InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Therapy of Each Other ❯ Revelation ( Chapter 24 )

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A/N: At the bottom I'll explain why I got this in late… Me, Mrs, Prego- sensitive…. Tis fun tis fun… OH! That girl who I said flamed me for cussing… “Flame” Is too strong a word, sorry Christian Sis, I'm glad we have that sorted I still feel guilty Like I made her sound like a bad guy (which she so isout OK, On With the story!not), So I'm sorry nee-chan

Chapter 23: Revelation

Kagome sat and rocked herself back and forth, holding her pillow. She had not barely spoken, nor eaten for a week, since she remembered Inuyasha's past. Her mother was worried and the phone a few days ago, for 3 days, Inuyasha called every few hours, but it was no use. When it came to school, Kagome stayed home, her mother saying she had the flu and was running a fever. Inuyasha sighed and would stare at her empty seat. He knew the real reason why she was home. He didn't eat either, he couldn't. He felt like if he did, he wouldn't hold it down. Life wasn't worth it without Kagome. He thought long and hard why she would avoid him for THIS long. As he walked home from school (It is uncommon for high school students in Japan to drive to school), He thought harder. The look, her smell, that night in general stuck to his memory like a stubborn, painful thistle. It ate him from the inside. He tried to sympathize, he really did. Within a few hours, the man she trusted and put everything into was the personal demon of her past. Her only remaining, comforting memory from her awakening, was in fact the dictator of her pain, true he wasn't the one that shot her, but those years of pain probably felt worse, now she knew it was him. He paused and gritted his teeth,

“…what about all the times you did... all the scars you ever gave me are burning... Not as badly as my heart.”

Inuyasha reached to her,

“Kagome... It used to be like that, but that was before!”

She got up and grabbed a long stick, raising it in self defense as she backed herself against the wall,

“You really expect me to believe that after 8 years of ruthless torture and abuse, Your heart changed in just 7 months!”

Inuyasha slowly got up and said, deeply hurt,

“Actually... yes...”

He clinched his fists and his bangs hid his eyes,

“... not what I remember in the home... You still teased me... hurt me... And I was helpless... You jerk!”

Inuyasha's heart was being torn piece by piece. He felt like falling on the ground and curling up to rot.

“You... You... Remember that?”

She nodded. He hung his head low and clinched his fists. He didn't know what to do. He felt so helpless. She remembered it all. All the abuse. He said softly,

“I knew this day would come... I just thought...”

He looked up at her with a hurt face, his ears drooping,

“That you would remember the real me... The me that I am around and with you... and put all the bad stuff behind you.”

Kagome rubbed her arms,

“Well, I wish it were that easy... But you have no idea the pain you put me in for years... and remembering all that...”

He roared and punched the nearest wall, a chunk of it crumbling to the ground, like he felt his heart was doing. He fell to his hands and knees and choked back the hurt, the pain. She was it… The only one, it was her or no one. This is what she brought him too, this is what she did to him.

“I…I'm so…worthless… I deserve this…But I don't at the same time.”

He began to wonder if this is similar to any of the pain he inflicted on Kagome. Then he had his own flashback, like a flood, he remembered a collage of images of him hitting, beating, slicing, pushing her and her blood curdling cries and screams, begging with all of her being for him to stop. Then at the home, how she'd twist and scream silently when they'd feed her that tube. He felt sick at the thought that it gave him pleasure at that time. He crashed his knuckle into the concrete as he remembered him yelling, barking at her while twisting and contorting her body around like a doll during “physical training”, but how she still would look to him, smile, depend on him.

“That's not what I remember in the home... You still teased me... hurt me... And I was helpless... You jerk!”

He rose to his feet and cringed,

“I'll make it up to you, Kagome… I'd rather die then live without you… Though death is what I deserve… I…”

He couldn't take anymore,

“I have to see her!”

And he sprinted to the Shrine.

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Kagome sat on the bed and stared at Inu-chan, the stuffed dog Inuyasha gave her to “protect” her when he was gone. The memory ran through her mind,

“Inuyasha!”

She ran full speed and ran into him at full force, he used his free hand to steady himself as she hooked around him. She squeezed him and squealed,

“You are back! I missed you so much!”

Inuyasha blushed but flatly said,

“I've been gone a day…”

She looked at him with a pouty face and asked,

“You didn't miss me?”

Inuyasha gulped and stared at her a moment before hugging her back with one hand, the other behind his back,

“Of course I did Baka!”

