Ouran High School Host Club Fan Fiction ❯ What Have I Become? ❯ You Could Have Been My Fairytale ( Chapter 1 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
By: lovelessaibou 
Back when they were so perfect. Lemony goodness coming up.
Anime/Manga: Ouran High School Host Club Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Angst | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 08.11.2006 | Pages: 3 | Words: 4.6K | Visits: 485 | Status: Work In Progress
Back when they were so perfect. Lemony goodness coming up.
Anime/Manga: Ouran High School Host Club Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Angst | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 08.11.2006 | Pages: 3 | Words: 4.6K | Visits: 485 | Status: Work In Progress
A/N:: Okay, I updated. I bet you guys were dying to know what happened! This chapter can get confusing. At every line break there is a change in settings. Youll get it when you see the first one.Okay, well I have some special thanks. One to my beta! Thank you so much MewMewstreet! (READ HER STORIES THEY ROCK!) And another thanks too everyone who reviewed. Any questions can be answered here between the three dots.
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Summary:: Kaoru cant live without Hikaru. They had shared a once loving relationship, and now Hikaru is going out with Haruhi. Kaoru, who was once a very happy rich kid and almost picture perfect, was introduced to the world of drugs, alchohol, smoking, cutting, and prostitution. What will become of him? Will Hikaru actually find out what he's been doing to Kaoru this whole time? Will Hikaru come back back to him? Or just leave and let Kaoru kill himself?
Very DARK angsty fic. Beware.
Warning:: See Chapter 1.
Disclaimer:: See Chapter 1.
"Hikaru." He said softly. "Hikaru, time to wake up." He prodded again. Hikaru just rolled over onto his stomache and buried his face into his pillow.
"10 more minutes mom." He mumbled. Kaoru was deeply offended, sarcastically of course.
"Mom? Im not mom! Hikaru!" He pushed Hikaru, and he pushed again, this time a little too hard. A thump was heard on the other side of the bed. Kaoru went over to check it out, and to his surprise he saw Hikaru sitting on his sorry ass on the cold hard ground in the nude.
"Kaoru! What was that for?" He made a puppy dog face. "You called me mom." He pouted and turned his head away. Two strong arms sneaked up behind him and wrapped around his waist.
"Im sorry. Anything I can do to make you feel better?" He blew softly into his brother's ear, and earned himself a shiver from the other. Kaoru's face flushed as he muttered something about the washroom and headed straight for it. Hikaru sat there was a huge smirk on his face. He loved to make his brother like this, and he was proud he could.
An upbeat polytone ringtone was heard throughout the quiet room. Someone was calling him, this early in the morning? Hikaru had yet to look at the clock to find out what the time really was. He looked at the call display and it was recognized as Haruhi's number.
"Ohayo. What do you want?" Hikaru said lazy tone as he yawned.
"Ohayo?! You lazy ass! Its 4:00!" She yelled through the phone. Hikaru held it at arms length to avoid any ear damage.
"Oh? It is? Whatever." He said. A few minutes went by and he screamed almost as loud as Haruhi did. "4 O CLOCK?! WHAT THE HECK! ITS ALMOST DINNER!" He said huffing and puffing.
"Yeah, I know, thats why I called. You wanna go out for dinner with me?" She asked. He put her on speaker because he decided to get changed.
"Yeah sure, lemme ask Kaoru." He said as he was about to call for his brother. But unbeknownst to him, he was already standing outside the door listening.
"No! Just you and me. Like a date. No Kaoru. You dont need him anymore." She said a bit harshly. Kaoru was scared for his brothers answer. He always knew Hikaru had a soft spot for Haruhi, he just never acknowledged it or cared.
"I dont need him anymore? What are you talking about? Of course I need him! He's my lo.. He's my brother!" He almost let out that he was in love with his brother. No one knew of their forbidden relationship. And he wasn't about to let anyone know.
"Your grown up, your world is going to go in different directions. Might as well start now before its too hard to seperate." She said in a matter-of-fact voice. She really wanted Hikaru, and she wanted him bad.
"I...I don't know."He said quietly. Maybe this was his chance to actually have a real relationship, instead of one with his brother. But he loved his brother. Maybe he could love Haruhi in return.
"I guess, Ill go. But not today. What about, 2 days time, and for lunch?" He said. 'I know it will hurt, but this will help us Kaoru, we need to meet new people, and we need to seperate whether we like it or not.' He thought grimly in his head.
"Okay. See you then." He just nodded, not really caring if she could see it because they were on the phone and he hung up. Kaoru's heart stopped beating for a second. Had he heard right? Is his brother really going to go on a date with someone else? Is he really going to make them seperate? 'I thought you loved me..' His eyes were shimmering with unshed tears. He heard footsteps appraoching. He hastily wiped his tears and opened the door. Hikaru jumped when he saw Kaoru.
"Ah! You scared me! Dont do that man." Hikaru said huffing. He had to admit, the look on his face was priceless, but he was still saddened at the thought of Hikaru going out with Haruhi. He just nodded and pushed passed Hikaru to their shared bedroom.
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.::Kaoru's PoV::.
