Ouran High School Host Club Fan Fiction ❯ Fixated ❯ Stage Two: Realization Part II ( Chapter 3 )
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By: TheAngelIsrafel 
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Anime/Manga: Ouran High School Host Club Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Shounen / Angst / Romance / Hentai | Type: Yaoi | Uploaded On: 08.24.2010 | Pages: 6 | Words: 8.1K | Visits: 242 | Status: Work In Progress
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Anime/Manga: Ouran High School Host Club Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Shounen / Angst / Romance / Hentai | Type: Yaoi | Uploaded On: 08.24.2010 | Pages: 6 | Words: 8.1K | Visits: 242 | Status: Work In Progress
Disclaimer: I don’t own the twins or any of the Host club characters.
Warning: Yaoi-incest, cursing, angst-the basics, if you do not like any of that, or cannot tolerate it then do not read.
Author's Note: -_-; I'm sleepy...
Stage Two:
Realization
Part II
The twins sat in silence not saying a word to one another or to Haruhi who sat in between them. She occasionally stole a glance at one or the other unsure if she should say something. It was about ten minutes into lunch when Tamaki made his usual stop by, today he brought Kyouya with him.
“Haruhi-kun!” The blond called as he entered the room followed by the dark haired teen. The little raccoon looked up at the older teens quite happy to see them.
“Hi,” She said with a genuine smile. Kyouya sat down in an empty desk near by as Tamaki did the same. The twins gave no acknowledgment to the two nor did they attempt to be part of the idle chat that Haruhi was having with the older teen. Kyouya watched the two, jotting something down in his book every now and then.
“Are you two going to be here tomorrow?” He asked ignoring the conversation between Haruhi and Tamaki.
“Yes…” they replied in the same dull and unenthusiastic tone of voice.
“I’ll hold you to it seeing as you haven’t been the most reliable people this week.”
Kaoru slumped over onto his desk. Despite having sleep all night and most of yesterday he felt really very tired still.
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“Kaoru…” He heard his voice being called but he didn’t care, he was close to falling asleep. “Kaoru, she’s here…” It was Hikaru’s voice, but just who was ‘she’…
“Kaoru she came to see you so wake up.” Hikaru sounded distant and uncaring; it made his heart hurt a little.
“Actually I came to see Kyouya-san,” It was that voice, that despicable female voice that was so falsely sweet.
The younger twin sat up instantly realizing that somewhere in his half awake state Anamé had come to the classroom. He turned to look at the foreign blonde who smiled at him.
“You can go back to sleep, you seem tired, and like I told Hikaru-san, I’m not here to see you, I’ll see you tomorrow, after all Naomi and I have prepaid for Friday.” The strange blonde turned her attention towards Kyouya now.
“So what can I do for you today?” He asked politely.
“I,” She started not seeming to care much that most people in the classroom were watching her. It was quite apparent that students had heard about her and Kaoru’s kiss. “I would like to buy Kaoru’s time for the next two week’s.” Kyouya blinked not sure if he should take the blonde seriously.
“You would like to buy his time?” Tamaki asked hesitant of what to really think, so he didn’t, he just watched his friend and the strange female speak.
“Yes, I would like to buy Kaoru’s time from the club for the next two week’s.” Anamé repeated smiling her disturbingly sadistic grin before continuing. It was apparent that she liked to be the center of attention when it came to a group of attractive men. “I will pay you well for his time, just think of it as if you were loaning him to me for just a short while.”
“I’m afraid I can’t just loan you one of our club members.” Kaoru felt a new respect growing for the vice president.
“Oh is that so? Well I know you have a price and I am willing to pay it.” The blonde’s smile grew some more, it was clear that she wasn’t going to give up.
“Are you implying that you can bribe me?” Kyouya continued to smile at the girl even though Tamaki and Haruhi could sense his annoyance growing.
“Oh I would never bribe you.” Anamé looked like she had been offended by the older males comment. “I am just saying that I will pay you well for Kaoru’s time.” The younger twin hated how she so freely used his name where as whenever she said anybody else’s she would use a proper suffix.
“I am sorry but he has been booked by other patron’s for the next three week’s.” Kyouya remained resilient even when being offered some money. But just as Tamaki and Haruhi could predict, it would only be a matter of time before Anamé hit a price that the vice president couldn’t refuse.
“I see…” The foreign blonde was silent, thinking of something else to say. “How about if I pay double what the other females have promised?” Kyouya looked thoughtful as he calculated numbers in his mind. Hikaru was listening now but made sure his face stayed stoic with everything that was said.
“I still don’t think I can loan you Kaoru-kun, just what are you planning on doing any ways?” The foreign blonde smiled while her eyes glittered dangerously.
“I am planning on going place’s with him and Naomi…” Haruhi looked over at Kaoru, he was silent but he looked like he was truly going to hurl at that moment.
“If you are planning to leave school grounds then no, I cannot let you have him for that price.” It was clear now to Anamé that she would just have to name the proper number and she would be able to have Kaoru for two weeks, the only problem now was finding that number. She decided to go a little higher to start with.
“Okay well…” She had a devious look on her face now. “How about I pay four times as much as the other patrons…” To jump from double to quadruple the amount of the other customers was enough to make Kyouya love someone.
“Four time’s as much?” He asked making sure he heard right. Anamé nodded smiling devilishly.
“I will pay four times as much, Naomi will pay double…” Kyouya tilted his head fathoming the money he would make from this. He made a quick note in his book before tearing out a piece of paper. He handed it to Anamé with a smile.
“Pay me this much tomorrow and you can have Kaoru-kun for two weeks no strings attached.”
“This full price?” She asked smiling from ear to ear.
“Yes, But I am expecting Miss Naomi to pay at the end of the two week’s.”
“Yes, that sounds nice; I will go tell her the good news now.” And with that Anamé turned and headed towards the classroom door.
Kaoru watched the door shut behind the blonde feeling all his respect for the vice president of the Host Club collapse before his eyes. The younger twin turned to look at Tamaki to see if he would help him, but he should have known better. He opened his mouth to speak but closed it doing his best not to scream or shout or say anything obscene to his upper classmen that had once been his friends.
“You sold me?” He finally said after a couple of minutes of trying to regain his composure.
“No I loaned you to-“
“You sold me to that she-devil!” Kaoru didn’t shout or curse at Kyouya, but he did growl in a rather disturbingly feral way, he was after all Hikaru’s brother.
“I didn’t sell you-“
“Shut-up and never speak to me again,” The strawberry blond turned around in his seat radiating anger out of every pour in his entire body. He was so pissed and the only one who could possibly understand how angry he was would be Haruhi. After all she knew what Anamé had done to him and just what she might do to him.
The bell rang for the end of lunch. Students began to make their way back to their own classrooms well others settled down in their own. The atmosphere in Haruhi’s class had changed-there was a seething anger there now that was infecting everyone’s mood. Hikaru was angry as well, but it was a silent anger that had been slowly growing each day. Kaoru’s anger on the other hand was infectious and was unlikely to fade anytime soon, so Haruhi left the twins alone the rest of the day.
The final bell rang and school ended abruptly. Haruhi left for the host club followed by Hikaru but Kaoru didn’t go. He stayed in the empty class room waiting for the time to pass so he could go home. Today had sucked and it seemed that it was only going to get worse.
It did and it didn’t.
The ride home was pure hell; having to sit next to his twin and not be able to speak nor touch nor even look at him made it worse. The silence was deafening and the tension could have been cut with a physical knife. When the ride seemed like it couldn’t get any worse it did, Hikaru spoke disturbing the awkward silence with his wonderful voice that made Kaoru love and hate him even more.
“You have to come to the Host club tomorrow…” Despite his want to say something the younger twin replied with a simple grunt.
“If you don’t Tamaki-senpai might be forced to put you on probation for the club, you know you can’t miss too many days at once…” The older of the two received a grunt for a reply again.
It was frustrating and very much resembled speaking to a wall. Kaoru was pushing; just he didn’t know how far he could be pushed or what would happen when he reached that limit. “Kaoru are you even listening to me?” Once again there was a grunt, an antagonizing grunt that was causing a headache for the older twin.
“Kaoru…” Hikaru rubbed the side of his head feeling it throb slightly. He received no reply this time and it made him even more annoyed then the grunt did.
They arrived at their home within a few minutes.
Kaoru immediately went up to his room and locked himself in. He tossed his school bag off into the corner while he began to change out of his uniform. While in the middle of putting a clean shirt on he heard someone stop outside his bedroom door. He knew it was Hikaru; it was a twin-feeling. He also knew his brother was feeling as bad as he was. The strawberry blond knew he was the cause of his brother’s anxiety and he hated himself for.
Hikaru left with out so much as a word or knock.
