Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ Hurting From The Inside Out (EDITED) ❯ Repercussions ( Chapter 3 )

Hurting From The Inside Out

Chapter 3

Repercussions

Sasuke slowly drifted back to reality. The first thing he noticed was he wasn't sleeping on the hard ground. He was in a soft comfortable bed. He snapped his eyes open to look frantically around, searching for the threat of his aniki. He was in the Konoha hospital. He frowned trying to figure out how he got here. Pain shot through his body forcing him back down on the mattress, groaning. His brother really did a number on him.

He turned his head to the side and that's when he noticed the cloak his brother wore laying over the back of the chair. It was covered with dry blood and dirt. He swallowed hard as the images of what occurred between them flashed through his mind. He looked away from the cloak and down at his hands. They were wrapped up in bandages. He tried to flex them a little and only ended up with pain screaming through his body.

So it wasn't a dream, he thought with a groan. He really did get fucked by his brother and he liked it… A lot. He turned to the door as it started to open. Naruto burst into the room full of energy while Sakura and Kakashi followed silently. He bit back his annoyance, not really in the mood to talk to anyone. He still had to sort out his feelings.

“Oi, you're up. That's so good. You don't even know how worried we were.” Naruto rambled. “You've been out for three days. We were so worried you were going into a coma. Sakura stayed by your bedside night and day hoping you would wake up. You had her so worried Sasuke-kun. You should apologize.” Naruto commanded with that ever-happy grin and hands on his hips.

“Dobe shut up.” Sasuke croaked at him.

Sasuke could see the rebellion rising in the blond ninja's eyes and he found that he wasn't ready to go arguing with the Dobe. He didn't have to though, because Kakashi stepped in and stopped the tirade much to Sasuke's relief.

“How about you and Sakura go tell the med nin that he's up. While you're at it go get some food too.” Their Sensei demanded.

“Hai, sensei.” Naruto and Sakura responded in unison.

They left the room leaving teacher and student alone. Sasuke was pretty sure he didn't want to be left alone with his Sensei but it was going to come out sooner or later, he might as well get it over with. He watched Kakashi take his seat in the chair by the bed. He propped his head against the wall in the lazy manner that always rolled off of him.

“So you apparently don't listen very well, or you just can't stop yourself from keeping out of trouble.” Sasuke decided it was best to bite his tongue and keep quiet. Even though all he wanted to do was chew Kakashi out for not telling him that he had know Itachi was prowling the Leaf Village. “I thought I told you to be careful. Then I go to tell you goodnight and you are nowhere to be found. I looked all over the village to find you. I was scared out of my mind. Then I ran into one of the ANBU and they tell me they found you close by the hospital bleeding profusely with a damn Akatsuki robe wrapped around you.” Kakashi sighed in annoyance. “What the hell were you thinking Sasuke?”

“I don't have to explain myself to you.” Sasuke hissed. “But why didn't you tell me my brother was here. How could you keep that from me, when you know that this was information that meant a lot to me but still you hid it from me. How dare you Kakashi.” Sasuke finished on a growl.

“Because you would have went after him. I figured if I didn't tell you, you'd stay at home like a good boy. I was terribly wrong because here you are with stitches on both sides of your hands and stitches in your ass. I was trying to protect you.” The white haired man countered. “Did Itachi rape you or was it that damn partner of his?” Kakashi demanded, turning to face him completely.

He turned away refusing to look his sensei in the eye considering how dirty and tainted he felt at those words. He didn't want to have to reveal what had aspired between him and Itachi to the one person that he held in such high regards. Kakashi would either pity him or be disgusted with him and he didn't want any of those reactions from the Jonin.

“I don't want to discuss it.” His voice was not as steady as he wanted it, but he was relapsing into the nightmare of three days ago.

He kept seeing his brother's face as Itachi moved deep inside him. His older brother's body made his own hot and sweaty. The way Itachi had touched him before their first kiss, it was almost loving. Making him achingly hard and most of all needed.

Stop, Sasuke. He screamed at himself. Don't even fantasize about that bastard.