"At that moment, I knew what was going to happen. I knew Hikaru was going to dump me for that slut Fujioka." He hissed as he took a long drag from the cigarette he was holding. He was currently sporting a black leather vest that fit tightly around himself, and short shorts with long black leather boots. He wore alot of eyeliner and angry red scars decorated his arms, from his wrist to his shoulder, and on each arm. He had a few bruises on his face because his last customer was a bit rough with him. It was hard to believe that this was the same Kaoru from only a year ago.
"Gods, I miss Hikaru alot. I remember when he used to hold me at night. But now I have someone who just wants sex. It pays extremely well, but it can be painful sometimes." He took another drag as he stood up from the alley wall he was leaning on and walked onto the sidewalk, stepping on the fallen cigarette butt on the way.
"But what really hurt me was when he...wait. No. Ill let you find out on your own."
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Hikaru instantly took sight of the sullen look on his brother's face. He gasped lightly as he thought of something. Had Kaoru heard the things Haruhi said? Maybe it wasn't such a good idea. He just let the thought wander to the back of his mind as he showered. He loved Kaoru. But, it wasn't as much as he loved Haruhi.
'Maybe..' He thought. 'I should do something for him. One last thing.' He walked off towards the bathroom to take a long hot shower. A thought came to mind. It was cold, but it was sort of like a good bye present. He knew Haruhi was right. He needed to get out into the real world, and this time, without Kaoru in it. It was going to happen sooner or later. He just hoped his brother would be able to handle it. Kaoru was always more mature at times, but as time went by, Hikaru started to mature as well, almost more than Kaoru. Yes its hard to believe. Along with that, he got better at controlling his emotions and keeping them to himself instead of lashing out at someone.
The soothing sound of the water hitting his flesh and the walls put his aching mind at ease.
"On our birthday." He whispered to himself. "I will give it to him." He finished washing himself and dried himself off with a towel. He had realized he just changed before he got into the shower. It was a stupid mistake. He could avoided Kaoru hearing Haruhi if he had just not changed. In fact, alot more things would have been better if he hadn't put her on speaker.
He walked down the hall to the room and opened the door. There was Kaoru, sitting on the bed, a cute pink bandana in is hair. He had a book in hand and had headphones covering his ears. It was a cute sight. Hikaru sighed as he went on the other side of their king sized bed and wrapped his arms around Kaoru's shoulders. He took off one headphone and whispered lightly in his ear. "I love you. Dont forget it."
Kaoru froze at that moment. He knew he was lying. How much his heart wanted it, he knew it was a lie. He relaxed under his brother's gentle touch and buried his head into his neck. "I love you too Hikaru." He said softly. 'More than you'll ever know.' Echoed in the back of his mind. He felt tears sting the back of his eyelids but he forced them back.
He uncovered his head from Hikaru. He looked over to the calendar on the wall. 'So, tomorrow, I will finally be 18.' He thought to himself. Then he remembered, he never got anything for Hikaru.
"Uhh, Hikaru. I have to do run some errands...alone. Ill see you later okay?" Kaoru jumped off the bed and raced for the stores. Hikaru just sat there stunned. What had possessed Kaoru to do that? He just layed down on his bed and planned out everything he was going to do tomrrow with Kaoru before he met up with Haruhi.
Kaoru walked along the street crowded with people. He would have asked his driver but he ran passed him so there was nothing he could do about it. He had no idea what to get Hikaru. He passed a window and something shiny caught his eye. It was a necklace. A thin silver chain with a double heart at the end. It was wrapped in a devil's tail and had horns on them as well. It was perfect. He went in and bought it immediately. Although it was colourless, it was lovely. Pure diamonds, with a tiny hint of pink. He decided to pass by the market and get some of his favorite shampoo. He was running out anyways. The scent radiating from his hair due to his shampoo was that or roses. Oddly enough. It was a shampoo for women, but he loved it anyways.
Hikaru had figured everything out, when Kaoru walked in with a grocery bag in his hand. Kaoru had kept the necklace box in his pocket of fear that Hikaru might find it before it was time. He put the shampoo away in the drawer and went to the kitchen to ask one of the maids if he could make something. For a rich kid, he was very down to earth. He rarely asked the maids for anything. All because of Haruhi, he learned what a commoners life was like. And he took being this rewarded in life for being born for granted. Now he was always doing things on his own, and learning things he never knew that other people did daily. "Haruhi" He slightly hissed the name out. There was a risk she would take his beloved away from him.
The rest of the short lived day went on normally. And once again, the twins were up late. No, not late. They didn't sleep a wink. And fortunately, they didn't look like someone who didn't have any sleep. The sleepy sun arose over the horizen setting their mansion free of the grasps of the night. Kaoru rubbed his eyes, and faked a smile at Hikaru. They were finally adults. They were free of their parents rules, and that meant, they were free to seperate from eachother. He was deathly afraid of his brother leaving him. Nonetheless, a smile was on his face as he wished Hikaru a happy birthday.
Before his brother could say anything he walked out of the room and went downstairs to retrieve his jacket. For in his jacket there was the necklace he bought for his brother. He carried the small velvet covered box up to their room.
"Hikaru close your eyes and put out your hands." Hikaru looked calm on the outside, but it was quite the opposite. Thoughts like, "Oh my gosh! He got me something!" and, "Happy happy happy happy birthday to me and YOU!" and, "I WONDER WHAT IT IS!" and lastly, "WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!". Along with many others. Kaoru placed the box in his hand and closed his and over it, lightly kissing his fingertips, giving Hikaru the go ahead to open it.