The night went by slowly and the twins found themselves going to sleep early. They slept in separate rooms as they had for the past week; but like the past week it was a restless sleep. One filled with tossing and turning and on occasion horrible dreams. One such dream penetrated the younger twins mind that night.
Kaoru slept in a half awake state of mind where he heard everything that went on around him but was unable to truly awake. He began to dream in this restless state of mind. Dream of his brother finding out about his… His, whatever his emotions truly were. He dreamt that the older twin was horrified and he called him names and such things-thing’s that made him want to no longer be there.
Kaoru rolled over in his sleep and curled up into a sort of ball continuing this nightmare of his. In his dream Anamé came and laughed at him, everyone began to laugh at him and say atrocious thing’s that made him want to die… And so Kaoru awoke from his nightmare in a cold sweat. He pulled his limbs up to his torso trying to calm himself, but that was near impossible. The younger twin trembled slightly trying to regain his composure; he failed miserably at the task and decided to seek comfort with someone else.
Someone he prayed would still accept him after having ignored him for over a week.
So at 3:30 AM the younger twin climbed out of bed and made his way to his other halves bedroom. The door was unlocked as in a silent gesture of saying that he was still wanted and welcome. Hikaru awoke with a start when Kaoru began to climb into the bed. He stared at the other strawberry blond in the darkness indecisive of whether or not to accept him. He did after a second delay and hugged him tightly trying to calm him down. Normally when one had a nightmare so did the other and it was of the same thing, but now… it was different. Hikaru had no clue as to what Kaoru had dreamed about or why it had affected him so strongly, but he still held him close hoping that he would stop trembling. He did once he fell asleep.
The twins slept soundly the rest of the night free from troubling dreams and restless sleep. They slept like they used to before Anamé had appeared and messed everything up, they slept in each others arms allowing their hearts to beat together in a calming manner. The rest of the night was peaceful…
And then the morning came.
Kaoru awoke with a start. He didn’t jump or anything like that, he just awoke suddenly. The younger twin didn’t think anything strange of where he was, after all he spent his whole life waking up to his brother, up until recently. It was only when he settled back down to return to whatever pleasant dream he was having did he remember.
Well it wasn’t really that he remembered anything-it was more like he inhaled his brother’s scent, intoxicating his mind and body giving rise to a peculiar feeling in his chest.
Kaoru blushed deeply when he opened his eyes. He was lying next to his twin wrapped in the elder’s arms with his face to a bare chest. As the blushing teen continued to properly awake, his mind begin to wander. He thought about where his leg’s where, one was in between Hikaru’s, and his arms where wrapped loosely around the older twin making sure he didn’t leave him. The younger male fought down the feeling that was slowly rising in his lower stomach and gently climbed out of bed so as not to wake his other half.
The strawberry blond shut himself in his room and slide down the door where he sat in a crumpled ball. He hated himself currently, he hated himself for having gone and sought comfort in something that he would eventually regret.
Time passed, so much time passed that he realized if he didn’t get ready for school soon he would be late and seeing as he had missed two day’s already he would be called in for a conference of sorts. They were never good.
The younger twin got dressed not thinking of anything out of his own will; he knew that if he thought of anything it would be his twin and that wouldn’t be the best thing for him or his heart at the moment. It dawned on Kaoru when he was putting his school jacket on that if Hikaru didn’t wake up he wouldn’t be attending school.
The younger twin stood in his room contemplating waking his brother up. His mind wandered to the phrase ’waking up his naked sleeping brother’. He flustered and pushed away his immoral thoughts before leaving his bedroom. If Hikaru didn’t wake up it wasn’t his fault.
The older twin stayed home that day while Kaoru left for school. He arrived early to his class before most of his fellow student’s and took his seat. Haruhi walked into the room not much later. She spotted the younger twin and headed right for him. Kaoru glanced at the female cross dresser with out actually saying anything. He could only think of the dream he had the night before. The little raccoon had been one of the many people who had said vile thing’s to him.
“Good Morning,” The dark haired girl greeted him taking her seat. “Where’s Hikaru?” she asked.
“He didn’t wake up…” The strawberry blond mumbled not looking at his friend. It hurt a little having to admit that his brother wasn’t there.
“Are you okay?” It was a really stupid question to ask after what had happened at lunch the day before. The younger twin looked at the raccoon slightly annoyed.
“No, I am not okay… I have to see the she-devil today and…” His voice trailed off as he remembered that he would have to play host with Anamé and Naomi that day, and what was worse was that he had let Hikaru miss school.
Today was going to be hell, a living nightmare and nothing else, or at least that’s what he was thinking. Haruhi continued to look at the younger twin trying to think of something to say of comfort but nothing came to mind and the school bell rang all too quickly. Their teacher began taking attendance and when he reached Hikaru’s name he hung on it.
“Hikaru?” He asked not looking up. The class was silent and some of the student’s glanced back at Kaoru who was frowning, he felt like he had been doing that a lot lately.
“Hikaru?” Their teacher spoke again this time looking up at the class.
“Kaoru where’s your brother?”
“Not here…” It was a simple reply that sounded dull and life less.
“I would like to speak to you after school today…” The strawberry blond replied with a simple grunt and nothing more. The class room was silent for another minute before their teacher continued taking roll.
Class began with a tedious lecture that seemed to take forever. The whole morning seemed to stay with the dull mundane feeling up until an hour before lunch; that was when Hikaru decided to show up. He opened the door to the classroom up and walked in. (1) The older twin headed on up to their current teacher and handed her a note.
“I’m here so erase my absence…” And with that he took his seat next to Haruhi and the window. Once the class had gone back to their work Hikaru tossed a piece of folded paper onto Kaoru’s desk. The recipient stared at it for the longest time unsure if he should open it up. Truthfully he was afraid he would be yelled at or something by his brother, but despite his fear he opened it up.
“I’m not going to ask why you didn’t wake me up but I am going to ask you what was wrong last night.” Kaoru stared at his brother’s familiar writing, he felt horrible for having not woken his other half up. The younger twin looked over at Hikaru who was watching him. He blushed slightly and looked away feeling even worse.
He wrote on the paper and then handed it back. All he had written was horribly scribbled and very messy-it said “I’m sorry.” Kaoru leaned his head down and buried his face in his arms; he wanted to be so far away from there, so very far away.
The lunch bell rang and the younger twin jumped awake ever so slightly. He had somehow fallen asleep without having meant to. Kaoru rubbed his eye’s and looked around the class room. Most of the students were pulling out their home made lunches or were leaving to go to the cafeteria. Haruhi had already begun her lunch while Hikaru stared out the window. She glanced at one twin then at the other before deciding to ask.
“Are either of you going to eat?” Hikaru was the first to reply.
“No, I ate before I came to school; I’m fine right now…” Haruhi turned her attention to Kaoru who rubbed his eye sleepily.
“I’m not hungry,” He lied. It was odd to the younger twin when he thought about it. Yes, he was hungry but he didn’t want to eat; he needed to he knew that but it was just the thought of food currently made him sick.
About fifteen minutes into lunch Tamaki stopped by the classroom with out Kyouya that day. Haruhi smiled at the blond as he took the seat in front of her. She was glad he had come to see her, the twins had currently made lunch feel like just another class.
“How come you didn’t bring mom today?” Tamaki looked at Hikaru seeing as he had been the one who had spoken.
“Kyouya had to do some business for our club… He said something about collecting payment for something…” It looked painful watching the blond try and remember something so to save him from burning out a brain cell Haruhi started to talk about something else.
Lunch ended all too quickly for her and once Tamaki was gone she turned back to the twins, they appeared to be in the same mood they had been in when lunch had started. The teacher they had in the morning came back to their class for the rest of the day. Kaoru spent most of the time with his head down while Hikaru seemed to be intently listening to whatever lecture was being given.
“Kaoru, sit up…” Their teacher’s voice cut through the silent classroom. He had been in the middle of a lecture when he realized that the twin was sleeping on his desk.
“Kaoru,” He grumbled at the teen but was granted no response.
“Kaoru Hitachiin!” He snapped and the twin jumped awake. “I would think you would be smart enough not to sleep in my class seeing as I already have to see you after school but no, it seems that you aren’t so I would like to have you stand in the hall until I think you should return.” It didn’t seem that much of a threat but having to mention the meeting after school caused Hikaru to stare at Kaoru as he walked out of the room.
The hall way was too bright for his liking and seemed to be an unnecessary contrast with the outside world; it was dark, cloudy, and windy. It matched how Kaoru felt in an almost ironic way. He squatted down next to the wall and stared out at the gloomy world.
Time passed but he didn’t know how much, all he knew was that he was beginning to fall asleep where he was. His eye’s shut and his head slipped from his hands as he slid in to the w sitting position. He was unsure of how long he had been out of it but at some point he heard someone walking down the hall. The twin knew he should wake up but he just couldn’t bring himself to care. That was when his sleepy mind realized the foot steps had stopped in front him.
