right? Why did it feel so right to hold her close…especially after I was so worried about her?’ “I’ll tell you every thing after I talk to Kaede, I promise Inuyasha.” Kagome tried again to reason with the stubborn inu-hanyou. “…” “Inuyasha, I want to go back to the village now!” She tried to roll out of his lap but he just strengthened his grip on her. “Inuyasha! I’ll say the “s” word!” That got his attention. He narrowed his eyes at her. “You wouldn’t dare, bitch! If you do, you’ll be crushed underneath me!” “That’s it! I don’t care at this point! SI---“ “KAGOME!” The red-orange bundle of fluff that landed on her chest interrupted her from finishing the dreaded subdue words. Inuyasha relaxed slightly in relief at the distraction. That is until he saw her wince with pain when Shippou started to bounce up and down on her lap. “Oi brat! Kagome’s hurt! You shouldn’t be jumping on her like that!” He reached out to grab the kit by the tail to fling him off but Kagome stopped him. She sent him a well aimed glare then pulled the kitsune close. “Don’t worry about it Shippou-chan. Now, are you okay? She didn’t hurt you did she?” Kagome lightly used her hands to “see” if the baby youkai had any injuries. “Hai, Kagome I’m fine! She only put me to sleep for a little while, but I was so worried about you when I woke up and you weren’t there! I was sure that nasty, bad lady had hurt you!” She felt his small shoulders begin shake with sobs and tears spring to her own eyes. “Don’t cry little one. I’m okay…nothing’s going to happen to me. I promise!” She tried to reassure him but nothing she said seemed to work. After almost ten minutes of Kagome rocking a hysterical Shippou back and forth in her lap, Inuyasha finally could take no more. He leaned forward and gently tried to pry the kit from her. Shippou fought hard to stay in her arms, calling out her name loudly as if Naraku himself was trying to rip them apart. Inuyasha folded his ears down close to his head to protect them from the distraught baby’s crying. “Shippou, calm down and listen to me! Use your nose.” He shook the kit slightly and demanded, “Does she smell like she’s going to die? Can you smell blood on her strongly? Tell me if she’s okay.” Shippou stopped sobbing long enough to sniff the air around his surrogate mother. His little face screwed up in concentration before he tentatively reached out and patted her cheek. “You’re really okay! But you smell like Inuyasha.” Shippou informed her as he snuggled close to Kagome’s heart. His breathing was still slightly ragged from his sobbing and every once in awhile a hiccup forced its way out. “Feh. Of course she smells like me, I’ve been carrying her around since I found her.” Inuyasha rolled his eyes. Shippou didn’t hear him though, because he was already falling asleep in Kagome’s arms. “All his crying really must have taken his energy, poor little guy.” Kagome ran her fingers through the kitsunes russet hair as she smiled down at him. Inuyasha shifted her around in his lap so that he could wrap both of them into his protective embrace. He leaned in close to whisper in her ear. “Okay Kagome, now that the brat’s settled down you’re going to tell me what Kikyou said to you.” His excuse for getting this close to her, for holding her in his lap for so long, was that he wanted to force her to talk to him. It had nothing to do with the fact that her slight weight in his lap seemed so natural, or the way she shivered when his breath played over soft skin of her neck reassured him that she was okay. He would never admit to needing the same reassurance as the baby kitsune had needed. “Inuyasha, I---“ “Are we interrupting something?” Inuyasha growled deep in his throat as Miroku and Sango appeared in the clearing riding Kirara. ‘Damn Miroku and his since of timing.’ Inuyasha was sure Kagome was about to tell him what he wanted to know, but that perverted monk had to ruin the moment. “No, n-nothing like that Miroku-sama.” Kagome answered when it became apparent that Inuyasha was just going to growl at their friends. She struggled to get up out of his lap and this time he let her move to the ground next to him. “Are you okay, Kagome-chan?” Sango asked, coming forward to hug her friend, ignoring Inuyasha’s glare. “Just a few bruises, but did you two find the shard?” Kagome brushed off the questions about her health in favor of the jewel shard. In her eyes the shard was much more important than her health. Sango held out a faintly glowing shard and dropped it into Kagome’s outstretched palm. “It would have been easier to find it if this baka had left that centaur demon in larger pieces. As it was we had to wait until it started regenerating before we could find the shard.” The demon exterminator sent the sulking hanyou a glare. Kagome smiled slightly when Inuyasha ‘feh’ed and mumbled something under his breath that was too low for the rest of them to hear. She reached over and patted his leg. “Well, if you all don’t mind, I’d like to get back to camp and take a nap. And if I’m tired, I know you all must be exhausted.” She struggled to stand up with a sleeping Shippou in her arms. Sango saw the kit and motioned to Kagome that she would take him. “Miroku-sama and I will ride Kirara, so I can hold him.” Kagome smiled again, but shook her head. “No, that’s