Hikaru opened his eyes and gazed at the box. He looked at Kaoru, then the box, and repeated several times.
"Well? Arent you going to see what's in it?" Kaoru asked.
"But, why?" He asked confused. Normally, Kaoru would have given him something as a joke. But this was a box, which most likely held a piece a jewelery. He hoped it wasn't what he was thinking.
"I saw it, and I thought it was really you. Like it was made for Hikaru." He said weakly, a faint tinge to his cheeks. His brother smiled and as he opened the box, he saw something so utterly beautiful. It was the necklace. He gasped lightly as he held it in his hand. A dark thought was looming in the back of his head which made his heart break, although he did not show it.
"I love it." Three simple words that made Kaoru's heart flutter. 'He loved it.' He echoed in his mind. Kaoru knew he would like it. Then Hikaru did something that no one would ever anticipate. He kissed him. Not a small peck. No, it was a real kiss. A real kiss that was really short lived, for it ended as soon as it began. 'He's never done that before. Maybe, he does love me. No, he doesn't. It was just a pity kiss.' He thought dreadfully. His eyes glistened with a bit of happiness though. It was a kiss, from his beloved twin. And he cherished it. Mainly because, there was a risk it could be his last.
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All their family members where there, as well as all of their friends. They were gathered in one of the ballrooms. Kaoru had his peach tuxedo on, while Hikaru has his pale blue one. They greated all the guests and each of them danced with all the girls present. Then there was Haruhi. Hikaru, no doubtfully, dance with her. They whispered things into eachothers ears and giggled at some of them. Kaoru had left the room by then. He didn't want his heart to break and then both of them to see him. He went back up to their room and unbuttoned his the top four buttons of the white shirt after he threw his jacket across the room. It hit was wall with a soft thump and his eyes started to water.
He clutched his knees to his chest and buried his head in his knees. It wasn't fair. He didn't want anyone to steal Hikaru away from him. But theres a saying, if you love someone, let them go. A very overused saying, but a true one nonetheless. Sure, he wanted to make Hikaru happy, but he was as sure as hell he didn't want to let him go. But if it came to that, he would try to accept it and try to move on. The question was, could he do it?
"Kaoru where were you! I was looking for you everywhere!" He huffed as the door slammed open. Little beads of sweat were forming on Hikaru's forehead. His tuxedo jacket was off and all the buttons on his shirt were undone except one. Kaoru didn't make a sound or move an inch. Hikaru knew something was wrong. But he didn't know what. He slowly approached his inanimate twin.
"Kaoru? Whats wrong?" He asked. After a few minutes of waiting, an answered spilled over Kaoru's lips.
"Nothing." He said. He stood up and walked towards the window. Looking out into the setting sun, staring at it, hoping it would make his brother leave him alone. It did the exact opposite.
Hikaru came and wrapped his arms around his brother's waist. He hoped to cheer him up with what he had in mind, even if it meant it would break his heart soon after.
"You know Kaoru. I still haven't given you your present yet." He breathed into his twins ear. Kaoru tried to resist, but it was unbearble. He turned Kaoru so that he was facing him. "Trust me. You'll like it."
Leaning over, he brushed his lips against Kaoru's, slowly deepening the kiss until he flicked his tongue over the warm lips.
Kaoru gasped softly, parting his lips to invite the older one to deepen the kiss.
Slipping inside, Hikaru took his time. He let his tongue explore the inside of Kaoru's mouth, enjoying the taste that was only Kaoru. Something out of the many things that they didn't share.
Kaoru moaned softly, arching up closer to the other boy. His arms pulled him closer. His tongue met Hikaru's and played with it. He teased it softly, meeting it with slow motions. All the while, his eyes drifted closed.
As Hikaru continued the kiss he allowed his hands to move to the front of his twin's shirt, and slowly began to undo the rest of the buttons and slowly slid it off his shoulders. His hands started to wander on the new patch of skin that was presented to him.
He panted softly, leaning up toward the soft touch. All the while, he wanted more, even as his tongue grew bolder in the kiss.
Removing Kaoru's shirt before lying him on the bed, Hikaru moved on top of him, just staring. Kaoru was as beautiful as the day he was born, even if they did look the same to everyone else. He could tell the difference. Kaoru was perfect, and he wasn't.
He mewled softly, running his hands slowly under Hikaru's shirt. Hikaru moaned lightly and started kissing his way down his neck.
Kaoru arched slightly into the other's touch with a soft groan.Hikaru slowly, sensually pulled the shirt off his brother. He then slowly began to trail his lips over his neck and down his chest.Kaoru moaned softly, his hair moving away from his face and revealing both eyes, heavy lidded and full of want and need.
Hikaru smirked, before nipping a slightly peaked nipple, which made it perk up the rest of the way. A soft cry escaped the younger one's lips. He moved to lap and nip at the other peak to make it as perked as the other one. Hikaru trailed nipping kisses and small love bites down his body to the waistband of his pants.
Kaoru moaned again, louder, as his eyes finally slipped shut, unable to fight the pleasure corsing through him. "Oh god... Hikaru..."