“Kaoru what have you done to get your self kicked out of class.” ‘God why did it have to be her of all people in the school’’, the twin found himself wondering sleepily.
“Kaoru…” She had said his name again and it made him want to be back in his classroom. “Can you wake up just a little? It’d be nice if I got to talk to you while I’m here…” She put her hand on his shoulder and rubbed it slightly. Kaoru jumped a little at the contact. He looked up sleepily at Anamé’s face and felt himself gag a little.
“So what’d you do to get kicked out of class?” She smiled at him with her strange sadistic smile waiting for an answer that didn’t come. “OH, before I forget…” She reached into the pocket of her yellow dress and pulled out a folded piece of paper.
“This is my number and the time I am going to pick you up Saturday.” Kaoru stared at the foreign blonde unsure if he should be dismayed or disgusted by what she had said.
“You haven’t forgotten that we were going to see each other this weekend have you?” The twin shook his head feeling like if he did or said anything else she would turn into the devil.
“If you don’t show up I’ll be disappointed and so will your date…”
“Hunh?” Kaoru blinked stupidly at the girl as she grinned a devious smile.
“Have I not told you? No, I guess not… We are going out Saturday, Naomi and I, and you and your date. He really does like you…”
“What?” Kaoru’s voice was just a hare to loud for the hall.
“Well I must be going back to class I’ve been out a little to long, I think.” Anamé leaned forward and kissed Kaoru on the cheek. The door to the classroom slide open and the twin’s teacher stood there.
“What are you two doing?” Anamé stood up and most of the class noticed her and began whispering what they thought she and Kaoru had been doing in the hall. Haruhi glanced at Hikaru as the foreign blonde began explaining something another. He glared at the girl hatefully and the little raccoon could have sworn she had seen something in his eyes, something that had made her wonder.
“Go back to class,” She heard their teacher say. “Kaoru get back to your seat.”
The twin did so feeling everyone in the classroom stare at him accusingly. He sat down and glanced at his brother who stared at him blankly. This made him feel very, very uncomfortable.
“Let’s get back to class.” Their teacher’s voice rang out through the hushed conversations of the room silencing them completely. The rest of the day dragged on and on and on. When there was only thirty minute’s of school left the sky let out a down pour and the class began to fidget in their seats. The bell rang and everyone left almost instantly.
“Kaoru…” Their teacher called out to the twin before he had a chance to escape the room. Haruhi turned and looked at her friend from the door way. He gave her a weak smile as their teacher told her it would only take a few minutes.
“Go on ahead…” Kaoru told the female as he shut the door to the classroom. Haruhi made her way to the music room where the host club was. She walked in and was handed the costume of the day for the theme of the day, Incubuses.
“Where are Kaoru and Hikaru?” Kyouya asked as she headed towards the changing room. Hunny hurried past her in a very much (2) Gothic and Lolita outfit; Bun-Bun wore a matching one.
“Hikaru-kun’s taking his time getting here and Kaoru-kun had to speak to our teacher…” Kyouya sighed and made a note in his notebook. He looked up at the clock before deciding to say something.
“If Kaoru-kun doesn’t show up in less then twenty minutes then he will be put on probation for the club, Hikaru-kun wont be seeing as he hasn’t missed as many days as his brother.”
“…” Haruhi nodded her response before changing into the odd Gothic-Lolita outfit an Incubus might wear and began to help out in decorating the music room. Hikaru appeared within a few minute’s but Kaoru didn’t show. It was ten minutes till the club was to open and Kaoru’s time was up. The member’s of the host club sat together thinking of what to do about the younger twin. Hikaru had decided to not involve him self and left for a brief walk down the hall.
“It looks like he need’s to be put on probation.” Kyouya declared making a note in his book.
“I know I have to…” Tamaki sighed from his seat next to the vice president. “I have to it’s just that-“
“You’re worried about Kaoru-chan like the rest of us.” Hunny said from his seat on Mori’s lap.
“Kaoru-chan’s been acting weird and so has Hikaru-chan so you are worried like the rest of us.” Hunny held Bun-Bun tightly. There was an odd silence that followed the small male’s comment. The silence was broken by Mori.
“Is it a game?”
“Like before? No…” Kyouya made another note in his book.
“They aren’t just making this up, something’s really wrong with Kaoru-kun…” Kyouya looked at Haruhi from above the rim of his glasses after she spoke. “Haruhi-kun what do you know? What has Kaoru-kun told you?”
The female fidgeted in her seat slightly. She didn’t want to say anything; after all it wasn’t her place to gossip… But then again it directly involved the club seeing as it involved Anamé.
“Haruhi?” Tamaki addressed the little raccoon in a voice that wasn’t his usual idiotic lordly one.
“Did Kaoru-kun tell you something?” She fidgeted again hesitating before slowly nodding; she kept her eyes off of the other club members.
“Haruhi-chan…” Hunny hopped off of Mori’s lap and stood in front of the girl with big curious eyes.
“What’s wrong with Kaoru-chan…?”
“It’s not my place to say.”
“Haruhi,” Kyouya said her name in a bit of a flat tone making the female fidget even more. “You can tell like the rest of us that the twin’s look unhealthy right now and it’s because there’s something wrong with Kaoru-kun so please tell us what you know.” Haruhi glanced at Hunny who handed her Bun-Bun to hold.
“I-I don’t know what’s wrong with him… He came to my place once saying he didn’t want to go home. He looked like he had been crying and I couldn’t tell him no… He told me that Miss Anamé had messed up his relationship with Hikaru-kun… She…” Haruhi felt horrible for telling them this and hugged Bun-Bun tighter. She was telling them something Kaoru might have wanted to have kept secret.
The door to the music room opened and in walked Hikaru. He stared at the club members a minute before sighing.
“Has Kaoru still not come?”
“No and he is going to be put on probation.” Kyouya watched Hikaru rub his temples for a few seconds.
“He’s still in the class room I’ll go grab him…” Hikaru turned to leave the room when Tamaki did something that surprised everyone. He used his power as the club president and told Hikaru to stay.
“Why? He’s my brother I’ll get him here.”
“No,” Tamaki shook his head at Hikaru. “I am the president of the club; I have to tell him that he is being put on probation.” Hikaru glared at Tamaki keeping himself from saying anything vile to the older male. “Look I’ll bring Kaoru-kun back here in a few minutes and we can make him tell us what’s been wrong.”
Hikaru stared at Tamaki a few seconds before muttering ’whatever’ and taking a seat. There was no one in the hall outside the twin’s and Haruhi’s classroom; their teacher had left and the room appeared empty. Tamaki took two steps in and noticed the younger twin sitting in the corner huddled in a sort of ball. The blond lord shut the door quietly and headed over to the smaller male. He had his head buried in his arms and his knee’s pulled up to his face.
“Kaoru-kun…” Tamaki sat down in front of the twin waiting for an answer. “Kaoru-kun…” He received a muffled response this time.
“Go away…” The blond lord stared at the strawberry blond, Kaoru’s voice had sounded raspy, like he had been crying.
“Kaoru-kun what’s wrong…”
“Nothing.” The reply was instantaneous and seemed a bit snappy.
“Kaoru-kun…” Tamaki scooted a little closer to the strawberry blond who seemed to scrunch up into a smaller ball.
“Just leave me alone.” The blond sighed and decided to try something else.
“You haven’t come to the host club all week meaning you are being put on probation.” Kaoru nodded but gave no verbal reply, so Tamaki waited a second before continuing.
“Everyone in the club knows something’s wrong. We’re all worried about you. You look like you haven’t been eating let alone sleeping. There’s something wrong and it’s affecting Hikaru-kun just as much as you…” Kaoru shifted a little and replied with a simple sentence.
“There’s nothing wrong.” It was a stupid lie but one he couldn’t help but attempt, who knows maybe a miracle would happen and the floor would give out below him, but no miracle happened.
“Kaoru-kun there’s something wrong. If there was nothing wrong you wouldn’t be sitting in the back of your classroom in a fetal position crying let alone looking so unhealthy and sick.” There was silence that followed Tamaki then Kaoru decided to say something in a very soft voice.
“Why are you pushing?”
“Pushing?” The blond lord repeated; the younger twin nodded his head slowly.
“You are pushing, why?”
“…” Tamaki wasn’t sure how to reply so the twin decided to say something else.
“You told me what you came here to say. I am on probation for the club I understand that now so you should just go back to the others and let me be.”
“No.” Kaoru lifted his head up a little so he could look at his friend.
“What is it that you want?” His eye’s were a little red indicating that Tamaki had been right when he had said that the younger twin had been crying.
“I want to know what is wrong with you.” It was a simple statement that required a complex answer.
