Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ To Find Warmth In The Snow ❯ Chapter 10 I know what happened ( Chapter 10 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
By: Shinosuke
I got the idea for this title by watching the movie “I Know What You Did Last Summer”
And it’s sequel “I still Know What You Did Last Summer.”
And it’s “sequel’s” sequel “I Still STILL Know What You Did Last Summer.”
And it’s “sequel’s” SEQUEL’S sequel “ I Forgot what you did last summer but I’m gonna kill your ass anyway.”

Anime/Manga: Naruto Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Romance / Drama | Type: Yaoi | Uploaded On: 07.05.2007 | Pages: 9 | Words: 10.1K | Visits: 712 | Status: Completed

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My eyes opened once more in the late afternoon the next day.
I sat up and immediately felt pain rush to certain areas of my body. My knee especially. I couldn't remember hurting it but sometimes when I woke up from a night of emo-ness I couldn't even remember my own name.
I pulled the covers off of myself and tried to stand but the pain that shot up my knee was so unbearable that I had to quickly sit back down.
I looked down at it and realized almost instantly that it was probably broken.
 
*How the hell did I miss that? * I thought to myself as I reached under the bed my hand groping around for something.
 
I was looking for my old crutches. I'd broken my leg once and I'd had to get crutches just to walk to my bathroom. Sakura and Naruto had to switch off coming to take care of me. I hated when Naruto came, being around the annoying blonde was terrible.
I hands finally connected with the wood of the crutch and I pulled it out steadying myself on it.
I decided I should go to the hospital and get these wounds to where they were bearable. If I hurried I could get to Tsunade.
I remember back when Sakura and I still spoke she'd tried to teach me how to heal small wounds but I'd never been able to get hang of it.
Of course I acted like it was only because I didn't feel like it but in reality controlling my chakra to such an extent was difficult.
I'd always been slightly envious of Sakura. That she could understand something I couldn't.
I walked into my bathroom and got dressed not bothering to take another shower.
Once done with that I headed out of my apartment. I had to hurry or I'd miss Tsunade at the hospital.
It was slow work down the stairs and I cursed at myself for getting an apartment that was upstairs.
When finally I managed to make it down the stairs I continued hobbling down the sidewalk.
I wasn't far from the hallway when suddenly a pink head popped up from around a corner.
“Sasuke!” Sakura called waving and jogging towards me.
I mentally sighed realizing that with this stupid knee there was no way for me to make a run for it.
She came to halt before me but I could tell already from the look on her face that her mood was not amiable.
“Sasuke,” she started as if she was about to tell me something important but she stopped and she looked my over once.
“You're hurt.”
 
*No shit.*
 
“Yup,” I answered simply.
 
“Are you okay?”
 
*Do I look like I'm fucking okay?*
 
“Yeah, I'm fine.” I answered
 
“What happened?”
 
*There's an obvious fist mark on my face you fucking idiot*
 
“I fell.” I answered looking at her seriously though we both knew I was lying.
“Sasuke I don't know what happened to you but I've got something important to talk to you about.”
“Can we do this later? I'm on my way to the hospital to meet Tsunade.”
Suddenly Ino came bounding up from down another street and she beckoned to Sakura.
Sakura glanced at me once before deciding to go see what was up with Ino.
“I'll see you at the hospital, okay?” she said turning around and walking off.
I continued walking and I became aware of how strange it was for me to talk to Sakura privately like that.
Back when we were 12 she'd had this huge crush on me but around thirteen she'd just kinda… stopped.
We never really talked alone since then and even when we were near each other we never had much to say.
Come to think of it. I'd rarely ever seen Sakura unless she was with Naruto and they were both coming to talk to me.
I tried to guess what she could possibly want to talk to me about but no logical answers came up.
I had been so lost in my thoughts that when I finally looked up the Hospital stood looming before me.
I hated hospitals.
I walked in through the automatic doors and stood in the lobby scanning the many faces and luckily the person I was looking for was right there.
“Tsunade,” I said hobbling over to her.
“Sasuke, wow you're really badly injured.”
“Do you enjoy stating the obvious?” I asked
“Shut up you little brat.” She retorted, “If you're going to be rude you can leave.”
Even though I didn't really care about Tsunade thinking I was a brat there was no way I could walk around like this all day, so I quickly shut my mouth.
She motioned for me to follow and I did.
My room ended up being on the third floor (thank god for elevators!)
And as I walked down the hallway I got a strange feeling that something wasn't right. My stomach was starting to hurt and I felt like I might pass out.
I hated hospitals.
Tsunade slid open the door and we both walked in. I sat down on the bed with relief and she went over to shuffle through some jars of multi-colored liquids.
“So…exactly what happened to you?” she asked not even bothering to turn and face me.
“….I…fell.”
This time she did bother to look, “ You expect me to believe that?” she said coming over to me and sitting a few of the jars on a side table.
I didn't answer, there was no point in trying to defend such a blatant lie.
I sat up wincing and Tsunade asked me to take off my shirt.
Even though it was only Tsunade I felt the heat rushing up to my cheeks.
“What?” she asked when she saw me stalling, “Are you embarrassed?” she mocked teasing me.
But that was the last thing I needed right now.
“No,” I answered quickly pulling my shirt off.
Tsunade opened one of the jars that was filled with something green and sticky, and as soon as the lid was off a disgusting odor floated up to meet me.
I wrinkled my nose, “What the hell is that?” I asked, “I thought you could heal people with your chakra.”
 “I can, but you caught me at the end of a very long shift. I'm running low.” She answered, “And I kinda wanted to torture you.” She added quietly at the end.
She scooped some of it up and put it on the rather large bruise on my stomach.
I winced again.
 