He smiled, before slowly beginning to strip his doppleganger of his pants. Once he had just those black silk designer boxers on him, he smiled. Hikaru then pulled his own pants off, along with his matching pair of boxers. He trailed his lips around the bare skin just under the bottom edge of his boxers. Kaoru reached up, his fingers playing with Hikaru's soft hair.
Hikaru smiled, kissing his way up his legs, slightly running his fingers up under the boxers.
Kaoru was shivering at the touch.
Reaching up, he slowly began to pull off his boxers. He came up to kiss him deeply. Kaoru kissed the other back. Hikaru pressed their erections together causing both to let out a groan. "Oh god..." Kaoru groaned softly, his body getting hotter. "Hikaru..."
Finally getting the boxers entirely off Kaoru' s body, he began to trail his lips up his inner thigh to lap softly at the twin sacks. "NNNNH!!!" Kaoru cried out in pleasure, his eyes snapping open. "Hikaru!" he panted. He smiled, slowly trailing his tongue up from the sacks to his length, slipping up it in teasing strokes.
"Ah... haah..." Kaoru's fingers twisted into the sheets tighter. "Hikaru... more... please..." He breathed out.
Hikaru smiled and licked all over the length. He began to take it into his mouth. The tip only at first, teasing it slowly and running his tongue around the sensitive underside of the head.
As he did this, he used his other hand to get the bottle of lube they kept behind Kaoru's pillow and skillfully opened it and spread it on his fingers before exploring the entrance he found just under his balls. He was trying to be as gentle as he could as he slipped in his index finger in.
"NNNH!" Kaoru's back arched off the bed, harsh pants escaping him. "H..Hika..ru"
He licked around his member as he suckled, working the rigid length with slow precision. All the while, his finger worked in and out of his brother's body.
Kaoru's cries became louder and more intense. On its own accord, his lower half started to move against the probing finger. At that, Hikaru began to work in a second finger. He distracted Kaoru by taking a little more of the length into his mouth.
"Nnh! Hikaru! P-Please!" Kaoru cried, the pleasure becoming unbearable. Hikaru moved back slightly, his mouth leaving the bitter-sweet length as a third finger pressed inside, helping to stretch him more. His fingers working in him carefully. He lapped at Kaoru's skin, working his way up his body.
Kaoru looked at the other, face flushed, breathing deep. "H..Hikaru...p-please..." he begged, his legs spreading more. "Please...I n-need you."
Hikaru was readily to comply to that. He slicked up his own member before pulling his fingers out of the warm passage and settled himself between Kaoru's legs. His hot member coming to rest that the tight entrance. He leaned forward and kissed the tip of Kaoru's chin before moving upward to kiss his lips.
Kaoru kissed him back and instincly wrapped his legs around Hikaru's waist. He pushed into him with a single thrust, burying himself into Kaoru's tight heat to the hilt. The other moaned, wrapping his arms around the Hikaru's neck.
He remained there for a moment, letting him get used to being filled. He then slowly, carefully, began to move inside him, sliding out before pushing back in.
"Ah... ah..." Kaoru moaned over and over as Hikaru moved inside him. He kissed him once more, his pace slow and steady at the moment. "F-faster." Kaoru panted out. The one statement made him lose control as he thrust into his brother faster and harder. He moved, changing his angle slightly, hoping to hit that spot that would make Kaoru fall into the ultimate bliss. Kaoru began to moan and pant in pleasure. He felt wonderfully tight and Hikaru wasn't certain he could hold back much longer.
Suddenly a sharp scream filled the room, and Hikaru smirked, known fully well what he had done. "HIKARU!" Kaoru cried, his eyes rolling into the back of his head.
"Kaoru," Hikaru returned, in softer, more mumbling tone. He pushed into him faster, hitting that spot over and over again, wanting to make his lover and brother find the pleasure he was giving him. Wanting him to let go... before he couldn't hold on to his own control any longer.
"AHHH!!!" Kaoru cried out and suddenly something warm hit his and Hikaru's chest.
Hikaru felt the muscles clench around him, squeezing his orgasm out of him as he came inside his brother, filling him. He collasped on top of Kaoru, mindful of crushing him. His whole body was glistening with sweat, but he was content, almost. The Hitachiins were too tired to get anything across, but Kaoru tried to speak.
"Best...birthday....ever." He managed to get out. Hikaru rolled off of him and hugged his brother close to him.
Kaoru slept in his brother's arms, and right before he fell asleep he whispered a soft 'I love you Hikaru.' Hikaru's heart skipped a beat. When he was sure Kaoru was asleep, he redressed himself and left a pillow in his place. On said pillow was a note. Kaoru would read it in the morning, but right now, he was just setting in the afterglow, the theory of Hikaru not loving him forgotten completely.
Hikaru went out of the mansion, and wandered into the darkness of nigh. He came to a stop at a cross street. He whistled a familiar tune and waited. A reply drifted through the air, and Haruhi stepped out of the shadows into the soft light. They stood staring at eachother underneath a lampost for a moment and then they shared a kiss.
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.::Kaoru's PoV::.