“You want to know?” Kaoru’s voice carried a mixture of emotions.
Tamaki nodded waiting for more to be said.
“I…” There was a long pause of silence before Kaoru continued. “Iaminlovewithsomeone…”
Tamaki blinked pulling the words out of Kaoru’s jumbled and quickly spoken sentence. When he realized what had been said he repeated it to make sure he had heard it right. “You are in love with someone?” The blond blinked stupidly, he had thought something much worse had been going on with the twin.
“Ye-yes I am…”
“That’s not so bad…” The smaller male stared at Tamaki a second before looking away.
“I can’t be though.” He shifted a little before moving into the w sitting position.
“Why?” There was more silence before Kaoru decided to speak again.
“I can’t love this person…” It was said in a very soft and sad tone making Tamaki feel sorry for the younger teen. Then he wondered why that had been said to began with.
“Because of your brother?” Kaoru’s eye’s snapped up to look at the blond lord studying his face and what had been said.
“Yes and no…”
“Then what’s wrong with you loving her?” Kaoru closed his eyes at the last word. Tamaki had assumed that Kaoru was in love with a female, but then what would have indicated otherwise? “Kaoru-kun? Who is it that you love; does that have something to do with your behavior?”
“Very much so…”
“Then why not talk about it, maybe tell her…” The blond had said that word again, he had said ‘her’ still assuming that Kaoru was in love with a female.
“I-I can’t talk about it.”
“Why not?”
“I-I just can’t…” Kaoru felt very vulnerable at that moment and he hated it. The more Tamaki stared at him the more he felt like he was being monitored for some sort of obscene virus.
“Kaoru-kun just who is she?” He assumed again and it was beginning to annoy the twin. He decided not to reply to Tamaki’s question ,waiting for something else to be said.
“Is she a friend?” The smaller male felt his eyebrow twitch with annoyance.
“Does she come to our club?” He said she again and Kaoru felt himself twitch again.
“Do I know her?” The snap was almost audible to the blond. He had pushed to far and had asked one too many questions.
Kaoru’s head snapped in Tamaki’s direction and he glared at him.
“Why won’t you shut up? You just keep asking and assuming. You don’t understand-you probably never will, seeing as I highly doubt that you have ever been in love with your best friend!” Kaoru had grown increasingly closer to Tamaki as he shouted at him.
“Best friend? So is it Haruhi? You love my daughter don’t you?” Tamaki had only meant to tease lightly but this statement had only caused Kaoru to snap completely.
“I don’t like her, I don’t like any girl! I’m in love with a guy so will you shut up about this her and she shit!” Kaoru had grown a little closer to the blond who had leaned back some. He blinked taking in what had been said before he decided to say something.
“So you are in love with one of your best friends that’s a guy?” Kaoru nodded trying not to shout again. Then the blond idiotic lord said something that wasn’t all that annoying or stupid. “What’s so bad about that? I guess it’s not so surprising that you are bisexual or gay seeing as how you act for the club…” Kaoru stared at the blond, he just wasn’t getting it.
“You don’t get it, I can’t love this person!” Kaoru snapped.
“Why not?”
”Because I can’t! I’m not supposed to be in love with him, I’m not…”
“Then why are you?” The younger twin had to think about this question. Why was he in love with Hikaru? Why did he want him so much? It had to be something… after all he was sixteen… Maybe-maybe he was just…
“I might just be really horny I’ve never had any urges until now so maybe I’m just horny…” Tamaki stared stupidly at Kaoru, he really hadn’t expected that. The younger twin turned to the older teen and stared at him.
“I need fixed.” He declared and the blond lord still didn’t answer. “Can you help fix me?”
“Fix…you?” Tamaki repeated. He really had no clue as to what was going to happen now-before he had been able to at least guess what the twin might do.
“Yes you can fix me… I’m just way to horny so you can help fix that.”
“H-How?” Kaoru scooted himself closer to Tamaki and was now pretty much sitting on his lap.
“You can…fuck me…” The blond stared wide eyed at the younger teen. This was the last thing he expected to have happen let alone be said.
“Wh-what?” He asked feeling himself be pushed backwards.
“Fuck me…” Kaoru had pushed the older male onto the ground now and was straddling him.
“Kaoru-kun, I can’t… this is weird, what are you doi-“ He was silenced by the twin’s mouth. The blond blushed slightly and pushed Kaoru away from him. “What are you doing?” Tamaki asked doing his best to hold the twin back. Kaoru blinked innocently and then smiled undoing the top of the pant’s Tamaki was wearing.
“You want on top don’t you?” The strawberry blond rolled the two of them over so that Tamaki laid on Kaoru. The older teen instantly went to sit up to get away from the situation but was pulled back down. He had been pulled back down into a rather forceful kiss by the twin.
“Please Tamaki-senpai it won’t be hard, I’ll get everything we need, I’ll pay for everything.” Kaoru begged. He was actually begging the blond to, to…
“No, this is weird and not right Kaoru-kun I’m only you’re fri-“ The twin had taken advantage of the lord’s sentence and had kissed him once again, this time he used his tongue. Tamaki pulled Kaoru’s arm’s away from around his neck and pinned them to the floor so they couldn’t do anymore harm. That’s when the door to the classroom opened up softly.
The blond lord pulled away from the younger twin and managed to sit up; he looked up at the person in the door way and said two words.
“Oh shit…” It was rare for Tamaki to curse but for him to say shit or fuck meant that he knew he had done something really wrong. Kaoru sat up to see who Tamaki was looking at-needless to say he became very, very white. Hikaru stared at his brother and former friend for less then a minute before turning to leave the classroom. He looked shocked and upset but most of all he looked pissed.
“Wait Hikaru-kun!” Tamaki got up and ran after the older twin leaving Kaoru in the classroom.
“Hikaru-kun!” The blond called again chasing the twin back to the music room. “It’s not what it looked like! I swear!” Hikaru flung the door to the music room open startling the rest of the host club members and the patrons that Kyouya had decided to let in during Tamaki’s absence.
“Not what it looks like?” Hikaru growled at his former friend refusing to look at him. “You were lying on top of him!” The older twin didn’t care who heard this, he wanted nothing less then to humiliate the idiotic blond lord at that moment.
“It wasn’t like that!” The blond protested.
“YOU HAD YOUR TONGUE DOWN HIS THROAT!” Kyouya sighed in the back ground and told Mori and Hunny that they should start ushering patrons out, nothing about this fight seemed like it could be civil let alone pious.
“He did that to me!” Tamaki was failing wonderfully to put up any sort of fight.
“SO HE UNDID YOUR PANTS TO?!” Tamaki’s eye’s got large as he looked down; he really hadn’t noticed or even felt that happen. Hikaru turned satisfied with the look of embarrassment on Tamaki’s face before heading off to the make shift changing room. Kyouya closed the doors once the last patron was out and sighed. Tamaki was in a puddle of tears at his feet.
“Tell him!” The puddle whined. “Tell him I didn’t do anything wrong! That evil child pushed me on the floor when I was trying to help!” Kyouya sighed and frowned at Tamaki who continued to cry.
“You and Kaoru-kun were the only ones in the room. I doubt Hikaru-kun will listen to anyone about what happened except Kaoru-kun…” There was a soft knock on the door and Kyouya turned to open it. Kaoru walked into the room slowly. He looked very pale and a bit like he was going to be sick.
“Kao-chan!” Hunny snapped from the top of Mori’s head. “Did you really do that to Tama-chan? That wasn’t nice; you are making our club look very bad!” Being scolded by Hunny was a new one for Kaoru, but he knew he deserved it.
“Did you really take advantage of Tamaki-senpai?” Haruhi was the one to ask and it made Kaoru fidget a little. The younger twin nodded slowly and there was an odd silence that filled the club that ended with a softly spoken why from the older twin.
“I don’t know…” Kaoru spoke to the floor unwilling to look anyone in the eye. “I think…” He began taking his time with his words. He was going to do something that he doubted anyone would expect. After all Hunny was right, he was damaging the Host club.
“I think…” Another long pause before any more words were spoken. Then he said it, he said something that even surprised Kyouya who seemed to know everything that happened before it did. “I think I’m going to quit the club…” Silence, there was nothing but silence that followed.
Then Mori spoke what the others had been thinking. “Why? Everything seemed fine last week.”
Kaoru gave a small laugh filled with a strange sadness that no one could truly comprehend. “Last week was a long time ago for me…” Kaoru turned and left the music room after that.
Stage Two: Realization Part II end…
Well… let’s address thing before we start on this… short discussion…
Anamé’s name is pronounced An-a-may kind of like anime but more pronunciation on the a…
1) Here I am just making a note to say that (incase you don’t know) Japanese schools aren’t like American schools. Instead of the student’s changing rooms the teachers do. I gave Haruhi, Hikaru and Kaoru the same teacher in the morning and at the end of the day.
