Ouran High School Host Club Fan Fiction ❯ Fixated ❯ Stage One: Denial ( Chapter 1 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
By: TheAngelIsrafel 
Has been edited!!
Anime/Manga: Ouran High School Host Club Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Shounen / Angst / Romance / Hentai | Type: Yaoi | Uploaded On: 01.19.2007 | Updated On: 08.17.2010 | Pages: 5 | Words: 6.8K | Visits: 1.6K | Status: Work In Progress
Has been edited!!
Anime/Manga: Ouran High School Host Club Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Shounen / Angst / Romance / Hentai | Type: Yaoi | Uploaded On: 01.19.2007 | Updated On: 08.17.2010 | Pages: 5 | Words: 6.8K | Visits: 1.6K | Status: Work In Progress
Disclaimer: I don’t own the twins or any of the Host club characters.
Warning: Yaoi-incest, cursing, angst-the basics, if you do not like any of that, or cannot tolerate it then do not read.
Authors Note: ...I'm fixing things... and don't hate me for having not been active in so long u_u
The house was utterly dark and everyone was sound asleep…
Except for two…
The ones that were lying together in bed…
They stared at each other, panting for a moment before letting their lips meet. Clothes were removed-discarded onto the floor. Shirts first, as the older male kissed along the others neck causing him to moan softly.
He was attempting to be quiet so as to not wake anyone.
Their pants were removed next, taking longer to do so as the smaller male wanted to help remove the others by using his mouth. They kissed again, left in nothing but their boxers.
The older teen sat up slightly, deciding that now would be a good time to tease the other, which he did so by lapping his way down the others chest.
“You don’t have to do that…” The younger male purred. “All I want for you to do is me-you don’t need to do any more then that if you don’t want to…” He fidgeted slightly as a pair of teeth grazed against his soft porcelain skin.
“I want to though,” Was the older males reply as he softly ran his hand up the inside of the others leg, causing him to shiver lightly. The hand made its way into his boxers and began to gently stroke him making him purr softly. He bit his lip trying not to make any sound, doing his best to keep as silent as possible.
After all, their friends – including Haruhi – were staying the night in nearby rooms.
“Feels good?” The older teen asked, licking at the others length, causing the teen to tremble slightly. The smaller male nodded and bit his lip once more. It was growing increasingly hard for him to keep silent, to not moan. His hands clenched at the soft blue sheets as the older male took him into his mouth. He began to tremble lightly as he was nipped gently on the head.
“S-stop or I’m g-going to cum…” The younger teen panted, taking hold of the others hair and pulling his head up.
“Isn’t that the point?” The older teen smiled sadistically at the smaller male, who never would have guessed he had it in him to do such a thing. He figured it had something to do with the alcohol they had drunk earlier that night.
A moist pink tongue slipped out of his mouth and lapped at the tip teasingly once more-he still had a hand tangled in his hair keeping him from returning to his ministrations.
“You want to continue?” He smiled at the younger teen in a kind manner, who responded with a nod.
The two kissed once more before the smaller of the two reached to pull some lubricant out of his pants. He had been hoping for something like this to happen. The bottle was taken from him and the older of the two poured a portion of the silky substance onto his fingers.
“If you want me to stop say so…” The words were spoken in a hushed voice before a finger was pushed in. The younger male was stretched already, from curiosity among other...things... When the smaller teen became comfortable with the fingers inside of him, the elder poured some of the lube onto himself.
The younger male tilted his hips slightly, eager and trying to help his intoxicated partner ever so slightly. It was then that he felt him push in and past his entrance . He let out a moan that was quickly covered up with his own hand.
“Sh-shh, you have to be quiet…” The older teen bit his bottom lip trying to be silent himself. The smaller teen nodded and watched as he was being penetrated-as the older male continued to push himself in. Their movements stilled for a moment once they were completely joined.
“Tell me when,” He half muttered listening to the others panting breaths.
He nodded and the older teen began to move, slowly searching out his desired rhythm. He would pull out most of the way leaving only the tip in and then push himself back in, forcefully, causing his partner to moan slightly as he rubbed against his prostate. Both teens keep silent not speaking any hushed words of love as neither of the two felt that way.
They were only doing this for two simple reasons.
One: the younger felt it would fix his love for someone else.
Two: the elder was completely drunk and intoxicated not to mention rather horny.
The chances that the older teen would remember any of this were slim to none, but the smaller teen didn't care. He felt that his only reason for loving the other person was because he was just horny, so doing this would make it stop, right?
Their movements began to grow frantic as both were near their climaxes.
“H-Harder,” The smaller male panted feeling the tightness in his groin intensify. His partner complied and began to slam himself in harder than he had been before. He no longer cared about being sore the next day, all he currently wanted was to cum.
He did in a matter of seconds, calling out the others name.
“T-Tamaki…” He panted softly clenching his muscles, causing the blond to bite his lip to keep from crying out too loudly. Within seconds the older teen came, filling the younger one.
The blond pulled out and collapsed on top of the other as he started to come down from his high.
“Kaoru, we need to bathe now…” He mumbled, only half awake. “Or at least you do, I can in the morning before everyone else wakes up…” With that Tamaki fell over onto the twin, his mind slipping into that of unconsciousness.
Kaoru was left to try and rationalize what he had just done.
The strawberry blond pushed the older teen off of himself and sat up wincing slightly. Maybe I really shouldn’t have asked him to go harder, he thought to himself as he headed for the bathroom attached to Tamaki's guest room. Kaoru turned the shower on and stepped in-the hot water felt good on his back.
He let his mind wander as the water pounded onto him in a soothing manner. He was trying to untangle his thoughts in his mind. The twin had asked Tamaki to do him in hopes that the feelings he had for his brother were just brought on by hormones… or that’s what he had been hoping.
Kaoru looked over at the expensive shampoos, conditioners and soaps the bathroom contained. He proceeded on with his shower trying to remove some feelings that were slowly building up inside of his chest.
He had cared very much for his brother, as a sibling and best friend, for his whole life and now his emotions had dramatically changed. He was feeling something more for his twin.
It had started whenever they acted in front of their patrons. He had felt a lingering want, one that kept nagging at him each day. He wanted for Hikaru to hold him longer or to speak like that to him more often. Kaoru had become infatuated with his brother before they had appeared…
The strawberry blond hadn’t thought much on the subject at first but when their act followed them home one day he became a bit worried. Hikaru had teased him, if on purpose he wasn’t sure, but he had teased him none the less. He had played with his hair and lightly touched him whenever he could-just like when they had been in school.
The more his twin did it the more flustered Kaoru had become-then the night came. They slept in the same bed as they always did but this time Hikaru was clingy. He had pulled him close so that their bodies touched and breathed into his ear and on Kaoru’s neck giving him a strange rush.
It didn’t bother Kaoru much at first but then he had heard Hikaru mumble something in his sleep, something that had come out as a slight moan and then lick his lips.
Kaoru had a problem then.
He had a growing one at that, and that’s when the strawberry blond realized he had an ever bigger issue to deal with. Kaoru slid down to the floor of the bathtub. He was growing hard thinking of Hikaru. He looked down at his cock and bit his lip allowing his hand to grasp it.
The younger twin allowed images of his brother to play in his mind.
He let his imagination wander as he began to stroke and pleasure himself. He thought of one of their acts they had done, how they had almost kissed like always in front of the female students at their school. He remembered how Hikaru smelt and how his breath somehow tasted of the lemon and honey tea they had been drinking. Kaoru licked his lips wishing his brother would someday do what Tamaki had done for him.
