Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ To Find Warmth In The Snow ❯ Chapter 8 Numb ( Chapter 8 )

“H-harder!” Neji moaned looking up at me, “Harder Sasuke!”
I wanted to indulge him but it was too early, we'd only just started.
“Always so impatient.” I whispered though I relished in the feel of his tight flesh enveloping me.
I prodded inside of him forcing myself in deeper and feeling his hands tighten and his nails dig into my back.
He reached up and began kissing my neck and shoulders.
That's what I hated, was the way he kissed me. He always kissed my neck and shoulders, but never my face. Never. It made me realize that he wasn't doing this to have sex with me; he was doing it just for the sex. That fact that it was me didn't matter. It could have been anyone. He just wanted my body.
It reminded me of what I really was though I couldn't bring my mind to say the word because if I did I might loose myself in the void that I was hanging over.
I was on the edge.
And only physical pleasure gave me a few minutes of comfort.
I slowly began pumping feeling Neji's anxiousness start. He moaned and began rocking his body into mine hard and fast.
He was really anxious.
It was all about the orgasm for Neji, not about the pleasure it took to reach that point.
It only took my about thirty minutes with Neji because he always wanted it over so quickly.
I pounded in a little harder hearing him moan and feeling the deepness of his voice rattle my sanity for a moment.
The feeling of the tight hot flesh tugging at my dick was amazing.
I loved it, I loathed it, I wanted as much as I could get.
Neji moaned and arched up kissing at my neck and shoulders once more.
“H…Harder.” He said with difficulty. He was straining in his last moments and I could tell he was near his limit.
I reached down to pump him but found that his hand was already there. So instead I put my hand over his and we pumped him together.
His face tightened for a moment and a moan escaped his soft lips.
Finally I moved his hand out of the way and began pumping his slicked cock.
He nearly screamed as I hit his prostate and he pressed against me so I'd hit it again.
He always tightened as he came. I loved that.
The muscles in his legs began to shiver and he wrapped his legs around me pushing me in deeper.
“Oh…god.” I said straining against the heightened sense of pleasure that was speeding through my veins.
It was almost like a drug.
I felt a strange dizziness suddenly. And I continued pumping into Neji and I could feel all of the pleasure but everything seemed to slow for a moment and all I could hear was my heartbeat and my distant breath.
But the world came back to its regular speed all too quickly and when it did I came hard inside of Neji screaming as I did so.
Neji screamed as well and I felt a hot liquid splash against my stomach. And both Neji and I stayed like that our muscles tightened, small whimpers escaping our taut throats until it seemed this unbearable wave of ecstasy would never end.
But then we both collapsed. The orgasm had only lasted about 5 seconds but that seemed like forever.
It was wonderful… but now it was terrible.
Almost immediately I was filled with a familiar guilt.
As I lay there on top of Neji.
I sat up and began to pull up relishing in the feeling of his still tight hole slipping around me.
Neji whimpered. He usually was spent quickly and even the few gentle touches of me sliding out of him made him cum again occasionally.
We rested for a moment before he got up and went into the bathroom.
I sat up at the edge of the bed and he threw me a towel for a quick clean up.
Neji hated the taste of cum, while on the other hand I loved it. Especially his. Neji's cum was sweet. And I couldn't resist.
“Wait.” I said before he shut the bathroom door.
He turned to me and walked back slowly.
I grabbed his thin waist in my hands feeling his hips.
“Don't waste it.” I said referring to the cum on his stomach.
“Sasuke-“ he started but I cut him off as my tongue reached out and lapped up the hot white liquid.
I could taste it mixed with some of his sweat and oh he tasted good.
He moaned and I felt fingers intertwine themselves into my hair.
I wrapped my arms around his back tasting his feverish skin. He moaned and pressed himself closer against me.
Soon I realized that there was no more of his cum left on his skin.
I slid myself off the bed and stood on my knees and before he could stop me, took in as much of his dick as I could.
I nibbled around the head hearing his moans.
My hand reached around I gently began tickling his entrance with a finger.
“Oh god, Sasuke.”
Neji was one of my favorites. He enjoyed sex and I could tell in every movement and sound he made. But he was still shy about it sometimes.