okay. He was really upset before he dropped off to sleep. I think it’ll be better for him if I just hold him for a while.” Sango nodded her head in assent and mounted up on Kirara before Miroku. “Don’t even think about it, monk.” She told Miroku when she got settled. He quickly moved his hand away from her bottom. “Your lack of faith in my innocent intentions wounds me to the quick, Sango-sama!” She just rolled her eyes at his offended-act. “Just keep your hands to yourself!” “No one ever understands me.” He sighed as if the weight of the world rested on his shoulders. Kagome smiled as the arguing pair flew out of Inuyasha’s sight. She chuckled a little at the thought of Miroku ever learning to keep his hands to himself, and then grimaced at the twinge of pain the laughing caused. “Feh, weak human.” Inuyasha scooped her up gently and started walking toward camp. “You don’t have to carry me you know,” she told him in a weary voice. He just looked down at her. “If I don’t carry you it’ll take you all day to get back to camp.” He tucked her instinctively in closer to his body heat when the breeze turned colder. “Thank you.” Kagome’s voice was almost too quiet for him to hear. “For what?” His voice had also lowered. “For saving me, for staying with me even when I know you probably wanted to run after Kikyou, and for not pushing me anymore about telling you.” She rested her head against his shoulder and allowed herself to relax in his arms. “Feh, you’re not off the hook yet wench, I just don’t feel like fighting with you right now.” He totally missed her knowing smile. “Is it okay if I sleep?” she asked him in an already sleep-slurred voice. “Whatever.” He listened for a minute as her breathing evened out to match that of the kit napping in her arms. “I promise I’ll keep you safe, Kagome, even if it means keeping you safe from Kikyou.” He whispered the words to the sleeping girl with a determined look in his eyes. Shippou stirred in his sleep for a moment and heard the hanyou's declaration. “I’ll help keep her safe too Inuyasha…” ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Darkness had fallen over the camp and Kagome sat with her back against a tree. She watched as Shippou chased some early season fireflies in the tall grasses beyond the firelight. She was thankful that Inuyasha was giving her the chance to watch his antics. As his childish giggles drifted by on the evening breeze Kagome let her thoughts turn inward. ‘Kikyou. Everything always leads back to you doesn’t it? It you hadn’t had the shikon no tama burned with your body I wouldn’t have been born with it. If I wasn’t your reincarnation I’d never be able to travel down the well. Inuyasha could have been happier if you had lived…. But no, I don’t really believe that in my heart. You wanted Inuyasha to turn human for you. You were ashamed to love a hanyou….I don’t think he would have been truly happy as a human…even if it was for you. A part of me is very thankful toward you. It’s because of you and the shikon that I met Inuyasha and yet, a part of me hates you. How will he ever notice me when his first love refuses to stay dead? Now…now I have to deal with this present situation. If I don’t say anything…you’ll just fade away…Inuyasha will be able to move on…to maybe be happy again. He wouldn’t have to choose between us! All I have to do is not tell him that our binding is killing you. Could I live with myself if I didn’t say anything? I’d be responsible for Kikyou’s second death. This is too much for me to deal with by myself! I should just let him choose once and for all. But I’m afraid…’ Kagome felt tears coming to her eyes and she squeezed them tightly shut. She knew if she cried Inuyasha’s sensitive nose would pick up on it immediately. “What’s the matter with you now, bitch?” Inuyasha’s voice came from close to her right and made her jump a bit. She grabbed her pounding heart and glared toward the spot where she knew he was crouching. “Don’t scare me like that! And you know I hate it when you call me that.” Through his eyes she could see that her nose was a little red, a sure sign that she was close to tears. “Okay Ka. Go. Me. Tell me what’s wrong.” He moved closer to her and sat down. Kagome wanted to shiver when she felt some of his soft hair brush her face, but she managed to stay still. “I’m fine Inuyasha. I just have lots to think about.” She reached over to pat his knee but found her hand captured in his much larger one. “What did I tell you about lying to me?” His voice was stern and serious but Kagome refused to back down as she tried to tug her hand out of his grasp. “I’m not lying! You should trust my word when I say I’m fine.” Why was he being so persistent? If she could just piss him off, Kagome knew he’d go away and pout in some random tree and then she’d be left in peace. “You forget that I can sense your emotions, little girl. And pissing me off won’t work this time. You and I need to have a conversation about what happened today.” With that he tugged hard on her hand to pull her up. Kagome tried to pull away from his grip but Inuyasha was having none of it. “Leave me alone Inuyasha! I still don’t want to talk about it.” “I know you don’t want to talk about it.” His voice was smug and Kagome felt her ire rising. He was rubbing the fact