He wanted his twin to hold him tightly while they kissed. He wanted Hikaru to bite his neck and lick it. He wanted him to suck and play with his nipples. Kaoru let out a slight moan thinking of how nice it would feel to have his twin push himself inside him and then pound him ever so hard making him scream and cry his name out in ecstasy. Kaoru wanted his brother plain and simple-and with that thought he came.
The strawberry blond watched, panting, as his cum went down the drain along with the water. He let his head hit the side of the tub with a slight thunk. He had a problem and it wasn’t going to go away any time soon either, not as he had hoped and tried.
Once Kaoru had recovered enough to stand he did so, trying to figure out just when all of this had started. He dried himself off with a towel in the bathroom and headed on out into room where his clothes were.
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It was the beginning of fall, or more precisely October, when a new girl had started to come to the Host Club. She was kind and requested each member of the club on different days of the week. Monday it was Tamaki, Tuesday was Haruhi, Wednesday was Hunny and Mori, Thursday was Kyouya and Friday the twins. She was pleasant and continued the pattern all through out October and on into early November. That was when her cousin came to the school. They two young ladies were opposites of each other but were constantly together. On the first Friday of her being at the school the foreign girl met the twins properly.
“You two look very much alike,” she stated looking from one twins face to the other. “So who is who?” She had her hands neatly folded in her lap and her eyes fixed on the twins in a neutral fashion. She made Kaoru a bit uneasy, but seeing as if he acted unprofessionally Kyouya would have his head for losing patrons.
“Well my lovely young lady,” Hikaru said with a smile. He put his arm around Kaoru and grinned a bit more.
“This adorable person next to me is Kaoru and I am Hikaru.” Much to the twins surprise the strange young lady laughed a bit, her cousin then did the same, somehow delighted by her reaction.
“You two seem a bit narcissistic.” She said in a polite yet oddly sadistic tone of voice. Hikaru blinked and then realized what she said-he was never one for such words.
“If you want to call it that you may,” he took his arm away from Kaoru and poured some tea for the female teens.
“So what might your name be?” Kaoru smiled at the foreign female.
“My name is Anamé,” she took her cup of tea from Kaoru and gingerly took a sip. “This is nice, just as you said Naomi,” Anamé addressed her cousin.
“I thought you might like it, you have always loved tea.” Naomi, who was a rather pretty brunette smiled merrily. Anamé’s blue eyes shifted towards her relative.
“Yes, I do enjoy tea but what was it that you said about these two?” Kaoru fidgeted slightly, he felt like something bad was going to happen. Hikaru must have noticed because he put his arm up on the back of the love seat they sat on and began to toy with twin’s hair. Anamé watched them with curious eyes as Naomi talked about her day and how her earlier classes had been.
The simple acts of Hikaru almost always went unnoticed for their true meanings, but apparently the foreign blonde understood for she smiled her strangely sadistic smile. This made Kaoru even more uneasy to be around her. He felt violated somehow because the young lady understood their silent communications: she knew they were uncomfortable.
“Naomi,” Anamé interrupted her, “You never answered my question, what did you tell me about these two?” Naomi blushed slightly out of embarrassment.
“Well…” She spoke timidly.
“Go on milady, I’m sure it can’t be that bad,” Hikaru teased in a kind way. Naomi smiled with more confidence now.
“Well, I told you these two are in love.” Anamé took a sip of tea thinking it over in her mind. Her eyes stayed on the twins the whole time.
“Yes, very much in love,” Hikaru pulled Kaoru closer to him, practically onto his lap, wrapping his arms around the younger twin’s waist.
“Hi-Hikaru…” Kaoru spoke in a soft voice blushing slightly. They expected the giggle from Naomi but the slight laugh from Anamé caught them by surprise.
“I say that you two are very convincing actors but I really don’t buy it.” Whether the foreign female meant it with malice or not the twins did not know. Kaoru blinked and his grip on his twin’s shirt tightened. They listened to a group of girls squeal over Hunny as he did something they could not see.
“What do you mean actors?” Kaoru was the one to actually speak.
“You two are not in love, I find it rather apparent. Maybe not to anyone else, but I can see you two are not the way you have deceived many other girls into thinking.” The word deceived left a nasty feeling in the air that Hikaru most definitely did not like.
“Anamé, why do you say that?” Naomi seemed a bit unsure if she should question her cousin any further, let alone at all to began with.
“From what you have told me and what I have learned, these two are not in love, it is just a gimmick to get patrons. If they were most certainly in love would have kissed and have been seen doing so by someone at least once. Think about it Naomi, they are teenagers and any couple that is truly dating has at least kissed once and somebody has to have seen it by some sort of accident.”
Kaoru felt his throat go oddly dry. He really was beginning to dislike the foreign female. He glanced at his other half to gauge how worried he should be. Hikaru had an almost stoic expression which made his heart sink-this girl was not a good thing to have here.
“I don’t see why we have to do such things in front of young ladies. It would be wrong and have you noticed that Kaoru is a bit shy in front of people?” Much to the twin’s dislike the foreign blonde smiled happily.
“You two are becoming quite defensive now. Might I ask why?
“Anamé!” Naomi whined feeling like her relative was stepping on a land mind.
“We are only being defensive because you are prying into our lives.” The twins spoke in unison for the first time in front of the two females. The two girls blinked before Anamé smiled again, taking a bite of a small delicate cookie that sat on a piece of expensive china.
“I am sorry if I’m prying, but it’s just that when it comes to things like this I can’t really help how I act.” There was a moment of tension filled silence that was broken by blonde again. “So why do you two pretend to have an incest relationship? Isn’t it a bit weird?”
“It doesn’t matter to us because we love each other.” Kaoru felt his twin’s uneasiness and wondered how far the young lady was willing to go before she made him snap. Then the thought occurred to him, just what would Hikaru do when pushed that far? Anamé’s peculiar comment brought the younger twin back to the problem at hand. He had apparently missed a good bit of words exchanged between her and his brother.
“…kiss him, and not just any old kiss that any one can fake, an actual kiss shared by two people in love, as you say you are.”
“Hunh?” Kaoru felt his mouth drop to the floor in surprise-just what had he missed? Hikaru turned to him and looked him in the eyes.
“You wouldn’t mind kissing in public once, would you?” Kaoru stared at his brother blankly before nodding slowly. He wasn’t sure why he did, but he felt like they had to make this Anamé believe them otherwise no one else would…
Hikaru leaned towards Kaoru about to kiss him when Anamé’s voice cut in. “You should use your tongue, that’s what I meant before, understand?”
Without any reply Hikaru turned his attention back to Kaoru and leaned closer. The two paused before their lips touched feeling each others warm breath fall onto their lips in soft puffs. Kaoru felt his breath hitch in something akin to anticipation, but… he wasn’t quite sure why. They had been this close dozens of times before, teasing their loyal patrons kindly.
Hikaru paused before Kaoru, causing him to wonder why he felt so nervous, that was when his mind went blank.
They kissed, gently at first with very timid movements that slowly became more familiar to them. Kaoru was beginning to blush deeply when he felt something warm lap at his bottom lip a couple of times. He complied with Hikaru’s silent request and opened his mouth hesitantly. His twin’s tongue slipped its way in and teased his own.
