Romance Fan Fiction ❯ Denied Love ❯ Please ( Chapter 7 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

I left his room and wandered to mine in the dark. When I got to my room, I turned on the light and looked at myself in the mirror. My face was red and my brown curly hair was a mess. I was still slightly erect and I have a wet stain on my briefs. I sluggishly took off my underwear and cleaned myself up with tissues and put a new pair on.

I shut off the light as I left the room and walked towards Austin’s room. There was a little bit of light coming from his room, he must have a lamp on. I paused and peeked around the door frame, Austin looked up at me from the bed, he was only wearing boxer briefs, like mine.

“Hi, what are you doing?” He asked looking at me like I was doing something cute.

“I’m only wearing underwear.” I said feeling embarrassed.

“And?” He laughed.

“Well, I don’t feel comfortable walking in like this.”

“After what we did, you’re afraid I’ll see you in your underwear?” I glared at him, “Come in.” He laughed and motioned me to come in with a wave of his hand.

With a groan, I walked in and shut the door behind me. “Don’t stare at me, it makes me nervous.” He just laughed. I sat on the bed and covered up.

“You’re so cute.”

“Thanks.” I blushed.

“So, was that fun for you?”

I looked at him and could tell he was nervous about my answer. “Yes very. It was unbelievable how good it felt.” His smile looked like it would crack his face. “What?” I asked feeling embarrassed.

“That makes me feel good. It was the most pleasurable time for me.”

“Wow, and we didn’t even do the better stuff. Wonder how good it would’ve been then.” I turned away.

“One way to find out.” I playfully punched him in the arm. I glanced at his body, he was a pretty toned guy. “You’re hair is pretty crazy.” He laughed and rustled my hair.

“And your looks perfect.” He gave me an award winning smile. “Does this make me gay?” I asked.

He thought for a moment, “I don’t know. I guess it depends on whether you want more of it or you just did it….cause you’re horny.” He shrugged.

“Hmm….” Did I want more? I wasn’t in the mood to sit and think about that. “I’m tired.”

“Me too, let’s get to sleep.” He leaned over and turned off the lamp. We got under the covers and I rolled onto my side. Austin snuggled up against me and wrapped his arm around my waist. “This okay?”

“Yeah.” From the warmth of our bodies, I quickly feel asleep.

*****

When I woke up in the morning, we were still laying in the same position we feel asleep in and Austin was obviously still asleep, his heavy breathing gave it away. I sat up to stretch and his arm fell to the bed. As I stretched, I felt him stir and looked down at him. He opened his eyes with a groan and in a rough voice he spoke, “Morning.”

“Afternoon actually,” I laughed, “It’s got to be later.” A glance at the time confirmed it was one.

“Wow,” Austin rubbed his eyes and got out of bed.

“I need a shower, I think I’ll go take one.” Getting out of the bed, I walked to the door, but stopped when I noticed Austin staring at me, “What?”

“Uh, I don’t know hwy I didn’t notice it last night, but you have a hickey.”

“Great, no keeping this a secret from Adam.”

“Sorry.”

“It’s okay, I’m going to shower, see you soon.” I opened the door and cautiously looked out into the hall. It was empty and I quickly walked to my room, got a towel, and crossed the hall to the bathroom. Shutting the door, I looked in the mirror and saw the dark hickey that stood out against my pale neck. I blushed thinking about Austin sucking on my neck.

Removing my underwear, I stepped in the shower and stood under the hot running water. I took my time washing my hair and body, and made sure to wash a certain part very good. Once I finished I shaved and got out of the shower. After wrapping the towel around my waist, I left the bathroom feeling chilly and went to my room for clothes. I threw on new briefs and a pair of blue jeans and a plain red t-shirt.

I walked down the hall and heard Adam’s voice and dreaded his comment about my hickey. I walked into the kitchen, Adam was standing at the table where Austin and Elijah were sitting. I walked to the fridge and watched Adam stop mid-sentence and stare at me. Ignoring him, I opened the fridge and he walked up next to me.