"That night was one of the best nights of my life. But the morning was horrible. Who knew my brother was capable of that kind of hurt?" He asked himself. He walked on into the setting sun, awaiting another miserable day to befall him, and another day wondering about his brother.
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Summary:: Kaoru cant live without Hikaru. They had shared a once loving relationship, and now Hikaru is going out with Haruhi. Kaoru, who was once a very happy rich kid and almost picture perfect, was introduced to the world of drugs, alchohol, smoking, cutting, and prostitution. What will become of him? Will Hikaru actually find out what he's been doing to Kaoru this whole time? Will Hikaru come back back to him? Or just leave and let Kaoru kill himself?
Very DARK angsty fic. Beware.
Warning:: See Chapter 1.
Disclaimer:: See Chapter 1.
What Have I Become?
Chapter 2:It Could Have Been My Fairytale...
The filtered sunlight kissed the young boy's hair and skin as his eyelids slowly fluttered open from a long peaceful slumber in the arms of his lover. A beautiful sight lay before his golden eyes. His beloved twin. The blanket fell low enough to reveal his upper body glistening in the glow of the sun right behind him. He almost looked angelic, which was quite the opposite of who he really was. The twins didn't have school anymore, mainly because they were too old for it. When Kaoru looked at the clock, his eyes widened considerably at the given time. In big red numbers it said 4:00. He rubbed his eyes and looked at it again. There was no trick. He chuckled to himself as he poked his brothers cheek.Chapter 2:It Could Have Been My Fairytale...
"Hikaru." He said softly. "Hikaru, time to wake up." He prodded again. Hikaru just rolled over onto his stomache and buried his face into his pillow.
"10 more minutes mom." He mumbled. Kaoru was deeply offended, sarcastically of course.
"Mom? Im not mom! Hikaru!" He pushed Hikaru, and he pushed again, this time a little too hard. A thump was heard on the other side of the bed. Kaoru went over to check it out, and to his surprise he saw Hikaru sitting on his sorry ass on the cold hard ground in the nude.
"Kaoru! What was that for?" He made a puppy dog face. "You called me mom." He pouted and turned his head away. Two strong arms sneaked up behind him and wrapped around his waist.
"Im sorry. Anything I can do to make you feel better?" He blew softly into his brother's ear, and earned himself a shiver from the other. Kaoru's face flushed as he muttered something about the washroom and headed straight for it. Hikaru sat there was a huge smirk on his face. He loved to make his brother like this, and he was proud he could.
An upbeat polytone ringtone was heard throughout the quiet room. Someone was calling him, this early in the morning? Hikaru had yet to look at the clock to find out what the time really was. He looked at the call display and it was recognized as Haruhi's number.
"Ohayo. What do you want?" Hikaru said lazy tone as he yawned.
"Ohayo?! You lazy ass! Its 4:00!" She yelled through the phone. Hikaru held it at arms length to avoid any ear damage.
"Oh? It is? Whatever." He said. A few minutes went by and he screamed almost as loud as Haruhi did. "4 O CLOCK?! WHAT THE HECK! ITS ALMOST DINNER!" He said huffing and puffing.
"Yeah, I know, thats why I called. You wanna go out for dinner with me?" She asked. He put her on speaker because he decided to get changed.
"Yeah sure, lemme ask Kaoru." He said as he was about to call for his brother. But unbeknownst to him, he was already standing outside the door listening.
"No! Just you and me. Like a date. No Kaoru. You dont need him anymore." She said a bit harshly. Kaoru was scared for his brothers answer. He always knew Hikaru had a soft spot for Haruhi, he just never acknowledged it or cared.
"I dont need him anymore? What are you talking about? Of course I need him! He's my lo.. He's my brother!" He almost let out that he was in love with his brother. No one knew of their forbidden relationship. And he wasn't about to let anyone know.
"Your grown up, your world is going to go in different directions. Might as well start now before its too hard to seperate." She said in a matter-of-fact voice. She really wanted Hikaru, and she wanted him bad.
"I...I don't know."He said quietly. Maybe this was his chance to actually have a real relationship, instead of one with his brother. But he loved his brother. Maybe he could love Haruhi in return.
"I guess, Ill go. But not today. What about, 2 days time, and for lunch?" He said. 'I know it will hurt, but this will help us Kaoru, we need to meet new people, and we need to seperate whether we like it or not.' He thought grimly in his head.
"Okay. See you then." He just nodded, not really caring if she could see it because they were on the phone and he hung up. Kaoru's heart stopped beating for a second. Had he heard right? Is his brother really going to go on a date with someone else? Is he really going to make them seperate? 'I thought you loved me..' His eyes were shimmering with unshed tears. He heard footsteps appraoching. He hastily wiped his tears and opened the door. Hikaru jumped when he saw Kaoru.
"Ah! You scared me! Dont do that man." Hikaru said huffing. He had to admit, the look on his face was priceless, but he was still saddened at the thought of Hikaru going out with Haruhi. He just nodded and pushed passed Hikaru to their shared bedroom.
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.::Kaoru's PoV::.
"At that moment, I knew what was going to happen. I knew Hikaru was going to dump me for that slut Fujioka." He hissed as he took a long drag from the cigarette he was holding. He was currently sporting a black leather vest that fit tightly around himself, and short shorts with long black leather boots. He wore alot of eyeliner and angry red scars decorated his arms, from his wrist to his shoulder, and on each arm. He had a few bruises on his face because his last customer was a bit rough with him. It was hard to believe that this was the same Kaoru from only a year ago.