Kaoru felt a jolt of bliss as he let his twin have his way. They were so wrapped up in their task that they had not heard the gasps of nearby people, nor did they realize that slowly everyone in the music room had turned to watch them. Hikaru was the one to pull away, panting ever so slightly.
That’s when they realized it was silent.
“YOU-YOU-YOU!” They heard Tamaki stutter at them. The twins didn’t look at him they just stared at each other wondering the same thing that needed not to be spoken.
“Well you two are very interesting.” Anamé spoke into the silence-apparently it didn’t bother her at all. She turned to her cousin and smiled her strange smile. Naomi seemed to receive a silent message for the two girls stood up and left without so much as another word.
“How could you two do that?” Tamaki shrieked after Kyouya had ushered the last of the guests out: it was closing time. The strange foreign females had been gone for at least ten minutes but their presence still lingered in the room like a foul plague. Tamaki spun around to face Kyouya, who sat scribbling in his notebook.
“MOM! How can you let these perverts do something like that in front of so many people, IN FRONT OF OUR HARUHI!” Much to the concealed female’s displeasure, she walked back into the room at that moment. Tamaki ran over to her and held her face in his hands.
”I’m sorry my sweet daughter, I never meant for you to see such a repulsive act by the perverts!” Tears ran from Tamaki’s eyes as flowers seemed to flutter about from nowhere.
“We’re not perverts!” The twins retorted in unison.
“I don’t care,” Haruhi said looking away from Tamaki’s crying face. “It’s not like I haven’t seen people kiss before, let alone guys.” With that the female turned and continued to help Hunny and Mori with cleaning up the music room.
“Mom…” Tamaki said in a defeated voice, he had become a sort of ghost after Haruhi’s comment. Kyouya’s eyebrow twitched before replying with much reluctance.
“What…?” He stopped writing for a moment to hear the blond complain about something.
“What have you been showing our precious daughter?” The idiotic lord was kneeling on the floor, facing the dark haired teen and crying once more.
“I haven’t shown her anything and are you implying that I am the one who has let her see such things?” Kyouya smiled at Tamaki making him shiver slightly with his cold eyes.
“They show that stuff on TV all the time, you know soap operas and whatnot.” The twins decided to give their two cents worth of thoughts.
“Explain the comment on guys kissing! Have you done this before?” Tamaki snapped spinning around to face the twins pointing at them accusingly.
“Her dad’s gay, he’s an okama(1) too, remember.” Tamaki blinked and instantly assumed his fetal position in the corner. It took him exactly twenty seconds to return to his semi-angry/whining state.
“Mom, will you scold our two unruly children?” He asked from his assumed position on the floor. Kyouya once again hesitated before his response- he was slightly annoyed at being called ‘mom’. After all if he were to ever be in a mother-father relationship with the blond lord he would surely be the male, Tamaki would look better in a skirt.
“Why would I scold them?” Kyouya wrote something down in his notebook while he replied.
“WHY?” Tamaki shouted, returning to his normal idiotic state of mind. “Be-Because they did that-that THING in front of our daughter!”
“It was just a kiss.”
“THEY’RE RELATED!”
“Wasn’t it you who wanted them to act that way to began with?”
“For the club!”
“And so their kiss can be for the club, all it did was get them booked for the next month, they are currently more popular then you.” And with that Tamaki sat in a chair sulking while everyone else did their share of clean up duty.
Haruhi was the first to go home seeing as she was given a ride by Tamaki, who insisted that she not walk in the currently cold weather. The next to leave were Hunny and Mori and then the twins were left with Kyouya. They sat outside the school gates waiting for their ride to come-apparently there was some sort of accident near their school that had caused a major backup in traffic.
Kyouya’s ride actually came before the twins’, which was rather unusual seeing as he was always the last to leave. The driver of the car told them that the accident had really impaired traffic for the time being but was pretty much cleared up by now.
Hikaru yawned and crouched down by the stone fence. He looked rather tired if Kaoru had to guess. He was right, by the time their driver came he had pretty much fallen asleep standing up. Once inside the car the older twin closed the window between them and the driver before closing his eyes. Kaoru looked out the window and began to zone out.
He, for the life of him, could not get rid of certain thoughts. He just couldn’t stop wondering why his brother’s tongue had felt so…so nice to him. The car turned a corner and Hikaru fell over onto Kaoru’s lap. The younger of the two blinked expecting the older to wake up but he didn’t, he continued to sleep peacefully. So Kaoru let his reflection be. He resumed his odd thoughts not realizing he was playing with Hikaru’s hair.
When they pulled onto another street they hit a slight bump in the road that caused the older twin to wake up. He blinked not quite sure what to think as he felt cool fingers toy with his hair. He sat up and stared at his brother. The car had halted for a moment waiting to turn onto another street. It turned, quite sharply and unexpectedly. Hikaru fell forward onto his twin, but not completely.
“Why was I sleeping on your lap?” The older strawberry blond asked apparently not fazed by the current moment.
“You fell over while sleeping.” Kaoru replied trying not to get flustered-he wasn’t sure why he was even getting flustered in the first place. Hikaru blinked and then pulled Kaoru up to him allowing his hands to linger on his waist.
“You’re not still worried about that girl are you?”
“No.” That was the truth. He wasn’t worried about Anamé anymore. No, he was more worried about how flustered he felt at the moment.
“You sure? You look worried about something.” Hikaru’s arms wrapped themselves around his twin tightly.
“I’m fine, really…” The car turned onto their drive way. Needless to say Kaoru was relieved, but he wasn’t sure about what.
“We don’t have homework tonight, right?” He asked following his twin into his room.
“No…” Kaoru went over to his dresser and pulled out some clothes to change into-he didn’t want to walk around in his uniform any longer. He felt it was somehow tainted by the blonde female. Hikaru left to do the same as well as put his school bag away. When he returned Kaoru was laying on his bed reading a book.
“Why are you reading?” Hikaru asked walking over to him.
“Because I want to…” Kaoru didn’t look up. He didn’t really want to look at his twin at the moment.
“But I wanted you to play a video game with me.” Hikaru climbed on the bed next to Kaoru, who continued to read. When his other half didn’t answer Hikaru decided to ask something that would, as he thought, surely make his brother look away from his book.
“Are you mad at me for something?”
“No, why would I be?” It didn’t work, Kaoru still stared at his book, reading. Hikaru frowned outwardly and decided on something new to do.
“What page are you on?”
“137.”
“Uh-hunh.” Kaoru felt a weight on his back as his brother sat down on him. He felt some fingers run through his hair causing him to blush slightly.
“W-What are you doing?” He asked unable to read as the fingers toyed with his hair in a teasing manner…idle like.
“Well I‘m bored and you are ignoring me so I found something to do.” Kaoru blinked, his twin was rarely ever this affectionate after school.
“I’m not ignoring you.”
“You were to.”
“I was reading.” The fingers stopped for a second and Hikaru climbed off the bed.
“Hungry?” He asked heading to the door. Kaoru frowned, he was but he didn’t exactly want to follow Hikaru feeling like he was planning something. He eventually let his stomach win and marked his page before standing up. The two of them idly walked downstairs and on towards their kitchen.
There wasn’t anyone in the room when they entered, which wasn’t all that abnormal. Most of the maids used their own kitchen when cooking for themselves, unless asked to make some thing for one of the family members.
