Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ Breaking the Habit ❯ Chapter 7: I don�t want to be the one ( Chapter 7 )

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Title: Breaking the Habit
Author: DeityOfDeath
Archive: Yes please...
Pairings: Naruto/Sasuke, Naruto/Itachi
Category: Drama, romance, slash, yaoi, Smut, Mpreg
rating: NC-17/R
Spoilers: Most likely.
Warnings: Yaoi, Lemon, Rape, Non-con, Mpreg, Angst SPOILERS!!!!!!

Disclaimers: I never have nor will I ever own Naruto or its chars. They are property of major companies.

Note from Author: Thank You for reading and supporting fan fiction! Enjoy and please review!

The chapter titles are lyrics from the song "Breaking the Habit" by Linkin Park.

Breaking the Habit

Chapter 7: I don't want to be the one

Sometimes it's the little things that make you cry; a certain memory or sight, a familiar food or place, a smell or touch, a song or voice. Although…when your hormones are a giant jumbled mess then you have a great excuse and a reason to stop others from bringing up any of the above mentioned things, most of the time it works.

The rest of the time…well lets just say you can't avoid everything or in my case everyone. I suppose a month or two is as long as I could hope for when it came to avoiding a certain grumpy rooster butt headed ninja.

One Uchiha Sasuke had tried repeatedly in the past month or so to approach and was either kept at a reasonable distance with help from Kakashi Sensei, Iruka Sensei and many others including the Godaime herself. She helped by allowing Sasuke to once again leave the village on higher ranked missions, which basically she made him, take long missions with a nice distance between him and me. But it could only last so long and with the ever continuing gossip concerning my health and new living arrangements it was only a matter of time until that disgruntled ebony eyed annoyance found a way to bug me, which he was currently doing from the tree branches beside Iruka Sensei's apartment.

I folded my laundry trying to ignore the eyes that watched me and every move I made. I stood on wobbly legs as the blood once again circulated at its normal speed uninhibited by the weight that had decreased its traveling paths only moments ago. I waddled my way into the kitchen, not due to my weight but because my legs still felt numb with the impending tickling sensation that comes with returned circulation waiting to begin. I opened the fridge and grabbed a tomato out of the crisper and nonchalantly made my way to the open window and hurled it at the surprised Uchiha pest. He dodged it easily and gave me a disgruntled frown.

“What the hell was that for dobe!?”

“Because you're watching me like some sick pervert. If I needed a guard it sure as hell wouldn't be you. Now go find someone else to watch and get your jollies off!”

I glared at him and probably would have ranted some more if Kakashi Sensei hadn't appeared next to the plague of annoyance that was known as Sasuke.

“Tsunade-Sama has been looking for you. You have better things to do besides thinking perverted thoughts while watching Naruto, ne Sasuke-kun?”

“I'm not thinking perverted things! I'm not you! I just want Naruto to answer some questions I have, like the reason he's avoiding me and the reason he tried to scratch my eyes from my sockets.”

The mention of that “incident” caused heat to rush up my neck and face and a feeling of embarrassment followed. I stood there looking down at my hands, with their healing calluses and tried to think of something to say in response but nothing came and luckily Kakashi Sensei replied before something stupid slipped past mine or Sasuke's lips.

“All in time, all in time, you'd better go before she sends Sakura to come find you.”

Sasuke made a face between a frown and questioning look.

“She's a tad bit irritated today. Something about horny eye-browed annoyances…” Kakashi Sensei said with a grin in his eyes and a humor tilt in his voice.

Sasuke gave me a look that promised he would get his answers before he disappeared from the tree in a swirl of green leaves. I felt some relief with his presence gone and with all the tension gone the familiar flutter of movement in my midsection caught my attention. I slid my hand over the over sized T-shirt that flowed past my thighs and let it lay over my now visible “bump”.

The sound of leaves rustling sounded and then the soft thump of feet on wood before I saw a masked face looking up into my eyes. I didn't give Kakashi Sensei a chance to ask his usual questions of whether I was okay or if something was wrong, I simply smiled and grabbed his hand and placed it to the right of my stomach where the movement was now focused.

