Original Poetry Fan Fiction ❯ Words ❯ How It Feels To Feel ( Chapter 21 )

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How It FeelsTo `Feel'

by iloveanimecartoons

Original March 10, 2008

I…remember this…this connection we share

This…haven of comfort and abundance of care

It's familiar yet not the same—yours is a wonder all its own

And now, I can't so back to “just me”

It's no longer the comfort I made it to be

You've weaved your heart to mine so intricately

I can no longer bear to be alone

I hadn't thought about it in such a long time…to me, it became “not a big deal”

This giving up and giving in and giving back thing, too surreal

By making me my own be all and end all

It worked well enough to soften the blows each time I'd fall

My impenetrable armor, my standard, and my walls of steel

Somehow, you tunneled through to me and reminded me what it's like to feel

So, how does it feel to feel?

Well…

When I think of you, there's sunshine in a cloudy place

At the memory of your kisses, I get the cheesiest smile on my face

Just thinking about you gets me all giddy and sappy

Can't really help myself; you make me so happy!

It used to scare me senseless how easily you fit into my world

A world I sought to control by becoming cold

The fear of falling was eased as you spoon fed me courage

And encouraging smile, a hug, or just your hand to hold

So patient you were with me, so thoughtful and warm

Your soul spoke to mine and bestilled my inner quiet storm

And made it okay to put back on display the emotions I'd so securely tucked away

As the bond between us blossoms, it's wondrous to watch unfold

So glad I met you

So glad you stayed

So goodbye to denial and delusions for days

Hello to my soul mate who found me at my worst

Who cradled my heart to his and broke Cupid's curse

You were my Get Out of Heartache Free card

You patched up my broken heart, shard after shard

My heart, which I saw as a lump of coal, you saw as a diamond in the rough

You created beauty from the stagnant with your love…can I ever thank you enough?

I love you

And I'm glad I can finally honestly say that again