“So… What would you like?” Hikaru asked opening the freezer up, he apparently planned on making some sort of frozen ‘commoner food’ that Haruhi had mentioned to them.
“I don’t really care… I don’t feel that picky as of right now…” Kaoru replied, sitting down on a bar stool at the island table in the middle of the kitchen.
“Okay then. I’ll make two of the frozen pizzas… Haruhi said they were good, right?”
“I think so…” Kaoru yawned and watched his twin put them in the toaster oven and turn it to the right temperature and time. Hikaru turned back to face a bored looking Kaoru.
“You okay?” He asked, sitting down across from him.
“I’m fine… just have a lot on my mind…” Kaoru looked away, hating how his brother stared at him.
“Like what?”
“Just things.” Kaoru let his eyes wander on everything in the kitchen but his other half.
“Things as in…” Hikaru frowned realizing his twin’s deliberate attempt as to not look at him. “Are you thinking about that blonde female and Miss Naomi?”
“Wha-No,” Kaoru looked back at the older twin who smiled at him. He bit his lip and looked away feeling flustered once more.
“You sure? She was weird…” The statement was followed by a long period of awkward silence that Kaoru dared not disturb. “Are you worried about what people will say about us kissing?” This got the younger twin’s attention-his eyes snapped over in Hikaru’s direction.
“No, I hadn’t even thought of that till now…” Kaoru let his head fall in disdain. He truthfully hadn’t given any of that thought. True, he had been thinking about their kiss but not in any way a sane mind would have guessed. Before he got his chance to say anything, the buzzer for their food went off. Hikaru jumped up excitedly and hurried over to the toaster oven. He plated the pizzas and cut them into six slices each.
“Here.” He smiled and handed Kaoru the one he made for him. The younger strawberry blond stared at his food for a second as the older went to the fridge for drinks. It looked a bit unappetizing but smelled rather good. He picked up a piece and took a small bite.
“It won’t kill you, Haruhi said it was good…” Hikaru set a can of soda down in front of his brother and sat down across from him. They ate silently for a couple of minutes. Hikaru was overjoyed at eating a commoner’s frozen pizza while Kaoru… wasn’t so much. He frowned outwardly and set his third slice down. Hikaru stopped mid bite and looked at his brother.
“You don’t like it?” He frowned and stared at him sadly.
“No, it’s just I don’t really feel like eating.”
“You don’t like it?”
“It’s not bad…”
“You just don’t like it, its okay, and you’ll just have more room for the dessert.”
“Dessert?” Kaoru perked up, he had recently grown a bit of a sweet tooth. Hikaru smiled and nodded. He went back to eating the pizza, smiling happily at his younger twin.
Kaoru blushed slightly and looked away. He felt awkward and flustered. He hated that he felt like this and what was worse was that he didn’t know why.
“You want vanilla or chocolate covered?” Kaoru blinked, he hadn’t realized that his twin had finished eating and was standing in front of the freezer.
“Well?” Hikaru asked with a smile.
“Ch-chocolate covered…” Hikaru reached in and pulled out a dove ice cream bar dipped in chocolate. He handed it to Kaoru who smiled at it.
“So I guess all you needed was something sweet.” Hikaru took the wrapper off of his and discarded it into the trash can.
“Hunh?” Kaoru looked over at Hikaru as he sat down in his seat.
“You look happy now, before you looked a little upset,” Kaoru frowned and looked away from his brother.
“What now?” Hikaru sounded more concerned then annoyed.
“It’s nothing…” Kaoru took a bite of his ice cream keeping his eyes away from his reflection. The older twin stood up, walked around the island table and sat next to Kaoru. He leaned on his back and wrapped his free arm around his twin.
“You sure you don’t want to talk about it? It’s something because it’s making you act strange.” For once in his life Kaoru regretted being so close to Hikaru, he knew something was wrong and so did Hikaru, but he couldn’t quite understand it yet.
“I think I’m still annoyed at the girl from the club…”
“I thought that was it but is that all?” Kaoru thought a moment and continued to eat his ice cream along with Hikaru.
“It just annoys me that she could see so easily through our act… It just bugs me…” Kaoru took another bite of his almost finished ice cream bar. Hikaru didn’t reply right away but when he did Kaoru was left with a blank mind.
“I hate to say it but maybe we should… Practice… Like when we first joined the club and had to work on our ‘brotherly love’ act.” There was a long silence before Kaoru found his voice.
“Practice what?” He hated himself for saying that, he already knew the answer but for the life of him he couldn’t figure out why he had said it.
“Kissing…” There was silence again and the younger strawberry blond turned to look at his reflection. He looked just as unsure of himself as Kaoru felt. Hikaru leaned over and licked some chocolate off of Kaoru’s face making the younger blush and feel rather flustered once more.
“I don’t know…” He finally replied finishing up his ice cream and tossing the stick in the trash where Hikaru had already tossed his.
“It won’t be hard and we did it earlier. If we do it now no one will be watching us… Besides you said it bugged you that she could see through our act.” Kaoru looked away, unsure of what to say or how to act.
“Okay…” He was shocked at how soft his voice was. The younger twin looked up as Hikaru pulled the stool he was sitting on closer to him. Kaoru felt his stomach turn in an emotion he couldn’t quite place. The slightly older teen leaned over to kiss his twin. His lips stopped a couple of centimeters away and just hovered there a second as they had before. They heard the door to the kitchen began to open and Kaoru jumped away knocking himself onto the floor.
“Are you okay?” A maid asked walking into the kitchen.
“Dandy, just dandy…” Kaoru felt oddly stupid sitting on the floor. He stood up with the help of Hikaru and they left the kitchen as the maid began to bag up the trash. The twins didn’t speak until they got into Hikaru’s room.
“That was close…” The older said shutting his bedroom door.
“Yeah…” Kaoru sat down on the bed realizing he didn’t have his book.
“Well…” The older twin walked over and sat next to his brother, “Want to try again?” Kaoru felt himself blush once more. He, without realizing why, shrugged. Hikaru leaned over, a little more determined now and not wasting any more time captured his brother's lips. The kiss, like before, felt awkward and seemed unsure. The longer it progressed the more determined Hikaru seemed to become and the more timid Kaoru felt.
When Hikaru finally achieved his goal in using his tongue Kaoru felt a strange surge of pleasure run through his body. His brother, his twin’s tongue was so very soft and skilled it made him feel ecstatic-he didn’t want to pull away. Hikaru pulled back panting and neither of the two spoke, nor even looked at each other for a while. Kaoru wrapped his arms around his stomach feeling it turn into something he thought felt like nervousness.
He stood up and left the room without so much as a word to his brother. Hikaru followed after him trying his best to keep up.
“Kaoru…” He called out as his other half walked into his bedroom. The door was shut with a slight snap. “Kaoru?” Hikaru sounded worried now. He called his brother’s name again when he found that the bedroom door was locked.
The younger strawberry blond stood on the other side of the room. He looked a bit terrified and didn’t know why he felt so scared.
“Are you okay? What’s wrong?” Hikaru was beginning to feel panic well up inside of him.
“I-I just need to be alone for a while…” Kaoru’s voice sounded a bit shaky. He hated himself for acting like this. It just wasn’t something he normally did. His reply was met with silence- an awkward silence that disturbed both twins. In their whole lives neither twin had ever said that he wanted to be alone, nor had he ever locked the other out of a room.
