Original Poetry Fan Fiction ❯ Words ❯ What Can I Say? ( Chapter 22 )

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What Can I Say?

By iloveanimecartoons

Original June 27, 1998

Revision March 25, 2008

I can see the hurtful reserve in your eyes

It lets me know I'm being compared to all your past guys

The ones who took a think as special as love and turned it into a game of lust and then

they'd use your sweet nature against you because all you wanted to do was trust them

And every time you tried to make love work, they used you

It's sad how men can be such jerks and abuse you

I choose to step around that beaten path

And show that, with me, there's a sweeter aftermath

Speaking of math, you plus me could equal one great companionship

Given the chance, I'd love to join you in a beautiful relationship

Your eyes are dancing now—do I have your attention?

These words that I speak aren't just words, they're an extension

soul

Can we be soul mates?

I think you and me, together, that could be great

I can see how it could be hard to come to grips with my sincerity

What can I say, in what manner, what way, to make you believe in me?

I don't want to say “But, that's not me,” even though it's really not

I just want the opportunity to earn your trust—how many chances have I got?

What can I say to gain your confidence?

To let you know that by giving me trust, my love is the consequence?

Here, take my hand. See how it trembles before you?

It's because I realize the heavy task there is in proving myself to you

At times like this, I wish I felt more confident—just a little bit bolder

Being as how the weight of my entire gender seemingly rests on my shoulders

And you seem so fragile in comparison. Your needs outweigh my doubts and stress

I take safeguarding your heart as my mission. All you have to say is yes

Honestly, I'm nervous as hell. What if I fail?

Will it leave you with a constant negative impression of males?

Will you see me as another traitor that hurt you again?

Will the feelings your harbor make you see me as less of a man?

Or, will you go the opposite route and blame yourself?

Take the grunt of the experience than never should have been yours to bear

Further compacting that ball of hurt that never should've been there

I hope to be that bulwark against the pain you assume will be

To be your guide back into the world and end your self-captivity

I'm so sorry, my dove, that life broke your wings

Without love, you missed out on so many wonderful things

When heartache crushed your spirit, I think a piece of you died

But I see so much potential in the warmth of you could never hide

Sadly, though, I can't make you take that chance—I'd never force you to

Just tell me what I can say to make a believer out of you

You are adored…