He felt the tears spill over before he was able to contain them. He had been waiting for this to come. He knew it was building up, but the sick realization settled over him like a thick blanket suffocating him but he just didn't want to fall apart in front of Kakashi when it did

He wasn't crying because of the fact that he had just got painfully raped by his own brother. He was crying because he had liked it, he had wanted it deep down inside. He had always loved his brother more then he should have and knew that there was no way he'd be able to kill him. He felt so dirty, yet his heart ached for his brother so badly. He cried harder, sobs exploding from his body painfully as he wrapped his arms around his middle.

“Shit.” Came a soft curse from his sensei, suddenly strong warm arms slipped around him comforting, as Kakashi sat on the bed next to him.

His teacher held him like that for a long time until sleep took him over again. He drifted in and out of sleep all evening. Memories haunting him and wet dreams waking him, to the point he thought he would never sleep well again. He didn't know if he should hate Itachi for doing this to him or himself for feeling the way he felt.

It had been over a week since the incident with Sasuke. No one had reported seeing the two wanted ninja's anywhere in Konoha or around the surrounding areas. Which was a good thing, but Kakashi knew they would be back. They had never giving up that easily on anything. They were known as a vicious organization and had never let a mission go that they didn't succeed over. The white haired ninja just had to figure out what they were after and stop them before they had a chance.

He sat in the hospital waiting room, as the doctor was filling out papers to release Sasuke so he could finally go home. Sasuke acted like his normal cold self, treating everyone with ill contempt, which made Kakashi feel better because he now knew that the Akatsuki hadn't broken the boy. If they did Sasuke was really good at hiding it.

Sasuke came around the corner with the doctor. He was walking fine and looked a lot better then he had a couple of day's ago. Color was finally back in his features and that adorable scowl was on his face. Kakashi decided to not worry so much anymore. Sasuke was going to be fine.

“Are you ready to go?” Kakashi asked.

“Hai. Get me out of here.”

They left the hospital in silence and headed down the street to the house. It was a bright sunny day and it was getting hotter with each passing hour. Sasuke was quiet like always and Kakashi was in a very good mood but who wouldn't be when it was such a great day.

“Sasuke, I think you should stay at the house with me at least until you're fully healed.” He suggested.

“No.” Came the biting voice, leaving him no room to argue.

Fine, he thought to himself. I'll just have to watch him closely from a far. He really didn't think the Akatsuki would be back for him because they would have taken him when they had the chance if he was the one they wanted, but a ninja could never be to conscious. Especially when it came to one of his students.

He walked Sasuke up to the door, watching the boy open it and disappeared inside not saying a word to him. He stood there by himself for a long moment as he thought about the whole situation. His head was starting to hurt in between his eyes and he decided it was time to go find Iruka and relieve some pent up stress. It had been over a week since he had last been with his boyfriend.

Sasuke leaned against the front door with a sigh of relief. He was so glad Kakashi didn't insist on him staying at the house. He just wanted to be left alone. He had so much on his mind and he didn't want to be around anyone. He just wanted to think over things by himself.

As he stood there he felt so dirty and disgusting. He made straight for his bathroom stripping off his clothes on the way. It had been a week since he last had a shower and he was taking one now. Maybe if he took a hot enough shower it would burn away his sins. He doubted it but one could hope right.

After he showered him went straight to his bedroom and slide into bed not even bothering with getting in pajamas. He pulled the blankets up to his chin and he slid into a deep sleep almost instantly.

He found himself in a small clearing. It was nighttime, yet everything seemed to be a lot brighter then normally. In front of him stood Itachi Uchiha. His older brother. He found himself moving slowly forward two steps then stopping. They didn't say anything, just watched one and the other. As if sizing the other person up before rushing into battle.

His brother lifted his hand then motioned him forward. He felt excitement as he remembered when his brother used to do this when he was younger. He found himself moving forward quickly. Love for his brother swelling in his heart with each step that he took. He got to his brother's side and felt fingers press against his forehead.

