InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ To see your smile ❯ Smiles ( Chapter 7 )

Part VII: Smiles

 

A/N: Here you are my dear readers this is the last part so enjoy!!

 

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Disclaimer: If I owned Inuyasha, Sesshy would have freed Kagura and they'd be living happily ever after by now…

 

 

 

Rin and I walked hand in hand to find Sesshomarou. Okay I know it might look cowardly on my part not to want to face Sesshomarou alone, but Rin insisted to come along, and I just can't resist her puppy eyes look.

 

We found him in Rin's garden, sitting against my favorite tree, the one I would always sit under while watching Rin run around. Was it a coincidence or did he miss me?

 

“I see you are still here Kagura” Sesshomarou said his gaze still locked somewhere into space.

 

“Well, this new girl Yumi, she was chosen by Jaken right?” I asked him.

 

“Yes” he answered still not looking at me.

 

“Just as I thought, it just won't do. Jaken can not be trusted to make those kinds of decisions.”

 

I then shifted my eyes from Sesshomarou's back to Rin who was standing besides me and said “Looks like you're going to be stuck with me. There is no way I'm going to leave you with some incompetent girl to look after you. That would be like undoing all the hard work I've put into taking care of you so far. I mean she braided your hair, she should have noticed that you look so much better with your hair let down”.

 

I knew that attacking Rin's new care taker was a cheap shot, but I learned from the best. My father Naraku isn't really known for being the fairest man.

 

“Does that mean you are staying?” Rin asked with sparkling eye.

 

“It's not like I have a choice… Now then Rin, it's time for your calligraphy lesson, you better not be late or Master Miroku will make you write more lines”.

 

Rin grimaced but made her way towards the castle. Now that my shield was gone, I had no choice but to face Sesshomarou.

 

“So, I take it you wish to stay?” he asked still not looking at me. I sighed and summoned all the courage in me and sat down next to him. Instantly my throat felt dry and my heart started beating so fast and loud that I was sure Sesshomarou could hear it.

 

“Yeah” I managed to choke out.

 

“Why?”

 

“I cleared my throat and said “It's not like I have anywhere to go, beside Rin really needs someone to look after…” I started, but a growl from Sesshomarou stopped me.

 

He finally turned around to face me and said “This Sesshomarou demands to hear the truth wind witch. Rin may accept your false reasons, but I am not one to be fooled so easily”.

 

I was at a loss for words by his sudden display of emotions. Even if the emotions in question were surely a mix of anger and irritation, it was better than nothing right?

 

“This Kagura is getting tired of this Sesshomarou! You want to know why I want to stay, well isn't it obvious? It's because I LOVE YOU!”

 

Sesshomarou looked at me with surprise written all over his face. I could understand his shock. It's not like I planned to tell him about my feelings like this. If I had not been this angry, I would surely be blushing horribly.

 

“You love me? Why?” he asked me, I can't believe this guy, did he look in the mirror lately?!

 

“Because…” I had to look away from him, the way he was looking at me made me nervous and I was already blushing a nice shade of red.

 

Sesshomarou grabbed me by the chin and forced me to look at him and said “because…”.Did he seriously expect me to finish this sentence? By the intense look he was giving me I guess yes.

 

“Because, you're handsome, strong and intelligent and I don't know. I just do.” I Know I sounded like a pouting child, pathetic.

 

“No one ever said these words to me” Sesshomarou said his hand moving from my chin to my cheek, his thumb gently stroking my skin in circular motions.

 

I found it hard to believe, after all his family is so rich, he must have had a nice childhood. And he was married before and what about Rin. Then I realized I never heard Rin talk about love, could it be that it was a foreign notion to her? But surely her father must have said to her that he loved her…maybe not.

 

Damn, and I thought I had family problems, even if Naraku and Kanna did not show me that much love, at least thanks to my mom I knew how it felt to love and be loved. I then promised myself that I would do the same for Rin, I would also teach her how to express her feelings to others, considering it was not a subject neither her father nor her fancy tutors could teach her.

 

“What about your first wife? Or your parents?” I asked him.

 

“I told you before my marriage with Sara was only for political reasons. We were betrothed at the age of five years old. My marriage with her was supposed to bring peace between the Western and Eastern Lands. I considered her a friend and I was very pained and felt guilty at her passing but there was no love between us. And my parents…the former Lord and Lady of the Western Lands were not the kind of persons to give displays of affection”.

 

By the look in his eyes I could tell it was really hard for him to open up and talk of such things, so I refrained from making fun of him due to his similarity with his parents.

