Kingdom Hearts Fan Fiction ❯ Dirge ❯ It's Just a Kiss Right? ( Chapter 14 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

: Dirge

Pairing: CloudXRiku!

Rating: M

Disclaimer: I don’t own KH, Square Enix does

Warnings: Yaoi , and violence, and bad language, lots of language.

Music: HIM - The 9th Circle

Prompt: Sin


“What the hell were you thinking? Coming after us like that? You could have been killed!”

Riku just stared at Cloud numbly. They were back in the house, in Cloud’s room. Riku was sitting on the bed while Cloud was standing over him, anger and concern plastered all over his face.

“Why did you come? Why didn’t you just stay here?!?”

“I…”

“You what???”

“I…..I wanted to help.”

“You wanted to help? And what would have happened if you had been killed? Your wounds aren’t even all healed yet!”

Riku mumbled a response. Cloud glared at the younger boy. “What?” He asked.

“I saved your life.” Riku responded. “The man was going to shoot you.”

Cloud paused a moment and looked down into Riku’s defiant eyes. “Do you think that justifies you coming?”

“If I hadn’t come you’d be dead.” The teen replied bitterly. “And I’m not a child, you don’t have to look after me.”

“You acted like a child out there. The moment that man hit the ground you were freaking out.”

“I’ve never killed a man before.”

“You’ve seen them killed.”

“No I haven’t. Not until today.”

“… What do you want me to do Riku? Thank you? Praise you? You could have gotten yourself killed and you came along after I told you not to.”

“You never told me not to come.”

“I thought you understood that! If Sora couldn’t come what in God’s name made you think you could?”

“What makes Sora so much more independent than me? Don’t you trust me?”

“Any trust I did have you betrayed.”

“Betrayed how? By saving your life? I’m not a little kid, I can make my own decisions and I chose to come after you, and because I did, I saved you! What if I hadn’t come? How long would I survive with you dead?”

“…What are you saying?”

“I’m saying that I made a decision and it came out for the best. Don’t yell at me for something that could have happened, because it didn’t.”

“Don’t expect me to be grateful.”

“I’m not, I’m just expecting you to see what’s in front of your face.”

“What do you mean?”

“You’re so stupid! You don’t understand anything.” Riku crossed his arms and turned away from Cloud, making the older man stare at his back in puzzlement.

“What are you talking about?” The blonde asked. He was confused, Riku was acting strange. Sure he had said some hurtful things just then, but needed to understand that he couldn’t just follow Cloud everywhere like a puppy. He was going to get hurt if he did that.

A sniff from Riku made Cloud come back to reality. “Riku?” he asked.

Riku ignored him and was careful to keep his back to Cloud. But another sniff made Cloud crawl up onto the bed with the younger boy. “Riku are you crying?”

“You don’t understand.” Riku choked. “You just don’t get it.”

“I don’t get what?” Cloud had never been so perplexed in his life. Riku was acting strange, and now he was crying. What was wrong with him?

“I just went through the most horrifying moment in my life and all you can do is yell at me.” Riku responded.

Cloud paused, then pulled the younger boy back into his lap and sighed. “I’m sorry Riku. I know how terrible it is to kill a man.”

“Not that.” Riku replied, shaking his head. “Not just that. I was afraid, when I saw him aim at your head. I was afraid I was going to lose you…”

You were scared he was going to kill me?” The older man asked quietly.

“Yeah…” Riku sniffed and pulled his legs up tight against him.

“I didn’t know you cared so much…” Cloud responded. Gently he wound his arms around Riku’s midsection, bringing the boy flush against his chest.

“Why wouldn’t you know? I thought it was obvious.” Riku replied. He proved his words by laying his head back against Cloud’s chest and holding onto his arm. “I told you, you were the only one who showed me any warmth, showed me anything solid.”

“Yeah but… I didn’t think that meant anything….”

“Of course it meant something you idiot. Why do you think I told you not to lose your emotions? I don’t want to see you turn out like the others. I love you too much for that to happen…”

Cloud froze and replayed those words through his head. “Did….did you just say you loved me?” he asked incredulously.

“Yeah…” Riku replied. “I hope you don’t take that wrong…um…you know…I ….well…this is awkward….” Suddenly not feeling so sure of himself, Riku tried to pry his way out of Cloud’s arms. Bu Cloud suddenly pulled him back and held him in a tight embrace. Riku looked up into Cloud’s eyes questioningly. “What?” he asked.

“…..I love you too.” Cloud responded. Riku’s eyes widened and the younger boy fumbled for the right words.

“You…you serious?”

“If you were.”

“You love me.”

“Yep.”

They stared at each other for a few more moments, when Riku fiunally decided to brak the silence.

“Then kiss me.”

“What?”

“If you really love me, kiss me.”

“You don’t just ask someone to kiss you like that, you have to come to it gradually, you know, move forward all slow like, hesitantly and-”

Cloud was cut off as Riku suddenly sat up straighter and planted his lips on Cloud’s. Riku’s eyes were closed, but the older man’s were wide open, staring at the younger boy in amazement. When Riku finally did pull back, Cloud licked his lips. “Well…” he said. “I wasn’t expecting that.”

“You talk to much.” Riku replied as he reached up and pulled the man down into another kiss.

“Riku I don’t know….”

“Shut up.”

They kissed a few more times, nothing wild and passionate, just several slow, intimate, normal kisses. When they stopped, Riku was blushing profusely and Cloud had a small smile on his face.

“I love you.” Riku said softly.

“I love you too” Cloud replied.

They were about to kiss again when Cloud heard Squall’s loud footsteps come into the building. They two boys were apart in a flash, Cloud on the floor and Riku on the bed. They got apart just in time as Squall walked in.

“We’re getting rid of him.” Squall announced.

“What??” Cloud squeaked, louder than he meant to. “What do you mean getting rid of him?”

“Riku, we’re getting rid of him. He’s too much trouble to keep around.”

“We are not getting rid of him.” Cloud countered.

“Yes we are. I will not have him stay after what happened today.”

“What you mean him saving my life?”

“What?”

“You heard me, he saved my life.”

“When did this happen?”

“During the fight,” Riku piped up. “There was a man with a gun aimed at Cloud, I …..killed him before he could do anything.”

“….”

“We’r e keeping him Squall. With the haul from that merchant we’ll be able to afford him. I’ll give up my cigarettes if you want me to.”

“You’re going soft Cloud.” Squall replied. “Fine, but if he makes even one mistake, he’s out.”

“That’s for me to decide. Last time I checked, Zack left me in charge of this gang, and I think it’s about time I acted on it.”

Squall’s face darkened and he shot Riku a dirty look before he turned away from them. “One mistake.” Squall countered, and then he left.