that he practically knew what she was thinking in. “SIT BOY!” She yelled in frustration, not caring that his grip on her arm would cause her to fall too or that the pain he felt by being thrown into the ground would transfer to her. Inuyasha crashed to the ground---but without much force. Kagome felt her heart sink into her stomach. As loud as she’d shouted, he should have left a huge Inuyasha shaped crater in the ground, but she doubted he’d even have a bruise. “What just happened?” Miroku asked Sango from their spot next to the campfire. She just shook her head in confusion. “I don’t know…Inuyasha should have splattered…or at least the spell should have lasted longer…but look he’s getting up already!” She pointed over to where Inuyasha was pushing himself up with an evil gleam in his eye. “Kagome. Why did you do that?” His voice was calm and the others of the group gave an involuntary shiver. A calm Inuyasha was almost as scary as an out of control Inuyasha. “I wanted to get away from you,” she spat, although Sango noticed that her hands were shaking slightly. “Because you’re hiding something from me that happened today?” He moved closer to her like a predator slowly stalking its prey. “NO!” Kagome realized immediately after the fact that maybe her answer came too quickly. She backed away from him until she found her back pressed against the tree she’d been leaning against earlier. “I think you’re lying to me again Kagome.” One of his clawed hands rested above her head and he leaned in closer to her face. Kagome could feel his warm breath fanning over her and she gulped. “I-I’m not l-lying!” She managed to squeak out, hating herself for letting him affect her so much but worse was knowing that he knew what he was doing to her. “Kagome.” “I’m not…” She tried one last time to convince him even though she knew it was hopeless. “Kagome, you’re going to tell me what’s been bothering you right now,” he commanded her, sure that she would now tell him everything he wanted to know. Kagome opened her mouth but no sound came out. All she could think about was that he knew what he was doing to her; he was willingly using her own emotions against her. “No, I will not tell you anything! How dare you! How dare you use my feelings about you to your advantage! Don’t you care about how that makes me feel?” She was beating her fist against his chest and sobbing in anger. Inuyasha was completely surprised at her words. He hadn’t meant to use her feelings to his advantage nor had he meant to cause her to start crying such gut wrenching sobs. Shippou noticed for the first time the tension that was thick in the clearing. He turned to find his surrogate mother to reassure himself that she was okay. Only to see that she was sobbing into Inuyasha’s chest while punching him. “Kagome!” He cried out and hurried toward her. He wad determined to find out what the hanyou had done now to drive her to tears, but before he could start chewing on Inuyasha’s ears he felt a hand grip his tail. “Hey! What do you think your doing?” He yelled at the monk, who was keeping him away from his adopted mother. “I think Inuyasha and Kagome-sama should work this out on their own, Shippou-chan. If you jump in there now you’ll only make it worse.” The little kit’s shoulders drooped at the monk’s words. Sango took pity on him and pulled the little youkai into her lap. “Don’t worry Shippou-chan. Inuyasha might be a baka most of the time but he would never hurt Kagome-sama on purpose.” For his part, Inuyasha finally managed to shake himself out of his trance and look down at the girl who was weakly punching him and sobbing into his chest. Slowly he raised his arms to encircle her slim waist, but as soon as Kagome felt him touch her she jerked away. “NO! Don’t you dare touch me.” Suddenly her eyes widened and she grabbed her head. There were no words she could find to describe what happened next. It was as if she were seeing through her eyes and Inuyasha’s at the same time. For a brief moment her vision cleared and she looked up into his golden eyes that were so full of confusion and worry, then pain came crashing in on her. “Kagome!” Inuyasha caught her easily as she fell forward. For a moment he hadn’t been able to feel her through their connection, and it had shaken him badly. For the second time that day he was left holding an unconscious Kagome tightly to his chest. “What happened to her Inuyasha?” The others had rushed over when the young miko collapsed. Inuyasha tightened his grip on Kagome’s body and sent a warning growl Sango’s way when she looked as if she’d try to take Kagome from him. “I think it has something to do with that fucking spell. I’m going to take her to Kaede-baba’s village right now. You can all follow in the morning it you want.” He took a great leap into the air and then disappeared into the darkness. Sango held Shippou a bit closer and looked over at Miroku. His troubled _expression did nothing to help her feel better. “Do you think she’s going to be okay?” she asked hesitantly. “I don’t know, Sango-sama, but if anyone has the answers Kaede-sama will.” He wrapped an arm around her waist--to comfort her, of course. “Monk, if you don’t remove your hand I’ll break it!” “Okay Sango—“ “I when I said remove I meant for you to keep your wandering hands to yourself, not move them to other parts of my body!” “No one understands me!”