“Just the little one letting me know that he or she dislikes the tension,” I said with a small smile.

Kakashi Sensei audibly exhaled and turned a smile up at me from his position kneeling in front of me before grinning and standing up.

“Well it seems that the little one already has more sense than their mother.”

“Mother?! I prefer Too-chan or Too-san or how about Papa?”

Kakashi Sensei chuckled, “They could call you Oka-toto, Okaasan and Toto together.”

I thought about it for a moment before shrugging silly thoughts aside and stretching, “I'd better get back to my laundry before I start to get sleepy and end up falling asleep on my laundry like last time.”

“And you tried blaming the drool on your clean clothes on me because I didn't wake you up,” said Kakashi Sensei faking a sniffle as he pretended to wipe away unshed tears.

“Hai..hai… you've made your point, now get back to work before Baa-chan blames me again.”

“Hai..hai. If you go out for any late snacks again make sure you take Pa-kun with you, I don't want to worry you but rumors from neighboring villages is that Akatsuki has been sighted.”

I nodded as a cold feeling settled in the pit of my stomach after traveling as a cold chill down my spine. I nodded numbly while rubbing my stomach which was a flutter of small movement.

“I'll see ya' later this evening.”

I watched Kakashi Sensei disappear in a similar fashion as Sasuke and shook my head as I made my way back over to my pile of yet to be folded clean clothes.

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Fresh…sweet smelling and soft, oh so soft…

I opened my eyes and stretched feeling the familiar placement of folded clothes beneath my head. I jumped up and swiped at my face and to my relief found no drool or the dried remnants of said drool. I lifted my clothes into my basket before standing and idly walking towards my room, kicking my clothes basket as I went. It was lazy and I know it but it was either kick it or try to bend over and lift up which I was capable of but really too annoyed with my extra midsection weight to try to attempt it. I kicked the basket so that it slid into my room and right next to my bed.

My stomach growled and hunger overwhelmed me as a sudden hunger for Ichiraku ramen and some Odango fluttered in the recesses of my now bottomless pit of a stomach and mind. I sighed and stretched like I had a tendency to do a lot of as of late. It seemed I could never keep my muscles and bones in proper alignment thanks to my extra weight gain. I suppose it also doesn't help to constantly fall asleep in and on odd places.

I walked back into the living room and grabbed my lucky frog coin purse, shoving deep into my pockets before grabbing my new orange and black jacket which hung oversized around my body, keeping my bodies appearance somewhat normal in its bulky confines, and slid it on my arm at a time before I zipped it up past my collar bone. I stepped down from the wooden floors and slid my shoes on over my white socks before opening the apartment door and stepping out. I shut the door behind me and made my way down the stairs and into the alley in the late afternoon sun.

It was sunny out but not hot. Konoha was always a shady places thanks to our location amongst so many trees and that kept our weather in a range between a calm 70 - 90 most late spring and early summer days. It could get hotter although not nearly as bad as Suna could be in its late summer but where it lacked in heat it made up for in humidity.

Ichiraku's ramen was always my favorite ramen stand and no other place could compare. I would know I have been to quite a few ramen stands in quite a few villages during my travels with Erosennin.

I couldn't go to Ichiraku's without first stopping at Hikari's Odango shop, nothing better than Odango dipped in delicious ramen juice. The very thought made my stomach growl. With a quick and happy order to a pink apron clad young lady and a five minute I had a box of Odango in my hand and a grin on my face as I walked a few blocks to Ichiraku's. I found it empty on this fine evening, just barely having missed the lunch shift for the evening tracking ninja among other evening workers, although many usually frequented the sushi restaurant to have a round of beers or sake with their dinner especially after a hard days work.

I sat down on one of the middle stools and was greeted with a grin as my usual order of ramen was prepared right before my eyes. Noodles boiled in hot water and placed into a bowl of chicken and fish broth with a nice large piece of cooked chicken was placed atop along with an egg and some pieces of uzumaki fish paste pieces to float among my ramen, adding an extra special taste. I lifted my chopsticks from a nearby cup and slid them from their paper wrapped tugging them apart with an excited “Itadakimasu”.

