Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ To Find Warmth In The Snow ❯ Chapter 6 Little Black Broken Heart ( Chapter 6 )

Chapter 6

Little Black Broken Heart

 

“Kakashi, we need to talk…now.” Sasuke said after I answered the door. He grabbed my hand like he always had and placed it between his legs and out of habit my fingers closed around his throbbing cock.

I heard a small pleasured whimper escape his lips.

He hadn't done this in a while.

It had started back before the third phase of the chunin exams; I'd shown Sasuke my chidori and told him that I'd teach it to him if he did one thing for me… stop sleeping around.

Of course he refused claiming it was none of my business but…

I offered myself to him. Better me than strangers. I thought.

He still refused at first but I knew he would give in eventually.

I knew Sasuke, he could only think of defeating his brother and becoming stronger, I knew this and so I took advantage of his weakness. Only to help him. Even if my methods weren't the best. It was the only way I could think of to help without making him run away form Konoha of kill himself or someone else.

I told him he could show up that night if he agreed and I'd teach him chidori the next day.

That night he did show up just as I had predicted and he led me quickly to my own room where he forced himself on me. I hadn't expected him to be so… needy.

And even though I knew it must have hurt like hell he only said one thing.

“…Harder.”

This surprised me at first, but I soon found out that Sasuke had slightly masochistic ways and loved sadomasochistic sex.

But I wasn't a sadist, and I didn't like to see him in pain, but he pushed himself to the edge of his physical abilities every time.

When in the end I asked him why, he said he didn't quite know himself, he said that the pain just felt somehow right.

I still even now don't understand that answer.

After that he showed up at my doorstep whenever he wanted it and he always did the same thing.

`Kakashi, we need to talk…now.” And he'd grab my hand and place it between his legs so that I could feel his erection.

After about a year and a half of his mostly frequent visits they just suddenly stopped. I hadn't seen him in about nine months, and I was beginning to think it would never happen again but…

I was brought out of my thoughts as Sasuke pushed us both into my house slamming the door behind us.

He was angry; this was going to be rough.

He brutally kissed me leading me backwards into my bedroom that we'd seen together countless times.

“All you have to do is lie there.” Now I knew what he was up to. I'd heard that line before. I quickly undressed and as soon as I had my pants off two soft hands pushed me back onto the bed.

Already I was becoming erect.

He grabbed me in his left hand and with his right went shuffling in my top drawer until he found my lubricant and a condom.

He spread it over me pumping me in his hands to get me harder.

When he was satisfied he got on top of me kissing my chest with soft lips and I felt a hand reach back to position us correctly.

Then with a grimace of pain on his face he forced himself to sit on my thick and long cock. With a condom of course, I always made sure to use one. Hopefully it would be a habit he'd keep when he was with others besides myself.

In a way even though I was still the one inside him I was like his uke.

I was afraid of him in a way; during sex he could get angry and wild and end up hurting both of us.

That's probably what would happen now. I was afraid of how long he would push my body, last time I couldn't move for three hours.

“Ah…ahhhh…” he started moaning in pain. He wasn't completely inhuman, he could feel the pain, but somewhere down deep he felt he deserved it. That's what I thought it was, he felt he needed to punish himself, for what though, I didn't know.

He pushed himself down harder trying to fit me inside of his taut hole.

He moaned again, but he barely gotten past the head.

This reminded me of the last time this happened.

I remember when he'd showed up at my doorstep and done the usual routine before pushing us both into my room.

Then he had said, “All you have to do is lie there.” He had tried the same thing he was trying now but was worse at it then.

I could still remember his twelve year-old body straining against my big cock; I was too big for him when he was that age. Usually the limit I could go in was about three-quarters and I knew even that must be almost unbearable painful. He had pushed him self down hard thinking he knew what he was doing and screamed at the feeling of my dick tearing into the tight entrance.

He screamed and cried and I tried to tell him to stop but words were useless.

He kept pushing himself trying to fit all of me inside of him.

His hands were shivering fists on my chest and his knees were shaking.

I could feel the drips of blood, I hated it when he made himself bleed, but he wouldn't stop.