Kagome smiled and released him and stood back as he walked up to her and said,

“I got you something today…”

Her eyes got big and shimmered like brown-cobalt pieces of obsidian,

“Really!”

Inuyasha nodded and brought in from of him a stuffed white dog with pointed ears. She giggled in pure delight as Inuyasha held him up to by his face,

Kagome couldn't help but to smile at the memory of that look, but her memory continued,

“You like him?”

She squealed,

“I love him!”

Inuyasha then said,

“Good, because he is your guard dog. He is to take care of you when I'm not with you. He'll bite anyone bad if they get to close to you and protect you at night,”

He made the stuffed dog look at him,

“Isn't that right?”

Kagome giggled when Inuyasha made the dog look at her and nod. Inuyasha handed the dog to her and she hugged it childishly and said,

“Oh thank you thank you thank you!”

Inuyasha smiled. He asked,

“What are you going to call him?”

Still cuddling the dog she said,

“Inu-chan.”

Inuyasha he made a face, but smiled and laughed,

“I'm glad you like…Inu-chan”.

The name made him cringe a bit because over confident girls at school tended to call him Inu-chan.

He happily said to her,

“I'm very glad you like it…”

She paused to look at him with that innocent smile that almost made him have to sit down, but it surprised him when she hugged him and bent his head down and gently kissed his forehead. Inuyasha froze as her silky, feather-soft lips touched his forehead. He smiled at him and continued to gush over the dog.

So many nights of nightmares… of now she knew were actually memories of Inuyasha's past torturing, She'd wake up and cradle the dog, breathing it in as it had Inuyasha's unique, comforting scent on it. The dog, now, just stared at her. She almost got tears as she had memories of latter days in the home. Inuyasha was mean at first, but if she didn't know better, but as the months passed, he got so much nicer, and patient, even after the “first period” incident. She ran her fingers through her hair as she blushed, but remembered how he didn't look at her, he just comforted her. She got a knot in her belly…

“So confused…”

She hugged herself, She wanted it to be his arms around her, his voice in her ear, his breath on her cheek and neck. She missed him more then anything. She felt like she was helpless without him, despite their past. She loved him… but thought about if he in fact loved her for real. She remembered the broken looks he gave her that night. He was desperate, hurt, broken. Was he honest? Her thoughts were interrupted by small taps on her window. She wiped her eyes and stood up to look out. She froze and felt numb at what she saw.

Inuyasha paused when he saw her. She looked down at him with a stone face, almost identical to his brother's. He yelled,

“Kagome! Please… I beg of you with all my being, come down here! Please!”

He pleaded. It almost broke her heart, but she was frozen. She didn't know from fear, shock or confusion, she tried to talk, but had no voice. She then gave him an, “I'm sorry” look. He frowned and yelled,

“Dammit! Kagome! Don't you know how much you mean to me? I'm going absolutely mad without you! Please! I need you!”

His voice cracked, his eyes red from desperation. She touched the glass on her window, as if saying she wanted to. He waited, hoping that she would open it or say something. She was hurt, confused and broken as well, he sensed it. He pleaded again, a sound in his voice make him sound like he was choking,

“Kagome! I'll do anything! Just come back to me...”

He began to visibly tremble,

“Kagome! I can't live without you any longer! I'll wither away… Kagome… Can't you see…”

He clinched his fist and yelled so loud, it echoed of the walls, probably audible from the street,

“… I love you!”

He was breathing hard, staring at her with desperate eyes. She bit her lip. Inuyasha saw this as a good sign until he saw the instant hurt and confusion. Did she not believe him? She broke into tears and ran from the window, disappearing from view. He listened to see where she was. To his disappointment, she remained in her room, her wailing and sobs muffled. He knew she was on her bed…crying. He fell numb. It had been a week. Maybe that was the wrong thing to say, especially with her state of mind. With that he sighed, a lone tear escaping his moist, hurting eyes. This was the worst pain he had ever felt. He just wandered home, The sky ironically getting dark as rain pattered in the distance. He some how wished it were a thunderstorm. To add salt to his wounds, he kept thinking of that night, her first thunderstorm, but how she ran to him, and then… Her cute innocence of having to learn how to kiss, but her taste, her touch, her skin, her moans and shivers. He arrived at his house and just went up to his room, not caring about food, homework… life. He was only 18. He tried to curse his youkai blood, but it was no use…no use at all… All he could do is lay there and just pray for death.