2) Gothic and Lolita is a type of clothing style in Japan similar to what our Hot Topic is producing right now, but not so much. They have some really REALLY nifty clothes there, that are awesome to me. Hunny would be in a more Lolita like outfit then the others.
Next: Stage Three Destructive personality Part I
Au Revior,
~Israfel~
Warning: Yaoi-incest, cursing, angst-the basics, if you do not like any of that, or cannot tolerate it then do not read.
Author's Note: -_-; I'm sleepy...
Stage Two:
Realization
Part II
The twins sat in silence not saying a word to one another or to Haruhi who sat in between them. She occasionally stole a glance at one or the other unsure if she should say something. It was about ten minutes into lunch when Tamaki made his usual stop by, today he brought Kyouya with him.
“Haruhi-kun!” The blond called as he entered the room followed by the dark haired teen. The little raccoon looked up at the older teens quite happy to see them.
“Hi,” She said with a genuine smile. Kyouya sat down in an empty desk near by as Tamaki did the same. The twins gave no acknowledgment to the two nor did they attempt to be part of the idle chat that Haruhi was having with the older teen. Kyouya watched the two, jotting something down in his book every now and then.
“Are you two going to be here tomorrow?” He asked ignoring the conversation between Haruhi and Tamaki.
“Yes…” they replied in the same dull and unenthusiastic tone of voice.
“I’ll hold you to it seeing as you haven’t been the most reliable people this week.”
Kaoru slumped over onto his desk. Despite having sleep all night and most of yesterday he felt really very tired still.
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“Kaoru…” He heard his voice being called but he didn’t care, he was close to falling asleep. “Kaoru, she’s here…” It was Hikaru’s voice, but just who was ‘she’…
“Kaoru she came to see you so wake up.” Hikaru sounded distant and uncaring; it made his heart hurt a little.
“Actually I came to see Kyouya-san,” It was that voice, that despicable female voice that was so falsely sweet.
The younger twin sat up instantly realizing that somewhere in his half awake state Anamé had come to the classroom. He turned to look at the foreign blonde who smiled at him.
“You can go back to sleep, you seem tired, and like I told Hikaru-san, I’m not here to see you, I’ll see you tomorrow, after all Naomi and I have prepaid for Friday.” The strange blonde turned her attention towards Kyouya now.
“So what can I do for you today?” He asked politely.
“I,” She started not seeming to care much that most people in the classroom were watching her. It was quite apparent that students had heard about her and Kaoru’s kiss. “I would like to buy Kaoru’s time for the next two week’s.” Kyouya blinked not sure if he should take the blonde seriously.
“You would like to buy his time?” Tamaki asked hesitant of what to really think, so he didn’t, he just watched his friend and the strange female speak.
“Yes, I would like to buy Kaoru’s time from the club for the next two week’s.” Anamé repeated smiling her disturbingly sadistic grin before continuing. It was apparent that she liked to be the center of attention when it came to a group of attractive men. “I will pay you well for his time, just think of it as if you were loaning him to me for just a short while.”
“I’m afraid I can’t just loan you one of our club members.” Kaoru felt a new respect growing for the vice president.
“Oh is that so? Well I know you have a price and I am willing to pay it.” The blonde’s smile grew some more, it was clear that she wasn’t going to give up.
“Are you implying that you can bribe me?” Kyouya continued to smile at the girl even though Tamaki and Haruhi could sense his annoyance growing.
“Oh I would never bribe you.” Anamé looked like she had been offended by the older males comment. “I am just saying that I will pay you well for Kaoru’s time.” The younger twin hated how she so freely used his name where as whenever she said anybody else’s she would use a proper suffix.
“I am sorry but he has been booked by other patron’s for the next three week’s.” Kyouya remained resilient even when being offered some money. But just as Tamaki and Haruhi could predict, it would only be a matter of time before Anamé hit a price that the vice president couldn’t refuse.
“I see…” The foreign blonde was silent, thinking of something else to say. “How about if I pay double what the other females have promised?” Kyouya looked thoughtful as he calculated numbers in his mind. Hikaru was listening now but made sure his face stayed stoic with everything that was said.
“I still don’t think I can loan you Kaoru-kun, just what are you planning on doing any ways?” The foreign blonde smiled while her eyes glittered dangerously.
“I am planning on going place’s with him and Naomi…” Haruhi looked over at Kaoru, he was silent but he looked like he was truly going to hurl at that moment.
“If you are planning to leave school grounds then no, I cannot let you have him for that price.” It was clear now to Anamé that she would just have to name the proper number and she would be able to have Kaoru for two weeks, the only problem now was finding that number. She decided to go a little higher to start with.
“Okay well…” She had a devious look on her face now. “How about I pay four times as much as the other patrons…” To jump from double to quadruple the amount of the other customers was enough to make Kyouya love someone.
“Four time’s as much?” He asked making sure he heard right. Anamé nodded smiling devilishly.
“I will pay four times as much, Naomi will pay double…” Kyouya tilted his head fathoming the money he would make from this. He made a quick note in his book before tearing out a piece of paper. He handed it to Anamé with a smile.
“Pay me this much tomorrow and you can have Kaoru-kun for two weeks no strings attached.”
“This full price?” She asked smiling from ear to ear.
“Yes, But I am expecting Miss Naomi to pay at the end of the two week’s.”
“Yes, that sounds nice; I will go tell her the good news now.” And with that Anamé turned and headed towards the classroom door.
Kaoru watched the door shut behind the blonde feeling all his respect for the vice president of the Host Club collapse before his eyes. The younger twin turned to look at Tamaki to see if he would help him, but he should have known better. He opened his mouth to speak but closed it doing his best not to scream or shout or say anything obscene to his upper classmen that had once been his friends.
“You sold me?” He finally said after a couple of minutes of trying to regain his composure.
“No I loaned you to-“
“You sold me to that she-devil!” Kaoru didn’t shout or curse at Kyouya, but he did growl in a rather disturbingly feral way, he was after all Hikaru’s brother.
“I didn’t sell you-“
“Shut-up and never speak to me again,” The strawberry blond turned around in his seat radiating anger out of every pour in his entire body. He was so pissed and the only one who could possibly understand how angry he was would be Haruhi. After all she knew what Anamé had done to him and just what she might do to him.
The bell rang for the end of lunch. Students began to make their way back to their own classrooms well others settled down in their own. The atmosphere in Haruhi’s class had changed-there was a seething anger there now that was infecting everyone’s mood. Hikaru was angry as well, but it was a silent anger that had been slowly growing each day. Kaoru’s anger on the other hand was infectious and was unlikely to fade anytime soon, so Haruhi left the twins alone the rest of the day.
The final bell rang and school ended abruptly. Haruhi left for the host club followed by Hikaru but Kaoru didn’t go. He stayed in the empty class room waiting for the time to pass so he could go home. Today had sucked and it seemed that it was only going to get worse.
It did and it didn’t.
The ride home was pure hell; having to sit next to his twin and not be able to speak nor touch nor even look at him made it worse. The silence was deafening and the tension could have been cut with a physical knife. When the ride seemed like it couldn’t get any worse it did, Hikaru spoke disturbing the awkward silence with his wonderful voice that made Kaoru love and hate him even more.
“You have to come to the Host club tomorrow…” Despite his want to say something the younger twin replied with a simple grunt.
“If you don’t Tamaki-senpai might be forced to put you on probation for the club, you know you can’t miss too many days at once…” The older of the two received a grunt for a reply again.
It was frustrating and very much resembled speaking to a wall. Kaoru was pushing; just he didn’t know how far he could be pushed or what would happen when he reached that limit. “Kaoru are you even listening to me?” Once again there was a grunt, an antagonizing grunt that was causing a headache for the older twin.
“Kaoru…” Hikaru rubbed the side of his head feeling it throb slightly. He received no reply this time and it made him even more annoyed then the grunt did.
They arrived at their home within a few minutes.
Kaoru immediately went up to his room and locked himself in. He tossed his school bag off into the corner while he began to change out of his uniform. While in the middle of putting a clean shirt on he heard someone stop outside his bedroom door. He knew it was Hikaru; it was a twin-feeling. He also knew his brother was feeling as bad as he was. The strawberry blond knew he was the cause of his brother’s anxiety and he hated himself for.
Hikaru left with out so much as a word or knock.
The night went by slowly and the twins found themselves going to sleep early. They slept in separate rooms as they had for the past week; but like the past week it was a restless sleep. One filled with tossing and turning and on occasion horrible dreams. One such dream penetrated the younger twins mind that night.
Kaoru slept in a half awake state of mind where he heard everything that went on around him but was unable to truly awake. He began to dream in this restless state of mind. Dream of his brother finding out about his… His, whatever his emotions truly were. He dreamt that the older twin was horrified and he called him names and such things-thing’s that made him want to no longer be there.
