Original Poetry Fan Fiction ❯ Some Poetry ❯ Even More ( Chapter 2 )

[ P - Pre-Teen ]

Broken Record

Lying there in the tub filled with water

Mind and body already slowly dying as her blood stained the water

She laid there wondering what exactly led her to do this… not the what the who had led her to do this

She asked herself how many times could someone mend a heart and break it again?

You'd think she'd learn once not to let him, how foolish she was

She replayed her life in and out black and white

He came in, green met blue she fell for love at first sight

She felt he did too

How wrong she was

He took her broken soul and mended it creating a heart she didn't know she had

Then he broke it, he broke it so easily with a smirk

He returns again saying he was sorry, she forgave him like the naïve fool she was

He mended her heart and she felt whole and happy

But then he broke it… no he took it and ripped it like paper in front of her throwing it in the air like a confetti prize

She sat on knees staring into the shattered pieces of her heart, that reflected her foolishness

Why…why was she put on this world?

Laughing so mockingly she already knew the answer

She was a joke for the gods laughing at everything that happened

Laughed at every tear

Laughed at every painful word spoken

And now with this as her last joke she knew she had the satisfaction of them dying from laughter

She knew that she deserved hell she deserved no happiness for anything

Nothing but the fire and silence as she slipped

No letter to why she killed herself

No word spoken as she slipped under

As he stood they're laughing

Laughing at her pain

At her sorrow

And before she slipped she laughed right along with him

In a Day

Could she kill him?
Could she kill the man she is supposed to love?
Supposed to want to be with
Yet it was obvious he didn't want her
Didn't need her
Couldn't love her as she loved him
Damn this world
Damn her feelings
Yet even through it all she couldn't
Couldn't lift a finger
Couldn't stop the abuse
Emotional…Physical
Pleading, submitting
Begging him to stop
Stop, stop hurting me
Stop hating me
Please stop loving me
She can't cry or he'd hit harder
She can't speak or he'd kill her
She can't tell or he'd find her
What can she do
Nowhere to run
Nowhere to hide
Out in the open she'd only get shot down
Tears pour freely cutting her wounds like knives
Cutting her soul like daggers
Killing her
Destroying her
Smiling as he watches her
Amused by her pleas
Toying with her mind
Toying with her very soul
As she cries out in vain
The game ends here
The clock strikes now
Death overshadows
As he strikes her down

In Life

Running
Jumping
Skipping
Hopping
Smiling
L aughing
Oh those were the days
Now its all
Crying
Pleading
Begging
Bleeding
Dying even more
Crying even more
Cutting up my soul
Burning up my mind
Shredding it like paper
Cutting it like paper
Die
Death
Decay
Love Never
Happiness?
Never happened
Release from this pain
never see the day
only see the night but…
Mostly I see pain

My Mind

Red
Like wine
Metallic
With copper value
Blood
Rushing
Pouring onto me
Pouring onto you
Cutting
Lines into a pattern
Ribbons into a sequin
Of lies
Of deceit
Of many other things I sadly can not say
Delicious
Metal
Delicious
Copper
Delicious
Wine
That has him so addicted
A drug with no cure
A depression with no light
A dark without day
Red wine
Metallic wine
Copper valued wine

Another Tear

Cutting into me

Trying not to see

The ribbons of my blood

Flowing out of me

Slicing up my soul

Don't feel anymore

Don't cry anymore

You might not feel the pain anymore

One

Two

Teardrop falls

Another

Not making a sound

One

Two

Turning to you

Make my tears fall

Another

And another

And yet again it starts

Cutting up my body

Can you please just stop

Another

Cutting through my soul

Another

Teardrop falls

Waiting

I'll just wait to die

Wait to cry

Tick with a tock

Lick the wounds clean

I'll wait to die

Wait to cry

Just kill me

Ever so slowly

Ever so lovingly

Shoot me

Bring me back

Kill me here

Love me there

Waiting

Tick with a tock

Waiting

For your love to find me

For your love to kill me

Tick with a tock

Death with a knock

Ever More

Ever more I break

Ever more I die

Slowly

Time stands still

Slowly

Tears stay frozen

Slowly

You kill me

Sadly

You laugh at me

Ever more

Never more

Can you love me?