Stage One: Denial end…
1) Okama is a man that dresses in drag and normally works in an okama bar. In this fic Haruhi’s father is gay, regardless of whether or not he is in the anime/manga…
WELL I've gone over the first chapter-28 more to go @_@ wish me luck, and if you think the writing is odd-then I'm with you on this, it was originally written 3 years ago I think...
Au Revoir,
~Israfel~
Warning: Yaoi-incest, cursing, angst-the basics, if you do not like any of that, or cannot tolerate it then do not read.
Authors Note: ...I'm fixing things... and don't hate me for having not been active in so long u_u
Stage One:
DenialThe house was utterly dark and everyone was sound asleep…
Except for two…
The ones that were lying together in bed…
They stared at each other, panting for a moment before letting their lips meet. Clothes were removed-discarded onto the floor. Shirts first, as the older male kissed along the others neck causing him to moan softly.
He was attempting to be quiet so as to not wake anyone.
Their pants were removed next, taking longer to do so as the smaller male wanted to help remove the others by using his mouth. They kissed again, left in nothing but their boxers.
The older teen sat up slightly, deciding that now would be a good time to tease the other, which he did so by lapping his way down the others chest.
“You don’t have to do that…” The younger male purred. “All I want for you to do is me-you don’t need to do any more then that if you don’t want to…” He fidgeted slightly as a pair of teeth grazed against his soft porcelain skin.
“I want to though,” Was the older males reply as he softly ran his hand up the inside of the others leg, causing him to shiver lightly. The hand made its way into his boxers and began to gently stroke him making him purr softly. He bit his lip trying not to make any sound, doing his best to keep as silent as possible.
After all, their friends – including Haruhi – were staying the night in nearby rooms.
“Feels good?” The older teen asked, licking at the others length, causing the teen to tremble slightly. The smaller male nodded and bit his lip once more. It was growing increasingly hard for him to keep silent, to not moan. His hands clenched at the soft blue sheets as the older male took him into his mouth. He began to tremble lightly as he was nipped gently on the head.
“S-stop or I’m g-going to cum…” The younger teen panted, taking hold of the others hair and pulling his head up.
“Isn’t that the point?” The older teen smiled sadistically at the smaller male, who never would have guessed he had it in him to do such a thing. He figured it had something to do with the alcohol they had drunk earlier that night.
A moist pink tongue slipped out of his mouth and lapped at the tip teasingly once more-he still had a hand tangled in his hair keeping him from returning to his ministrations.
“You want to continue?” He smiled at the younger teen in a kind manner, who responded with a nod.
The two kissed once more before the smaller of the two reached to pull some lubricant out of his pants. He had been hoping for something like this to happen. The bottle was taken from him and the older of the two poured a portion of the silky substance onto his fingers.
“If you want me to stop say so…” The words were spoken in a hushed voice before a finger was pushed in. The younger male was stretched already, from curiosity among other...things... When the smaller teen became comfortable with the fingers inside of him, the elder poured some of the lube onto himself.
The younger male tilted his hips slightly, eager and trying to help his intoxicated partner ever so slightly. It was then that he felt him push in and past his entrance . He let out a moan that was quickly covered up with his own hand.
“Sh-shh, you have to be quiet…” The older teen bit his bottom lip trying to be silent himself. The smaller teen nodded and watched as he was being penetrated-as the older male continued to push himself in. Their movements stilled for a moment once they were completely joined.
“Tell me when,” He half muttered listening to the others panting breaths.
He nodded and the older teen began to move, slowly searching out his desired rhythm. He would pull out most of the way leaving only the tip in and then push himself back in, forcefully, causing his partner to moan slightly as he rubbed against his prostate. Both teens keep silent not speaking any hushed words of love as neither of the two felt that way.
They were only doing this for two simple reasons.
One: the younger felt it would fix his love for someone else.
Two: the elder was completely drunk and intoxicated not to mention rather horny.
The chances that the older teen would remember any of this were slim to none, but the smaller teen didn't care. He felt that his only reason for loving the other person was because he was just horny, so doing this would make it stop, right?
Their movements began to grow frantic as both were near their climaxes.
“H-Harder,” The smaller male panted feeling the tightness in his groin intensify. His partner complied and began to slam himself in harder than he had been before. He no longer cared about being sore the next day, all he currently wanted was to cum.
He did in a matter of seconds, calling out the others name.
“T-Tamaki…” He panted softly clenching his muscles, causing the blond to bite his lip to keep from crying out too loudly. Within seconds the older teen came, filling the younger one.
The blond pulled out and collapsed on top of the other as he started to come down from his high.
“Kaoru, we need to bathe now…” He mumbled, only half awake. “Or at least you do, I can in the morning before everyone else wakes up…” With that Tamaki fell over onto the twin, his mind slipping into that of unconsciousness.
Kaoru was left to try and rationalize what he had just done.
The strawberry blond pushed the older teen off of himself and sat up wincing slightly. Maybe I really shouldn’t have asked him to go harder, he thought to himself as he headed for the bathroom attached to Tamaki's guest room. Kaoru turned the shower on and stepped in-the hot water felt good on his back.
He let his mind wander as the water pounded onto him in a soothing manner. He was trying to untangle his thoughts in his mind. The twin had asked Tamaki to do him in hopes that the feelings he had for his brother were just brought on by hormones… or that’s what he had been hoping.
Kaoru looked over at the expensive shampoos, conditioners and soaps the bathroom contained. He proceeded on with his shower trying to remove some feelings that were slowly building up inside of his chest.
He had cared very much for his brother, as a sibling and best friend, for his whole life and now his emotions had dramatically changed. He was feeling something more for his twin.
It had started whenever they acted in front of their patrons. He had felt a lingering want, one that kept nagging at him each day. He wanted for Hikaru to hold him longer or to speak like that to him more often. Kaoru had become infatuated with his brother before they had appeared…
The strawberry blond hadn’t thought much on the subject at first but when their act followed them home one day he became a bit worried. Hikaru had teased him, if on purpose he wasn’t sure, but he had teased him none the less. He had played with his hair and lightly touched him whenever he could-just like when they had been in school.
The more his twin did it the more flustered Kaoru had become-then the night came. They slept in the same bed as they always did but this time Hikaru was clingy. He had pulled him close so that their bodies touched and breathed into his ear and on Kaoru’s neck giving him a strange rush.
It didn’t bother Kaoru much at first but then he had heard Hikaru mumble something in his sleep, something that had come out as a slight moan and then lick his lips.
Kaoru had a problem then.
He had a growing one at that, and that’s when the strawberry blond realized he had an ever bigger issue to deal with. Kaoru slid down to the floor of the bathtub. He was growing hard thinking of Hikaru. He looked down at his cock and bit his lip allowing his hand to grasp it.
The younger twin allowed images of his brother to play in his mind.
He let his imagination wander as he began to stroke and pleasure himself. He thought of one of their acts they had done, how they had almost kissed like always in front of the female students at their school. He remembered how Hikaru smelt and how his breath somehow tasted of the lemon and honey tea they had been drinking. Kaoru licked his lips wishing his brother would someday do what Tamaki had done for him.
He wanted his twin to hold him tightly while they kissed. He wanted Hikaru to bite his neck and lick it. He wanted him to suck and play with his nipples. Kaoru let out a slight moan thinking of how nice it would feel to have his twin push himself inside him and then pound him ever so hard making him scream and cry his name out in ecstasy. Kaoru wanted his brother plain and simple-and with that thought he came.