*Stupid Tsunade, she's doing this on purpose*
 
“Sakura wanted to come and meet me here,” I said absently as she rubbed the smelly stuff on my cheeks.
Tsunade chuckled slightly.
“I remember when she had that crush on you. But she seemed to have gotten pretty distant. What do you think she wants to talk to you about?”
“Probably something that has to do with how horrible I am and how I should go jump off Shodaime's forehead and fall to my death.”
Tsunade didn't laugh but you could see that she wanted to.
“No she probably just wants to talk to you a little about what's been going on. Naruto's been gone for almost three weeks…”
“Like I give shit. Let the stupid blonde do whatever the hell he wants. It's not my concern. And I'm sure Sakura wants to convince me to go out and look for him.”
“And you won't?”
“Hell no. A few more hours around that pink haired annoyance and I think I might go into cardiac arrest.”
Tsunade giggled.
“You icy bastard.”
I paused looking up at her.
 
*I know…. I know I'm an icy bastard. I know I deserve to die. I know I don't deserve any of the kindness you all offer me. And I know that I take it anyway. I'm a terrible person. And I know that. But….. don't rub it in.*
 
Tsunade looked down at me, instantly knowing she'd gone too far.
“Anyway, I'll admit that Sakura can be annoying sometimes.” She said trying to bring back the conversation but my mood for talking had disappeared.
She healed my face and my arms but my knee had to wrapped up. Luckily I'd been wrong, my knee wasn't broken only sprained.
“Okay, that's it,” she said putting the cap on the very last jar of sickly smelling goop (goop, that's a fun word!).
“Yeah, thanks,” I said quickly sitting up and reaching for my shirt.
“Wait, what's this?” she said reaching out to my hips.
“Nothing!” I answered quickly trying to push her away but by the time I had it was obvious she'd already seen.
Seen the hand shaped bruises on my hips.
We looked at each other and instantly knew I hadn't fallen.
She sighed.
“Sasuke, why are you always getting yourself into such trouble. I've been hearing some rumors and…”
“Who cares what other people think,” I said pulling my shirt down farther, “It's my body and I'll do whatever the hell I want with it.”
I stood and grabbed my crutches since my knee was still kinda sore.
Tsunade didn't send an infuriated rebuttal at my comment like she usually would but said something else that made me pause for a moment.
“You're leaving because it's going to rain.”
I didn't really answer her, I wasn't even sure whether it was a question or a statement.
“I hate hospitals.”
“Especially when it rains. It's going to rain tonight.” She said looking straight into my eyes.
Tsunade had those eyes, the eyes that made you feel like they could see all the darkest parts of your mind. Made you feel like lying was useless and all the barriers and walls you'd built around yourself were in vain.
Someone else had those eyes and it didn't take me long to realize exactly who.
But I was glad that that was only feeling, that she truly couldn't hear my thoughts, but even though she couldn't see in my head it still made feel guiltier than sin.
“Sasuke, there's no way I can let you leave. You're nowhere near fully healed and I think you should stay the night.”
I shook my head instantly
 