“Forgive me Sasuke.” The deep voice slid over his body making him shiver in pleasure.

He opened his eyes to see the red ones looking down at him with an ill smile. Something pressed into his side and pain explode through him, making him slowly sinking to his knees at his brother's feet. He looked down at the kunai lodged in his gut. Itachi had stabbed him. His brother had tried to kill him. He looked up with tears starting to slide from his eyes.

“Why? Why would you do this to me aniki? I love you so much. Why would you try to kill me?” Itachi leaned down over him, slightly moist lips brushing against the shell of his ear.

“Because you are weak, foolish otouto. Because you don't harbor enough hate to do it to me.” He watched the older boy move away laughing cruelly.

“ANIKI PLEASE!” Sasuke screamed sitting up panting heavily.

He looked around frantically. He was still in his own bedroom. The sun had gone down and the room was dark. It was just a nightmare but it had felt so real. He had never been so scared in his life. The panic and fright was still making his heart pound hard in his chest. A cold sweat had broken out along his chilled flesh.

He let himself go then, crying loudly as he flopped down on the bed face buried in the pillow. Why now? Why this? He had lived most of his life despising his brother, training hard so that he could catch up to his brother only to defeat him and restore the clan. Why was he having second thoughts? Why did he want to love Itachi instead of hate him? Why after the man raped him did he feel as if he couldn't survive without the older Uchiha?

“Sasuke, I am so sorry my little brother.” His surprise on hear another person in his room made him choke on his next sob.

He looked up and met the dark eyes of the person he had come to realize that he loved so much. He scrambled back off the bed hitting his bare ass on the floor as he fell. He winced as a minor pain in reminded him that he was still a little sore. He moved backwards along the floor until his back hit the wall and his knees came against his chest. He wasn't ready to see Itachi again. He didn't have the strength to fight the man and he didn't know if his feelings would even allow him to attack. He had never been more confused in his life and to sit here facing the one causing his stress really wasn't a good thing.

Itachi watched him with a pained expression on his face. He had done this to his little brother. He had made his otouto skittish. He had felt horrible the night he had raped his brother but now seeing the damage personally, he felt like shit. The guilt eating at him. He didn't know how he was even going to begin to reconcile this situation.

Flashback

He stared down at his unconscious brother and felt like an overwhelming sense of sadness. Now that he had his control he wanted to kill himself for the insanity that he had unleashed on his little brother. He had always been attracted to his brother but had refused to corrupt his younger brother like that. He wanted to protect him for everyone including himself. That's why he had avoided his brother when they were younger. That's why he had left the Leaf village after his mission from the Hokage and made his brother hate him so. He didn't want to corrupt Sasuke the way he had been.

He was so new to his own feelings that he had not wanted to loose control of his emotions and harm his brother in anyway. His only option was to throw himself head first into the clan. Which ended up leading to bigger problems for himself, but at least his brother was safe from him. At least the boy had a chance to grow up without war and a evil brother.

He slid his cloak tightly around his little brother as he moved to the entrance of the cave. He silently reached out into the night listen closely and trying to track Kisame down. He walked slowly through the forest and found his partner in a tree. He took a deep breath not really wanting Kisame to ask him any unnecessary questions that he really didn't have answers to.

He jumped up next to him and sat there contemplating just how much he should reveal to his blue teammate. Kisame gave a small chuckle and leaned his big body against the tree trunk so he could stare at Itachi with amusement. Itachi glared at him. He never liked people's amusement at his expense.

“Did you have fun Itachi. I could hear your brother's screams all the way out here.” Itachi's fists clenched and he gritted his teeth together taking all his self-control not to hit the fish in the face for such a stupid comment.

“You should return to the leader and tell him that the mission was a failed one and tell him of the idea that we thought of earlier.”

“You mean going after Naruto when he leaves the village with Jaraiya?”

“Hai.”

“And what are you planning on doing, Itachi? You're brother will need medical assistance and soon.” Itachi felt the guilt slid over him again.

“I will stay here and make sure my brother is ok.” He responded.