The strawberry blond watched, panting, as his cum went down the drain along with the water. He let his head hit the side of the tub with a slight thunk. He had a problem and it wasn’t going to go away any time soon either, not as he had hoped and tried.
Once Kaoru had recovered enough to stand he did so, trying to figure out just when all of this had started. He dried himself off with a towel in the bathroom and headed on out into room where his clothes were.
-
It was the beginning of fall, or more precisely October, when a new girl had started to come to the Host Club. She was kind and requested each member of the club on different days of the week. Monday it was Tamaki, Tuesday was Haruhi, Wednesday was Hunny and Mori, Thursday was Kyouya and Friday the twins. She was pleasant and continued the pattern all through out October and on into early November. That was when her cousin came to the school. They two young ladies were opposites of each other but were constantly together. On the first Friday of her being at the school the foreign girl met the twins properly.
“You two look very much alike,” she stated looking from one twins face to the other. “So who is who?” She had her hands neatly folded in her lap and her eyes fixed on the twins in a neutral fashion. She made Kaoru a bit uneasy, but seeing as if he acted unprofessionally Kyouya would have his head for losing patrons.
“Well my lovely young lady,” Hikaru said with a smile. He put his arm around Kaoru and grinned a bit more.
“This adorable person next to me is Kaoru and I am Hikaru.” Much to the twins surprise the strange young lady laughed a bit, her cousin then did the same, somehow delighted by her reaction.
“You two seem a bit narcissistic.” She said in a polite yet oddly sadistic tone of voice. Hikaru blinked and then realized what she said-he was never one for such words.
“If you want to call it that you may,” he took his arm away from Kaoru and poured some tea for the female teens.
“So what might your name be?” Kaoru smiled at the foreign female.
“My name is Anamé,” she took her cup of tea from Kaoru and gingerly took a sip. “This is nice, just as you said Naomi,” Anamé addressed her cousin.
“I thought you might like it, you have always loved tea.” Naomi, who was a rather pretty brunette smiled merrily. Anamé’s blue eyes shifted towards her relative.
“Yes, I do enjoy tea but what was it that you said about these two?” Kaoru fidgeted slightly, he felt like something bad was going to happen. Hikaru must have noticed because he put his arm up on the back of the love seat they sat on and began to toy with twin’s hair. Anamé watched them with curious eyes as Naomi talked about her day and how her earlier classes had been.
The simple acts of Hikaru almost always went unnoticed for their true meanings, but apparently the foreign blonde understood for she smiled her strangely sadistic smile. This made Kaoru even more uneasy to be around her. He felt violated somehow because the young lady understood their silent communications: she knew they were uncomfortable.
“Naomi,” Anamé interrupted her, “You never answered my question, what did you tell me about these two?” Naomi blushed slightly out of embarrassment.
“Well…” She spoke timidly.
“Go on milady, I’m sure it can’t be that bad,” Hikaru teased in a kind way. Naomi smiled with more confidence now.
“Well, I told you these two are in love.” Anamé took a sip of tea thinking it over in her mind. Her eyes stayed on the twins the whole time.
“Yes, very much in love,” Hikaru pulled Kaoru closer to him, practically onto his lap, wrapping his arms around the younger twin’s waist.
“Hi-Hikaru…” Kaoru spoke in a soft voice blushing slightly. They expected the giggle from Naomi but the slight laugh from Anamé caught them by surprise.
“I say that you two are very convincing actors but I really don’t buy it.” Whether the foreign female meant it with malice or not the twins did not know. Kaoru blinked and his grip on his twin’s shirt tightened. They listened to a group of girls squeal over Hunny as he did something they could not see.
“What do you mean actors?” Kaoru was the one to actually speak.
“You two are not in love, I find it rather apparent. Maybe not to anyone else, but I can see you two are not the way you have deceived many other girls into thinking.” The word deceived left a nasty feeling in the air that Hikaru most definitely did not like.
“Anamé, why do you say that?” Naomi seemed a bit unsure if she should question her cousin any further, let alone at all to began with.
“From what you have told me and what I have learned, these two are not in love, it is just a gimmick to get patrons. If they were most certainly in love would have kissed and have been seen doing so by someone at least once. Think about it Naomi, they are teenagers and any couple that is truly dating has at least kissed once and somebody has to have seen it by some sort of accident.”
Kaoru felt his throat go oddly dry. He really was beginning to dislike the foreign female. He glanced at his other half to gauge how worried he should be. Hikaru had an almost stoic expression which made his heart sink-this girl was not a good thing to have here.
“I don’t see why we have to do such things in front of young ladies. It would be wrong and have you noticed that Kaoru is a bit shy in front of people?” Much to the twin’s dislike the foreign blonde smiled happily.
“You two are becoming quite defensive now. Might I ask why?
“Anamé!” Naomi whined feeling like her relative was stepping on a land mind.
“We are only being defensive because you are prying into our lives.” The twins spoke in unison for the first time in front of the two females. The two girls blinked before Anamé smiled again, taking a bite of a small delicate cookie that sat on a piece of expensive china.
“I am sorry if I’m prying, but it’s just that when it comes to things like this I can’t really help how I act.” There was a moment of tension filled silence that was broken by blonde again. “So why do you two pretend to have an incest relationship? Isn’t it a bit weird?”
“It doesn’t matter to us because we love each other.” Kaoru felt his twin’s uneasiness and wondered how far the young lady was willing to go before she made him snap. Then the thought occurred to him, just what would Hikaru do when pushed that far? Anamé’s peculiar comment brought the younger twin back to the problem at hand. He had apparently missed a good bit of words exchanged between her and his brother.
“…kiss him, and not just any old kiss that any one can fake, an actual kiss shared by two people in love, as you say you are.”
“Hunh?” Kaoru felt his mouth drop to the floor in surprise-just what had he missed? Hikaru turned to him and looked him in the eyes.
“You wouldn’t mind kissing in public once, would you?” Kaoru stared at his brother blankly before nodding slowly. He wasn’t sure why he did, but he felt like they had to make this Anamé believe them otherwise no one else would…
Hikaru leaned towards Kaoru about to kiss him when Anamé’s voice cut in. “You should use your tongue, that’s what I meant before, understand?”
Without any reply Hikaru turned his attention back to Kaoru and leaned closer. The two paused before their lips touched feeling each others warm breath fall onto their lips in soft puffs. Kaoru felt his breath hitch in something akin to anticipation, but… he wasn’t quite sure why. They had been this close dozens of times before, teasing their loyal patrons kindly.
Hikaru paused before Kaoru, causing him to wonder why he felt so nervous, that was when his mind went blank.
They kissed, gently at first with very timid movements that slowly became more familiar to them. Kaoru was beginning to blush deeply when he felt something warm lap at his bottom lip a couple of times. He complied with Hikaru’s silent request and opened his mouth hesitantly. His twin’s tongue slipped its way in and teased his own.
Kaoru felt a jolt of bliss as he let his twin have his way. They were so wrapped up in their task that they had not heard the gasps of nearby people, nor did they realize that slowly everyone in the music room had turned to watch them. Hikaru was the one to pull away, panting ever so slightly.
That’s when they realized it was silent.
“YOU-YOU-YOU!” They heard Tamaki stutter at them. The twins didn’t look at him they just stared at each other wondering the same thing that needed not to be spoken.