“What happened to your neck?” He asked, touching the bruise.

“I fell.” I lied, sounding serious.

“You fell?” I turned to look at his confused face, he looked to Elijah, then to Austin who was covering his smile with his hand and looked the other way. Adam turned his head slowly back to me, “Whoa,” he pointed at me, “What did you do?” A small smile showed at the corner of his mouth.

“I told you I fell.” I shrugged.

“You’re lying.” A full smile broke out onto his face as he stated this. He looked back at Austin, his face really gave it away. Austin suppressed a smile and his cheeks were tented red. Adam looked back and went into hug me.

“No,” I dodged him and ran for the living room. I was tackled by Adam when I was by the couch and we went down. I was on my back with my arms pinned to the side of my head and Adam sat on my stomach. “I love you so much!” He said playfully.

“Why? You don’t even know what happened!” I half-shouted feeling embarrassed.

“I can guess.” Austin and Elijah appeared in the entryway.

“Well, I’m sure it’s not what you think it is.” I glared at him.

“Oh?” Disappointment crossed his face. “What did happen?”

“Uh….” I gave him a stupid face.

“Kissing?”

“Yes.” I answered immediately.

“Sex?”

“No.”

“Oral sex?”

“No.” He raised his eyebrows at me.

Austin spoke up. “Dry sex.”

“Woo.” Adam smiled at me. “Did he make you cum?” I laughed, feeling guilty and flipped Adam over and held him down. “Did you take charge in the bed?”

“N-no.” He was horrifying me.

“Really? So you’ll let Austin be on top, but not me?”

“Haha.” And I got off of him.

“I’m so proud of you.” Adam said while standing up, “Did you ask him for it?”

“No, he….” I looked at Austin.

“I started it.” Austin admitted.

“And you let him.” Adam stated, shocked.

“Yeah,” I blushed, “I don’t know.” Elijah left after that and I sat at the table peeling an orange. Austin sat beside me, watching me silently. When Adam came back in he sat across from us.

“Okay,” he sighed, “How did it happen?”

“He just started touching me.” I peeled a slice off and handed it to Austin who thanked me with a smile.

“And Nathan didn’t resist?” He was still shocked.

“No.” Austin shook his head back and forth.

“Well, you should try other stuff now.” Adam suggested and I shrugged.

“Anyway, I’m going to go to the store, we have no food in the house.”

“I’ll go with you.” Austin said. I grabbed my wallet and Austin followed me outside, swinging his keys on his finger.

The ride was very silent, I wasn’t quite sure what to say. Adam had definitely made things weird. “Sometimes I hate Adam.”

He laughed, “I know.” When we got to the store, we quietly walked in and I headed towards the food section. “Hey,” I looked at him, “I’ll be right back.”

“Where you going?”

“To get something, I’ll catch up with you.” He turned and started walking the opposite direction.

I ran to catch up with him, “I’ll go with you.”

He laughed, “Alright.” I gave him a suspicious look. We walked through the hygiene products and came to the….sexual products. I eyed him, but he didn’t look at me.

“What do you need?”

He shrugged, “Lube.” He looked at me innocently.

“What for?” My face flushed.

“Uh….” he picked up a bottle. He wasn’t planning on having sex with me….was he? “When you’re doing….stuff by yourself,” He held up a bottle of wet platinum, “this makes it more fun.” He smiled.

“I stared at him, “Really?”

“Yeah, get some.” He grabbed a bottle and handed it to me. I took it shyly and he smiled, “You’re cut. Come on, let’s get he rest of our stuff.” Austin did most of the shopping and got a lot of stuff, apparently he planned on cooking.

Once we were home, we carried the groceries in and Adam was not home. As we unpacked stuff, Austin tossed me my lube. “Oh, and can you put this in Adam’s room?” He handed me hair gel.

