Romance Fan Fiction ❯ Denied Love ❯ Inappropriate touches become very appropriate ( Chapter 6 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

I was on the computer for awhile watching the show Heroes and checking my email. I looked at the clock and saw it was close to six and decided to watch Family Guy. I was so into it with my headphones in, I didn’t hear Austin come into the room. He lightly placed his hand on my shoulder causing me to jump and spin around in my chair. When I saw it was Austin I took out the ear pieces and paused Family Guy.

“He’s here.” Austin said.

“Cool.” I got up and followed the taller man into the kitchen. “Where are they?” I asked referring to Adam and his boy toy.

“Adam went outside to Elijah.” He answered me. We stood in the kitchen, waiting, and then the door opened. Adam walked in holding his boyfriends hand. Elijah was quite a bit taller than Adam, his hair was short and brown and he had dark eyes. He was a really average looking guy, wearing jeans and a plain gray shirt. He looked to average to be with Adam.

Adam shut the door, “Guys this is Elijah.” He waved.

“Hi.” Both Austin and I greeted him.

Adam looked at Austin and said, “This is my friend Austin and,” he pointed at me, “this is my homophobic friend, Nathan.”Elijah laughed, “Nice to meet you.”

“Yeah.” Austin and I agreed.

“Strange you live with two gay guys when you’re a homophobe.” He said laughing.

I shrugged, “More just keep poppin up.” I joked, Adam laughed at me.

“We’ll break him.” Adam told Elijah with a nudge.

“Good luck.” I said while crossing my arms. Austin gripped my shoulder with his big hand and shook me a little as they laughed at me. “What do you honestly see in Adam, he just doesn’t look like your type.”

“I like it that he’s just himself and he’s really open. I really enjoy talking to him. I don’t know how to explain it.” Adam and Elijah looked at each other all lovey dovey and I turned my head the other way to Austin. I stuck my tongue out as if to say ‘eww.’ He silently laughed.

Elijah turned out to be a pretty good guy. He stayed for a couple of hours and we all talked about him mostly and funny times with Adam. When I left to go to the restroom and came back, the new couple was kissing on the couch and Austin sat on the other couch giving me an ‘oh my gosh’ look.

“Well, good night Elijah. Nice to meet you.” He gave me an embarrassed look and Adam just smirked at me. I started to walk down the hall and Austin caught up with me.

“I honestly don’t know why they started kissing.” He said with a small smile.

“Geez,” I said while scratching the back of my head.

“You wanna come in my room?” He asked.

“Sure.” We watched the Family Guy episode I had started earlier that day. After that I laid back in his bed while he messed around on the computer and chatted with his friend from college online, some girl.

“So, what’s kissing like?” I asked curiously.

He turned and looked at me curiously, “It’s like trying to get the pudding out of the bottom of the pudding cup without a spoon.” He said seriously.

“W-what?” I laughed.

“I’m just kidding.” His serious face broke and he smiled. “It’s hard to explain. It’s something you need to experience.”

“Oh.” I looked to the ceiling.

“That’s what I miss the most.”

“Oh, yeah?” I sat up in his bed. He nodded. We were silent for awhile. “Can I ask you something else?”

“Sure.”

“I’m just curious….,” I paused, “was sex painful your first time?”

“Oh, well, my first time I was the one….causing the pain,” he chuckled, “but the first time I was getting it….yeah it hurt.”

“Geez….what do you miss most, like sex stuff?”

“Probably…..blow job.”

“Oh?” He just smiled at me.

“So, what made you want to ask me this stuff?”

“I don’t know, just curious.” I laid back on the bed.

“You know, I could kiss you so you can experience it.”

I laughed, “No, thanks.”

“Wow, my self-esteem just went way down.” He looked back to the computer.

I sat back up, “I don’t mean it like that, it’d just be weird cause you’re a guy, you know.” This was just too weird. I wanted a kiss, but why was I talking to Austin about it?

“Yeah.” He started a game of chess. I glared at the back of his head. Why was it irritating me so much that he was acting this way? He couldn’t honestly think I would kiss him. “It’s just one kiss.” He looked back at me. “Come on.” I just stared at him not knowing what to say. He got up from his chair and came over and sat next to me on the bed. He looked me in the eyes for awhile and the weirdest thing was I didn’t feel weird about it at all. “Here, lay back.” I let him push me back against the bed and he laid next to me on his side, facing me. He leaned in………

………I turned away. I felt sick, “What?” he asked.

“It’s too weird.”

“I thought you wanted to.”

I was silent. “Here.” He got on top of me. That’s when I started to panic.

“I changed my mind, get off.” I grabbed his shoulders ready to push him away.