“Well you two are very interesting.” Anamé spoke into the silence-apparently it didn’t bother her at all. She turned to her cousin and smiled her strange smile. Naomi seemed to receive a silent message for the two girls stood up and left without so much as another word.
“How could you two do that?” Tamaki shrieked after Kyouya had ushered the last of the guests out: it was closing time. The strange foreign females had been gone for at least ten minutes but their presence still lingered in the room like a foul plague. Tamaki spun around to face Kyouya, who sat scribbling in his notebook.
“MOM! How can you let these perverts do something like that in front of so many people, IN FRONT OF OUR HARUHI!” Much to the concealed female’s displeasure, she walked back into the room at that moment. Tamaki ran over to her and held her face in his hands.
”I’m sorry my sweet daughter, I never meant for you to see such a repulsive act by the perverts!” Tears ran from Tamaki’s eyes as flowers seemed to flutter about from nowhere.
“We’re not perverts!” The twins retorted in unison.
“I don’t care,” Haruhi said looking away from Tamaki’s crying face. “It’s not like I haven’t seen people kiss before, let alone guys.” With that the female turned and continued to help Hunny and Mori with cleaning up the music room.
“Mom…” Tamaki said in a defeated voice, he had become a sort of ghost after Haruhi’s comment. Kyouya’s eyebrow twitched before replying with much reluctance.
“What…?” He stopped writing for a moment to hear the blond complain about something.
“What have you been showing our precious daughter?” The idiotic lord was kneeling on the floor, facing the dark haired teen and crying once more.
“I haven’t shown her anything and are you implying that I am the one who has let her see such things?” Kyouya smiled at Tamaki making him shiver slightly with his cold eyes.
“They show that stuff on TV all the time, you know soap operas and whatnot.” The twins decided to give their two cents worth of thoughts.
“Explain the comment on guys kissing! Have you done this before?” Tamaki snapped spinning around to face the twins pointing at them accusingly.
“Her dad’s gay, he’s an okama(1) too, remember.” Tamaki blinked and instantly assumed his fetal position in the corner. It took him exactly twenty seconds to return to his semi-angry/whining state.
“Mom, will you scold our two unruly children?” He asked from his assumed position on the floor. Kyouya once again hesitated before his response- he was slightly annoyed at being called ‘mom’. After all if he were to ever be in a mother-father relationship with the blond lord he would surely be the male, Tamaki would look better in a skirt.
“Why would I scold them?” Kyouya wrote something down in his notebook while he replied.
“WHY?” Tamaki shouted, returning to his normal idiotic state of mind. “Be-Because they did that-that THING in front of our daughter!”
“It was just a kiss.”
“THEY’RE RELATED!”
“Wasn’t it you who wanted them to act that way to began with?”
“For the club!”
“And so their kiss can be for the club, all it did was get them booked for the next month, they are currently more popular then you.” And with that Tamaki sat in a chair sulking while everyone else did their share of clean up duty.
Haruhi was the first to go home seeing as she was given a ride by Tamaki, who insisted that she not walk in the currently cold weather. The next to leave were Hunny and Mori and then the twins were left with Kyouya. They sat outside the school gates waiting for their ride to come-apparently there was some sort of accident near their school that had caused a major backup in traffic.
Kyouya’s ride actually came before the twins’, which was rather unusual seeing as he was always the last to leave. The driver of the car told them that the accident had really impaired traffic for the time being but was pretty much cleared up by now.
Hikaru yawned and crouched down by the stone fence. He looked rather tired if Kaoru had to guess. He was right, by the time their driver came he had pretty much fallen asleep standing up. Once inside the car the older twin closed the window between them and the driver before closing his eyes. Kaoru looked out the window and began to zone out.
He, for the life of him, could not get rid of certain thoughts. He just couldn’t stop wondering why his brother’s tongue had felt so…so nice to him. The car turned a corner and Hikaru fell over onto Kaoru’s lap. The younger of the two blinked expecting the older to wake up but he didn’t, he continued to sleep peacefully. So Kaoru let his reflection be. He resumed his odd thoughts not realizing he was playing with Hikaru’s hair.
When they pulled onto another street they hit a slight bump in the road that caused the older twin to wake up. He blinked not quite sure what to think as he felt cool fingers toy with his hair. He sat up and stared at his brother. The car had halted for a moment waiting to turn onto another street. It turned, quite sharply and unexpectedly. Hikaru fell forward onto his twin, but not completely.
“Why was I sleeping on your lap?” The older strawberry blond asked apparently not fazed by the current moment.
“You fell over while sleeping.” Kaoru replied trying not to get flustered-he wasn’t sure why he was even getting flustered in the first place. Hikaru blinked and then pulled Kaoru up to him allowing his hands to linger on his waist.
“You’re not still worried about that girl are you?”
“No.” That was the truth. He wasn’t worried about Anamé anymore. No, he was more worried about how flustered he felt at the moment.
“You sure? You look worried about something.” Hikaru’s arms wrapped themselves around his twin tightly.
“I’m fine, really…” The car turned onto their drive way. Needless to say Kaoru was relieved, but he wasn’t sure about what.
He reached stage one now: Denial
When they went inside, one of the maids told them that their mother and father had called and said they would try back later if it wasn’t too late. Kaoru closed his eyes in a bit of annoyance before heading on up the stairs to his bedroom, Hikaru followed him.“We don’t have homework tonight, right?” He asked following his twin into his room.
“No…” Kaoru went over to his dresser and pulled out some clothes to change into-he didn’t want to walk around in his uniform any longer. He felt it was somehow tainted by the blonde female. Hikaru left to do the same as well as put his school bag away. When he returned Kaoru was laying on his bed reading a book.
“Why are you reading?” Hikaru asked walking over to him.
“Because I want to…” Kaoru didn’t look up. He didn’t really want to look at his twin at the moment.
“But I wanted you to play a video game with me.” Hikaru climbed on the bed next to Kaoru, who continued to read. When his other half didn’t answer Hikaru decided to ask something that would, as he thought, surely make his brother look away from his book.
“Are you mad at me for something?”
“No, why would I be?” It didn’t work, Kaoru still stared at his book, reading. Hikaru frowned outwardly and decided on something new to do.
“What page are you on?”
“137.”
“Uh-hunh.” Kaoru felt a weight on his back as his brother sat down on him. He felt some fingers run through his hair causing him to blush slightly.
“W-What are you doing?” He asked unable to read as the fingers toyed with his hair in a teasing manner…idle like.
“Well I‘m bored and you are ignoring me so I found something to do.” Kaoru blinked, his twin was rarely ever this affectionate after school.
“I’m not ignoring you.”
“You were to.”
“I was reading.” The fingers stopped for a second and Hikaru climbed off the bed.
“Hungry?” He asked heading to the door. Kaoru frowned, he was but he didn’t exactly want to follow Hikaru feeling like he was planning something. He eventually let his stomach win and marked his page before standing up. The two of them idly walked downstairs and on towards their kitchen.
There wasn’t anyone in the room when they entered, which wasn’t all that abnormal. Most of the maids used their own kitchen when cooking for themselves, unless asked to make some thing for one of the family members.
“So… What would you like?” Hikaru asked opening the freezer up, he apparently planned on making some sort of frozen ‘commoner food’ that Haruhi had mentioned to them.
“I don’t really care… I don’t feel that picky as of right now…” Kaoru replied, sitting down on a bar stool at the island table in the middle of the kitchen.
“Okay then. I’ll make two of the frozen pizzas… Haruhi said they were good, right?”
