Paradise Kiss Fan Fiction ❯ The Left Hand Dreams of Him ❯ It Only Hurts When I Breathe ( Chapter 2 )

Authoress Note:

Hey all. I hope you're not too mad at me for splitting Yuichi and Wataru up… But if you're reading this, you're clearly intrigued/interested/one of those “i” words. I feel the need to say that I don't actually own these fabulous characters, but I'm borrowing them for this fanfic and I'm enjoying the right to manipulate them. I hope you're excited about the reappearance of Miho Ookusa… I sure am… she can certainly do some damage when she wants… and so can Mai Tachibana…hmmmm ideas are simmering… anyway. I've rambled for far too long, and incoherently at that. Enjoy the next installment of The Left Hand Cries for Him

 

 

Love Dies and Takes Everyone Down With It

 

“Yuichi, get out. Please.” Wataru was tired. He was always tired now. All he could manage to do was go to school for a bit, leave early, and come home to sleep. His marks were slipping and everyone was worried about him but he no longer cared. Kazuki was gone and no matter how hard Wataru tried, Kazuki's face would not leave him. He'd thought that dumping Kazuki would somehow make it easier to live life. He was so unbelievably wrong. Life became impossible. And what was worse was that Kazuki was constantly trying to see him, coming to his school, stopping by home. I can't escape him! Love dies and takes everyone down with it.

“Wataru, you love me. You know you do, why won't you let yourself be loved by me?”

“I told you already. I can't handle being with you anymore. Yes, I love you, but it kills me to be with you. I just can't do it anymore.”

“Wataru, it's killing you being without me.”

Wataru glared at Yuichi, knowing that he was right, yet refusing to succumb. Wataru vowed that he would prove Yuichi wrong. It was just like that disco song: I will survive.

“It's over, Yuichi. Go home, please.” On the last word his voice broke and he erupted in a fresh wave of tears.

Yuichi, instead of leaving, walked toward the bed and sat down. Wataru turned away from him, as stubborn as ever. Kazuki put his arms around Wataru and pulled him into an embrace. Wataru struggled for a moment but as soon as Kazuki began kissing him, his resistance dissipated.

Both were crying while kissing and as Yuichi positioned himself in a straddling position over Wataru, Wataru realized what was happening and came back to his senses.

“Kazuki, GET OFF!” Wataru pushed Kazuki off of him and nearly pushed him off of the bed. Wataru wiped away the kiss and straightened his clothes. He pointed to the door, signaling to a furious Kazuki to get out.

“Fine! If you want to deny your own happiness as well as my own, go ahead! SAYOONARA(1)!” He stormed out of the room and practically ran for the exit, and literally ran into Karin.

“That didn't sound good…”

“It wasn't. But I'm done trying. I've given up. He can go fuck himself for all I care.” He leaned down, his expression changing into one of gratitude and kissed Karin on the cheek. “Thanks for trying so hard. I really appreciate it. Maybe I'll see you at Toko's?”

“Yeah, I've got to go there now actually.”

“Let's go together, I need to talk to her anyhow,” the mournful yet frustrated expression was back as he helped her with her jacket and out the door.

 

 

“I'm telling you Toko, it was BAD. I mean, Kazuki just ran out of his room. He practically knocked me over in his race for the door,” Karin explained after Kazuki left Toko's shop.

“Do you really think it's over now? I mean, do you think Kazuki will really give up and accept the breakup?”

“I think so. He looked so resigned and he did something totally out of the ordinary,” she paused, when Toko prompted her, she said, “he actually kissed my cheek, as if saying goodbye forever. I almost cried right then.”

“Maybe this is a good thing,” Toko said, unsure of herself, “Maybe they weren't meant to be together and they'll both find the people they're supposed to spend the rest of their lives with.”

“What are you talking about? They were MADE for each other.”

“I know… I'm just desperately trying to find the silver lining in this really really really dark cloud.” (A/N: yes yes I know… über clichéd)

 

 

“Hello?”

“Wataru? It's Asaka.”

“Hey. What's up?”

“Not much. Want to hang out later?”

“Er… I'm not sure.” Wataru was still unsteady without Kazuki at his side. Wait a minute, why not? Asaka is my friend, of course I should hang out with him. That'll definitely get my mind off of things. Plus… it's been a month since I broke up with Yuichi… I mean Kazuki.

“Well, okay. Because I was thinking that maybe we could go see a movie, have dinner, the whole spiel.”

“Actually, Asaka. I changed my mind. I definitely need to get out of the house for a while. I'd love to see a movie. When?”

“Erm… tonight?”

“Yeah sure. Sounds great.”