“Please kiss me.” I gave him a confused look. Why did he seem so desperate all of the sudden? He leaned in and I closed my eyes, gripping his shoulders tightly. I held my breath waiting. His lips pressed lightly to mine and then…..he backed off. I opened my eyes. “You ok?”

“Y-yeah.” I said shakily.

“You don’t look ok.”

I sighed, “Sorry.”

“It’s ok, I’m glad you let me get that far.” I raised my eyebrows, “Makes me feel like you trust me and I feel really close to you.” He ran one of his hands through my hair, his eyes watching his fingers run through my brown hair. Was that a kiss from a friend or was he wanting to be with me?

“Oh,” was all I said. Why did I let him kiss me? I thought being with another man was disgusting, was I losing my mind? Austin was just….different.

“You have really soft lips by the way.” He moved off of me and stood next to the bed.

“Thanks….that was a lame kiss wasn’t it?”

He gave me a strange look, “No, it was cute.”

“Cute,” I laughed, “Awesome….” I felt so ridiculous. It was bad enough I kissed a man, but it wasn’t even a good kiss. It was a cute kiss.

“Would you like to try again?” He put his hands in his pockets.

“Uh….” I laughed nervously, “N-no.”

“You sure?” His eyes gleamed.

“No…”

“Hmm…should I just decide?” He sat down next to me. I avoided looking at him. I wasn’t going to let him kiss me again? Was I? His hand rested on top of mine and I pulled my hand back and stood.

“Sorry…..I….. I don’t want to.” I looked at the floor.

“It’s ok. I’m sorry.”

“Why?” I looked at him.

“For pressuring you into kissing me.”

“No, it’s fine.” Was I lying? I couldn’t believe that wasn’t mad at him. The only thing I was feeling was embarrassment and….I felt weird. “So, what do you think Adam and Elijah are doing?”

Austin smiled wickedly, “What do you think their doing?” I blushed and a deep laugh rose from his throat.

“Man….I hope their quiet.” Austin shrugged at me. “I want to get something to eat, but I’m afraid to leave the safety of this room.” Was I any safer in here?

“I’ll hold you hand.” He teased.

“Very funny,” I chuckled,” Come with me.” We left the room and there was only silence throughout the house. I looked at Austin quizzically and he shrugged. Placing his hands on my back, he urged me forward. We entered the kitchen hearing no noises thankfully. We searched the pantry together and then Austin spoke, breaking the silence.

“Not much in here.”

“Yeah, we should probably go shopping.” I reached in and grabbed a package of popcorn, “This ok?”

“Sure, if that’s what you want.” He smiled softly. I cooked the popcorn and we walked quietly back to Austin’s room .We laid on the bed sharing the popcorn and watched the show Two and a half men. I tried to think of something interesting to talk about.

“What actors do you think are hot?” I asked, thinking this would be interesting.

“Arnold Shwartsineggar.” He replied seriously.

“Really?”

“No.” He laughed. “I don’t really look at actors.” He turned his head to me. “Why do you ask?”

“Just trying to find something to talk about.”

“Want to go to sleep?”

“Sure.” I set the popcorn bag in the floor and when Austin turned the TV off the room was dark. We bumped into each other as we got under the covers we were sitting on. “So…”

“Hmm?”

“You think Elijah’s good looking?” I asked curiously.

Austin was silent for a moment, “Yeah, he’s okay I guess.”

“Hmm, do you think Adam’s more attractive?”

“I guess so….but I find you more attractive.”

I was glad the lights were off, my eyes felt huge and I just stared into the darkness. “Oh.” I finally said. “I’m pretty sure I’m nothing compared to you.”

We laughed and he asked, “Why would you sat that?”

“You’re just very….” I searched for the word, “pretty.” I said.

“Thank you.” Silence again. “When will you be twenty-five?”

“Next month on the 9th. What you gonna get me?” I joked.

“Hmm…a birthday kiss?”

“Yeah….thanks.” I rolled over on my side and felt Austin’s side of the bed move and then we were quiet. I was about asleep when I felt a small tickle on my back. I opened my eyes, confused, and realized Austin had placed a finger on the middle of my back.

“You asleep?” He asked with a quiet voice.

“No….”

His hand trembled as he ran it over my back and I tensed. What is he doing? He rubbed my shoulder slowly for several minutes and I felt my body relax. I felt really comfortable until I felt him scoot closer to me. His hand traveled up over my arm and he slowly ran it over the sleeve of my shirt. When his hand moved over the skin of my arm, my skin prickled. He lightly ran his fingers back and forth on my arm and slipped his hand up the sleeve of my shirt. I squeezed my eyes shut as a response to this and I tensed up again.