"Gods, I miss Hikaru alot. I remember when he used to hold me at night. But now I have someone who just wants sex. It pays extremely well, but it can be painful sometimes." He took another drag as he stood up from the alley wall he was leaning on and walked onto the sidewalk, stepping on the fallen cigarette butt on the way.
"But what really hurt me was when he...wait. No. Ill let you find out on your own."
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Hikaru instantly took sight of the sullen look on his brother's face. He gasped lightly as he thought of something. Had Kaoru heard the things Haruhi said? Maybe it wasn't such a good idea. He just let the thought wander to the back of his mind as he showered. He loved Kaoru. But, it wasn't as much as he loved Haruhi.
'Maybe..' He thought. 'I should do something for him. One last thing.' He walked off towards the bathroom to take a long hot shower. A thought came to mind. It was cold, but it was sort of like a good bye present. He knew Haruhi was right. He needed to get out into the real world, and this time, without Kaoru in it. It was going to happen sooner or later. He just hoped his brother would be able to handle it. Kaoru was always more mature at times, but as time went by, Hikaru started to mature as well, almost more than Kaoru. Yes its hard to believe. Along with that, he got better at controlling his emotions and keeping them to himself instead of lashing out at someone.
The soothing sound of the water hitting his flesh and the walls put his aching mind at ease.
"On our birthday." He whispered to himself. "I will give it to him." He finished washing himself and dried himself off with a towel. He had realized he just changed before he got into the shower. It was a stupid mistake. He could avoided Kaoru hearing Haruhi if he had just not changed. In fact, alot more things would have been better if he hadn't put her on speaker.
He walked down the hall to the room and opened the door. There was Kaoru, sitting on the bed, a cute pink bandana in is hair. He had a book in hand and had headphones covering his ears. It was a cute sight. Hikaru sighed as he went on the other side of their king sized bed and wrapped his arms around Kaoru's shoulders. He took off one headphone and whispered lightly in his ear. "I love you. Dont forget it."
Kaoru froze at that moment. He knew he was lying. How much his heart wanted it, he knew it was a lie. He relaxed under his brother's gentle touch and buried his head into his neck. "I love you too Hikaru." He said softly. 'More than you'll ever know.' Echoed in the back of his mind. He felt tears sting the back of his eyelids but he forced them back.
He uncovered his head from Hikaru. He looked over to the calendar on the wall. 'So, tomorrow, I will finally be 18.' He thought to himself. Then he remembered, he never got anything for Hikaru.
"Uhh, Hikaru. I have to do run some errands...alone. Ill see you later okay?" Kaoru jumped off the bed and raced for the stores. Hikaru just sat there stunned. What had possessed Kaoru to do that? He just layed down on his bed and planned out everything he was going to do tomrrow with Kaoru before he met up with Haruhi.
Kaoru walked along the street crowded with people. He would have asked his driver but he ran passed him so there was nothing he could do about it. He had no idea what to get Hikaru. He passed a window and something shiny caught his eye. It was a necklace. A thin silver chain with a double heart at the end. It was wrapped in a devil's tail and had horns on them as well. It was perfect. He went in and bought it immediately. Although it was colourless, it was lovely. Pure diamonds, with a tiny hint of pink. He decided to pass by the market and get some of his favorite shampoo. He was running out anyways. The scent radiating from his hair due to his shampoo was that or roses. Oddly enough. It was a shampoo for women, but he loved it anyways.
Hikaru had figured everything out, when Kaoru walked in with a grocery bag in his hand. Kaoru had kept the necklace box in his pocket of fear that Hikaru might find it before it was time. He put the shampoo away in the drawer and went to the kitchen to ask one of the maids if he could make something. For a rich kid, he was very down to earth. He rarely asked the maids for anything. All because of Haruhi, he learned what a commoners life was like. And he took being this rewarded in life for being born for granted. Now he was always doing things on his own, and learning things he never knew that other people did daily. "Haruhi" He slightly hissed the name out. There was a risk she would take his beloved away from him.
The rest of the short lived day went on normally. And once again, the twins were up late. No, not late. They didn't sleep a wink. And fortunately, they didn't look like someone who didn't have any sleep. The sleepy sun arose over the horizen setting their mansion free of the grasps of the night. Kaoru rubbed his eyes, and faked a smile at Hikaru. They were finally adults. They were free of their parents rules, and that meant, they were free to seperate from eachother. He was deathly afraid of his brother leaving him. Nonetheless, a smile was on his face as he wished Hikaru a happy birthday.
Before his brother could say anything he walked out of the room and went downstairs to retrieve his jacket. For in his jacket there was the necklace he bought for his brother. He carried the small velvet covered box up to their room.
"Hikaru close your eyes and put out your hands." Hikaru looked calm on the outside, but it was quite the opposite. Thoughts like, "Oh my gosh! He got me something!" and, "Happy happy happy happy birthday to me and YOU!" and, "I WONDER WHAT IT IS!" and lastly, "WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!". Along with many others. Kaoru placed the box in his hand and closed his and over it, lightly kissing his fingertips, giving Hikaru the go ahead to open it.