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Kagome cried for what seemed like hours in her room. His words echoed her head repeativeily. Was he so desperate? Could she believe him? She wanted to believe him more then her lungs wanted air. Then something crossed her mind. He'd never leave her heart or mind. She may not be as bright as she used to be, but those eyes, that face was all she saw in her mind's eye. His eyes were moist and Inuyasha wasn't that kind of guy. She grabbed her head as she tried to remember the good times, like the home, the party…the thunderstorm, the fun park and café. Oh how did she missed his touch, his unique smell, his taste, how he'd smile and on purpose, he'd say basically anything to see her blush. After a point, he protected her with wrath. The party… Kouga…Then something really struck her… that day at school... after the party… He didn't have too… Her eyes tears up and her mouth hung open at the memory,

His friends began to surround them and give him a weird look. Inuyasha growled at them, not letting loose of Kagome,

“What? What is it? You all have a problem?”

Himekou rose a brow,

“What's going on, man? Do you have any idea what you are doing?”

Inuyasha glared at them, Kenji continued,

“She a retard man! Not too mention since you guys were kids...”

“Things have changed”

He held his puzzled Kagome closer,

“Got a problem with it?”

He was so protective. Was that really the Inuyasha of her nightmares and memories? It couldn't be… Can someone change in those few months? True it did make her mad that her looks helped his decision, but She really couldn't blame her, he was who he was. But when she thought of seeing him face- to- face, panic reached her. He had hurt her that deeply. Then her mind wandered back to the night of the thunderstorm. He was so gentle, and though she knew, he knew that she was scared and didn't want sex, he didn't push it. He could of, but he didn't force himself on her. That was rare, And the passion in his kisses, they did not lie. Te night in the park, his kisses or eyes... No way that was a lie either. What has she done? She bit her lip and furrowed her brows as his desperate, broken face returned to her mind… and his “I love you”. She looked at the clock. It was 8pm and it was pouring outside, but something popped into her heart and head faster then the memories that hit her. It was the future. Inuyasha was hurt because of her. He was truly the man she loved. To be with forever. Their past scarred her deeply, but she had to get over it. For him, and for her. He was her hell, but IS her world. From the moment she woke from her coma, it was him that brought her to life. It was now. She needed him now. Not caring about the rain, cold December night, or the fact she was in her pajamas and it was night, She grabbed her rain coat on her door and raced as fast as she could down the stairs, her mothered yelled for her, but she yelled,

“I need to see Inuyasha! I really need to.”

She cringed at the cold, pouring rain, but raced to her bike, after carefully pulling it down the tall, shrine steps, She raced of into the night, shielding her eyes with her sleeve, but careful, the last thing she needed was to get killed on the way there.

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A/N: Sorry it got in so late… busy past few days… Plus yesterday I was super depressed. During mood swings I love to ready sweet/exciting/ fluffy Inuyasha stories, but yesterday was bad luck I guess. I mean some people's view on love confuses me… I read a bunch of stories that just depressed me... then... one story I read, The title mislead me… it ended up Kagome was like screwing Inuyasha (who was her bestest best friend ever) and then went behind his back and screwed Kouga. (I skip over the lemons, but they were long). I read on, hoping, begging Kagome would get caught by Inuyasha, but like right when Inuyasha sees her for the first time in a year, he screws her and says something along the lines of, “I don't care who you date or screw, just as long as you make sure they wear condom… I'm the only one to spill seed into you.” And by this point I was in tears I'm like “You are kidding…” and basically they discussed that they can screw with everyone they want, but they love each other and they are each other's “only” and She thinks in her mind “Now THIS is true love” and by the next chapter she screws Kouga… I just went pale and couldn't read anymore... I turned off my monitor and climbed into my husband's arms and said, “I'm depressed, I need held, please just... hold me.” With no questions or hesitations, he took me into his chest and nuzzled and kissed on top of my head and squeezed me saying, “I love you so much.” I smiled and said “You have no clue how much I actually do, truly love you.” He drew my chin up to look at him and smiled, stroked my cheek and kissed me before taking me back into his arms and chest. It was my turn to say “NOW THIS! Is true love.” I know some of you are like “why are you reading r-rated stories?” Not all R-rated stories have lemons and over half the ones I've read aren't even “r” material... And The Inuyasha fanfic queen herself, Rozefire switched all hers to “R” (long story) and most are PG-13 and even PG material... Also...I know a lot of you don't agree on my view on sex and may not find anything wrong with what that story described. It's just who I am... And what makes me who I am. I get teased a lot about it, but My husband is very very happy on the way I think ;)