*Even your eyes can't help you now*
 
“I hate hospitals.” I replied solemnly.
“Sasuke I don't know what you're afraid of but whatever it is you're safer in here than you ever would be out in the open unable to take care of yourself.”
“I can take care of myself.”
“Not in this condition. Sasuke I really think you should stay the night here. I'll make sure that you're completely safe.”
“I don't think you understand,” I said looking at her with more force, “I hate hospitals.”
I scooted around her and began moving to the door when suddenly a kunai went whizzing by my face.
At first I thought it had missed me but a bloody line suddenly appeared on my cheek and two strands of dark hair fell from my head.
I could only expect as much from Sanin.
I very quickly realized we were no longer on friendly terms and inside I began to build up the wall around my heart. It was not painful to build the wall and it didn't make me want to go home and slit my wrists like others might think. It gave me a very numb feeling that was both tranquil an chaotic at the same time.
My wall was my defense.
My wall was everything that I needed.
I don't need love.
I don't need hope.
I have wall to protect me. A wall as black as obsidian and as cold as ice.
“Sasuke!” Tsunade yelled but I barely heard her.
“Yes?” I asked calmly.
“I don't know why you think you are so deprived and so unloved. Stop sulking. It's over now.”
“First of all,” I answered, “I don't think I'm unloved at all, second, I like sulking, and third it'll never be over. You have no idea what I've been through.”
She was silent for moment so I continued.
“You'll never understand some of the darkness and loneliness I had to endure. Because you've forgotten.”
“Sasuke, are you trying to talk in riddles because it's not working.” She said before chuckling.
“I would never use a memory jutsu on myself.”
Even though she hadn't come right out and said it yet we both understood.
“I didn't forget and I never will. I know what *he* did to you.”
I turned and snarled at her trying with all my might to send her to hell with only one look but I could see from the look on her face that she had won.
She came over to me and grabbed my shoulder pulling my back and shoving me down onto the bed.
“You'll be staying the night here-”
“Like I have a choice,” I muttered.
She pretended not to hear.
“-So, get a good night's sleep.”
“Yeah fuckin' right,” I answered her.
“Sasuke,” she said her patience wearing thin, “Even if I poison you, you will sleep tonight!” she screamed.
Just then Sakura walked in.
“Hello, I came to see Sasuke and-“ she immediately sensed the tension in the room and stopped glancing at the two of us.
“Umm… is everything okay?” she asked.
“Yes,” I answered, “Tsunade-sama was just leaving.”
The blonde woman stared at me so coldly I thought I might freeze to death before she turned quickly on her heal muttering something that sounded like, “Bratty, selfish…”
Tsunade left the room slamming the door behind her and Sakura came forward looking at me.
“What was that all about?”
“Nothing,” I answered.
“Here,” she said sitting the crutches to the side and pulling the blanket up to my chest.
I lay there looking up at her waiting for her to start talking but it took her a moment.
“Sasuke, I'd like to talk to you about why Naruto ran away.”
 
*I can tell where this is going.*
 
Xx--XxX--xX 
 
 
Sakura P.O.V (Rewind in time)
 
 
I was standing with an obviously injured Sasuke and he'd lied to me about how he'd hurt himself.
 
*What're you protecting by lying Sasuke?*
 
I thought to myself.
“Sasuke I don't know what happened to you but I've got something important to talk to you about,” I said looking at him directly in the eye.
“Can we do this later? I'm on my way to the hospital to meet Tsunade,” he answered glancing away from my strong gaze.
Suddenly Ino came bounding up from down another street and she beckoned to me.
I glanced at Sasuke once in indecision before deciding to go see what was up with Ino.
“I'll see you at the hospital, okay?” I said turning and going down the street.
Sasuke stared after me for few seconds before continuing down the sidewalk.
When I reached Ino I saw that she wasn't looking directly at me but more at Sasuke over my shoulder making sure that he was gone before she spoke.
“Sakura, we've gotta talk.”
“Yeah, what about?” I asked curiously.
“Follow me.” She said turning and running down the street.
I glanced back once at where Sasuke had been standing only moments before, before taking off after her.
 
