InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Tumbleweed's Ficlet Corner ❯ Trust ( Chapter 3 )

It starts with one

One thing I don't know why

It doesn't even matter how hard you try

 

 

Kagome was running blindly. He had chosen Kikyo. Why, she couldn't tell, but he did. The tears were streaming down her face, mixing with the blood as the brambles and branches smacked her face and raked her arms. The pain didn't even register in her mind; it was on too small of a scale compared to the torture her heart was going through. He had chosen Kikyo...

 

 

Keep that in mind

I designed this rhyme

To explain in due time

All I know

 

 

For three years, she had stuck by his side, helped him complete the jewel, put up with him, kept up with his rough schedule, skipped school more times then she should count, and now he was abandoning her. All she knew now was that time was a valuable thing that couldn't be taken back, and neither was trust. She had trusted him...

 

 

Time is a valuable thing

Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings

The clock ticks life away

It's so unreal

 

 

She had wasted it all. In her time, she was considered dead because she had just wanted to spend more time with him. He didn't even care, he had acted like it to keep her coming back, but he didn't care. All of her feelings didn't matter, even after he was alerted to them. He chose Kikyo. He had chosen Kikyo when she had actually trusted him to stay with her! She slapped herself. It was her fault for being so stupid! There was no way she could ever have him return her feelings.

 

 

You didn't look out below

Watch the time go right out the window

You tried to hold on

But you didn't even know

I wasted it all

Just to watch you go

 

 

She watched as he and Kikyo went down into the fiery pits of Hell. She couldn't take much of it. It was enough to know that he had chosen her, but she didn't want to watch it. She took off. She ran straight for the well. She ran and ran, she was probably lost by now but nothing even mattered right now.

 

 

I kept everything inside

And even though I tried

It all fell apart

 

 

She had tried so hard to give him hints every now and then and to try and make him stay, but it didn't work. She just had to keep it all inside... Why, why did she ever do that? Why couldn't she have just told him how she felt? He would've stayed then!

 

 

What it meant to me

Will eventually be

A memory of a time

 

 

Now all she had were memories. She had trusted the bastard and he betrayed her. He went and chose the dead bitch instead of the one that would love him until the end of his days. The thought only made her cry harder.

 

 

I tried so hard and got so far

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

 

 

Two years later, she still retained all of the feelings toward Inuyasha. She went to visit Shippo, Sango, and Miroku regularly and was beginning to be her same old self, but she had fallen fast and hard after that. Her moods went straight down and never came back up. The good moods lately were just cover-ups so they wouldn't send her to that damned therapist again.

 

 

I had to fall to lose it all

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

 

 

It didn't matter now, he was gone and she was alone and she had accepted that. She, at her desk, picked up a framed picture of he and she laughing together in a hot spring after she had shoved him in and he pulled her in as well. They had been in love, she knew it! But he had refused her for his `duty' to Kikyo. Well, it had been her `duty' to be in Sengoku Jidai, so maybe it was a fair trade.

 

 

One thing

I don't know why

It doesn't even matter how hard you try

 

 

It didn't matter how hard she tried. She didn't know what had gone wrong. The only thing she knew was that he had chosen her and she was alone now.

 

 

Keep that in mind

I designed this rhyme

To remind myself how I

Tried so hard

 

 

She was listening to one of her favorite songs. In the End by Linkin Park described their situation almost perfectly, and nowadays she only listened to it to make herself remember how hard she had tried, but it didn't work. She didn't try much of anything nowadays. Not even with her grades, which were failing horribly.

 

 

In spite of the way you were mocking me

Acting like I was part of your property

Remembering all the times you fought with me

I'm surprised it got so far

 

 

Inuyasha and she had fought so much, but after a while Shippo had told her that when she got angry, her scent changed. That was probably why Inuyasha pissed her off so often. When Koga came into the picture, he acted like she was his mate or something. It was ridiculous, but Kagome knew that, being demons, they kind of had to. Even after two years, she was still surprised that she had put up with him for three years.

 

 

Things aren't the way they were before

You wouldn't even recognize me anymore

Not that you knew me back then

But it all comes back to you

In the end

 

 

Looking at herself in the mirror, she had bags under her eyes, her hair was a mess, her face was pale, her eyes were dark and lifeless, and she had a scowl on. Inuyasha definitely would never recognize her. He didn't even know her back then, what made her think that she'd recognize her now? Either way, it always came back to him, especially in her daydreams and others.

 

 

You kept everything inside

And even though I tried

It all fell apart

 

 

Kagome remembered that day vividly. She had confessed to him that very morning and he had ignored her feelings. She should've left right then, but she had stuck near him as she always did, and went unacknowledged for it.

 

 

What it meant to me

Will eventually be

A memory of a time

 

 

The memories now were all she had of him. He still meant so much to her, and if he showed up right now (highly unlikely) she would probably end up forgiving him and running into his arms. Memories were the only things left, though. Whispers of winds that sounded like his voice, the forest that smelled of him, the tapping on the window by the trees that sounded so much like his claws...

 

 

I tried so hard and got so far

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

I had to fall to lose it all

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

 

 

It didn't matter anymore. Nothing did. She understood that, and accepted that. She'd never see him ever again, and she understood and accepted that. With grace and dignity, she had accepted her failed attempts to get him to love her, and thus became a shell. She wondered how much she acted like Kikyo nowadays.

 

 

I put my trust in you

Pushed as far as I can go

For all this

There's only one thing you should know

 

 

Damn the anniversary of that day. Of course, that day was today and she was reliving every moment of it. She remembered his expression of angst and guilt when she confessed her feelings the morning before... She remembered his guilty yet happy expression when he was in her arms and sinking into hell. She remembered running through the woods, sobbing.

 

 

I put my trust in you

Pushed as far as I can go

For all this

There's only one thing you should know

 

 

“I TRUSTED YOU, INUYASHA!!!” she had screamed back at him. She knew he'd hear, no matter where he was. “I trusted you...” she said coldly. “I trusted you.”

 

 

I tried so hard and got so far

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

 

 

Nowadays, nothing could fool her. The scraping on the window that sounded like his claws had no effect on her. The scent of the forest when she was in Sengoku Jidai couldn't faze her. The whispers of wind that sounded of his voice couldn't make her knees wobble. If she could feel the roughness of his haori and his hands, feel the coarseness of his hair, the fluffiness of his hair, the warmth of his body, the gleam in his eyes... Then she would believe. Until then, she was a shell.

 

 

I had to fall to lose it all

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

 

 

Nothing mattered anymore, not without her lost love.

 

 

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Disclaimer: I do not own Linkin Park's In the End, or Inuyasha.

 

 

Moron