I dug into my ramen and finished in a record breaking two minutes, taking out my Odango and dipping them into the remaining ramen juice before popping them one at a time into my mouth. When my supply of Odango was gone I lifted my now slightly empty bowl of ramen and juice and drained the remaining now sweetened juice. I wiped my mouth on the back of my hand and sighed happily while rubbing my stomach. I paid my bill and stood up, taking small handful of mints from the courtesy basket on the counter.

I opened one mint and popped it into my mouth while waving and saying my goodbyes. Next time I'll add some mint to my ramen. The very idea sounds delicious. I looked up into the now darkening sky as the sun slowly set in the horizon causing the sky in its wake to blaze brilliant shades of pink, orange and yellow.

As I walked I looked out into the crowd of people in front of me and stopped moving as my breath caught in my throat. There among the village people stood the familiar emotionless figure of Itachi Uchiha. He was the same man that haunted my nightmares and thoughts. Nothing about him had changed in the slightest, except for maybe his boldness in coming into the middle of town and standing where everyone could see him. I felt my meal churn inside as it debated on whether to make an appearance again through the very opening it had entered through. A cold sweat dripped down my forehead and back as I slowly stepped backwards, trying not to break eye contact for fear that it would give him a chance to attack me. I turned and jumped into the air so that I ran along the rooftops, leaping from rooftop to rooftop hoping against hope that he wouldn't follow.

I leapt down and made to run for the doorway that should have lead to the hokage's office but instead the images of buildings and people vanished leaving instead trees and shrubs of various types in what looked to be the outskirts of the Konoha. I turned around quickly, finding myself a few feet away from Itachi looking eye to eye.

“Shit!”

“What dirty language, Naruto-kun,” Itachi admonished tonelessly.

“Me running through the village on rooftops…”

“Illusion,” he replied.

“Since when,” I asked shivering.

“Before you left Ichiraku's,” he replied as he began to close the distance between us.

I unconsciously backed away with every few steps he took.

“Why have you come, you can't extract Kyuubi and other than to check up on your “Experiment” you really have no use for me.”

He got closer and closer, close enough that I could smell his personal scent. His scent a deep musky mix of pine, musk, cinnamon and a faint small undercurrent of what most would describe as metallic and what I knew to be blood.

I backed away again, yelping when my back hit the hard and unyielding trunk of a tree. I was trapped.

I fumbled through my side pouch on my pants finding a few kunai which I withdrew and held up. I lifted one and hurled it at him causing him to jump forward instead of back bringing him and his scent even closer. Seeing no other option a distant thought flitted through my head and I acted on it.

I lifted a lone kunai and set it against my throat and shakily pushed it harder against my throat causing a small scratch and a small amount of searing pain.

“If you come closer I'll end your game.”

“Could you really do it? Could you willingly kill yourself? Could you slit your own throat, spill your own blood and end not only your life but that of your unborn child's?”

He gave me a calculating look that almost turned to amusement as he seemed to give me an assessing look. A look of disappointment settled over his features and then his usual look of nothingness returned.

“We both know you wouldn't. Your bluff does nothing. Everyone knows your and your loud proclamations of following your nindo and your nindo does not include tainting yourself with blood especially not the blood of an unborn innocent but the fact you would go so far to bluff to keep me at bay is flattering Naruto-kun.”

That annoying lilt in his deep voice when he said my name caused something deep inside to flutter and tighten.

“Is it out of fear of me that you go so far or is it fear for your child's life or perhaps it is fear of what I could do to you and your delicious little lithe body should I get within touching distance.”

A small smirk formed at the corner of his mouth before disappearing. It would possibly look like he simply had gas to others had they seen it but I knew better. He was a snake, an evil serpent that had me cornered like a helpless mouse although I suppose that analogy is incorrect. He is more like a big cat playing with a mouse. Unsure on whether to kill his prey, play with it some more or let it go. The latter definitely didn't seem to be one of the outcomes.

I felt something hard slam against me causing my hand holding the kunai to slide across my throat lightly, leaving a stinging pain in its wake. I looked up into hard scarlet eyes with swirling black pupils and my breath caught in my throat. I unconsciously began to shake as he shook my right hand harshly, smacking it against the trunk of the tree repeatedly until a crack sounded and I screamed in pain, my hand opened causing the kunai to fall and land with a thud in the grass covered ground somewhere by my feet.