“I thought you didn't care about your brother?” He ignored the question refusing to the give the shark man any indication of his feelings concerning Sasuke.

“The leader is not going to go easy on you. I hope you are prepared for that.” With that said Kisame slid off the branch to land on the ground. “Ja ne.” Kisame called up to him and then disappeared into the forest.

Itachi quickly made his way back to the cave to get his brother. He picked him up and held his securely against his chest making sure the cloak was tightly around the boy so he wouldn't get a chill as Itachi ran through the forest.

He went as fast as he could go as he ran to the village. Who would thought that he would be trying to save the life of the one that was destined to kill him. He felt a stab in his heart and decided that the was something he didn't want to think of right now. All he needed to focus on was getting Sasuke to the hospital and fast. He didn't have anytime to spare. As it was the boy had already lost far too much blood.

He came to the outskirts of Konoha and made his way toward the clinic. Unfortunately he couldn't just take his brother into the doctor himself so he found some shrubs near by a carefully laid his brother among them. He leaned down and lightly pressed a kiss against the pale unmoving lips. His heart aching as he did so.

“I'm so sorry otouto. I love you more then you'll understand.” Then he left into the night.

End of Flashback

Itachi slowly started to remove each of his weapons throwing them to the floor as he went. Trying to reassure his brother that he was not here to hurt him. All he wore was his pants and fishnet shirt with sandals by the time he had removed anything threatening. His brother watched every movement with great intensity, ready to flee at any giving moment.

“Sasuke, I made a grave mistake and I'm sorry for hurting you. You have no idea how it has plagued me as I've watched you heal in the hospital. I never meant for any of this to happen and I promise you I will never physically hurt you like that ever again.” He made a step toward his brother, watching his features closely.

Sasuke believed his brother. He couldn't explain exactly why he believed him but he did. He was just so terrified because of his newfound feelings and then walking up from a dream that felt so real that he couldn't respond to the older man. He was wounded emotionally and he was scared that he would only do more damage to himself if he let his brother back into his life again. Part of him wanted to tell his brother to fuck off while a deeper darker part of him wanted to run to Itachi and hold him as tightly as possible so he could never leave him alone again.

He watched his brother move closer, now kneeling down in front of him so they were face to face. Itachi leaned forward running his fingers softly across the younger one's cheek. Sasuke found himself almost leaning into the soft touch, but stopped himself. He didn't want to look starved for attention even though he was. He didn't want to give his brother any kind of power over him. He was sick of suffering at Itachi's hands and didn't want to hurt any more. Itachi was the only one that could leave the deep wounds that near healed.

“Otouto, please. I'm so sorry.” The almost desperate look on Itachi face was his undoing.

He choked on a sob and wrapped his arms around his brother's shoulders practically launching his body against the bigger harder one. Tears falling from the corner of his eyes as he clung desperately to his brother. He never wanted to let go. He was so afraid if he did, he would lose the man forever. He didn't think his already shredded heart could handle that again.

“I love you Itachi. I love you so much it hurts. I always have.” Sasuke sobbed.

Itachi pulled him closer. He had wanted to hear those words for so very long. Sasuke use to tell him that all the time when they were kids and he hadn't realize how much he had missed those three words until he had heard them once more.

His heart hurt from all the stuff he had done to his little brother but it also cried for joy that his brother had confessed his love after so long of him wanting to hear those words. He couldn't let this opportunity pass by even though he knew he would be harboring a new kind of danger. He didn't care though. He had to reassure his brother.

“God Sasuke, I've always loved you more then you'll ever know. All I've ever done is protect you because of the way I cared for you.” Itachi whispered.

Sasuke would have missed the words if Itachi's lips hadn't been pressed against his ear. He sobbed harder on hearing his niisan's confession because he never imagined Itachi saying anything so emotional. He still couldn't believe his aniki had let his guard down enough to whisper those three words.

 

TBC…

 

Kitty- You want to know what's really funny. I LIKED THIS CHAPTER. Anyway, enjoy. Tell me what you think.