I wanted to ask him what he was doing, but I couldn’t bring myself to talk. My hear quickened and I kept control of my breathing. His hand moved down my side and reached around and slipped a finger under my shirt and touched my lower stomach. I gasped.

He paused, “You okay?” His voice quivered.

“Y-yeah.” I lied. Why did I lie to him? I was freaking out. I didn’t know what to do, but I guess I was okay. Everything he was doing felt good, it just felt weird at the same time. Plus, we are two men!

“You want me to stop?” He asked. I could tell he wasn’t ready to stop.

“Yeah, sorry.”

“Why are you apologizing? I knew better than to touch you like this.”

“Well, you didn’t exactly touch me anywhere inappropriately…..”I trailed off.

“But you didn’t want me to do that, I’m sure, and I would have…..” I didn’t reply. I wasn’t sure if I wanted that or not. I didn’t hate it, plus I was a twenty-four year old male that was horny and alone. Maybe I didn’t want him to stop….one night couldn’t be too bad….right?

I swallowed hard, “Uh, I don’t know.”

“What are you thinking?”

“Nothing….”

He laughed, “Liar,” and poked my side.

I chuckled, “Okay, honestly,” I paused, feeling nervous, “I was thinking that I was horny.”

I heard Austin exhale loudly, “Me too.”

The silence was long, now what? “We could…..just once.” Desperation leaked into his smooth voice.

“Once would turn into twice and then from there….anything could happen. I don’t want things to be weird between us.”

He sighed, “Yeah, okay.”

My heart sank, I felt so horrible. “Maybe we could……just a little…..” My face flushed.

He chuckled softly, “Really? Define a little.”

“I don’t know.”

“Okay, just let me know when to stop.”

“H-huh?” His hand went back under my shirt, but this time, it made it’s way up my stomach to my chest. He scooted closer to where he was completely up against me and he whispered in my ear.

“Can I take your shirt off?”

The heat coming from my cheeks was intense. “Yes.” I barely whispered. I sat up and he pulled my shirt up over his head and tossed it to the floor. I heard him take his shirt off too. He pushed me back down so I was on my back, and he laid next to me on his side. “What’s off limits to touch?” He ran his hand over my chest and leaned in and kissed my neck.

“Uh…..my butt,” I laughed a little, “and my cock.”

“Really? Okay.” He kissed my neck again, I shivered.

“Sorry….”

“It’s okay, you’ll change you’re mind in a little bit.” He snickered. He moved on top of me and pushed his lips firmly to mine. I let my hands grasp his arms as he moved his lips against mine. Aside from being embarrassed, I felt really good. I felt tingly all over and hot.

Austin’s wet tongue moved slowly over my bottom lip then entered my mouth. At first, I was surprised by the feeling, it tickled. When he exhaled, his breath was very pleasant. I inhaled deeply and something swelled inside me in response. We felt each others tongue’s with our own and I took the chance to feel his skin. I moved my hands up his arms and down his soft back. He groaned and pushed his hips forward causing our erections to grind against each other through our jeans. I gasped, but the noise was muffled by our mouths. He kissed me more passionately.

I wiggled underneath him and he moved against me again. He pulled away from our heated kiss and undid my jeans and pulled them off. I felt the bed move, he was off and I listened to him unzip his jeans and remove them. He came back and continued to kiss me, but with more force than before. I could feel his erection pressed up against mine better now and with only a thin bit of material between us, it was more intense.

We began to grind against each other and our kissing stopped. Our lips stayed pressed together and our breathing became heavy. Our hips bucked quicker together and I pulled hard on his back and his chest pushed hard against mine. His lips moved down to my neck and he licked my hot skin and then began to suck hard. The pain increased the pleasure and I moaned slightly and he moaned with me. We reached our orgasm together and I felt the warm fluid moisten my briefs.

We laid their breathing heavy and his breath was hot against my neck. I inhaled deeply and exhaled, my breath shaky. “My underwear’s wet…..” I said shyly.

Austin giggled near my ear. “You’re kinda sweaty too.” He kissed my lips softly and sat up. “Want to shower?”

“I’m kinda tired, I think I’ll just change and take one in the morning.”

“Okay, you going to sleep in here?”

“Yeah,” I sat up, “I’ll be right back.”

Yaoi-Freak1990- Helloooo. Sorry it took so long. I’ve been so busy with finals at school, it’s insane. One day, I sat down and just wrote like 15 pages. I was very pleased. LOL. So, what did you think of this chapter? Wasn’t too boring was it? Oh and by the way, I also don’t have internet right now, so yeah. I get on at school and use other places internet. I already have 7 pages written for the next chapter!!! I should finish it soon….oh and prom is this weekend and my friends graduation so I will be very busy. Anyway, thanks for reading, review and let me know what you thought about this chapter! Thanks!