Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ Breaking the Habit ❯ Chapter 5: I�m safe here in my room ( Chapter 5 )

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Title: Breaking the Habit
Author: DeityOfDeath
Archive: Yes please...
Pairings: Naruto/Sasuke, Naruto/Itachi
Category: Drama, romance, slash, yaoi, Smut, Mpreg
rating: NC-17/R
Spoilers: Most likely.
Warnings: Yaoi, Lemon, Rape, Non-con, Mpreg, Angst SPOILERS!!!!!!
Disclaimers: I never have nor will I ever own Naruto or its chars. They are property of major companies.

Note from Author: Thank You for reading and supporting fan fiction! Enjoy and please review!

The chapter titles are lyrics from the song "Breaking the Habit " by Linkin Park.

Breaking the Habit

Chapter 5: I'm safe here in my room

I stared out my now bare window and sighed as I watched the neighbors go through their daily routine just as they always had when I stared out at the parts of the village that could be seen from my small apartment window.

“Is there anything else we should take with us,” asked the familiarly gruff voice of Kakashi sensei from behind me.

I gave him a smile and shook my head no, “That's all there is.”

I turned to look at my empty apartment with its bare walls and floors. Four boxes sat by the door, taped shut and ready to be carried out of the now empty apartment.

“I'm going to go let Iruka know that you're ready.”

I smiled and nodded, “I'll be here waiting.”

I watched as he opened the apartment door and walked out closing it behind him before I walked through my small three room apartment.

I went into my small bedroom and did a quick glance over and allowed the memories of my first night in this apartment fill me with sorrow and happiness.

Naruto 7 years old

“This will be your apartment. Your rent will be paid by the village council until you are of age to pay it yourself, same goes for utilities. The council will give you an allowance with which you are expected to buy groceries as well pay for necessities such as laundry and the bathhouse, clothes and any supplies needed for school. Is there anything you need to know or have questions about,” asked the older brunette who had droned on in her shrill voice throughout the entire morning about the apartment and what was expected of me when living here.

“No, ba-chan,” I answered obediently.

I watched as her lips tightened and wrinkles formed along the corners of her eyes and forehead, “I'll leave the set up to you. Good bye.”

I watched her turn and leave in a stiff and abrupt manner and oddly enough a sense of loss and lonely filled me once her presence was no longer there.

End of Flashback

I smiled and walked out of the bedroom where I had spent many lonely nights starring up at the many stars surrounding the moon. I made my way to the bathroom and glanced at the shiny porcelain toilet remembering all times I had spent on it thanks to milk gone sour. I closed the door and made my way back into the living room/kitchen and walked over to the cabinets, double checking and making sure all instant ramen had been packed away before checking the fridge.

The fridge was pristine and empty just as it should be and I closed the door one last time making my way over to the door just as Iruka Sensei and Kakashi Sensei entered.

“All ready, Naruto,” asked Iruka Sensei.

I nodded and smiled, “Hai!”

I watched as Iruka Sensei lifted a box and then leaned against the open apartment door. I walked over and lifted a box and walked past Iruka Sensei and down the apartment stairs. At the bottom of the stairs I turned and watched as Kakashi Sensei stepped out of the apartment carrying two boxes stacked on top of each other and walked down the steps to join me.

We both watched as Iruka Sensei grabbed the remaining box and pulled it out of the apartment before locking the door to my apartment and closing the door. He smile brightly down at us and lifted the box into his arms as he walked down the steps to join us.

As we walked down the street carrying boxes that held everything I had managed to obtain in my seventeen years the neighbors stopped what they were doing and watched with curiosity. I walked behind Iruka and Kakashi Sensei and watched them exchange insults and what sounded like bickering but I knew it for what it was. The two of them seemed to “bicker” but I knew it was their way of showing affection.

I heard the hustle and bustle of the city calm and soon found myself standing in front of an apartment that was larger and nicer than the complex I had lived in for ten long years that had somehow managed to seem short.

Iruka lead the way up the stairs leaving me in the middle and Kakashi bringing up the rear. I watched as Iruka Sensei set his box down and stood up straight as he removed a set of keys from his belt. I couldn't help but smile as I saw the blue crystal dolphin hanging from the set of keys.

He placed one key in the lock and turned it before turning the knob and pushing the door open, “Welcome home, Naruto.”

I felt emotions I had managed to lock away suddenly break loose as I let what Iruka Sensei said sink in. Home…a place with people who care about you live and gather. I had lived in “homes” of sorts when I was an infant although truthfully I don't remember much about it or the people with whom I had lived. I suppose I had been a child of the village. I know I had been in more than one home and possibly more than five. I hadn't been a well loved child nor had I been a child that was well behaved.

But this was different. These people knew who and what I was and they accepted me without a second thought. I have a home and people I consider family.

My eyes felt hot and my throat constricted but I gave my best smile; although watery, and looked up at Iruka Sensei, “Tadaima!”

