InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Worthless Child ❯ The First Encounter ( Chapter 5 )

"The First Encounter"

A soft moan could be heard from the bottom of the stairs as the morning sun flowed into the stairwell. 'Go away sun' Inuyasha thought as he reached for his covers, but instead hitting his shirt. Not finding his blanket he pats around for it 'Hmm, where did the blanket go?' Inuyasha slowly opens his eyes to blistering bright light as images of last night's dreams and memory flashed through his eyes. 'Oka-san, Kikyo'.

"Get your lazy ass up, and start packing. Get your shit together and…" Inuyasha's foster father trailed off as Inuyasha gazed up at him with utter indifference. His eyes were wide and unfocused, jaw slack and body limp. 'I know that look. He's thinking about Kikyo, and even I know not to mess with when like THAT. I held that look when my wife passed away 6 years ago. I miss her so much. She was always there to when I woke up, to love and care for me. Now all I have is this worthless Hanyou.'

Inuyasha watched the strange emotions play across his foster father's face. Finally Inuyasha came across an expression that he recognized, an expression that he never would have expected from him. A deep sadness and empathy. Finally he looked at Inuyasha and said softly, in a tone of voice that he never heard before from the man standing in front of him.

"Go see your dead girlfriend as you probably won't see her for a while, since we are moving."

At hearing this, Inuyasha got the shock of his life. First off, he never heard his foster father talk like this. He was a Hanyou, lower than dirt. Second, he had never even cared before what happened to him. As long as he did what he was told, and stayed out of trouble, his father never cared. So he just started at his foster father dumbfounded, rooted to his spot, eyes bugging out.

"What are you staring at? Do you want to go or not? If not then get your ass to packing and get out of my face."

"Whatever"

"Remember to be back in time to pack your shit and my stuff. I want most of it done today, and finished by tomorrow. No excuses. You can go back to school when you finish packing, I already called your school. Now get moving Hanyou."

"Keh" said Inuyasha as he went to his room to grab his money. As he walked into his closet he spotted leather jacket. As he reached to grab it he noticed his old small chest. 'Hmm, I should take this too' thought Inuyasha. Before walking out he grabbed his wallet to buy flowers at a shop. Inuyasha flew out the door and started at a brisk pace to the local flower shop where he purchased a dozen blood red roses. "Kikyo's favorite" Inuyasha breathed as he started his trek to the cemetery where Kikyo was buried.

As he was walking his mind started to wander toward his earlier conversation with his father. 'How did he know I was thinking of Kikyo? Why was he making those faces? I don't understand! Why was he treating me nicely? Me, a Hanyou. He never did that before. The only person who ever did, besides Oka-san, was Kikyo. But even she had her faults. We talked about it in great lengths before we actually declared ourselves as boy/girl friend. She said she would slowly get over the fact that I was half youkai, and to give her some time. I really didn't like that fact but hey, she was always with me, she always wanted to play and be with me, and she was always there when I needed her. There was only that one time when… NO! We both promised each other to forget that. She apologized to me, and I forgave her. She was my girlfriend, my only love. It was my fault that she died, I promised to protect her, and I failed. She died in my fucking arms. I will never forgive that bastard who killed her. I will never forgive myself for letting her die. I will never love another. Who could love a Hanyou anyway?

Through all his musings Inuyasha had barley realized that he had reached the cemetery. Not paying attention to where he was going he ran into a man walking out of the cemetery.

"Stupid Hanyou, watch where you're walking" the man screamed as he stood up.

Not bothering to glare or yell back, Inuyasha just walked past him and sat down next to Kikyo's grave. 'That's right I'm a Hanyou. Someone who is lower than dirt, and doesn't deserve to live. The only people who loved me died next to me or in my arms.

Inuyasha breathed "Kikyo, Oka-san, I miss you so much", as one lone tear ran down his face. "I miss you guys so much. Kikyo I miss the warmth of your lips, the way you embrace me tight. I miss when you became playful, even though those occurrences were few and far between. Your smile could bring light to even my darkest days. Oka-san, I miss you even more. Why did you have to die? You always protected me, shielded me from the wrath of the world, and gave me so much love and caring. Why did you guys have to leave? I want to see and join you so bad."

Inuyasha took out the small chest out of his pocket. He opened the chest and took out the dagger that lay within. It was about 2 ½ inches long, perfectly balanced and recently sharpened tip. It was made out of pure silver, and reflected in the sunshine. On the handle was a carving of a rose, with a small ruby set in the center. As Inuyasha brought the dagger to his neck he heard a sharp inhale of breath behind him. 'Oh well, I wanted to do this alone, but no matter, she won't be able to stop me.' As he applied some pressure on the dagger, deep crimson blood poured down his neck, shirt and pant to drop on the floor, making a pool of blood on the ground. 'I deserve to be in pain for what I did to Seji. He was my brother, a brother who liked me even though I was a worthless Hanyou, and bravely protected his mother.' Inuyasha thought. His body and mind demanded 'More, Harder, More Blood, I NEED to repent for what I did.' More pressure was applied as the blade ripped through muscle tissue. The pain became too much as he let out a small whimper. He distinctly heard someone dial three numbers on a cell phone. 'Probably dialing 911, oh well time to get this over with' Inuyasha thought as he removed the dagger from his neck and moved to aim toward his heart. When he was about to strike the girl behind him called and asked him one question.

"Why? Why do you want to kill yourself? Why do you want to die?" the girl asked him with tears rolling down her cheeks and landing on the ground.

Kagome M.K - Thanks for reviewing again, but what does ok mean? Please tell me what you think of the fanfiction, and don't forget to tell your friends!! :)

Akiraton - hmm, I haven't decided whether I wanted Sesshomaru to be good or bad at the end. Still thinking about that. Inuyasha will get better, and as I tell my beta, "That's Kagome's job". Thanks for telling your friends about my story!

CoOlChIcK - Thanks for reviewing, I don't know why it didn't post the whole chapter, but here it is and hopefully it works this time

Thanks as usual (although he really didn't do much this time) to xagor888 for beta and idea's.