Hikaru opened his eyes and gazed at the box. He looked at Kaoru, then the box, and repeated several times.
"Well? Arent you going to see what's in it?" Kaoru asked.
"But, why?" He asked confused. Normally, Kaoru would have given him something as a joke. But this was a box, which most likely held a piece a jewelery. He hoped it wasn't what he was thinking.
"I saw it, and I thought it was really you. Like it was made for Hikaru." He said weakly, a faint tinge to his cheeks. His brother smiled and as he opened the box, he saw something so utterly beautiful. It was the necklace. He gasped lightly as he held it in his hand. A dark thought was looming in the back of his head which made his heart break, although he did not show it.
"I love it." Three simple words that made Kaoru's heart flutter. 'He loved it.' He echoed in his mind. Kaoru knew he would like it. Then Hikaru did something that no one would ever anticipate. He kissed him. Not a small peck. No, it was a real kiss. A real kiss that was really short lived, for it ended as soon as it began. 'He's never done that before. Maybe, he does love me. No, he doesn't. It was just a pity kiss.' He thought dreadfully. His eyes glistened with a bit of happiness though. It was a kiss, from his beloved twin. And he cherished it. Mainly because, there was a risk it could be his last.
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All their family members where there, as well as all of their friends. They were gathered in one of the ballrooms. Kaoru had his peach tuxedo on, while Hikaru has his pale blue one. They greated all the guests and each of them danced with all the girls present. Then there was Haruhi. Hikaru, no doubtfully, dance with her. They whispered things into eachothers ears and giggled at some of them. Kaoru had left the room by then. He didn't want his heart to break and then both of them to see him. He went back up to their room and unbuttoned his the top four buttons of the white shirt after he threw his jacket across the room. It hit was wall with a soft thump and his eyes started to water.
He clutched his knees to his chest and buried his head in his knees. It wasn't fair. He didn't want anyone to steal Hikaru away from him. But theres a saying, if you love someone, let them go. A very overused saying, but a true one nonetheless. Sure, he wanted to make Hikaru happy, but he was as sure as hell he didn't want to let him go. But if it came to that, he would try to accept it and try to move on. The question was, could he do it?
"Kaoru where were you! I was looking for you everywhere!" He huffed as the door slammed open. Little beads of sweat were forming on Hikaru's forehead. His tuxedo jacket was off and all the buttons on his shirt were undone except one. Kaoru didn't make a sound or move an inch. Hikaru knew something was wrong. But he didn't know what. He slowly approached his inanimate twin.
"Kaoru? Whats wrong?" He asked. After a few minutes of waiting, an answered spilled over Kaoru's lips.
"Nothing." He said. He stood up and walked towards the window. Looking out into the setting sun, staring at it, hoping it would make his brother leave him alone. It did the exact opposite.
Hikaru came and wrapped his arms around his brother's waist. He hoped to cheer him up with what he had in mind, even if it meant it would break his heart soon after.
"You know Kaoru. I still haven't given you your present yet." He breathed into his twins ear. Kaoru tried to resist, but it was unbearble. He turned Kaoru so that he was facing him. "Trust me. You'll like it."
Leaning over, he brushed his lips against Kaoru's, slowly deepening the kiss until he flicked his tongue over the warm lips.
Kaoru gasped softly, parting his lips to invite the older one to deepen the kiss.
Slipping inside, Hikaru took his time. He let his tongue explore the inside of Kaoru's mouth, enjoying the taste that was only Kaoru. Something out of the many things that they didn't share.
Kaoru moaned softly, arching up closer to the other boy. His arms pulled him closer. His tongue met Hikaru's and played with it. He teased it softly, meeting it with slow motions. All the while, his eyes drifted closed.
As Hikaru continued the kiss he allowed his hands to move to the front of his twin's shirt, and slowly began to undo the rest of the buttons and slowly slid it off his shoulders. His hands started to wander on the new patch of skin that was presented to him.
He panted softly, leaning up toward the soft touch. All the while, he wanted more, even as his tongue grew bolder in the kiss.
Removing Kaoru's shirt before lying him on the bed, Hikaru moved on top of him, just staring. Kaoru was as beautiful as the day he was born, even if they did look the same to everyone else. He could tell the difference. Kaoru was perfect, and he wasn't.
He mewled softly, running his hands slowly under Hikaru's shirt. Hikaru moaned lightly and started kissing his way down his neck.
Kaoru arched slightly into the other's touch with a soft groan.Hikaru slowly, sensually pulled the shirt off his brother. He then slowly began to trail his lips over his neck and down his chest.Kaoru moaned softly, his hair moving away from his face and revealing both eyes, heavy lidded and full of want and need.
Hikaru smirked, before nipping a slightly peaked nipple, which made it perk up the rest of the way. A soft cry escaped the younger one's lips. He moved to lap and nip at the other peak to make it as perked as the other one. Hikaru trailed nipping kisses and small love bites down his body to the waistband of his pants.
Kaoru moaned again, louder, as his eyes finally slipped shut, unable to fight the pleasure corsing through him. "Oh god... Hikaru..."
