Original Poetry Fan Fiction ❯ The Unlikely Poet's Notebook ❯ Mine For Yours ( Chapter 25 )

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As I remember a day so long ago
That you walked away from me
And I wonder, did you really leave
Or was it because I didn't stop you?
You say it was for my own good
That it was too risky, too unstable
And although I thought you were wrong
I said nothing, did nothing
Simply accepted the decision
Thinking only of what you wanted

Believing you deserve better
And I never deserved perfection anyway
But should I have fought and held on?
Did I seem uncaring, like it didn't kill me?
Was it a test, and I failed with falling colours?
It makes no difference, so much time has passed
And all I hope is that you are happy
I can live with any level of misery
As long as I know you are happier without me
The lonely nights spent awake
Remembering every little moment
As vividly as if they were being relived
But feeling pain in place of euphoria

I told myself I could move on
That i could forget you like so many before
Yet here I am, writing this now
Proof that no matter how far away I drift
My mind won't move an inch
I feel bad that I feel so strongly
While I'm still so young
It feels strange to say "I love you"
But wether or not it seems strange it's true
And it always brought me down
That you were everything I ever needed
But I could never be enough for you
No matter how much you disagree

So this is my heart, mind and soul
Laid out for all to see
Though I'm not sure I want YOU to know
As I wouldn't want your opinion to lower further
I can't help but be this way
Can't stop myself from loving you
But I love you enough that your happiness
Is easily worth trading my own, without a second thought
So let me sit and slip to despair
Because as long as you are happier than I could make you
What do I care?