InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Unforeseen Obstacles ❯ The girl I swore that one day I would marry… ( Chapter 14 )

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Notes: Dealing with the consequences and the final decision.

 

Genre: Drama, romance…

Rating: R

Codes: Mir/Sess, Mir/San

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Unforeseen Obstacles…Chapter 14

The girl I swore that one day I would marry…

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Miroku didn't wake to the dawn's first rays. He woke because something was blocking them. He opened his eyes, Sesshomaru's chest his first sight. His left arm was flung across the pale stomach and his right was being used as his pillow. His eyes roamed lazily up to Sesshomaru's face to see that the youkai was staring at something with a guarded expression. Miroku stiffened and turned his head, almost painfully slowly. He knew it wasn't InuYasha, because the hanyo would have made some comment by now. So, whomever he was about to see was going to upset him. Please let it be Kagome, Miroku thought frantically. It wasn't.

 

“I see that I am the only woman.”

 

“Sango…” Miroku couldn't sit up because they were using his robe as a blanket and if he moved, he would expose Sesshomaru fully. Sango's eyes were full of tears as she turned and ran back to camp. “Shimatta! Kuso!” Miroku yelled, trying to dress quickly. Sesshomaru didn't move, even when Miroku ripped his robe off his naked body. Miroku realized this as he was about to run after her, and he stopped and turned. He knelt down by Sesshomaru and kissed him reassuringly. Sesshomaru simply watched him leave and though Miroku wanted to stay, he couldn't let Sango leave like this.

 

He ran to the camp to find Sango grabbing hiraikotsu and calling Kirara. Kagome was sitting up, asking what was wrong and InuYasha was watching the scene from his perch in a dead tree. InuYasha seemed to keep finding places to make camp that had a least one tree. He seemed to strongly dislike sleeping on the ground. Miroku couldn't imagine why—the tree seemed so much less comfortable.

 

“Kieuseru!” Sango hissed when he touched her shoulder, and jerked away. “You told me that you loved me. I believed you loved me,” Sango cried.

 

“Sango, please—”

 

“You swore that you loved me and I believed. Now I know it was a lie!”

 

“I do love you, Sango!” Miroku yelled, but she didn't listen.

 

“I don't believe that I could be so stupid, so naïve! To think a sukimono like you could love me,” she slapped him so hard he hit the ground. Miroku looked up at her as she wiped the tears from her face. “You hiretsukan.” Her language was like another slap and he flinched.

 

“What did you do?” Kagome yelled. She was trying to get Sango to stay, but the demon slayer kept sidestepping her.

 

“I've been sleeping with Sesshomaru!” Miroku yelled back, frustrated and powerless. Kagome's mouth dropped open. Shippo let go of Sango's weapon in his shock, but Sango had stopped moving forward. She was groping blindly in front of her for Kirara, who was standing only a few steps in front of her. She grabbed a handful of fur, but rather than mounting, buried her face in it. Miroku gauged the reactions of Kagome and Shippo and made a decision. “I do love you, Sango. I want to marry you and have children with you.”

 

“You have a helluva way of showing it,” Kagome admonished, rubbing circles on Sango's back.

 

“I don't know how it happened, with Sesshomaru. But you have made it abundantly clear that nothing will happen with you until Naraku is defeated. I promised to give up other women for you and I have. But that could be months or years away. We may not even survive it.”

 

“Let me guess. You have needs.” Sango said heatedly, her voice thick from crying. Miroku realized that it was pointless to explain right now. That wasn't what he was going to say anyway. Or was it? He had no real idea what he was going to say. He didn't know if women had the same needs as men, but she was right that it wasn't an excuse. He had betrayed her. “Do you love him?” Sango asked in a voice so soft, he almost didn't hear her.

 

“Yes. In that, I have truly betrayed you. That is why I'm leaving.” Everyone looked at him. “I am the wrongdoer here. I will not drive you out there alone.” Miroku picked up the staff he had left behind the night before. “If you can ever forgive me, you will know where to find me.”

 

“With him,” Sango hissed, clutching Kirara's fur angrily. Kirara hissed at him, distressed by Sango's grief. Miroku nodded and walked away.

 

“I will always be your friend, all of you. If you ever need me, don't hesitate to ask. Good-bye.” InuYasha snorted, Kagome and Sango cried and Shippo sat on the ground, looking lost and confused. Miroku turned and left, finding Sesshomaru waiting for him where he left him.