He smiled, before slowly beginning to strip his doppleganger of his pants. Once he had just those black silk designer boxers on him, he smiled. Hikaru then pulled his own pants off, along with his matching pair of boxers. He trailed his lips around the bare skin just under the bottom edge of his boxers. Kaoru reached up, his fingers playing with Hikaru's soft hair.
Hikaru smiled, kissing his way up his legs, slightly running his fingers up under the boxers.
Kaoru was shivering at the touch.
Reaching up, he slowly began to pull off his boxers. He came up to kiss him deeply. Kaoru kissed the other back. Hikaru pressed their erections together causing both to let out a groan. "Oh god..." Kaoru groaned softly, his body getting hotter. "Hikaru..."
Finally getting the boxers entirely off Kaoru' s body, he began to trail his lips up his inner thigh to lap softly at the twin sacks. "NNNNH!!!" Kaoru cried out in pleasure, his eyes snapping open. "Hikaru!" he panted. He smiled, slowly trailing his tongue up from the sacks to his length, slipping up it in teasing strokes.
"Ah... haah..." Kaoru's fingers twisted into the sheets tighter. "Hikaru... more... please..." He breathed out.
Hikaru smiled and licked all over the length. He began to take it into his mouth. The tip only at first, teasing it slowly and running his tongue around the sensitive underside of the head.
As he did this, he used his other hand to get the bottle of lube they kept behind Kaoru's pillow and skillfully opened it and spread it on his fingers before exploring the entrance he found just under his balls. He was trying to be as gentle as he could as he slipped in his index finger in.
"NNNH!" Kaoru's back arched off the bed, harsh pants escaping him. "H..Hika..ru"
He licked around his member as he suckled, working the rigid length with slow precision. All the while, his finger worked in and out of his brother's body.
Kaoru's cries became louder and more intense. On its own accord, his lower half started to move against the probing finger. At that, Hikaru began to work in a second finger. He distracted Kaoru by taking a little more of the length into his mouth.
"Nnh! Hikaru! P-Please!" Kaoru cried, the pleasure becoming unbearable. Hikaru moved back slightly, his mouth leaving the bitter-sweet length as a third finger pressed inside, helping to stretch him more. His fingers working in him carefully. He lapped at Kaoru's skin, working his way up his body.
Kaoru looked at the other, face flushed, breathing deep. "H..Hikaru...p-please..." he begged, his legs spreading more. "Please...I n-need you."
Hikaru was readily to comply to that. He slicked up his own member before pulling his fingers out of the warm passage and settled himself between Kaoru's legs. His hot member coming to rest that the tight entrance. He leaned forward and kissed the tip of Kaoru's chin before moving upward to kiss his lips.
Kaoru kissed him back and instincly wrapped his legs around Hikaru's waist. He pushed into him with a single thrust, burying himself into Kaoru's tight heat to the hilt. The other moaned, wrapping his arms around the Hikaru's neck.
He remained there for a moment, letting him get used to being filled. He then slowly, carefully, began to move inside him, sliding out before pushing back in.
"Ah... ah..." Kaoru moaned over and over as Hikaru moved inside him. He kissed him once more, his pace slow and steady at the moment. "F-faster." Kaoru panted out. The one statement made him lose control as he thrust into his brother faster and harder. He moved, changing his angle slightly, hoping to hit that spot that would make Kaoru fall into the ultimate bliss. Kaoru began to moan and pant in pleasure. He felt wonderfully tight and Hikaru wasn't certain he could hold back much longer.
Suddenly a sharp scream filled the room, and Hikaru smirked, known fully well what he had done. "HIKARU!" Kaoru cried, his eyes rolling into the back of his head.
"Kaoru," Hikaru returned, in softer, more mumbling tone. He pushed into him faster, hitting that spot over and over again, wanting to make his lover and brother find the pleasure he was giving him. Wanting him to let go... before he couldn't hold on to his own control any longer.
"AHHH!!!" Kaoru cried out and suddenly something warm hit his and Hikaru's chest.
Hikaru felt the muscles clench around him, squeezing his orgasm out of him as he came inside his brother, filling him. He collasped on top of Kaoru, mindful of crushing him. His whole body was glistening with sweat, but he was content, almost. The Hitachiins were too tired to get anything across, but Kaoru tried to speak.
"Best...birthday....ever." He managed to get out. Hikaru rolled off of him and hugged his brother close to him.
Kaoru slept in his brother's arms, and right before he fell asleep he whispered a soft 'I love you Hikaru.' Hikaru's heart skipped a beat. When he was sure Kaoru was asleep, he redressed himself and left a pillow in his place. On said pillow was a note. Kaoru would read it in the morning, but right now, he was just setting in the afterglow, the theory of Hikaru not loving him forgotten completely.
Hikaru went out of the mansion, and wandered into the darkness of nigh. He came to a stop at a cross street. He whistled a familiar tune and waited. A reply drifted through the air, and Haruhi stepped out of the shadows into the soft light. They stood staring at eachother underneath a lampost for a moment and then they shared a kiss.
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.::Kaoru's PoV::.
"That night was one of the best nights of my life. But the morning was horrible. Who knew my brother was capable of that kind of hurt?" He asked himself. He walked on into the setting sun, awaiting another miserable day to befall him, and another day wondering about his brother.