“Okay….” As I walked into Adam’s room, I paused. There was a box of condoms on Adam’s nightstand. I tossed the gel on his bed and went back to the kitchen, “Why does Adam have condoms? It’s not like he can get pregnant.”

He chuckled, “maybe he didn’t want any….semen inside of him.”

“Gross.” I rubbed my mouth feeling sick, “No more. I’ll forget I asked.” he just laughed. That night Austin made an amazing Japanese stir fry for the two of us and we spent the rest of the night in his room. I sat at the edge of the side of the bed facing Austin, he was in his computer chair in front of me.

Our knees were almost touching, “So, are you going to use the lube tonight?” He asked me.

“Uh….I guess I could.”

“Let me know how it goes.” He patted my knee, then he grabbed one of my hands and looked at it while running his fingers over my skin lightly. “It really is a shame you’re straight.”

I kept looking at his hand holding mine so gently, avoiding his gaze. I began to feel nervous, “Why?”

He sighed, “I don’t mean to make things weird, but I would love to date you. I love spending time with you, whether it’s just hanging out together, watching T.V., sleeping together…or kissing.” I stayed silent. What was I supposed to say? This was way too weird. “You know, this is kind of like dating. We’re always together, we’ve….done things couples do…”

“B-but that was just once….”

“I know….could you ever do more with me?”

“I don’t know, but I don’t love you.” Why did I say that? I could tell I hurt his feelings, he had stopped rubbing my hand.

“I know…” He let go of my hand, “I’m sorry.”

I searched his hurt face, was he in love with me? He looked towards his door and swayed slightly back and forth in his chair. “You don’t have to be sorry. I was being a jerk.”

“No, I shouldn’t pressure you into stuff like this.”

“You can’t help that, it’s how you feel. If you like someone a lot, you shouldn’t give up on them no matter what.”

“So,” he looked at me, “you would be okay with me trying to be with you and not give on it at all?”

I stared at him, “Yes….but I don’t want to hurt you like that…”

“Then try dating me, we don’t have to do anything.”

“No, I’m sorry.” I stood and saw him glance at my crotch and then he met my eyes. Feeling embarrassed, I left. I couldn’t date him, he’s a guy! I’ve always denied being gay to Adam. Sure I loved spending every moment with Austin, he was a great guy! Sure I enjoyed kissing him like that and when he touched me something inside me….

No. I couldn’t have feeling for him. I just want to be his friend. I could live with him and always hang out with him and maybe every once in awhile have some fun, right? That’s….

I sighed. I sat on my bed with my elbows rested on my knees and my head in my hands. This was getting too weird. There was a knock at my door. When I opened it, Austin stood there looking desperate. “Please give us a chance.”

“Austin-” I started.

“Why not?”

“I’m not gay.”

“Really?”

“Yes, really.” I felt frustrated.

“Then why do you spend all your time with me,” I started to say something, but he held up a hand to stop me, “why would you freak out when Adam touches you, but let me touch you all I want, let me kiss you and let me hump you?”

We stared at each other for the longest time. I just shrugged. Austin sighed, “I love you.” I continued to stare at him, my mouth slightly gapped. He loved me….. “Tell me, right now, do you seriously only like me as a friend?”

I didn’t know the answer. I continued to stare at him. “What are you thing? Tell me something.”

“I’m scared.”

His brows creased together, “Scared, why?”

“Well, for one, I’m afraid of screwing up our friendship. I don’t want Adam teasing me. What would my parents thing? I’m afraid to be butt raped, it feels just wrong.” His eyes dropped, “But I want to be with you and I hate to hurt you.”

“We can try.”

“I don’t know.” Our conversation ended right there when Adam walked into the house.

Yaoi-Freak1990 - Was this chapter okay? I’ve been a little stressed with everything lately, but I’m back in high spirits! I love to swim ^.^ Thank you to those who have been reading and waiting patiently for my stories! Let me know what you thought of this chapter. LOVE YOU ALL! (I’m going to be updating on other stories soon.)