“I think so…” Kaoru yawned and watched his twin put them in the toaster oven and turn it to the right temperature and time. Hikaru turned back to face a bored looking Kaoru.
“You okay?” He asked, sitting down across from him.
“I’m fine… just have a lot on my mind…” Kaoru looked away, hating how his brother stared at him.
“Like what?”
“Just things.” Kaoru let his eyes wander on everything in the kitchen but his other half.
“Things as in…” Hikaru frowned realizing his twin’s deliberate attempt as to not look at him. “Are you thinking about that blonde female and Miss Naomi?”
“Wha-No,” Kaoru looked back at the older twin who smiled at him. He bit his lip and looked away feeling flustered once more.
“You sure? She was weird…” The statement was followed by a long period of awkward silence that Kaoru dared not disturb. “Are you worried about what people will say about us kissing?” This got the younger twin’s attention-his eyes snapped over in Hikaru’s direction.
“No, I hadn’t even thought of that till now…” Kaoru let his head fall in disdain. He truthfully hadn’t given any of that thought. True, he had been thinking about their kiss but not in any way a sane mind would have guessed. Before he got his chance to say anything, the buzzer for their food went off. Hikaru jumped up excitedly and hurried over to the toaster oven. He plated the pizzas and cut them into six slices each.
“Here.” He smiled and handed Kaoru the one he made for him. The younger strawberry blond stared at his food for a second as the older went to the fridge for drinks. It looked a bit unappetizing but smelled rather good. He picked up a piece and took a small bite.
“It won’t kill you, Haruhi said it was good…” Hikaru set a can of soda down in front of his brother and sat down across from him. They ate silently for a couple of minutes. Hikaru was overjoyed at eating a commoner’s frozen pizza while Kaoru… wasn’t so much. He frowned outwardly and set his third slice down. Hikaru stopped mid bite and looked at his brother.
“You don’t like it?” He frowned and stared at him sadly.
“No, it’s just I don’t really feel like eating.”
“You don’t like it?”
“It’s not bad…”
“You just don’t like it, its okay, and you’ll just have more room for the dessert.”
“Dessert?” Kaoru perked up, he had recently grown a bit of a sweet tooth. Hikaru smiled and nodded. He went back to eating the pizza, smiling happily at his younger twin.
Kaoru blushed slightly and looked away. He felt awkward and flustered. He hated that he felt like this and what was worse was that he didn’t know why.
“You want vanilla or chocolate covered?” Kaoru blinked, he hadn’t realized that his twin had finished eating and was standing in front of the freezer.
“Well?” Hikaru asked with a smile.
“Ch-chocolate covered…” Hikaru reached in and pulled out a dove ice cream bar dipped in chocolate. He handed it to Kaoru who smiled at it.
“So I guess all you needed was something sweet.” Hikaru took the wrapper off of his and discarded it into the trash can.
“Hunh?” Kaoru looked over at Hikaru as he sat down in his seat.
“You look happy now, before you looked a little upset,” Kaoru frowned and looked away from his brother.
“What now?” Hikaru sounded more concerned then annoyed.
“It’s nothing…” Kaoru took a bite of his ice cream keeping his eyes away from his reflection. The older twin stood up, walked around the island table and sat next to Kaoru. He leaned on his back and wrapped his free arm around his twin.
“You sure you don’t want to talk about it? It’s something because it’s making you act strange.” For once in his life Kaoru regretted being so close to Hikaru, he knew something was wrong and so did Hikaru, but he couldn’t quite understand it yet.
“I think I’m still annoyed at the girl from the club…”
“I thought that was it but is that all?” Kaoru thought a moment and continued to eat his ice cream along with Hikaru.
“It just annoys me that she could see so easily through our act… It just bugs me…” Kaoru took another bite of his almost finished ice cream bar. Hikaru didn’t reply right away but when he did Kaoru was left with a blank mind.
“I hate to say it but maybe we should… Practice… Like when we first joined the club and had to work on our ‘brotherly love’ act.” There was a long silence before Kaoru found his voice.
“Practice what?” He hated himself for saying that, he already knew the answer but for the life of him he couldn’t figure out why he had said it.
“Kissing…” There was silence again and the younger strawberry blond turned to look at his reflection. He looked just as unsure of himself as Kaoru felt. Hikaru leaned over and licked some chocolate off of Kaoru’s face making the younger blush and feel rather flustered once more.
“I don’t know…” He finally replied finishing up his ice cream and tossing the stick in the trash where Hikaru had already tossed his.
“It won’t be hard and we did it earlier. If we do it now no one will be watching us… Besides you said it bugged you that she could see through our act.” Kaoru looked away, unsure of what to say or how to act.
“Okay…” He was shocked at how soft his voice was. The younger twin looked up as Hikaru pulled the stool he was sitting on closer to him. Kaoru felt his stomach turn in an emotion he couldn’t quite place. The slightly older teen leaned over to kiss his twin. His lips stopped a couple of centimeters away and just hovered there a second as they had before. They heard the door to the kitchen began to open and Kaoru jumped away knocking himself onto the floor.
“Are you okay?” A maid asked walking into the kitchen.
“Dandy, just dandy…” Kaoru felt oddly stupid sitting on the floor. He stood up with the help of Hikaru and they left the kitchen as the maid began to bag up the trash. The twins didn’t speak until they got into Hikaru’s room.
“That was close…” The older said shutting his bedroom door.
“Yeah…” Kaoru sat down on the bed realizing he didn’t have his book.
“Well…” The older twin walked over and sat next to his brother, “Want to try again?” Kaoru felt himself blush once more. He, without realizing why, shrugged. Hikaru leaned over, a little more determined now and not wasting any more time captured his brother's lips. The kiss, like before, felt awkward and seemed unsure. The longer it progressed the more determined Hikaru seemed to become and the more timid Kaoru felt.
When Hikaru finally achieved his goal in using his tongue Kaoru felt a strange surge of pleasure run through his body. His brother, his twin’s tongue was so very soft and skilled it made him feel ecstatic-he didn’t want to pull away. Hikaru pulled back panting and neither of the two spoke, nor even looked at each other for a while. Kaoru wrapped his arms around his stomach feeling it turn into something he thought felt like nervousness.
He stood up and left the room without so much as a word to his brother. Hikaru followed after him trying his best to keep up.
“Kaoru…” He called out as his other half walked into his bedroom. The door was shut with a slight snap. “Kaoru?” Hikaru sounded worried now. He called his brother’s name again when he found that the bedroom door was locked.
The younger strawberry blond stood on the other side of the room. He looked a bit terrified and didn’t know why he felt so scared.
“Are you okay? What’s wrong?” Hikaru was beginning to feel panic well up inside of him.
“I-I just need to be alone for a while…” Kaoru’s voice sounded a bit shaky. He hated himself for acting like this. It just wasn’t something he normally did. His reply was met with silence- an awkward silence that disturbed both twins. In their whole lives neither twin had ever said that he wanted to be alone, nor had he ever locked the other out of a room.
Stage One: Denial end…
1) Okama is a man that dresses in drag and normally works in an okama bar. In this fic Haruhi’s father is gay, regardless of whether or not he is in the anime/manga…
WELL I've gone over the first chapter-28 more to go @_@ wish me luck, and if you think the writing is odd-then I'm with you on this, it was originally written 3 years ago I think...
Au Revoir,
~Israfel~