~*~ Now, if any of you get offended when someone has strong, bitchy opinions, then you might just want to skip the rant below. For all of you up and coming writers I have a few words for you…NEVER, I repeat, NEVER…let me reiterate N-E-V-E-R tell people that you suck at writing summaries! I don’t care if IT is true! Don’t say stuff like that! I have gotten to the point that if some one says that I stop reading the fic. Obviously you don’t have any faith in yourself so why should I have any faith in your writing? On a smaller scale, advertising that this is your first time writing isn’t a good idea anyway. It hints that you have no confidence in your ability to write well in character fics. You people are just using that as an excuse for if you fic bombs… I know you can all write!!! I’ve read the stories here, and I’ll be the first to admit that a few of the stories on ff.net blow…but please people have faith in yourself!! You don’t have to keep it a secret that this is your first time to write a story…just don’t put it in bold font. Now, about a summery…if you can’t think of anything to write ABOUT your fic, use a snippet of the chapter as a promo. I’m very sorry that I just said all that up there…I’m PMSing right now…and it kinda just wrote itself…but I feel better now…it does make me sad that so many good writers fall back on crutches just because they don’t believe in their own writing ability. Here are the review responses…I promise not to bite anymore! Emania: Don’t worry about coherent reviews…I understand the mush-mind thing…happens to me at the worse times!! Geminidragon: Okay…let me make up a convincing explanation of this plot hole…Okay, you see the spell had already begun to warp…So even though they weren’t linked at the moment, just enough of a residue of the link was left behind that Inuyasha could feel that she needed him! HA! I came up with an on the spot answer for a plot hole! Thanks for pointing it out to me though! Morlana: You get the giant cookie this time! Thanks for telling me how it’s spelled! I so needed my beta last chapter! Thanks for filling in for Julie! Tsukitani: I can only name three at the moment, regrettably when my compy died a sew weeks ago I lost all my down loaded copies of stories…Moo-Moo-Chan has one called Speechless here’s the promo--- Sixteen year-old Kagome doesn’t talk. She's been like this for the past three years. Her family wants her to start a regular school again, so that she might start speaking to people. They want someone to watch over her. His name is Inuyasha. Inu/Kag The next is called Saved by BookWorm12 , it only starts out with Kagome not talking though. Kagome and Souta Higuarashi are finally saved from their abusive Mother and adopted by the Inutaisho famly! What will happen? Read to find out! R&R please! And the last, but my favorite is Sight Unseen by SylverAngel. Kagome goes blind in this one =) You can find this fic here (just take out the spaces) http://www. iridescent-dreams. net / iy/ index.htm What good is a Shikon detector…that can’t see the shards? I can think of a few more, but I can’t seem to remember there names or where to find them. ArificialWatermelonFlavoring: Problems are going to keep popping up for a bit more…thanks for encouraging me. Kibo: I’m glad you stayed around for the second chapter! A lot of people have said that they liked the dream sequences…Maybe I’ll put in some more *taps fingered to chin* Serena63083: I agree with you. I’m strictly against Inu/Kik pairings…and thanks for understanding the college thing! LadyInuyasha711: I guess you still don’t know if Kaede knew what the spell would do huh? Sorry! The Unknown: You get two big cookies for this info! Now we all know why demons bite to prove their love! Kokoro: Maybe we should have a fanfiction wide funeral for Kikyou…or better yet someone could write about the Inu-gumi finally laying her to rest (without Inuyasha going to the after life with her) Dia: I have hopelessly drawn someone into my web! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA*chokecoughchoke* I find myself interested in the bond thing too, although I know a little bit more than you…I don’t know much more *grins* I guess we can all learn together! Kawaiiwolf: I hope this was quick enough. Katergator: *blushes* thank you! Hanyou Queen: hmm…I really didn’t hate her…until that ep. Last week…then I hated her for all of about 24 hours…now I just feel sorry for Inuyasha. Simply Turquoise: I’m glad you liked the preview, I hope you like the chapter just as well. Cat Youkai: I’m glad you found it cute…I think… And that’s a wrap for the responses….there will be no preview this chapter…as I haven’t written the next chapter…but I’ll give you a summery…just special for all of those that have made it this far down. Kaede tells them that they’re souls are changing her spell and she doesn’t think they can ever be unbound. All the stress finally gets to Kagome and she says that they must be unbound because of Kikyou. The next day Kagome asks it Kaede can at least try to unclasp their souls. So the question is…Will they lose their link? I guess you’ll find out next time…although as always it might be more than a week! Bye bye! Hitomi Lei sighing out.