Original Poetry Fan Fiction ❯ I USED to be an angry Poet... ❯ Love's Messing with My Mind ( Chapter 2 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

Love's Messing withMy Mind

by iloveanimecartoons

Original October 6, 1997

Revised February 6, 2008

Genre: Drama (?)

Rating: T

Who told you you could come in here?!

Swimming through my soul

Making a mockery of my intelligence

Playing my heart like a fiddle

And as much as you damn well please, causing me to smile on demand as some new fly by night, temporary phase of a man

Love, you're a demanding little bastard

A fucking pain in my heart

My side

A constant reminder of what I've been through and the possibility of more to come

Such a little migraine!

When will you understand that I don't want you?

You're like a sick, hungry little puppy

Always infecting me with your disease of emotion

Constantly eating a hole in my heart

You tag around just long enough to become a thing I can depend on

Believe in

Trust

But when life sends a glitch my way, you're lost and damn near impossible to find

When I kick you to the curb, you find new ways to slither back to my door

And send me another fuck-up of a man

Or maybe, just maybe, this particular “gentleman” has a little something to offer

Some class

A little compassion

Some heart

A J-O-B

But, love, sweet love, how am I supposed to know it?

“It's as simple as giving the guy a try,” everyone says

In so many words

But, love, you know what?

Uhn, uhn—ea, ea—no way

Not today!

So, without knowing where I'm coming from or what I've been through, you have MC New Dude say

And I quote

“But you haven't even given me a shot and you already want to dismiss me? That's not fair.”

And, love

You sneaky little bastard

I can feel your presence

Mocking

Laughing at me

I don't want you or the tricks that come with your trade

I don't want any or you men

Understand I don't want any of your women, either…

I as well as thousands of women nationwide am independent

I come and go as I please

Make my own way

Am my own person

I don't punch a clock at work and I sure as hell don't feel like going through that bullshit when I get home!

All that “Where the fuck you been—you couldn't call?!” shit ain't where it's at for me

Get it through your head, love

I don't want you

I don't need you

I don't like you

And I have enough of you through family

So, stop messing with my mind, love

Leave me alone, okay?

Stupid Cupid, stop picking on me

I'd really appreciate it

Oh, what am I saying?

I can't get around you

You're like one of those great mysteries in life:

Why are we here?

Is there really and afterlife?

Why do we love only to end up being hurt?

Sort of a sick little Catch 22

You come with a catch

Well, love, I've got my eye on you

Constantly trying to deflect your deceiving rays

Your promises of wishes coming true and 'Happily Ever Afters'

And maybe one fine day you'll take me off you list

`Cause you're on the top of mine

My Shit List!

I HATE LOVE!!!