I had no time to react as hard lips pressed harshly against my own while my mouth remained open because of my shout of pain. His tongue harshly thrust into my mouth while his lips pressed roughly against my own. I thrashed and fought my other arm free began scraping the side of his face repeatedly leaving small scratches that began to deepen with each rake of my hand. His lips pressed harder, pain erupting round my mouth letting me know that there would be bruising and perhaps more as my teeth scraped the inside of my mouth cutting into the tender inside of my lips and cheeks.

His free hand roamed over my body stopping over my distended stomach only momentarily before he lifted his hand back up and grasped the zipper to my overly large jacket, pulling it down, exposing my T-shirt covered chest and stomach to his hungry roaming eyes. He let go of the zipper once the jacket split leaving my body open to his scrutinizing gaze. That free hand continued downward grabbing the hem of my pants beginning to tug them down. I screamed inside his mouth thrashing harder and finally everything went silent except for the pounding of my heartbeat deep inside my head and the sudden taste of copper filled my mouth. The hard press of lips left my mouth I felt my throat constrict as if large amounts of air were being forced through it and then that hard expanse of flesh that had been pressed so closely against me disappeared.

I gasped causing my throat to ache, a tell tale sign of screaming as I hoarsely tried to cry out as blur shot past me aiming for Itachi. I felt a tentative hand on my shoulder and I shrunk back screaming and scraping my back against the rough bark of the tree as I did so.

I turned and looked into a pair of swirling Sharringan eyes framed by thick ebony bangs. I shook as he leaned closer talking softly to me as if I were a child.

“It's okay Naruto. It's me, Sasuke.”

I tripped over an uplifted tree root in my attempt to get away and fell backwards onto my bottom. He loomed over me extending a hand as I screeched and continued to scoot backwards. I wanted to be away from him by any means possible. Another person landed beside him and knelt so that we were eye to eye.

“Sasuke, calm down and stop using Sharringan.”

I looked into a single visible ebony eye and shuddered in relief as my eyes suddenly felt hot with pooling tears. I fell forward into his open arms and released a sob from somewhere deep down. A sob so hard and chest wrenching that it actually hurt to let it out. My whole body shuddered with sobs after that first one. Strong arms wrapped around my body while hands gently rubbed my back.

“Shh….it's okay Naruto. Shh…he's gone.”

“Naruto!?”

I buried myself further into Kakashi Sensei's arms as Sakura's voice shouted from behind me.

“He'll be okay Sakura-chan,” Kakashi Sensei said softly.

“How in the hell is he okay. He was just “attacked” by Itachi”, shouted Sasuke loudly.

I felt a stab of pain at Sasuke's words and in the wake of that pain a dull throb began. It started to become a cramp that spread throughout my midsection and through my back. Deep inside I knew something was wrong as conversation continued around me.

“Attacked? Was it Akatsuki,” asked Sakura concerned.

“No it seems Itachi was acting by himself. I doubt sticking his tongue down Naruto's throat has anything to do with Akatsuki business,” said Sasuke in a sickened tone.

The pain began to intensify causing my arms to wrap around my midsection tightly.

“Naruto?”

“What are you saying…”

“Arrgh….oh god…”

“Stop fussing you two! Sakura come here!”

I felt my body being lifted and then laid down on the soft grass.

I wrapped my arms tighter around myself as the pain increased. I felt Sakura's soft and strong hands remove my arms and then gently probe my rounded stomach and lower. I looked up at her through watery eyes as her eyes darkened to an emerald color.

“We need to get him to the hospital quickly. He could miscarry if we don't!”

I panicked and gripped Sakura's hands as I shook my head no repeatedly.

“Please don't let me lose it…”

She nodded and strong arms once again lifted me up cradling me against a vest covered chest.

“It'll be okay Naruto.”

I closed my eyes and gripped that vest with my might as we began moving causing wind to rustle my sweat soaked bangs. We landed hard jarring my body and then I was laid down on a soft bed. I gripped the sides of the bed and moaned in pain as the cramps became worse.