Kaoru rolled over in his sleep and curled up into a sort of ball continuing this nightmare of his. In his dream Anamé came and laughed at him, everyone began to laugh at him and say atrocious thing’s that made him want to die… And so Kaoru awoke from his nightmare in a cold sweat. He pulled his limbs up to his torso trying to calm himself, but that was near impossible. The younger twin trembled slightly trying to regain his composure; he failed miserably at the task and decided to seek comfort with someone else.
Someone he prayed would still accept him after having ignored him for over a week.
So at 3:30 AM the younger twin climbed out of bed and made his way to his other halves bedroom. The door was unlocked as in a silent gesture of saying that he was still wanted and welcome. Hikaru awoke with a start when Kaoru began to climb into the bed. He stared at the other strawberry blond in the darkness indecisive of whether or not to accept him. He did after a second delay and hugged him tightly trying to calm him down. Normally when one had a nightmare so did the other and it was of the same thing, but now… it was different. Hikaru had no clue as to what Kaoru had dreamed about or why it had affected him so strongly, but he still held him close hoping that he would stop trembling. He did once he fell asleep.
The twins slept soundly the rest of the night free from troubling dreams and restless sleep. They slept like they used to before Anamé had appeared and messed everything up, they slept in each others arms allowing their hearts to beat together in a calming manner. The rest of the night was peaceful…
And then the morning came.
Kaoru awoke with a start. He didn’t jump or anything like that, he just awoke suddenly. The younger twin didn’t think anything strange of where he was, after all he spent his whole life waking up to his brother, up until recently. It was only when he settled back down to return to whatever pleasant dream he was having did he remember.
Well it wasn’t really that he remembered anything-it was more like he inhaled his brother’s scent, intoxicating his mind and body giving rise to a peculiar feeling in his chest.
Kaoru blushed deeply when he opened his eyes. He was lying next to his twin wrapped in the elder’s arms with his face to a bare chest. As the blushing teen continued to properly awake, his mind begin to wander. He thought about where his leg’s where, one was in between Hikaru’s, and his arms where wrapped loosely around the older twin making sure he didn’t leave him. The younger male fought down the feeling that was slowly rising in his lower stomach and gently climbed out of bed so as not to wake his other half.
The strawberry blond shut himself in his room and slide down the door where he sat in a crumpled ball. He hated himself currently, he hated himself for having gone and sought comfort in something that he would eventually regret.
Time passed, so much time passed that he realized if he didn’t get ready for school soon he would be late and seeing as he had missed two day’s already he would be called in for a conference of sorts. They were never good.
The younger twin got dressed not thinking of anything out of his own will; he knew that if he thought of anything it would be his twin and that wouldn’t be the best thing for him or his heart at the moment. It dawned on Kaoru when he was putting his school jacket on that if Hikaru didn’t wake up he wouldn’t be attending school.
The younger twin stood in his room contemplating waking his brother up. His mind wandered to the phrase ’waking up his naked sleeping brother’. He flustered and pushed away his immoral thoughts before leaving his bedroom. If Hikaru didn’t wake up it wasn’t his fault.
The older twin stayed home that day while Kaoru left for school. He arrived early to his class before most of his fellow student’s and took his seat. Haruhi walked into the room not much later. She spotted the younger twin and headed right for him. Kaoru glanced at the female cross dresser with out actually saying anything. He could only think of the dream he had the night before. The little raccoon had been one of the many people who had said vile thing’s to him.
“Good Morning,” The dark haired girl greeted him taking her seat. “Where’s Hikaru?” she asked.
“He didn’t wake up…” The strawberry blond mumbled not looking at his friend. It hurt a little having to admit that his brother wasn’t there.
“Are you okay?” It was a really stupid question to ask after what had happened at lunch the day before. The younger twin looked at the raccoon slightly annoyed.
“No, I am not okay… I have to see the she-devil today and…” His voice trailed off as he remembered that he would have to play host with Anamé and Naomi that day, and what was worse was that he had let Hikaru miss school.
Today was going to be hell, a living nightmare and nothing else, or at least that’s what he was thinking. Haruhi continued to look at the younger twin trying to think of something to say of comfort but nothing came to mind and the school bell rang all too quickly. Their teacher began taking attendance and when he reached Hikaru’s name he hung on it.
“Hikaru?” He asked not looking up. The class was silent and some of the student’s glanced back at Kaoru who was frowning, he felt like he had been doing that a lot lately.
“Hikaru?” Their teacher spoke again this time looking up at the class.
“Kaoru where’s your brother?”
“Not here…” It was a simple reply that sounded dull and life less.
“I would like to speak to you after school today…” The strawberry blond replied with a simple grunt and nothing more. The class room was silent for another minute before their teacher continued taking roll.
Class began with a tedious lecture that seemed to take forever. The whole morning seemed to stay with the dull mundane feeling up until an hour before lunch; that was when Hikaru decided to show up. He opened the door to the classroom up and walked in. (1) The older twin headed on up to their current teacher and handed her a note.
“I’m here so erase my absence…” And with that he took his seat next to Haruhi and the window. Once the class had gone back to their work Hikaru tossed a piece of folded paper onto Kaoru’s desk. The recipient stared at it for the longest time unsure if he should open it up. Truthfully he was afraid he would be yelled at or something by his brother, but despite his fear he opened it up.
“I’m not going to ask why you didn’t wake me up but I am going to ask you what was wrong last night.” Kaoru stared at his brother’s familiar writing, he felt horrible for having not woken his other half up. The younger twin looked over at Hikaru who was watching him. He blushed slightly and looked away feeling even worse.
He wrote on the paper and then handed it back. All he had written was horribly scribbled and very messy-it said “I’m sorry.” Kaoru leaned his head down and buried his face in his arms; he wanted to be so far away from there, so very far away.
The lunch bell rang and the younger twin jumped awake ever so slightly. He had somehow fallen asleep without having meant to. Kaoru rubbed his eye’s and looked around the class room. Most of the students were pulling out their home made lunches or were leaving to go to the cafeteria. Haruhi had already begun her lunch while Hikaru stared out the window. She glanced at one twin then at the other before deciding to ask.
“Are either of you going to eat?” Hikaru was the first to reply.
“No, I ate before I came to school; I’m fine right now…” Haruhi turned her attention to Kaoru who rubbed his eye sleepily.
“I’m not hungry,” He lied. It was odd to the younger twin when he thought about it. Yes, he was hungry but he didn’t want to eat; he needed to he knew that but it was just the thought of food currently made him sick.
About fifteen minutes into lunch Tamaki stopped by the classroom with out Kyouya that day. Haruhi smiled at the blond as he took the seat in front of her. She was glad he had come to see her, the twins had currently made lunch feel like just another class.
“How come you didn’t bring mom today?” Tamaki looked at Hikaru seeing as he had been the one who had spoken.
“Kyouya had to do some business for our club… He said something about collecting payment for something…” It looked painful watching the blond try and remember something so to save him from burning out a brain cell Haruhi started to talk about something else.
Lunch ended all too quickly for her and once Tamaki was gone she turned back to the twins, they appeared to be in the same mood they had been in when lunch had started. The teacher they had in the morning came back to their class for the rest of the day. Kaoru spent most of the time with his head down while Hikaru seemed to be intently listening to whatever lecture was being given.
“Kaoru, sit up…” Their teacher’s voice cut through the silent classroom. He had been in the middle of a lecture when he realized that the twin was sleeping on his desk.
“Kaoru,” He grumbled at the teen but was granted no response.
“Kaoru Hitachiin!” He snapped and the twin jumped awake. “I would think you would be smart enough not to sleep in my class seeing as I already have to see you after school but no, it seems that you aren’t so I would like to have you stand in the hall until I think you should return.” It didn’t seem that much of a threat but having to mention the meeting after school caused Hikaru to stare at Kaoru as he walked out of the room.
The hall way was too bright for his liking and seemed to be an unnecessary contrast with the outside world; it was dark, cloudy, and windy. It matched how Kaoru felt in an almost ironic way. He squatted down next to the wall and stared out at the gloomy world.
Time passed but he didn’t know how much, all he knew was that he was beginning to fall asleep where he was. His eye’s shut and his head slipped from his hands as he slid in to the w sitting position. He was unsure of how long he had been out of it but at some point he heard someone walking down the hall. The twin knew he should wake up but he just couldn’t bring himself to care. That was when his sleepy mind realized the foot steps had stopped in front him.
“Kaoru what have you done to get your self kicked out of class.” ‘God why did it have to be her of all people in the school’’, the twin found himself wondering sleepily.