 

“Have you settled things with your woman?”

 

“She's not mine,” Miroku replied. “I chose you.” Sesshomaru's eyes widened. “Let's go on. We have to find Naraku.” They started back to Sesshomaru's camp. I can't forget her face, Miroku thought. But I've made my choice. And I can't say I'm sorry.

 

 

 

To be continued…

 

Everyone who wanted Miroku and Sesshomaru to end up together and have their happily ever after might want to stop reading here. Then, in the universe you've read, that's what happens. But… it's going on. From here on out, it's going to get angst-ier, but I couldn't leave it like this. Too much is still unsaid. Bits of Stabbing Westward come from “I Don't Believe”. Please review and let me know your thoughts! If there's enough interest in the story being continued, I will. Sometimes I just have trouble letting a story go.

List of Japanese I used:

kutabare (fuck you!; shove it!; go to hell!; drop dead!)—vulgar

zetsumei (end of life; death)

Souryo-sama: (Monk)

shimatta: (damnit)

Hoshi-sama: (priest)

baka - (stupid; idiot)

Aishiteru: (I love you)—personal

meekurabu: (make love)

kieuseru: (an imperative to fuck off)—vulgar

sukimono: ( lecher; nymphomaniac)--vulgar

hiretsukan: (mean bastard; sneak; heel; despicable person)

Other Japanese:

 

youkai - spirit, apparition... commonly translated as 'demon'

Tetsusaiga - "iron crushing fang", InuYasha's sword.
Shikon No Tama - "Jewel of the Four Souls"

Hiraikotsu - "the bone that flies back", Sango's boomerang

Tenseiga: “Heavenly Fang” (Sesshomaru's sword)

Toukijin: Sesshomaru's second sword
hanyo - half-youkai, half-human (InuYasha is a hanyo)

Credits:

 

I've been so alone for so long: Waking Up Beside You

This is what you've done to me: Throw

Life... gets you in the end: Good-Bye

I don't want it, I don't need it, but I can't stop myself: Nothing

My whole life, there's been something missing: You complete me

Dangerous, black and full of spite, thoughts of you fill my night: Lies

You stare at me so silent; you stare at me so cold. I think you stare right through me: Ungod

I crave it desperately: I don't believe

Gonna give myself up, up to the truth of what this is. Of what I am. : Red on White

You make it hard to breathe. It's as if I'm suffocating. And when you're next to me, I can feel your heartbeat through my skin. : What Do I Have To Do?

There are times, when I'm just a shell, when I do not feel anything for anyone. : Darkest Days

The questions that are plaguing me: Television

I'm so tired of living for your touch. I'm so tired of needing you so much. : Drugstore.

This is what you take from me: Control

What do I have to do to make you understand, that I am just as fucked as you: What Do I Have To Do?, Save Yourself

You seduced me: Drugstore

If only I could stay here… forever…: Inside You

So everything about me is a lie? At least it feels that way when I look in your eyes. The truth scares the shit out of me. Whoever said love is real or love is blood has never felt the way that I feel. : Haunting Me

Circling the drain, spiraling to hell: Desperate Now

I was looking for some answer in your eyes, I find malicious laughter, hate and lies: Lies

It's not like you can save me. It's not like you even care: Falls Apart

Rescue me from this black hole that's sucked me in and left me dying. : You Complete Me

You are helpless / You are selfish / You are hollow inside / You are hopeless...: Hopeless

It's too late now too fall asleep / So just lie here and watch you breathe / In the morning you'll be gone / Like everything I've ever loved / Just kiss me before you go: Dawn

Is your life so much better now? Or do the same old demons haunt your sleep? Do you think he's really worth the pain? Tell me, are you really happy now?” : Happy

I'm haunted by your face and the memory of your kisses...I still can't forget your touch: I Remember

I just can't learn to forget. Now I'm choking on the memories, choking on regret: Slipping Away

I will not suffer this loss of you, again and again and again. I refuse to continue to live in this perpetual nightmare. I decide, it ends right here: Slipping Away

Every time I close my eyes, I see your face: Can't Happen Here

I love you, I hate you every night. This longing for your soul has got me scared. : Nothing

You are everything, you are the air I breathe: The Only Thing

The girl I swore that one day I would marry: Perfect

You told me that you loved me. I believed you loved me. You swore that you loved me and I believed. Now I know it was a lie! I don't believe that I could be so stupid, so naïve: I Don't Believe

 

--All by Stabbing Westward.