Even now though I couldn't see his face I knew he was blushing.
I felt the muscles in his slender thighs begin to shiver again as his legs became water.
I gently slipped two fingers inside of him and felt him tighten around them.
With my other hand I reached down and began to pump myself desperately.
I exhaled and let the hot air circle around Neji's cock gently caressing all the right parts.
Neji moaned and slowly pumped himself into my mouth and I let my tongue wander around giving a hot wet caress to the tender parts of his penis that I knew he loved licked.
After wards I continued exhaling and then dragged my tongue along the underside.
He moaned and his knees almost gave way. In falling slightly he had forced my two fingers to press deeper into him and lightly touch his prostate.
Me moaned and I felt him tighten and my throat filled with his hot sticky cum.
The taste of him was orgasmic in itself.
Neji collapsed but I caught him before he hit the floor.
His breath was ragged once more and I held him until he was back to normal.
“I don't see how you like the taste of that stuff.” He said with a slight grimace as he righted himself on his feet and went into the bathroom.
I sighed the sweet taste of Neji still gracing my mouth with its presence but it wasn't so sweet anymore.
It was the pure lust that my body desired.
If I could have sex all day, everyday, I probably would. Because those few minutes of bliss were worth the hours of empty loneliness and guilt after words.
Or at least it seemed that way when I was horny. But after sex I always felt regret.
I heard the sound of the shower in his bathroom and decided to clean myself up.
I wiped the cum and lubricant off of my dick and my stomach and wiped away the sheen of sweat that had broken out all over my skin.
I had wanted more out of today. I thought as I pulled on my clothes.
No one could bring me to my limit though, except for Kakashi, and Shikamaru.
And I wanted to collapse in exhaustion but I knew that would only make the regret already lying ahead double exponentially.
I pulled on my clothes and soon Neji walked out of the bathroom with nothing but a towel around his waist.
“You're still here?” he asked.
I looked at him and it seemed he suddenly remembered.
“Oh,” he said going over and shuffling around in a drawer.
“Here, $200, right?”
I nodded. I'd rather he'd just hand it to me instead of openly admitting that I was getting paid for this.
“And I'll give you an extra fifty for the blow job.”
He hand me the money and I put it into my back pocket sighing sadly.
“What's wrong?” he asked stepping close to me.
I looked away not really wanting to face anyone right now.
The depression that followed my sinful acts was already taking over.
“Come back soon, okay?” I nodded and turned to leave.
And just I reached for the door knob he spoke again.
“Hey Sasuke. We geniuses have to stick together.” I smiled quietly at the small pun.
“Yeah…we do.”


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Later that evening I walked to my house the depression now coming down on me full force.
Why did I crave it so badly? Why couldn't I stop myself?
I knew I was probably ruining my body.
I Uchiha Sasuke was a disgrace. Sleeping around and ignoring the feelings of others, was that really what I'd become…
My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of a voice.
“Hey, little uke boy!” someone called out being followed by drunken laughter.
I felt the blood rising to my cheeks.
I really had become a terrible person.
“Hey, come here!” the man called.
I stopped walking and faced him. He wasn't the only one, there was a group of drunken Jounin standing outside a bar laughing and snickering at me.
“I said, come here.” he said again sounding slightly annoyed.
I took a few hesitant steps towards him before I finally gained my confidence and began walking full stride.
“What?” I asked sounding just as annoyed.
“Is that anyway to talk to your seme, boy?” he said in a mock menacing tone.
“What the hell do you want?” I asked again crossing my arms across my chest.
I wasn't up to having sex again and I didn't even feel like telling this guy off, or getting into a fight.
I was having an emo moment and this guy was completely ruining it. I just wanted to lie on my bed for a few hours.
I didn't want to think and I didn't want to sleep, I just wanted to lie down somewhere and let the world pass me by.
Yes, an extremely emo moment.
“They have plenty of empty bathrooms, and I'm in need of your…services.” He said holding up a fifty.
“Use you're hand jackass, I'm busy.” I answered turning to walk away but was quickly grabbed by my collar and pulled back wards.
I coughed having lost my air so suddenly and unexpectedly.