“Kaoru…” She had said his name again and it made him want to be back in his classroom. “Can you wake up just a little? It’d be nice if I got to talk to you while I’m here…” She put her hand on his shoulder and rubbed it slightly. Kaoru jumped a little at the contact. He looked up sleepily at Anamé’s face and felt himself gag a little.
“So what’d you do to get kicked out of class?” She smiled at him with her strange sadistic smile waiting for an answer that didn’t come. “OH, before I forget…” She reached into the pocket of her yellow dress and pulled out a folded piece of paper.
“This is my number and the time I am going to pick you up Saturday.” Kaoru stared at the foreign blonde unsure if he should be dismayed or disgusted by what she had said.
“You haven’t forgotten that we were going to see each other this weekend have you?” The twin shook his head feeling like if he did or said anything else she would turn into the devil.
“If you don’t show up I’ll be disappointed and so will your date…”
“Hunh?” Kaoru blinked stupidly at the girl as she grinned a devious smile.
“Have I not told you? No, I guess not… We are going out Saturday, Naomi and I, and you and your date. He really does like you…”
“What?” Kaoru’s voice was just a hare to loud for the hall.
“Well I must be going back to class I’ve been out a little to long, I think.” Anamé leaned forward and kissed Kaoru on the cheek. The door to the classroom slide open and the twin’s teacher stood there.
“What are you two doing?” Anamé stood up and most of the class noticed her and began whispering what they thought she and Kaoru had been doing in the hall. Haruhi glanced at Hikaru as the foreign blonde began explaining something another. He glared at the girl hatefully and the little raccoon could have sworn she had seen something in his eyes, something that had made her wonder.
“Go back to class,” She heard their teacher say. “Kaoru get back to your seat.”
The twin did so feeling everyone in the classroom stare at him accusingly. He sat down and glanced at his brother who stared at him blankly. This made him feel very, very uncomfortable.
“Let’s get back to class.” Their teacher’s voice rang out through the hushed conversations of the room silencing them completely. The rest of the day dragged on and on and on. When there was only thirty minute’s of school left the sky let out a down pour and the class began to fidget in their seats. The bell rang and everyone left almost instantly.
“Kaoru…” Their teacher called out to the twin before he had a chance to escape the room. Haruhi turned and looked at her friend from the door way. He gave her a weak smile as their teacher told her it would only take a few minutes.
“Go on ahead…” Kaoru told the female as he shut the door to the classroom. Haruhi made her way to the music room where the host club was. She walked in and was handed the costume of the day for the theme of the day, Incubuses.
“Where are Kaoru and Hikaru?” Kyouya asked as she headed towards the changing room. Hunny hurried past her in a very much (2) Gothic and Lolita outfit; Bun-Bun wore a matching one.
“Hikaru-kun’s taking his time getting here and Kaoru-kun had to speak to our teacher…” Kyouya sighed and made a note in his notebook. He looked up at the clock before deciding to say something.
“If Kaoru-kun doesn’t show up in less then twenty minutes then he will be put on probation for the club, Hikaru-kun wont be seeing as he hasn’t missed as many days as his brother.”
“…” Haruhi nodded her response before changing into the odd Gothic-Lolita outfit an Incubus might wear and began to help out in decorating the music room. Hikaru appeared within a few minute’s but Kaoru didn’t show. It was ten minutes till the club was to open and Kaoru’s time was up. The member’s of the host club sat together thinking of what to do about the younger twin. Hikaru had decided to not involve him self and left for a brief walk down the hall.
“It looks like he need’s to be put on probation.” Kyouya declared making a note in his book.
“I know I have to…” Tamaki sighed from his seat next to the vice president. “I have to it’s just that-“
“You’re worried about Kaoru-chan like the rest of us.” Hunny said from his seat on Mori’s lap.
“Kaoru-chan’s been acting weird and so has Hikaru-chan so you are worried like the rest of us.” Hunny held Bun-Bun tightly. There was an odd silence that followed the small male’s comment. The silence was broken by Mori.
“Is it a game?”
“Like before? No…” Kyouya made another note in his book.
“They aren’t just making this up, something’s really wrong with Kaoru-kun…” Kyouya looked at Haruhi from above the rim of his glasses after she spoke. “Haruhi-kun what do you know? What has Kaoru-kun told you?”
The female fidgeted in her seat slightly. She didn’t want to say anything; after all it wasn’t her place to gossip… But then again it directly involved the club seeing as it involved Anamé.
“Haruhi?” Tamaki addressed the little raccoon in a voice that wasn’t his usual idiotic lordly one.
“Did Kaoru-kun tell you something?” She fidgeted again hesitating before slowly nodding; she kept her eyes off of the other club members.
“Haruhi-chan…” Hunny hopped off of Mori’s lap and stood in front of the girl with big curious eyes.
“What’s wrong with Kaoru-chan…?”
“It’s not my place to say.”
“Haruhi,” Kyouya said her name in a bit of a flat tone making the female fidget even more. “You can tell like the rest of us that the twin’s look unhealthy right now and it’s because there’s something wrong with Kaoru-kun so please tell us what you know.” Haruhi glanced at Hunny who handed her Bun-Bun to hold.
“I-I don’t know what’s wrong with him… He came to my place once saying he didn’t want to go home. He looked like he had been crying and I couldn’t tell him no… He told me that Miss Anamé had messed up his relationship with Hikaru-kun… She…” Haruhi felt horrible for telling them this and hugged Bun-Bun tighter. She was telling them something Kaoru might have wanted to have kept secret.
The door to the music room opened and in walked Hikaru. He stared at the club members a minute before sighing.
“Has Kaoru still not come?”
“No and he is going to be put on probation.” Kyouya watched Hikaru rub his temples for a few seconds.
“He’s still in the class room I’ll go grab him…” Hikaru turned to leave the room when Tamaki did something that surprised everyone. He used his power as the club president and told Hikaru to stay.
“Why? He’s my brother I’ll get him here.”
“No,” Tamaki shook his head at Hikaru. “I am the president of the club; I have to tell him that he is being put on probation.” Hikaru glared at Tamaki keeping himself from saying anything vile to the older male. “Look I’ll bring Kaoru-kun back here in a few minutes and we can make him tell us what’s been wrong.”
Hikaru stared at Tamaki a few seconds before muttering ’whatever’ and taking a seat. There was no one in the hall outside the twin’s and Haruhi’s classroom; their teacher had left and the room appeared empty. Tamaki took two steps in and noticed the younger twin sitting in the corner huddled in a sort of ball. The blond lord shut the door quietly and headed over to the smaller male. He had his head buried in his arms and his knee’s pulled up to his face.
“Kaoru-kun…” Tamaki sat down in front of the twin waiting for an answer. “Kaoru-kun…” He received a muffled response this time.
“Go away…” The blond lord stared at the strawberry blond, Kaoru’s voice had sounded raspy, like he had been crying.
“Kaoru-kun what’s wrong…”
“Nothing.” The reply was instantaneous and seemed a bit snappy.
“Kaoru-kun…” Tamaki scooted a little closer to the strawberry blond who seemed to scrunch up into a smaller ball.
“Just leave me alone.” The blond sighed and decided to try something else.
“You haven’t come to the host club all week meaning you are being put on probation.” Kaoru nodded but gave no verbal reply, so Tamaki waited a second before continuing.
“Everyone in the club knows something’s wrong. We’re all worried about you. You look like you haven’t been eating let alone sleeping. There’s something wrong and it’s affecting Hikaru-kun just as much as you…” Kaoru shifted a little and replied with a simple sentence.
“There’s nothing wrong.” It was a stupid lie but one he couldn’t help but attempt, who knows maybe a miracle would happen and the floor would give out below him, but no miracle happened.
“Kaoru-kun there’s something wrong. If there was nothing wrong you wouldn’t be sitting in the back of your classroom in a fetal position crying let alone looking so unhealthy and sick.” There was silence that followed Tamaki then Kaoru decided to say something in a very soft voice.
“Why are you pushing?”
“Pushing?” The blond lord repeated; the younger twin nodded his head slowly.
“You are pushing, why?”
“…” Tamaki wasn’t sure how to reply so the twin decided to say something else.
“You told me what you came here to say. I am on probation for the club I understand that now so you should just go back to the others and let me be.”
“No.” Kaoru lifted his head up a little so he could look at his friend.
“What is it that you want?” His eye’s were a little red indicating that Tamaki had been right when he had said that the younger twin had been crying.
“I want to know what is wrong with you.” It was a simple statement that required a complex answer.
“You want to know?” Kaoru’s voice carried a mixture of emotions.
Tamaki nodded waiting for more to be said.
“I…” There was a long pause of silence before Kaoru continued. “Iaminlovewithsomeone…”
Tamaki blinked pulling the words out of Kaoru’s jumbled and quickly spoken sentence. When he realized what had been said he repeated it to make sure he had heard it right. “You are in love with someone?” The blond blinked stupidly, he had thought something much worse had been going on with the twin.
