Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ Black Rose and Orange Flame ❯ Blood ( Chapter 1 )

Black Rose and Orange Flame

Hello all my lovely fans! This one is going to be a SasuNaru fic. Why you ask...

Because when I woke up this morning I was attacked by plot bunnies and their little friend, the smut bunny. I apologize if the characters are OOC and you hate it... don't continue to read then ^_^

((Anything like this will be me speaking))

=inner thoughts=

\\lyrics\\

~*~ flashback~*~

And of course “speech”

 

**Warning** This fic will contain the follow: Yaoi, Smut, Angst and Self harm (cutting)

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Part 1/3

Bleeding

 

Team 7 had just gotten back from a mission. ((...god that is soooo over used -sigh-)) Naruto was sporting a cut across his right cheek, his pants were torn and his shirt was smeared with blood. The blonde looked over to his teammates, his cerulean eyes locking with the onyx eyes of the older, paler boy. Immediately Naruto turned his head, he didn't want to see the boy right now. He called to his sensei, Kakashi, telling him he was going home. As Naruto walked home he dwelled on the past week's events.

 

Question filled his mind, but the main one he was concerned about now was why had Sasuke saved him when just a few days before he told him he... No, Naruto didn't want to think about what happened just 3 days earlier. But the question of why Sasuke had saved him still continues to capture his attention. =Well I guess if you think about it he didn't save me, he warned me of an oncoming attack, which would have killed me had he not have said anything. Maybe that was the reason Sasuke did it, = Naruto had decided, =Sasuke didn't save me for any other reason then for the fact he would be one teammate short if I had died. =

 

“Selfish bastard, he didn't want me to die so he wouldn't have to do more work.” Naruto yanked open his apartment door, kicking off his shoes as he made his way to his kitchen. Normally Naruto would make himself some ramen but he wasn't hungry right now. ((Is that an amazing thing or am I just crazy?)) He grabbed a bottle of water and made his way to his room, picking up dirty clothes that were scatted across the apt. on his way.

 

Naruto lay in bed staring at the ceiling. It was too quiet for Naruto's liking, so he reached over and turned on the radio. ((do they have radios in the anime? Oh well they do here!)) Naruto had never heard this song before, but he liked it. Mainly because it summed up his feelings at that point in time, but he mentally noted it had a nice sound as well.

 

\\Dear angel of mine,
Where do I start to express how I feel?
Well, my love's gone blind.
Now all that I feel is what I hear.
Your words rip and tear, and
through my heart so weak and pure.
Now I find myself wanting to die…\\

 

As the lyrics from the song played through Naruto's head the memories of what happened 3 days ago came flooding back

 

~*~ It was raining, ((typical!)) Naruto had told Sasuke to meet him near the lake just on the outskirts of the village. ((is there a lake there? Again I don't care... there is one now)) Sasuke was now 10 minutes late and Naruto was wondering if he was even going to show up. Naruto had decided that today he would tell Sasuke how he felt; he couldn't keep it a secret anymore. Just when Naruto was going to go find Sasuke, tie him to a tree, and then confess his feeling he spotted the blue-black hair of the other boy.

 

“What did you want dobe?”

Naruto noted how the rain rolled down Sasuke's pale cheek. He couldn't stand here much longer, a wet Sasuke was too much for him to handle.

“I need to tell you someth-“He was interrupted

“I figured that much out what did you want to tell me?” Sasuke was becoming impatient; he shoved his hands in his pockets and stared at Naruto.

“Right... well... Sasuke I love you, I have for awhile now and I couldn't hold it in any longer.”

Sasuke looked at Naruto wide eyed.

“I don't feel the same dobe.”

Naruto figured this would happen, though he was hoping somehow Sasuke had felt the same, but he knew that was very unlikely.

“Don't worry Sasuke I will leave you alone so you can continue your life as it was before, I hope you find someone to love and are happy with them.” With that said Naruto walked away dragging his feet in the mud, silent tears running down his cheeks blending with the last few rain drops that fell. ~*~

 

It was true, Naruto had expected that to happen, but it still didn't make it hurt any less. Naruto wiped away the tear that had escaped while he was remembering what had happened. He took a sip of his water as he laid and listened to the song some more, continuing to remember what happened.

 

\\I bleed for the second time tonight
holding the love that's in my mind.
If only my love could be with you.
If only this pain, this pain died too
I bleed for the second time tonight
holding the love that's in my mind.
If only my love could be with you.
If only this pain, this pain died too
I break you away, away, away from me.\\

 

~*~ When Naruto had gotten home the first thing he did was pick up one of his kitchen knives and pressed it against his wrist. Naruto could deal with physical pain better then he could emotional pain. He pushed the knife harder to his wrist crimson liquid seeping from his skin and onto the blade. =If I died now would anyone even care? Iruka-sensei might, Kakashi-sensei as well, but they have other students, losing one wouldn't be a huge loss. = He pressed the blade harder and slide it down his arm, watching the blood roll down his arm and onto the carpeted floor beneath his feet. Naruto then switched the blade to his left hand, pressing the blade against his right wrist, doing the same he did to the left. All Naruto could think of was Sasuke, how Sasuke would taste, how the pale skin would feel against his tanner body. Then Naruto thought of how he would never find the answers to these questions, subconsciously pressing the blade harder into his wrist. ~*~

 

Naruto was now staring at his arms, he hadn't died that night. He still wished he had, and then Sasuke wouldn't have needed to save him today. Sakura wouldn't have needed to yell at him, so many things that wouldn't needed to be done, if only he had just died that night.

 

Naruto stood then, walking to the kitchen and grabbing the same knife he had 3 days ago. This time instead of pressing the blade against his wrists, he pressed it against his clothed leg as he sat on the counter top. He pressed the blade against his thigh cutting the orange material that covered the tan skin. He pushed the blade and dragged it horizontally across his leg. He lifted the knife and continue to cut into his leg. After he cut his left leg at least 10 times he switched to his other leg. The only thing on Naruto's mind was death now, death and Sasuke. Sasuke was his death and his life, ironic as that was. The blood now pooled under his legs on the counter top, staining the white Formica. Naruto pushed the blade against his right leg cutting into his skin vertically. He looked at his arms and took the blade to his left wrist reopening the wound from 3 days ago. By now the blood loss was making Naruto light headed and his vision was blurred, right before Naruto toppled onto his side, loosing consciousness he saw a blur of blue-black hair and a pale face.

“Sasuke...”

 

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I hope you enjoyed part one

Lyrics from April Sixth- Dear Angel