InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Toimya ❯ Positives And Negatives ( Chapter 19 )
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By: bittersweetbabydoll 
Toimya looks over her situation
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Comedy / Romance / Angst | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 11.18.2007 | Pages: 1 | Words: 543 | Visits: 138 | Status: Completed
Toimya looks over her situation
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Comedy / Romance / Angst | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 11.18.2007 | Pages: 1 | Words: 543 | Visits: 138 | Status: Completed
A\N: I am so mad! my mom still hasn't payed the phone or internet bill! But of course she can't go one day without her preacious cigarettes! I'm so fucking pissed!
Positives and negatives.
Why? Why was this happening to her? She loved the boy. The lord knew she did. But she wasn't ready for this. A baby. This was too hard. Way too hard. And she knew that in nine (more like seven or eight) months she could learn a lot. But would it be enough time? Would she be smart enough to take care of this baby? She knew that a lot of demons had children much much earlier than fifteen but she always thought that she would be different.
She thought that she would be a virgin forever, because of the cat thing. But no. She could have at least waited until they were married. Now he was going to want to marry her for the baby. She knew that she loved him. And she knew that he loved her too. But would they have enough love to raise a child?
She had a feeling that he was having sceptical feelings too, but she didn 't have the heart to tell him what she was thinking. What if he was acctualy happy about this? Not that she wasn't happy. She wanted the baby. The lord knew that she did. But she could have waited to have it.
She was ashamed of herself for thinking this way. She loved Shippou and would do anything for him. She knew that he wanted this baby just as much as she did, and she should be happy. God had given her a gift and she was thinking about the negatives instead of the possitives.
Possitives...hmmmm. She was going to bring a beautiful, demon baby into the world. She was going to be able to mold it and care for it. She would be able to make it a good and decent and strong person. More so, she could raise it to be the person she wasn't. A smart person. And although thinking about it brought a tear to her eye, she knew that it wouldn't be like her. Because she had lost her parents. And she grew up not being able to communicate with people. And she had grown up knowing face to face how bad the world had been. She hadn't had the shelter that children deserved. She was brought up knowing that the world was a twisted and evil place and it was impossible to make it good. She was brought up with the truth. And it was because of Naraku. She'd seen evil personified. She'd seen what certain people were willing to do to make the world bend to their disires no matter how awful they were. But this child wouldn't know that. It would grow up around good strong people. The very people that had brought Naraku down. It was impossible to make the world perfect, but it was possible to make it better.
A\N: That last paragraph is making me think. TOO DEEP! dammit! my brain hurts! Review for me my pretties!
Positives and negatives.
Why? Why was this happening to her? She loved the boy. The lord knew she did. But she wasn't ready for this. A baby. This was too hard. Way too hard. And she knew that in nine (more like seven or eight) months she could learn a lot. But would it be enough time? Would she be smart enough to take care of this baby? She knew that a lot of demons had children much much earlier than fifteen but she always thought that she would be different.
She thought that she would be a virgin forever, because of the cat thing. But no. She could have at least waited until they were married. Now he was going to want to marry her for the baby. She knew that she loved him. And she knew that he loved her too. But would they have enough love to raise a child?
She had a feeling that he was having sceptical feelings too, but she didn 't have the heart to tell him what she was thinking. What if he was acctualy happy about this? Not that she wasn't happy. She wanted the baby. The lord knew that she did. But she could have waited to have it.
She was ashamed of herself for thinking this way. She loved Shippou and would do anything for him. She knew that he wanted this baby just as much as she did, and she should be happy. God had given her a gift and she was thinking about the negatives instead of the possitives.
Possitives...hmmmm. She was going to bring a beautiful, demon baby into the world. She was going to be able to mold it and care for it. She would be able to make it a good and decent and strong person. More so, she could raise it to be the person she wasn't. A smart person. And although thinking about it brought a tear to her eye, she knew that it wouldn't be like her. Because she had lost her parents. And she grew up not being able to communicate with people. And she had grown up knowing face to face how bad the world had been. She hadn't had the shelter that children deserved. She was brought up knowing that the world was a twisted and evil place and it was impossible to make it good. She was brought up with the truth. And it was because of Naraku. She'd seen evil personified. She'd seen what certain people were willing to do to make the world bend to their disires no matter how awful they were. But this child wouldn't know that. It would grow up around good strong people. The very people that had brought Naraku down. It was impossible to make the world perfect, but it was possible to make it better.
A\N: That last paragraph is making me think. TOO DEEP! dammit! my brain hurts! Review for me my pretties!