Iruka Sensei held open the door so that I could enter and as I did I couldn't help but sniffling a little as a few tears made their way down my cheeks. Kakashi entered after me and walked ahead of me before turning to look back at me with smiling eyes.

“This way Naruto - kun,” said Kakashi Sensei before he turned back around so that I was once again starring at the back of his head.

He walked and I followed until we came to an open door at the end of the hallway.

Kakashi Sensei walked into the room and over to the far wall and set two out of my four boxes down against the wall. I walked past what seemed to be a twin size bed and set my box down next to the ones Kakashi had carried before standing up and looking at the room that was now mine.

“What do you think, Naruto - kun,” asked Iruka Sensei as he entered and set his box down by the door.

I smiled one of my large smiles for the first time in months ran over to Iruka Sensei giving him a large hug, “It's awesome! I've never had a bed!”

Iruka Sensei chuckled and scratched the scar on his nose in embarrassment, a light pink blush coloring his cheeks as he did so.

“I know it's just temporary until Tsunade - sama finds you a home to your liking but you are always welcome here and this room will always be available.”

“What about me Iruka - Sensei, don't I get a room where I can always stay,” asked Kakashi Sensei in his playful monotone voice.

Iruka Sensei's cheeks turned a deeper shade of pink and he crossed his arms, “The couch is always available,” he answered curtly.

I laughed and let go of Iruka Sensei as I watched Kakashi Sensei fake pouting through his face mask and mock cry.

I walked over to the bed and flopped down atop it, landing on my back.

I couldn't help but smile as I placed my hands atop my lower stomach where a barely noticeable bulge had began to grow. A living organism was forming and growing inside of me. It had been a little over two months since then and I was just beginning to notice the few extra pounds that had begun to gather in my midsection. It was certainly going to be a year of change for me.

New home, new lifestyle, new family and unfortunately with those came new difficulties, new problems, new pains and new dangers.

“Are you falling asleep already, Naruto?”

I sat up and smiled at Iruka Sensei, “Nah…just seeing if the bed was as comfy as it looked.”

Iruka Sensei grinned and I couldn't help but grin back at him.

“We'll leave you to unpack and sort out your things. Just give a yell if you need help,” Iruka Sensei replied before pushing Kakashi Sensei out of the room.

I grinned and shook my head and scooted off the bed, kneeling by the three boxes against the far wall as I began the tedious job of unpacking my things and my memories.

The first box contained clothing of various types which went into new dressers and my new closet complete with hangers. My old orange sweat suit jackets; all two of them, hung bright and vibrant along side my newer ones. Pajamas, boxers, socks, pants and shirts were folded and placed in their assigned drawers leaving box one empty.

I looked outside my bedroom window and saw the saw was beginning to fall lower from its mid-day height letting me know that it was most likely around two or thee now. I sighed and lifted my tanned and callused hand and fingers to wipe away some dust, dirt and sweat that had collected on my brow before turning to the second box.

I opened it up slowly and began the monotonous job of sorting and placing my various tools, weapons, implements and various other ninja supplies and scrolls on shelves and in corners of my room. Until once again box two was empty and set beside box one.

I stretched and felt my muscles and bones relieved of some of the soreness and aches that accompanied too much movement, strain and/or staying in one position too long.

My stomach growled and grumbled to be filled with food and the thought of food made my mouth water in anticipation but the pigheaded and persistent personality that has ruled me since birth got the better of me and so I turned to box three. I opened and it was as if all the air had been knocked at of me.

There atop a pile of knick knacks, food, snacks and various other odds and ins collected in my lifetime lay a lone Konoha headband with a long ragged line going straight through the leaf insignia.

I found myself reaching for it without realizing it and before I knew it I had it cradled in my hands like some sort of precious jewel. My chest ached and my throat tightened as memories of that day ran through my mind.

Sasuke's cold skin and moisture from the rain gathering in my closed eyelids and the feel of skin touching skin raced through my mind like some pornographic love scene and once again the memory of hard frozen lips touching mine came to the surface.

Was it my sick imagination that had made this memory or was it actually a valid memory and Sasuke was sick manipulative bastard for making me think I was some gay lunatic.

I set the headband back into the box and pushed the box aside and out of the way. I would deal with repressed issues and memories at a later date and if I was feeling up to it within the next year or so then it would be a miracle.

I sighed and stood up to go in search of Iruka and Kakashi Sensei in the hopes that they had managed to make dinner and not make out.

To Be Continued….

I apologize for the delay. A lot has happened. A good friend died in November; Deryl this chapter goes out to you, I lost my job and returned to working at the elementary school and then I went through emotional hell when I was “kicked” out of the only home I've known since I was in fifth grade. A new chapter in a new home with a new “family” just like Naruto in this chapter I am experiencing all that can be felt when going through such a similar situation. Funny thing is, I had written this chapter before any of it had happened.

Keep reading and reviewing and I will continue to write for your and my enjoyment.

Kat AKA DeityOfDeath