“Ye-yes I am…”
“That’s not so bad…” The smaller male stared at Tamaki a second before looking away.
“I can’t be though.” He shifted a little before moving into the w sitting position.
“Why?” There was more silence before Kaoru decided to speak again.
“I can’t love this person…” It was said in a very soft and sad tone making Tamaki feel sorry for the younger teen. Then he wondered why that had been said to began with.
“Because of your brother?” Kaoru’s eye’s snapped up to look at the blond lord studying his face and what had been said.
“Yes and no…”
“Then what’s wrong with you loving her?” Kaoru closed his eyes at the last word. Tamaki had assumed that Kaoru was in love with a female, but then what would have indicated otherwise? “Kaoru-kun? Who is it that you love; does that have something to do with your behavior?”
“Very much so…”
“Then why not talk about it, maybe tell her…” The blond had said that word again, he had said ‘her’ still assuming that Kaoru was in love with a female.
“I-I can’t talk about it.”
“Why not?”
“I-I just can’t…” Kaoru felt very vulnerable at that moment and he hated it. The more Tamaki stared at him the more he felt like he was being monitored for some sort of obscene virus.
“Kaoru-kun just who is she?” He assumed again and it was beginning to annoy the twin. He decided not to reply to Tamaki’s question ,waiting for something else to be said.
“Is she a friend?” The smaller male felt his eyebrow twitch with annoyance.
“Does she come to our club?” He said she again and Kaoru felt himself twitch again.
“Do I know her?” The snap was almost audible to the blond. He had pushed to far and had asked one too many questions.
Kaoru’s head snapped in Tamaki’s direction and he glared at him.
“Why won’t you shut up? You just keep asking and assuming. You don’t understand-you probably never will, seeing as I highly doubt that you have ever been in love with your best friend!” Kaoru had grown increasingly closer to Tamaki as he shouted at him.
“Best friend? So is it Haruhi? You love my daughter don’t you?” Tamaki had only meant to tease lightly but this statement had only caused Kaoru to snap completely.
“I don’t like her, I don’t like any girl! I’m in love with a guy so will you shut up about this her and she shit!” Kaoru had grown a little closer to the blond who had leaned back some. He blinked taking in what had been said before he decided to say something.
“So you are in love with one of your best friends that’s a guy?” Kaoru nodded trying not to shout again. Then the blond idiotic lord said something that wasn’t all that annoying or stupid. “What’s so bad about that? I guess it’s not so surprising that you are bisexual or gay seeing as how you act for the club…” Kaoru stared at the blond, he just wasn’t getting it.
“You don’t get it, I can’t love this person!” Kaoru snapped.
“Why not?”
”Because I can’t! I’m not supposed to be in love with him, I’m not…”
“Then why are you?” The younger twin had to think about this question. Why was he in love with Hikaru? Why did he want him so much? It had to be something… after all he was sixteen… Maybe-maybe he was just…
“I might just be really horny I’ve never had any urges until now so maybe I’m just horny…” Tamaki stared stupidly at Kaoru, he really hadn’t expected that. The younger twin turned to the older teen and stared at him.
“I need fixed.” He declared and the blond lord still didn’t answer. “Can you help fix me?”
“Fix…you?” Tamaki repeated. He really had no clue as to what was going to happen now-before he had been able to at least guess what the twin might do.
“Yes you can fix me… I’m just way to horny so you can help fix that.”
“H-How?” Kaoru scooted himself closer to Tamaki and was now pretty much sitting on his lap.
“You can…fuck me…” The blond stared wide eyed at the younger teen. This was the last thing he expected to have happen let alone be said.
“Wh-what?” He asked feeling himself be pushed backwards.
“Fuck me…” Kaoru had pushed the older male onto the ground now and was straddling him.
“Kaoru-kun, I can’t… this is weird, what are you doi-“ He was silenced by the twin’s mouth. The blond blushed slightly and pushed Kaoru away from him. “What are you doing?” Tamaki asked doing his best to hold the twin back. Kaoru blinked innocently and then smiled undoing the top of the pant’s Tamaki was wearing.
“You want on top don’t you?” The strawberry blond rolled the two of them over so that Tamaki laid on Kaoru. The older teen instantly went to sit up to get away from the situation but was pulled back down. He had been pulled back down into a rather forceful kiss by the twin.
“Please Tamaki-senpai it won’t be hard, I’ll get everything we need, I’ll pay for everything.” Kaoru begged. He was actually begging the blond to, to…
“No, this is weird and not right Kaoru-kun I’m only you’re fri-“ The twin had taken advantage of the lord’s sentence and had kissed him once again, this time he used his tongue. Tamaki pulled Kaoru’s arm’s away from around his neck and pinned them to the floor so they couldn’t do anymore harm. That’s when the door to the classroom opened up softly.
The blond lord pulled away from the younger twin and managed to sit up; he looked up at the person in the door way and said two words.
“Oh shit…” It was rare for Tamaki to curse but for him to say shit or fuck meant that he knew he had done something really wrong. Kaoru sat up to see who Tamaki was looking at-needless to say he became very, very white. Hikaru stared at his brother and former friend for less then a minute before turning to leave the classroom. He looked shocked and upset but most of all he looked pissed.
“Wait Hikaru-kun!” Tamaki got up and ran after the older twin leaving Kaoru in the classroom.
“Hikaru-kun!” The blond called again chasing the twin back to the music room. “It’s not what it looked like! I swear!” Hikaru flung the door to the music room open startling the rest of the host club members and the patrons that Kyouya had decided to let in during Tamaki’s absence.
“Not what it looks like?” Hikaru growled at his former friend refusing to look at him. “You were lying on top of him!” The older twin didn’t care who heard this, he wanted nothing less then to humiliate the idiotic blond lord at that moment.
“It wasn’t like that!” The blond protested.
“YOU HAD YOUR TONGUE DOWN HIS THROAT!” Kyouya sighed in the back ground and told Mori and Hunny that they should start ushering patrons out, nothing about this fight seemed like it could be civil let alone pious.
“He did that to me!” Tamaki was failing wonderfully to put up any sort of fight.
“SO HE UNDID YOUR PANTS TO?!” Tamaki’s eye’s got large as he looked down; he really hadn’t noticed or even felt that happen. Hikaru turned satisfied with the look of embarrassment on Tamaki’s face before heading off to the make shift changing room. Kyouya closed the doors once the last patron was out and sighed. Tamaki was in a puddle of tears at his feet.
“Tell him!” The puddle whined. “Tell him I didn’t do anything wrong! That evil child pushed me on the floor when I was trying to help!” Kyouya sighed and frowned at Tamaki who continued to cry.
“You and Kaoru-kun were the only ones in the room. I doubt Hikaru-kun will listen to anyone about what happened except Kaoru-kun…” There was a soft knock on the door and Kyouya turned to open it. Kaoru walked into the room slowly. He looked very pale and a bit like he was going to be sick.
“Kao-chan!” Hunny snapped from the top of Mori’s head. “Did you really do that to Tama-chan? That wasn’t nice; you are making our club look very bad!” Being scolded by Hunny was a new one for Kaoru, but he knew he deserved it.
“Did you really take advantage of Tamaki-senpai?” Haruhi was the one to ask and it made Kaoru fidget a little. The younger twin nodded slowly and there was an odd silence that filled the club that ended with a softly spoken why from the older twin.
“I don’t know…” Kaoru spoke to the floor unwilling to look anyone in the eye. “I think…” He began taking his time with his words. He was going to do something that he doubted anyone would expect. After all Hunny was right, he was damaging the Host club.
“I think…” Another long pause before any more words were spoken. Then he said it, he said something that even surprised Kyouya who seemed to know everything that happened before it did. “I think I’m going to quit the club…” Silence, there was nothing but silence that followed.
Then Mori spoke what the others had been thinking. “Why? Everything seemed fine last week.”
Kaoru gave a small laugh filled with a strange sadness that no one could truly comprehend. “Last week was a long time ago for me…” Kaoru turned and left the music room after that.
Stage Two: Realization Part II end…
Well… let’s address thing before we start on this… short discussion…
Anamé’s name is pronounced An-a-may kind of like anime but more pronunciation on the a…
1) Here I am just making a note to say that (incase you don’t know) Japanese schools aren’t like American schools. Instead of the student’s changing rooms the teachers do. I gave Haruhi, Hikaru and Kaoru the same teacher in the morning and at the end of the day.
2) Gothic and Lolita is a type of clothing style in Japan similar to what our Hot Topic is producing right now, but not so much. They have some really REALLY nifty clothes there, that are awesome to me. Hunny would be in a more Lolita like outfit then the others.
Next: Stage Three Destructive personality Part I
Au Revior,
~Israfel~