 

But since he was in a talkative mood, I figured I'd take advantage of it. So I asked “Sesshomarou why did you ask me to leave?”

 

He furrowed his delicate eyebrows and answered “I never did”.

 

I was startled, how dare he blatantly lie to me? Now I was going to get mad, but I decided not to let my temper get the best of me anymore. So I breathed deeply and said “yes you did! When you removed Rin from my care.”

 

“This Sesshomarou did not. I told you, you were free to go. And I appointed someone else as Rin's care taker because I did not want you to feel like you had to stay. On the other hand, if you wish to stay you are also free to do so”.

 

I was stunned, and for a few seconds I processed what he told me. So basically, all along he just wanted me to make my own decision, he did not want me to feel like I was obliged to stay. Could it be that he wanted me to want to stay. All this was confusing me to no end. So I decided to bluntly ask him “Sesshomarou how do you feel about me?”

 

He averted his gaze, from mine and turned his head towards the other end of the garden. I figured it would not be a good sign and could already feel a painful lump forming in my throat.

 

“Kagura, you confuse and unsettle me. You dare say things to me that no one else would. I feel like you can see me for who I really am not just my title or my standing. In a way you even scare me, you are able to arouse feelings in me that I did not know could exist”.

 

I was at a loss for words, he just opened his heart to me! I reached out, and turned his face towards mine, I needed to see his eyes, those beautiful amber orbs which could tell me if he really meant what he was saying. And what I saw in there melted my heart: I saw fear and uncertainty.

 

So many words and emotions were raging in my head and I knew just the way to make him understand how I felt.

 

I gently pressed my lips to Sesshomarou's. What I intended to be an innocent kiss quickly became passionate and I could feel his hands grazing my sides. I tilted my head back as he trailed kisses from my lips to my neck.

 

Sesshomarou then locked our lips in a passionate kiss and as I was feeling the same tingling and excitement as the night before spread over my body, but this time it felt more emotional, as if Sesshomarou was trying to tell me of his feelings through his kisses, or maybe it was once again all in my head. But I doubt it, I don't know how to explain it, but it was so beautiful it almost made me cry.

 

Our little make out session was suddenly interrupted by someone loudly clearing their throat behind us.

 

I winced and quickly turned around to see none other than the toad demon Jaken.

 

“Wench, what are you still doing here? Didn't my Lord tell you to leave the castle at once?”

 

I was surprised by Jaken's interruption, but soon understood as I realized that from where he was standing he could not see Sesshomarou sitting next to me, as he was hidden by the large tree we were sitting against. I smiled, if the imp found out what was going on he would be sure to have a heart attack.

 

“And what if I decided to stay?” I answered him with a nonchalant shrug.

 

“Do not force me to use strength to remove you from the premises” the imp spat.

 

“Do you seriously think YOU can defeat me?” I sent a small gust of wind to make the hat on the top of his bald head fall.

 

“You bitch, behold the power of the Staff of two heads!” he screamed pointing his weird cane on me. I was about to retort, when Sesshomarou decided to let Jaken know he was there, he stood up and walked between me and the imp.

 

“Jaken you are never to either harm or address Kagura in such a disrespectful way ever again. Am I clear?”

 

The imp gulped loudly as he looked at his master towering over him, and I had to stiffen a laugh. Sesshomarou than sent him a cold glare and raised his hand, needless to say Jaken disappeared in record time.

 

I stood up and looking at Sesshomarou I asked with a fake pout “I wish you could give me a lesson in toad repelling.”

 

“Kagura, I am afraid it is a skill bestowed at birth” he answered with a shrug. My heart stopped, did Sesshomarou just make a joke!

 

“Did you…did you just make a joke?” I finally asked not able to refrain myself. His answer was letting out a small smile and as soft chuckle as he looked at my astonished face.

 

Even if his smile was small in appearance it was big in meaning, and left me breathless. Sesshomarou tilted his head to the side as he started walking back to the castle: I understood he wanted me to follow.

 

And I followed him, I would follow him anywhere and anytime. He may not have said he loved me, but I knew it was just a matter of time. And I could wait, because until he voiced his feelings for me, I would cherish the memory of his smile, the one I was the only one to have ever seen.

 

 

 

THE END

 

 

 

A/N: And there you have it. I can't believe it's over. It was a nice challenge to not only write at the first person but also post a chapter everyday… Maybe I'll use this format again. Anyway goodbye my dear readers and don't forget to leave me a review. Oh and also go check out my other fan fictions (I just posted a nice long chapter of `Jump over the wall of freedom')!!!

 

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