xXx
 
I was led to a small back alley where all of the other Konoha Genin stood. I was already dreading this.
Whatever they had to say, if they had to say it in a group it couldn't be too good.
But Lee was there and that eased my worry a little.
“Okay I brought her here,” Ino said joining the group that all turned to face me like was the odd one out.
“Ummm… hi?” I said.
“You're going to talk to Sasuke, right?” Shikamaru asked.
“Yeah, but… How did you know?”
“I didn't. That was a guess.”
“Oh.” I answered back quietly.
“Well we all think it's fair enough to say that Sasuke had something to do with Naruto leaving but…” Ino started.
“-If we approach him in a group like this we'll never find out for sure,” Kiba finished.
“He'll immediately ice up like he always does and then we'll never know,” Tenten said.
“So since you're the one he likes the most out of all of us…” Hinata began.
“We want you to go and talk to him,” Shikamaru ended
I stood looking at them in silence.
“So this `meeting' was to tell me to do something I was already going to do?” I asked incredulously.
“But we want you to spill all the juicy details when you're done,” Ino said excitedly.
I looked over at the whole group. I know this was just their twisted way of dealing with the sudden loss of a very vibrant character for Konoha but it was still.. wrong.
“No, if it's something personal between the two of them I won't tell. But if it's nothing that will hurt either of them… then I guess it's okay for you all to know.”
They stared at me in relief.
“For a second there I thought you weren't gonna tell us at all,” Kiba laughed nervously.
“Well Sakura, there are some question that you have to ask…”
 
Xx--XxX--xX
 
I walked nervously down the sidewalk running the questions I'd  been told to ask over and over in my brain.
For some reason I was extremely apprehensive about talking Sasuke. I hadn't in a long while.
I went up to the front desk but before I even asked what room Sasuke was in Shizune came up to me and told me.
“If you're looking for Sasuke he's in room 308,” she said helpfully.
“Thank you,” I answered back even more nervous now that it seemed obvious I was looking for Sasuke.
When I got to his room I opened the door quickly starting, “Hello, I came to see Sasuke and-“
I could feel the anger circulating through the room and when I looked up to find a thoroughly pissed off Tsunade and an equally peeved Sasuke I knew I had come at a wrong moment.
“Ummm… Is everything okay?” I asked nervously and Sasuke answered.
“Yes, Tsunade-sama was just leaving.”
Looking completely insulted Tsunade stormed from the room slamming the door behind her and Leaving the Uchiha and I to stand in an awkward moment for a few seconds before I walked forward looking at him.
“What was that all about?” I asked.
“Nothing,” Sasuke answered coldly.
“Here,” I said before taking the crutches he was still holding tightly and setting them to the side while I let him lay down and I pulled the blanket up to his chest.
He sat half up against the headboard looking at me and then looking away.
I paused for second unable to start before I finally said, “Sasuke, I'd like to talk to you about why Naruto ran away.”
Sasuke didn't even make a move to look at me only turned his head and looked out the window.
“Sasuke?” I asked after he didn't reply for a while.
“Huh?” he asked turning his attention back to me.
“I want to know why he ran away.”
“Why who ran away?” he asked.
“Naruto,” I answered trying to keep my patience.
He knew who I was talking about he was trying to make me angry.
“What about him?” he asked turning away from me again.
“Well I know that you were the last person to talk to him so….”
“So what? You think I had something to do with it?” he asked.
“Well, I'm not sure. I just came to clear a few things up.”
“Well I don't care. Let him go he'll come back.”
My patience was wearing thin.
“Sasuke, he was your friend.”
“Yes, he *was* my friend.”
Thinner…
“He cared about you.”
“So?”
Thinner…
“Aren't you worried at all?”
“Nope.”
Finally I had cracked.
This stupid bastard! How could he be so cruel!!
“Sasuke! Why wouldn't you care! He could be in danger!”
“Sakura you and I both know that Naruto is fine. He's a great Shinobi. And Konoha is his home he can't stay away from this place for long. His friends are here, his home is here. He loves Konoha.”
I stared at him tears welling in my eyes from that detached voice that was spilling from his lips.
“You're right about one thing, Naruto does love Konoha he spent four day running but he just kept circling back around. Even unconscious of his actions he wasn't able to leave.
Iruka tracked him but then he suddenly disappeared. He's been missing for two and half weeks and no one has heard or seen anything of him since.”
For I moment I thought I saw a hint of worry on the pale boy's face but it was gone too quickly for me to be sure.
“So? That doesn't mean a damn thing.”
My anger boiled over the top
“But he ran away!! When has Naruto ever done anything like that before? He's had plenty of other chances when things were much worse to run but he never did. Why now?!” I screamed.
“I don't know. Why not ask him?” 
“I hate you! Why won't you help me?!” I screamed louder, “He could be dying right now!”
“Let him die then.”
My tears paused as the worst feeling I'd ever felt began to boil in my veins.
Liquid fire was in my eyes and my heart ached so much I thought it might just pop out of my chest.
This was past hate.
So far past hate.
I loathed him with every inch of my being.
 “Sakura, go away.”
“What did you say to him? Why would he run away after talking to you? What did you say?”
 “I think the more valid question would be, what did *you* say to him?”
“Wha-?” I started.
Over the week before he left, sure I'd made small talk but nothing enough to cause this reaction… except….
 
