InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Twisted Love ❯ Feelings...for him?! ( Chapter 4 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Kagome hurt all over, mentally and physically. She was so confused. How could she have let this happen? How could her body have enjoyed it? She felt sick when Jaken came in with some new clothes and food. She blushed as Jaken removed the furs which showed she was with Sesshoumaru for the first time. Before Jaken left though he turned around and relayed a message.

"Sesshoumaru-sama would like you to dress and go see to Rin. She misses you and wants to play. He also told me that he wouldn't be home right away, for he had something to do. If you needed anything for pain, or anything to comfort Rin and you, to ask me immediately. I will be keeping watch lady, so it will not take me long to respond." With that he left the room.

Sighing Kagome gathered enough strength to take a long bath as well as some asprin. To lighten her mood she thought about what she was going to do when her asprin ran out? Inuyasha would always tell her to stay, not to go home. She smiled at the thought of his concerned puppy dog look everytime she went to leave. I wonder if Sesshoumaru would let me return to get medications? Yeah right. He would likely chain me to a bed first before allowing me to even leave this castle.

When Kagome was dressed and ate a tiny amount of food that was prepared, she called for Jaken to show her where Rin was. Rin was inside her room playing with all these strange looking toys. When Rin looked up and saw Kagome, she smiled and ran to her. "Kagome...I mean.. mama!" Rin corrected. Kagome was shocked that Rin called her mama, but then remembered Jaken telling her that Sesshoumaru told her she was to be exactly that. Hugging the child to her Kagome smiled down and asked what she was doing.

"I am playing with Sesshoumaru's old toys mama. He said I must be careful with them, because they are as old as he is. How old is Sesshoumaru?" Rin questioned.

"I don't know to be honest, Rin. He is right though, be careful with the toys, they may be all you have left of your home one day." Kagome thought, thinking of Inuyasha and the crazy birthday gift he had given her for good luck, which it was still in her bag. As Rin stared at her new mother strangely, she wondered why Sesshoumaru and her were never together at the same time.

"Where is Sesshoumaru? Doesn't he like you anymore? I never see him with you. Did you make him mad?" She said with a little bit of anger.

"I don't think so, he said he had something to do, Rin. I don't know why he is never with me when you are around. Maybe he doesn't want to fight for your affections." Kagome lied. That or he just doesn't want Rin to see me fight him!

"Oh, are you hungry mama? Do you want to eat in the garden?" Rin asked happily.

"No, Rin, I am not hungry I just ate, but it would be nice to get some fresh air. Jaken!" Kagome called. The short servant of Sesshoumaru's came into the room quickly enough, bowing to her and asking what she wanted. "Rin wants to go outside in the gardens. Would that be okay?"

"Rin may go, you may not. Sesshoumaru-sama will be home soon, but he has told me you are not allowed to leave the castle at this point in time. Sorry Rin, but that is his words." He explained quickly to the saddened child. With that he left the room so the two could spend more time together.

After deciding that Rin should stay inside and play for awhile, Kagome left heading for her room to sleep. She spied a window and looked outside. Out of the corner of her eye she swore she seen something red. Bright red to be exact. Oh my god! Inuyasha! She wanted to scream. Suddenly a hand grabbed her waist and swung her around. Sesshoumaru stared at her with curiousity before he smiled and said, "Something outside that intrests you woman?"

Afraid he would guess what she saw, she denied it, and tried to find a way to distract him from the window."No, just wanted to go out into the gardens with Rin today, but I wasn't allowed. Sesshoumaru may I go into the gardens if you are there? Rin was also wondering why you never want to be around when I am in the same room. I promise not to fight you when she is there. She is just an innocent girl, we can be civil with her around."

Looking at her suspiciously from her sudden mood change Sesshoumaru nodded and walked away, but before he was out of voice range he said to her back. "Be ready tonight, mate. I want no tears either. We will speak of the garden after you have pleased me. Not before then." He knew Inuyasha was near, he could smell his dirty blood. Silently he walked through another door down the hall, thinking how to prevent Inuyasha from trying to take her.

Having nothing to do, Kagome decided to take a nap and figure out what she could do, and how she could get out of this situation. Inuyasha knew where she was! Yet he didn't know how to help her. If only she could get a message to him, or get outside alone. Oh, Inuyasha... was her last thought before she fell into the first peaceful sleep since she was taken.

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Running around the castle, and behind trees and bushes, Inuyasha suddenly caught a whiff of Kagome's scent mixed with blood. Following where it went to, he saw it was Jaken outside burning clothing and furs it looked like. Kagome's clothing! Why are they burning them? Why did they do to her?! Is she still alive? No, no she is still alive, wasn't it just this morning he overheard his brother and Jaken talking? Yet what if Kagome fought Sesshoumaru so much that he killed her to be rid of the annoyance? Moving to a safer spot, he sensed he was seen. He stopped quickly to look at the castle. There in the window! Kagome was there, staring out the window! She must have seen him, he would never get a feeling like this, if she didn't. Kagome! I am here!! Suddenly he saw Sesshoumaru come up behind her, grabbing her by the waist. How dare he touch her like that, Inuyasha thought. After what seemed to be a conversation, Inuyasha watched a sad looking Kagome walk away from the window. What did Sesshoumaru say to her? Right now that doesn't matter, he told himself. All that matters is Kagome is fine, and I need to get some help now. It was time to see if his plan would work. From going around the castle he noticed certain areas with windows that weren't protected. If he could get the Shikon no Tama to give him a youkai strength, get wimpy wolf and his pack to help, they could free Kagome. Yet would Kaede give him the Shikon no Tama to wish upon? Taking one last look at the castle before his return to the village, Inuyasha prayed for Kagome to stay safe until he got there and took her back from Sesshoumaru.
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When Sesshoumaru came to her that night, he was all tenderness and patience, which surprised her. She thought about the garden and about being outside after seeing Inuyasha. She figured in her mind, that the only way she was going to get what she wanted was to comply with Sesshoumaru's demands. As her 'mate' he called himself, laid down on the bed next to her, started stroking her back gently with his nails. Suddenly becoming rigid from the contact, Kagome scolded herself she would have to relax. She would have to actually touch him willingly in THAT way. No tears she promised herself. She must do this! Her body was already starting to react to the contact. Maybe this wouldn't be so hard, she would just have to detach her mind from her body, let her body do all the wanton things it craved. Turning to face Sesshoumaru, Kagome gave him half a smile. He looked at her strangely before saying. "Are we in the mood to play games?"