A hand pulled my right hand from the mattress and squeezed it reassuringly. I was surprised to see Sasuke sitting in a chair beside my bed with my hand clasped in his, a look of serious determination etched into that young face.

I felt Sakura's hands hover above my body and as the feeling of warm chakra flowed through me the cramping eased and the pain began to fade. The stress was still there but somehow lessened as that large firm hand squeezed mine, a comforting warmth and with a promise of protection and security.

I allowed my eyes to roam up the arm of that hand and to the chest and then that muscled neck to that sturdy chin and then up to those deep ebony eyes that always seemed to swallow me whole. Ebony eyes in pools of white surrounded by billowy like ebony lashes that most women would die to have. He was handsome, always had been. My heart constricted at the thought of him but not so much in a painful or fearful manner like it had with Itachi. It was comforting, just like Sasuke always had been. A joke here an insult there, a push, a shove a playful smile, a nickname and curse uttered a hand there whenever needed.

You never really realize how much you need something until it sits in plain sight and then the very thought of losing it causes you unimaginable pain. And yet the person I had thought I had lost was sitting here beside me with my hand in his.

I closed my eyes to fight off the hot tears threatening to spill over like boiling water from a pot on the fire.

“It'll be okay, dobe,” he whispered into my ear.

I nodded my head and took a deep calming breath. Another large hand gently wiped my forehead, a thumb gently rubbing the bridge of my nose between eyes before gently flicking me there.

I opened my eyes and saw a pair of honey brown eyes starring down at me with a gentle smile.

“Sasuke's right gaki, you and the little one are going to be fine. The stress of your encounter caused a little mild cramping which grew the more the stress increased. You really had us worried and things will be fine as long as you don't overstress yourself, which means no wandering by yourself.”

I nodded and felt myself calm a bit more at her words.

“It's a good thing Sasuke showed up when he did. You owe the little stalker your thanks Gaki.”

“Hai…Baa-chan.”

“Why does that compliment sound like an insult,” muttered Sasuke causing me to smile.

Sakura removed her hands and leaned over giving me a light hug and then a bop on the head, “Don't scare me like that Naruto.”

“I'll try not to,” I said with a weak smile.

Sakura walked to the door and beckoned someone outside before returning to my bed side. Hinata walked through the door smiling as she made her way to my bedside where she stood next to Sakura.

“I'm going check and make sure everything is okay,” she said with a shy smile and with my nod she moved her head so that her eyes were on my expanding waistline and with a calm and steady, “Byakugan” the nerves along her eyes and forehead tightened, a few becoming visible as she looked past clothes, skin and tissue. I sometimes wondered if she or Neiji put that skill to a more recreational use.

She laid her hands on my abdomen pressing gently causing the all too familiar movement deep inside as my little one shifted. She focused even closer and a surprised gasp left her mouth causing panic to rise until a smile graced her lips.

“Would you like to know the sex, Naruto-kun?”

“Of the baby,” I asked uncertainly and before I could think the question through.

“No! Of you, yes the baby, dobe,” replied Sakura rolling her eyes as she gave an exasperated sigh.

I thought about for a moment, pursing my lips in concentration before I finally shook my head and answered, “Nah…thanks anyway. I think I'll let it remain a surprise.”

She smiled brightly and nodded before another familiar face peered from around the doorway and beckoned her.

He nodded in my direction, his long black locks falling over his shoulder, “I have to leave but I will be back to check on you tomorrow before we decide to let you go home. Jan ne.”

I watched as she followed Neiji out the door just as Sasuke's muttered confusion met my ears.

“Since when have they been a couple?”

“Neiji's hatred wasn't hatred for Hinata just the way the Main family chose to do things. I think he's liked Hinata since they were little the separation between the Main and Branch cause friction and separated them not only in name but in Neiji's heart because he was afraid he would be betraying his father.”

“So what you're saying is that he learned to live for himself.”

“Yeah, basically.”

It got quiet and it was then that I noticed we were alone with the door to the hospital room closed.

“Why didn't you tell me dobe…Naruto?”

I sighed and closed my eyes. With a deep breath I opened them again and turned to look at my hands.