* It obvious that you two are meant for each other.*
*… you and Sasuke are the perfect couple…*
* …good best friends but even better boyfriends…*
*… complement each other…*
*… you two would have lots of fun…*
*… I'm sure you'll have plenty of good times!…*
*…That's what friends are for.*
 
The little pieces of conversation came flooding back to me and I felt my tears start to fall silently down my cheeks.
 
*It's my fault*
 
He smirked.
“He…told you. About his love for you,” I said almost silently.
Sasuke nodded.
“What did you say?” I asked calmer now.
“I told him that the idea of us being any more than rivals was disgusting.”
I was so angry, so scared for Naruto, so sad, so hurt. I couldn't take it anymore.
I screamed and cried harder then I had before leaving the chair that I had sat in and I began pounding on his chest with my fists.
“Why would you say that to him!? Why?! Why? Why…” screamed through my sobs.
I couldn't even keep my cool long enough to get the answers to the questions that I'd been asked to get. Actually I couldn't even remember the questions anymore.
“You broke his heart.”
“Oh well.”
“You cold-hearted bastard.”
He paused turning to look at me as if I'd said something interesting.
I sank down to my knees my head in my hands and I repeated, “I hate you. I hate you.” Over and over until finally it seemed like I couldn't even talk anymore.
I was a blubbering mess.
I felt Sasuke's cold hand reach out and grab my face and he pulled it up so that we were eye to eye. My tears stopped momentarily as I stared into those eyes.
They were scary.
So dark, too dark. And empty. So empty it hurt just to look at them.
“Sakura, Hate me. Loathe me. Hate me so much that it hurts. Go ahead it's not going to change anything. I hate all of you so it's nice to see that the feeling is finally mutual.”
“Why… are you… so… terri…ble? Why… can't you… just be…kind?” I gasped trough my sobs.
He stared at me with a slight amount of pity and contempt before answering.
“You'll never understand. You're able to wake up from you're nightmares. That makes you and I very different.”
 He paused looking at my puffy eyes before he leaned farther down with such a soft look that for a minute I thought he might apologize, that he might give me a reason for all of his wrong doings.
That he might be kind.
He leaned down and I felt his soft lips brush my cheek in a kiss before he whispered in my ear.
“Come near me again and I'll fuckin' kill you.”
My eyes widened in fright and my breath hitched.
“Now get the hell away from me.”
He pushed me back and I fell hard on my butt.
My tears were silent and I sat there looking back up at the pale figure that was laying in the bed staring out the window.
His perfectly shaped cheek was outlined by the daylight and I sat there starring at him and he didn't turn to face me again.
 
Xx--XxX--xX
 
Sasuke P.O.V
 
I turned away from her starring back out the window down to the empty street.
I waited for her to leave, but she never did. She just sat there sniffling like an idiot.
I was brought out of my thoughts by the sound of the door opening.
And two sets of footsteps walked into the room.
I turned to see both Tsunade and Rock Lee enter both looking at the crying Sakura who was still sitting on the ground where I had pushed her.
Rock Lee slowly helped her up and led her out of the room pausing to give me a questioning glance.
A glance I didn't answer.
Tsunade stared after the two of them until the door was closed then she looked back over at me.
“I don't even want to know,” she said before I could say a word.
She pulled a small vial filled with a red liquid from her pocket and handed it to me. I looked at it and then back up at her.
“What is it?”
“Well we both know from those bruises that you didn't fall. So that is for the injuries that you didn't show me she said a light blush tinting her cheeks.
“Oh,” I said instantly understanding that it was for my insides.
I raised an eyebrow at the vial before ripping off the cork and shooting the whole thing back.
It burned my throat at first but eventually left a soothing feeling behind.
A gentle throb.
And I was staring up at Tsunade I saw her shape become fuzzier and fuzzier.
I was suddenly so tired.
So very, very tired.
I knew she had lied and had given my something to make me sleep but I didn't have enough energy to reprimand her.
 I thought about what Sakura had said suddenly.
 
*What if Naruto really is in danger…* I paused to think for moment.
 
And that was my last cognitive thought before slipping off into a deep, deep sleep