And finally with all of his strength, he sat fully down on me a stream of blood escaping around my penis.

He screamed and cried and didn't even have to move, he just sat on me, my full cock buried deep inside his body, crying.

After I had pulled out he was really hurt and I had him stay at my house for a few days though for some reason he resented me, he wouldn't look at me and barely talked to me at all.

By now he had gotten about half of my slick penis inside of him and was still moaning his breath coming in raged short gasps.

His hands balled into fists on my chest again and he desperately pushed down. I grabbed his hips to help guide him on me but he slapped me hands away. He carefully began to move up and down on me and I moaned at the feeling, he was still so tight, it was like his hole never loosened, even from his first time.

His pace picked up as he began really humping me, I could tell how badly he wanted it.

He was angry and frustrated, though I didn't know why.

Even I never understood Sasuke.

He grabbed my hips and began bouncing up and down on me wildly. I moaned at the feeling of his tight wet ass gripping me. And then he stopped his moving and forced himself to sit fully on me, he threw his head back and made a noise that was half of a moan and half of a scream.

I knew he was in pain but… there was nothing I could do. It was so… frustrating

I moaned pushing up against him as he began moving again.

He was gasping air as if they were his last breaths.

He sped up pushing back hard against me I reached a hand forward and grabbed onto his cock, thumbing the tip teasingly.

A bead of precum came from the slit and I quickly wiped it away with my index finger.

He grabbed my hand and put the finger to his lips, I swallowed the lump in my throat from seeing this crude gesture.

I heard the smacking sound from his flesh slamming down onto mine.

And he moaned as I hit his prostate a few times.

I hated the look on Sasuke's face every time he came.

He would scream and look so sad and lonely for those few seconds and then be ripped apart by the pleasure that I sent through him.

Then he would collapse.

That is… if he was finished. Sometimes he'd push us both on until he had cumed some where around 3 or 4 times.

I always started with good intentions. Just to keep him away from strangers.

But, with Sasuke, somewhere in between I would loose myself to the pleasure.

It felt good and suddenly meant more than just protecting him.

Or at least it felt that way temporarily.

Suddenly it made me angry to be so submissive to him. The best times I had had with Sasuke was when he was screaming at me to go faster but I was in charge, I had control of the speed.

I liked those times.

Very suddenly fed up with leaving him in charge I flipped him over.

His eyes widened.

I grabbed him up and turned him around so that he was on all fours.

Then I began to pump into him like there was no tomorrow.

He whimpered and egged me on.

“Harder…” he moaned.

I refused keeping up the pace I had already started.

“Harder!” he screamed at me.

I decided I could at least humor him on that since I wanted it harder as well.

I began pounding into him and he screamed clinging to the sheets.

He pressed back against me in time with my rapid thrusts.

He came all over his stomach and the bed and he moaned, I was glad I didn't have to see his face this time but there was no time to think about that.

Because before I knew it I felt myself empty out into him.

God It felt good and white lights flashed across my vision as the pleasure filled me.

I didn't pull out but relaxed on my knees.

I prayed that he would collapse and this would be done but he didn't

“…Keep going.”

 

 

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“Keep going.” I said my breath still rough.

“Sasuke…”

“I said, keep going, damn it.”

I felt Kakashi stand on his knees again and pullout, change his condom and then he thrust in again hitting me just right.

It felt so good but I knew it was wrong.

He was my teacher and he was with Iruka now, but I had to have him in me, I had to have him, even if only one more time.

I loved the feeling of having a dick inside my body. I was addicted.

And I loved the pain that came along with it.

And not only that, I came to him when I was guilty or depressed, and I was both of those right now.

He viciously continued like I wanted him to. My body was objecting to this like always, convulsing and tightening around him, which I'm sure felt good for him.

I moaned again giving myself completely to the feeling that was racing through my veins.

But it still wasn't good enough.

“Faster!” I screamed pressing back in time.

“Oh god, Kakashi, faster!”

He liked when I said his name.

And just as I had asked, his speed increased.

I was beginning to ache again, I really was pushing myself too far, and I knew that but I couldn't stop myself.

“Ahh!” I moaned again loudly as the feeling of my own blood beginning to fill me took over.