“What was I supposed to say, hey Sasuke it's been a while since you rejected me and broke my heart but guess what, while on that mission with the gang I was told that Kyuubi and I have merged making it possible for me to have babies. I was beaten badly and then raped by your homicidal big brother, left to hang by chains until Kakashi Sensei and the others found me and now I'm pregnant with Itachi's heir. So how have you been?!”

He growled in frustration and let go of my hand as he stood up and began pacing around the room, his hands gripping fistfuls of hair.

“I'm sorry! I am. I couldn't give in to my feelings which means I couldn't give in to yours. The kiss was supposed to be a goodbye, meaning I was never supposed to see you again. I had thought when I came back that you had moved on. A lot of girls are into you now; Hinata was among that list although she liked you before all the popularity. You're just too damn dense.”

“Hey…”

“Shut up and let me continue dobe!”

He ruffled his hair and then turned to look at me. I tried to get over you but it wasn't possible and when I'd finally gotten up the courage you…”

He left off as realization filled those expressive ebony eyes.

“You tried to…oh my god. I look like him, I mean we look alike. So when I… you freaked out and…my eyes…our expressions…”

I nodded slightly and then turned to look out the window where a clear night sky filled with shimmering stars could be seen above the city and trees.

“You're not to blame. It just…happened. I didn't mean to hurt you I just…wanted to be away from you. I HAD to get away from you. It was too soon to even think about doing something like that with you after what happened.”

He stopped what was he doing and leaned in close his hand hesitantly hovering above me, afraid to make the final movement that would place his hands on mine. His face showed so many emotions and many of them probably went along with some inner monologue I would never hear. I don't whether to be pleased or upset by such a thought.

His face was inches from mine and as I watched those emotions fly across his face I knew he was nothing like Itachi, Itachi who had his many emotions who was a silent storm deep inside unlike the visible hurricane that now hovered over me.

You can watch the storms as they pass and chase after them or you can stand out in the rain, lightening and howling wind taking the risks of lightening striking or later catching a cold because of your stupidity. I was never a watcher.

I willed myself to lean in those final few inches and connect my lips to his in what could only be called a chaste kiss. I leaned back and watched those emotions once again fly across those beautiful features until finally he leaned forward of his own volition connecting our lips once again with just a tad bit more heat and hunger this time as our lips dueled and maneuvered until lips became more with tongues and we broke apart gasping for air, both our lips swollen and pinkened along with our cheeks.

”I want to fix things between us...”

“I'm willing if you are but I come with many stigmas' Sasuke.”

He looked down at my stomach and back into my eyes, “It's an Uchiha and I'm an Uchiha. It will be yours which means I can deal. Who knows…maybe one day…?”

He left off with a slight blush and for some reason my cheeks heated as well.

Perhaps…someday I could carry his as well…we'll see.

One storm at a time, one day at a time.

Sometimes you watch the storm and feel its wrath as it does horrible things to you, your home, friends and surroundings and you curse it and then sometimes it all clears and suddenly there's a bright and beautiful rainbow and you can't help but think that its somehow alright.

I couldn't help but wondering if this was my rainbow or if it was just another thunderstorm passing by.

To Be Continued……

Holy cow~! I've never received so many reviews. ::BLUSHES::

Sorry for not updating. Moving again, working two jobs and trying to finish my original story that I would like to send off to a publisher sometime within this next year. I've been busy. Working at a Pet store now and starting the Elementary School again. What was that old saying about working with kids and animals….LoL I used a lot of music to get this chapter going and one of my current fav songs really set the mood for the first chapter. Big Girls Don't Cry by Fergie. It's an amazing song. Anyone out there going to Nekocon or Katsucon?

Hope you enjoy the chapter. I could have ended it here but…I'm not that mean. Keep reading~!

Kat AKA DeityOfDeath

New Notes:

Mid January - Naruto is raped
Early-mid February - Naruto is back in Konoha, Sasuke makes a move.
mid/late February - Naruto learns of his pregnacy
March - Naruto moves out of his apartment
April - 4mths along, picked house

May - 5mths along, Itachi appears. Sasuke and Naruto make amends.