Remembering to control herself, she answered in kind, "Yes, Sesshoumaru. Do what you wish of me tonight. My body is yours." For now, thought Kagome. He leaned down to kiss her and subdue any other thoughts before abruptly ending the kiss and saying with a controlled anger.
"Damn you, I want more than just your body! I want you, completely, mind, soul, heart, body, and whatever else you can give! That stupid hanyou is not coming for you! He thinks you have left him. You are and will always be mine. Give yourself to me. I will treat you well, provide for you, give you a family, and maybe one day even love." He nearly choked on that word, but still managed to make it sound true. He may care for this woman, but love? She was still only a human. Never would he actually love her as an equal.

"I.. I can't. I am sorry. I may belong to you physically, but no one can change what is in my heart. My body craves your touch, you have that. You have something that even your brother will never have now and that is being the first man to ever touch me like this. Be satisfyed with that, please, I beg you. It is all I can give to you right now." Kagome pleaded, trying to coax him into a better mood. Suddenly though, she realized it was true. Her body did want his touch, he did awaken something inside of her, that only he could have. Realizing this frightening revelation, she relaxed and no longer felt scared of this fierce youkai in front of her. All he wanted it seemed was love, a family. Something that was denied to him when Inuyasha was born. Maybe even for a temporary amount of time, she could give it to him, ease enough of his deeply hidden heartache to free herself from him when Inuyasha came. Maybe he would release her, knowing that she would be happier with Inuyasha. She felt sorry for him though. He really did care for Rin, and it seemed he cares a little about her, could she really do that to him? Could she give herself to him freely mind and body to win her freedom? Could she really make him care for her and just leave? Yes! She knew she could. It had to be done. People would get hurt in the end, but then she could be with Inuyasha. She knew deep down in her heart, she belonged to Inuyasha, but somehow, she realized this youkai wiggled his way in there too, no matter how small a part.

Sesshoumaru apparently satisfyed with her words and the sudden change in her eyes, smiled. He may be winning her over, he thought. Little bit at a time, but its working. He needed to make himself part of her, an obsession, so that she wouldn't want to leave him ever. Shaking her out of the dazed look, he kissed her nose and moved to gently nibble her ear. She released out a small moan from the feeling. As he stripped in front of her, her eyes widened with awe. "You now." He commanded gently. Kagome stood up and slowly took off her kimono, as Sesshoumaru reached for her, she took a tentative step back. "Now." He growled. Coming towards the bed, he grabbed her by the wrists and pulled her down to him. He kissed her fiercely, trying to scald her with his presence. When she started to match his rhythm he grew so aroused by her freely given passion he thought he would explode. Slowly moving down her body he nipped at her breast with his fangs. Wriggiling from delight she let out a sigh and grabbed his head and pushed it to her other breast, that craved the same attention. Her hands tangled in his hair brought him so much pleasure. Yes, he thought, this is how he wanted her, craving his touch. Slowly he moved down her body, as she gave small protest to the lost sensation, he began to lick her navel and continued to move lower. God, she smelled so good. He could feel the heat coming from her aroused body. Moving even lower he began to lick that moist spot between her legs. She gasped in shock and tried to move away from his mouth. Pushing down on her hips to hold her in place, he continued his minstrations with his tongue flicking the small bud hidden there.
"Sess...Sesshoumaru!" She screamed when she climaxed.

He tasted all of her, it was like heaven. Slowly he covered her body with his and kissed her again so that she could taste herself on his lips. As he pushed himself inside her tight body, he whispered words into her ear. "You please me. You are so beautiful. Move with me, yes, just like that." As his tempo moved to a harsh thrusting, Kagome dug her nails into his back, holding onto him as tightly as she could. Feeling the tremors inside of her spasm hard and release, he continued burying himself into her, making her cling onto him even more. Sweat slicked bodies moving in unison, he could not tell where one began and the other ended. They were one in his mind, as she softly screamed another release into his ear, and he spent himself deeply into her. Laying next to her, he kissed her cheek and smiled. She looked up at him with half closed eyes and put her hand into his, falling asleep. This was how he wanted it, and how it would stay, he said to himself with determination. I will kill whoever tries to break this bond, I will protect what is mine. With that thought, he put his arms around Kagome, and fell asleep with a smile on his often too serious face. He was happy, for once, he felt complete.

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More will come! It seems as though Kagome has feelings for this controlling youkai now. What will happen when Inuyasha comes to take her back? Who will she love the most when that time comes? Leave me some reviews on what you think will happen!