Deadly

You look at me

Loathingly

You kiss me

Hatefully

You don't need me

Ever more I break

Slowly

Never more

Taken

You took my love

A n d left me all alone

You stole my l I f e

And killed me all the same

You kissed my fears away

Only to make me new ones

You hurt anyone who hurt me

When you only do the s a m e

Kiss me

Hate me

Love me

Need me

What a j o k e

What a thing

Take my h e a r t and b r e a k it

Rip it

Shred it

Burn it

And k I l l it

Drugged

Drug me to sleep

Never ending peace

Over dose me

Please don't look at me

Falling to the floor

Feels like it's slow

Didn't feel the impact

Too far gone to know

Drug me please

Oh baby don't leave

Hold my sleeping body

I swear I'll awake soon

Don't cry for me

You didn't love me anyways

Drug me to sleep

On an overdosed dream

Drug me to sleep

In a falling tree

Don't cry for me

I swear I'll awake soon

Don't cry for me hun

Since you never truly loved me

Don't look at me

Don't watch me die

Leave me alone

Don't wake me up

From my never ending peace

Watch me fall slowly like a leaf

Watch me die silent like the night

Drug me to sleep

Into my overdosed dream

I died

Didn't I

So where am I?

Nothing

Can be seen

I died just now

Right

I died in someone's arms

I hope they don't hate me

I hope I didn't ruin their clothes

Sigh

I died just now

So where could I be

Maybe I'm asleep

No I can't wake up

Is this me in a coma?

In a comatic sleep

Is this what its like to die in a dream?

Is this me?

Bound

Dead

Alive

The same

Is this my future?

Is this my world?

Am I alone?

Are there others hidden from my view

Is in my sight

Nothing is in my grasp

Is this hell?

Or heaven

Can be heard

Can be felt

Can be seen

Not even

Farewell

I lay here

So farewell

This is my last goodbye

Before I die

So long life

Cry away my dreams

Goodbye tears

That shed my pain

Goodbye air

That gave me life

Goodbye to even you

The one who killed me

Sadly I can't say goodbye to myself

It seems so hard

This shouldn't be my goodbye

Merely a farewell

Of course til we meet again

You didn't come to see me off

Didn't come begging me to stop

Didn't come with tears in your eyes

So goodbye

Farewell

Live long and true

And don't think I hurt you

Cause you're not the one dead

You're still breathing

Sill living

Sill laughing

While

I lay here

So farewell

This is my last goodbye

Before I die

Crystal Tears

Tears falling like dew

Frozen on pale cheeks

Kissed away by frozen lips

My crystal tears I shall miss

Blood ran cold

As he gazed upon her

Eyes hazed over misted by lust

Roaming hands through her hair

Pulling her closer

Tears fell like dew

Helpless to stop him

Frozen on pale cheeks

Crying out in pain as he pushed her down

Kissed away by frozen lips

Blood ran down her lips

Ran down her neck

Ran through her mind

Focus young one on the warmth

Ignore the pain and feel the warmth

Stop crying and defy his will

Stop being weak

Pathetic aren't you?

Can't even stop one man

From destroying you in such a way

Pathetic isn't it?

Weak enough to let him defile you

Sad ain't it?

To know this is what it comes down to

Crystal tears

Frozen blood

Apathetic pain

As he took her away

Into a land where nothing can harm except for him

Pain

Won't it ever go away?

Will he ever stay away?

Dead Inside

Dead inside

I can't lie

My heart is gone

Here I lie

Dead inside

Without my pain

Feel my tears

Let them fall

Free my fears

Let them die

Dead inside

Can she lie?

Can I find my peace inside?

Will I fall can I fly

If I'm only dead inside

Dead inside

She cant see

The pain I've caused

Towards you and me

I'm the knife

She's the victim

She's the door

That I locked

Dead inside

I can't lie

Since I have

This pain inside

My Point

My point I see is nothing

My life I know is worthless

So whats my point on living

Whats the point of breathing

Weird as they call me

Hated as they tell me

Some times I sit and wonder

Whats my point in living

Nothing as it seems

Life in black and white

Colorless vaule

In a deathly grip

Stil li live

Still I breathe

So whats my point on living

Whats the point of breathing