I moaned his name again and I heard his moans begin to come again. I came before him adding to the already sizeable puddle of cum on the sheets.

He pushed me onwards, which I loved.

I loved finding new limits.

About half an hour later my muscles were shivering terribly and the pain was just as bad.

Kakashi was sweating and moaning.

He was tired I could tell and I knew this wouldn't last much longer. I had come again and my body was really hurting now and soon I felt him tighten in his final orgasm and then he pulled out and laid back.

“That's…enough…” he managed to gasp.

I nodded and collapsed onto the bed exhausted. Kakashi managed to pull the soiled sheets from under us and throw them to the floor.

After trying to catch my breath I sat up and moved to the edge of the bed.

“You're kidding, you can still move?” Kakashi asked.

I didn't bother answering but tried to stand and grab my clothes.

I immediately crumpled to the ground, my legs like water.

“Sasuke…” Kakashi grumbled moving to grab me and pull me back up onto the bed.

“Just stay the night; you'll be better in the morning.”

He laid me down next to him and pulled a clean blanket from under the bed spreading it over both of us.

I was grateful for this, I felt so exposed lying naked next to him like that.

Maybe it was strange but I didn't want to be naked around him.

More than strange, stupid, I'd just spent an hour letting him screw my up my ass and now didn't want to be naked in front of him.

I could still feel the aftershocks of my orgasm rumbling through my body.

It made me feel terribly guilty. I had had sex with Kakashi when I knew he was with Iruka and had completely ignored the feelings of everyone else around me.

Why was I so selfish?

“You know,” he said to me after a moment of silence, “If you want to go that long, you should get multiple lovers.”

“…I did, you're my third today.” I answered quietly.

“Sasuke, why do you push yourself so hard, I know it's not because it feels that good.”

I was quiet my back facing him so he couldn't see my saddened and empty expression. I didn't know why I pushed myself so hard, why I desperately tried to fill the gapping hole in my chest with lust when I knew that's not what I needed.

“Is it…because of *him* ?” he asked.

I didn't answer.

“You should talk about it. Maybe if you shared your feelings-”

“Shut the fuck up.” I said finally and then instantly regretted my outburst.

He didn't say anything after that and that made me feel worse.

And soon I heard his breath slow and even out, as he fell asleep.

As soon as I felt he was truly asleep I let go of the sadness I was holding inside and let all my thoughts run freely.

I bathed in my sorrow.

It was because of *him.*

I wanted to blame him, but I knew I was truly at fault.

I did know why I pushed myself, I did know, but I didn't want to admit it, I didn't want to think about it.

Maybe, if I ignored it, it would go away.

Denial had always been my “forte”.

I felt so alone.

Wasn't there anyone who could tell how I really felt?

I curled myself up into a ball and hugged my knees to my chest.

The only thing I could hug.

It was strange. Out of all the people that I gave my body to. Not one of them would hold me afterwards.

They acted like I was a sex object not like their lover.

 

*Ha, Uchiha Sasuke wants to snuggle.*

 

I couldn't find any laughter even in my stupid joke.

It was him who had made me realize the empty part of me.

Him, who had made me feel inferior, made me go to these extents to try and fill the gap.

I'd crossed the line long ago. Was there any going back?

Could I ever reclaim the innocence I'd lost so long ago?

My lower body was aching and my stomach hurt from all of my churning emotions.

I didn't know what to feel. Sad? Angry? Guilty?

More than anything I wished that someone would be able to come and help me out of this hole I'd dug myself into.

I reached my hand down and grabbed my limp and sore cock and began pumping myself.

It hurt. I liked when it hurt, it made the inside not hurt so much.

 

*I sound really emo…* I thought.

 

I came not even a minute after I started and then I felt even worse.

I felt so…dirty.

I really wanted out of the life I had made.

But what could I do now?

My heart didn't ache as much as it had earlier in my life.

I was becoming numb to all of this.

The heart that once beat in my chest was dead.

 

*Yeah, my little black broken heart…*

 

 

 

Okay that's it if you haven't guessed by now this is basically a story where they all became insatiable whores! See ya soon! Next up is gaaranaru