Kingdom Hearts Fan Fiction ❯ Burn ❯ Chapter 19 Roxas ( Chapter 19 )

Burn

Disclaimer: I don't own the characters from Kingdom Hearts or Final Fantasy nor am I making any profit by writing this.

A/N: This chapter was finished pretty quickly. This is what happens when I have way too much time on my hands and I play solitaire while listening to my IPod. The ideas just start flying and I actually manage to get things done. Let me tell you, this vacation has been really sucky. I've broken down and cried once and asked to go home twice already. I've hardly been able to get online and I'm just miserable. I can't wait for this vacation to be over with. I'm just not a camper.

I'd like to say thanks once again to MuffinPirate for betaing this and making sure that I haven't made any typos.

Chapter 19 Roxas

Axel is getting better.

It hasn't been that hard to see. Axel has been going to see Dr. Wise and he's been doing some hypnotherapy to help his buried memories resurface, and it's been helping him a lot. There's been a noticeable change in Axel's personality. He rarely snaps anymore and since that night, he hasn't had another seizure.

But Zexion is getting worse. He doesn't talk at all and he barely even eats. He's losing a lot of weight, and his overall health has taken a turn for the worse. We're all worried about him, but Demyx is the most worried. He has become quite attached to Zexion, so I decided that I needed to talk with Axel. Something had to be done about Zexion.

So one night, I went to see Axel in his room. Demyx was there, strumming away at his guitar and singing something. Axel was there listening to him. I stood in the doorway, not wanting to interrupt because the song was so beautiful.

You are everything

The reason that I breathe

Hold onto me now

Don't let me fall

The light of my life

When Demyx realized that Axel was no longer the only one in there with him, he stopped singing and blushed.

“That was beautiful,” I said. “You have a really great voice.”

Demyx blushed even more. “What are you doing here?”

“I need to talk to Axel privately for a few minutes. Is that okay?” I replied.

“Oh sure.” Demyx got up. “I understand.” He moved toward the door.

“Hey Demyx, can I ask a favor of you?” I asked when he was standing in the doorway.

He stopped and turned around. “Sure. What do you need me to do?”

“Is it all right if you go and stay with Zexion while I'm here talking to Axel?” I asked. “I don't like leaving Zexion alone for very long.”

Demyx nodded. “I understand. I'll go keep Zexion company for a while.”

“Thank you.” I smiled.

After I was sure Demyx was gone, I turned to Axel. He was laying on his bed, staring at the ceiling.

“What can I do for you?” Axel asked, shifting his position so he was looking at me.

I took a deep breath. “I'm really worried about Zexion. He's getting worse. He doesn't speak and he barely eats.”

“I know,” Axel said softly, swinging his legs around so he could sit up. “I'm not blind. I see what's happening to Zexion.”

“Can't anything be done about him?” I asked.

Axel shook his head. “We have to rely on Ansem to help Zexion now.” His voice was growing weaker. “I hate feeling so powerless but I can't do anything.” His voice broke.

I went over and hugged him as he started to cry a little.

“I know what Zexion means to you,” I said softly. Axel looked up at me, his eyes filled with tears. “Zexion told me that you two were dating but your parents split you up. I wasn't sure what to think of it at first, but I've decided that it doesn't matter to me anymore. As long as you are happy, it doesn't matter. No matter what you decide, I'll stay by your side.”

Axel's expression suddenly softened. “Roxas…the only one I want is you. Zexion and I…what we had is over. I love you.”

I fell silent. My heart was pounding. I had never had anyone say that to me before, not my parents, not my godparents, not even my own brother. The concept of someone loving me was foreign. What did I know about love? No one had loved me. All my parents wanted from me was for me to vanish.

“I don't know if I'm capable of loving or being loved,” I finally said softly.

I thought for sure that I would hurt Axel, but to my surprise, he just chuckled.

“Roxie, everyone is able to love and be loved,” he said. “Even people who have done terrible things sill have the capacity to love and be loved. They're only human after all. No matter what, they still have humanity in them, even if it's buried way deep inside of them.”

I realized something. “You're never going to give up on me, are you?”

Axel shook his head, grinning widely. “Roxie, I'd wait for you forever!”

“Is that really true?” I asked quietly.

Axel snaked an arm around my waist and pulled me close to him. His lips covered mine. He was grinning even more when he pulled away.

“You'd better believe it!” he said.

I wasn't sure what to think. I've never been loved by anyone before. It sort of felt good. I smiled and kissed Axel back. He looked slightly surprised, but smiled gently. He pressed our lips together again for several chaste kisses. I had kissed Axel before, but never like this. It seemed to me now that he had always been holding back around me because he had never kissed me like this before. I didn't mind, though. I didn't mind at all.

Axel seemed to realize this and started kissing me deeper. He pulled me even closer and wrapped his arms around me. I kissed him back eagerly, wanting to go further. I had never done anything like this before and I wanted to explore. I wanted to know what it was like to kiss someone, hold someone, touch someone. Axel pressed his tongue to my lips. I knew what he wanted and opened my mouth. His tongue slipped in and he started exploring my mouth. I met his tongue with mine and we started battling each other. We only stopped every once in a while to get some oxygen.

I moaned softly when Axel started kissing my neck, nipping at my skin. He didn't hurt me, though. It was just playful. Things were just starting to get heated when Hannah walked in.

“What is going on here?!” she demanded.

Axel groaned softly and pulled away from me. “Hi Hannah.”

“Roxas, what are you doing? You shouldn't be in here!” Hannah chided. “You probably shouldn't be making out with Axel either.”

“I'm sorry,” I apologized, getting up.

“And where on earth is your roommate, Axel?” Hannah continued.

“It's my fault,” I explained. “I wanted to come and have a private chat with Axel because I was worried about Zexion. I didn't really want to leave Zexion alone for very long so I asked Demyx to go and keep him company. I was about to leave, but I wanted to kiss Axel goodbye first so I did.”

“Just go back to your room, okay?” Hannah said. “And make sure Demyx gets back okay. Just for future reference, don't leave your room unexpectedly, all right? We don't have a problem if you go visit other patients. We just need to know what you're doing. You're our responsibility.”

I nodded. “I'm sorry.”

“It's all right Roxas.” Hannah smiled at me.

I turned to Axel. “Goodnight Axel.”

“Goodnight Roxie,” Axel replied. “See you tomorrow.”

To be continued…

A/N: Arg, what the hell? I can't write long chapters anymore. D: This is really annoying. I'm going to have to work on that. But yay, there was finally some serious AkuRoku. It makes me really happy that I finally got to the AkuRoku. XD