I felt a knee bash my stomach and a fist make contact with my face and everything went hazy as those annoying dots blurred my vision.
I felt myself being lifted and heard the sound of a squeaky door.
The next thing I felt was cold linoleum on the side of my face.
And all too quickly the world came back and my sense kicked in.
There was a single swinging light that cast shadows on the walls.
I heard the sound of a zipper going down and knew instantly that this wasn't going to be pleasant.
If I had thought for a second that this guy was going to force himself on me I would have agreed instantly.
And then something struck me.
I thought back to as I was being carried in and realized… more than one set of hands had carried my in here.
Right after I thought that I heard another zipper go down, and another, and another after that.
Four of them
This was going to be bad.
I heard a snicker and then felt hands work my pants down.
Two hands pulled up on my hips leaving me on my hands and knees.
“And for trying to leave your seme, I'm not gonna pay you”
I felt another set of hands position my head and felt the head of a dick press against my lips and then whimpered as I felt a pair of lips press against my own dick.
“Hey, Ushi! He's not even hard.” Said the voice near my dick.
“Well then make him hard.” Replied the voice behind me.
I felt very quickly two fingers force themselves into my mouth.
“Suck.” Was the simple order and I complied.
What else could I do?
One Genin against four Jounin. I didn't stand a chance no matter how good I was. Especially not in the condition I was in right now.
He fingers left my mouth and were immediately replaced with a throbbing cock. I nearly chocked as it was shoved down my throat.
I felt the two slightly slicked fingers force themselves into me and I cried out and the man who I was giving a blowjob to moaned.
“Make him scream again.” I heard.
This was going to be really bad.

About an hour later my muscles were shivering uncontrollably as I was screwed in every way possible.
The first dick that had been in my mouth had long ago disappeared after he came and was replaced by another.
I had cum twice into two different mouths and had bled on the dicks of two different men.
They were switching positions and my body ached. Finally I felt myself fill with more cum.
And then I heard the best words all night.
“I think that's enough, I'm tired.”
I almost cried in relief.
“Yeah.” Someone answered.
The dick in my mouth retreated and I closed my aching jaw.
The lips after a few more painful kisses to my dick disappeared as well. And the large cock in my ass pulled out and left.
I was bloody, naked, covered in cum, and left on the dirty bathroom floor I felt something light land on my back but I ignored it and didn't move until I heard all four sets of foot steps retreat.
Finally I got up and felt the light thing drop of my back I stared empty and apathetic down at the fifty dollars they had left.
Was that what I was worth?
The side of my head was aching and my stomach hurt even worse. I stood and pulled up my pants my dick still tender from being sucked so long. It hurt really bad to be forced on after you had an orgasm. Most of the time I was able to ignore the pain but whoever that was sucked really hard.
I tried not to think about it.
With effort finally I stood and went over to the sink to wash the cum off my face.
After I had washed it away I looked into the broken and old mirror surrounded and rust and saw a complete stranger.
This scared me at first but the longer I stared the more I realized that that was actually me.
I didn't recognize that person at all.
Because a large chunk of the mirror was gone I could only see about half of my face.
Was that what I was, half the person I used to be?
It seemed quite ironic to me. But I quickly left the bathroom and walked the rest of the way to my house.



When I reached home I immediately pulled off the soiled and bloody clothes and threw them on the ground deciding to deal with them later.
I quickly went to the shower and turned the water on scorching hot.
I washed the blood and sweat off of my skin and after I was done with that the depression came again stronger than ever.
I didn't even feel like moving so I just stood there in the scorching water my eyes burning from the need of tears that wouldn't come.
There where times when I felt like crying but my eyes were always dry.
I hadn't cried ever since…
Suddenly my legs gave out and I fell to the cold porcelain.
As I fell I had grabbed the water temperature handle and changed the water from hot to cold.
How fitting… I thought.
I lay at the bottom of the bathtub the water dripping off of me.
My mind suddenly flickered to him.
Why was I so weak?
Was it because I truly lacked hatred? Or because I lacked love as well.
I felt a dull and far off ache in my chest. My mind returned to the world once more and I looked at the direction of the handle, it was definitely on cold….
But I didn't feel I thing.