Ronin Warriors Fan Fiction ❯ Shattered Dreams ❯ Love and Friendship ( Chapter 6 )

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Shattered Dreams
Chapter Six: Love and Friendship
By: WingsofSakon

As Shin sat on the docks he thought. Listening to the distant laughter of his friends and the crashing of the waves. He felt separated and yet at one with what he heard. The last night with Taka, was some thing he had longed for. He knew however that for some reason. That he meant to be with Miaka. It wrenched at his heart to think that. Although, he knew it could never be him. That night was another form of goodbye. He knew that when he woke up. When he was sleeping alone. It was confirmed when he saw a letter on his bedside desk that had his name on it.

My Dear Shin,

I met you on a dark rainy evening, alone and needing comfort. Through the darkness I looked up. To see what has to be… Eyes of an Angel. Ready to offer me every thing I ever needed or wanted. You turned my world inside out and healed it. You never pushed me into loving you. Although, you made it very hard not to. You were settled to just be my friend. I took it with out a seconded thought. You were with me when I needed you; a true friend does that. You said you needed time to figure things out. You said you were leaving. Again, my world crashed and I panicked. I hurt you in my selfishness. The look in your friend's face told me that. The things you told me. We're not of your nature. Yet, for some reason they were. You'd rather take the pain for some one else than burden them. Your heart told me that. I ran to you in the night. I needed you in so many ways. For as fragile or gentle as you may seem. You're the strongest I've ever known or ever will. Last night with you, was pure bliss and fulfillment. It was a dream come true, some thing that I'll never forget. I've been holding you and thinking most of the night. This is what I have come to decide.

Some destinies were written in the stars... some fated to be. I wish from the bottom of my heart and soul that we were. Although, this time… this time I know. That no matter how I may wish or fight. No matter how much I need or want. Our rightful spots are not by each other's side. My heart will cry forever, for you. I love you Mouri Shin. I forever will.

As you once said. By the time things are okay. We will not now each other any more. I know that deep down. Although… I still want to be your friend. This time it's your decision. Meet me at the café before the sun sets if you want to try again. If you don't, I know you have your reasons and I'll honor them. Just know that I will always trust, love and long for you. That last night with you. Was the peak of my life. Any one who wants to be with you. Should be honored if you chose them. Your friends… must be proud. Perhaps that's why they surround you so. I'd never let you go if I could. Although, I know such a beautiful star should be free to shine brightly for every one. So… I guess that's why I can. Even though I don't want to. I'll never forget my last night with you. I love you.

With love and Sincerity,
Tamahome

Shin looked back at the waves. Noticing the color they had changed. It reflected the sunset that sparkled in the sky. Hearing the laughter from not too far off. He looked back to his friends playing ball. He wanted cry as he thought.

' I was drawn here. So here I'm. Sitting here and so very far away yet. From every waking moment I'm there for all you. There isn't a time I ever remember wanting to leave you. My friends… you are my life. Although, now there's some thing new for me. There's no way to grasp it though. How can I feel so happy and yet so lonely? We fought many battles together and so much more. How can I turn my head… no my heart on you now? Is it true that I meant to never break from you forever? If that's the way it is and has to be. Then so be it. I can't leave who I'm. Tamahome, I love you. Perhaps some time again. The stars will favor us. Right now… This is where I'm meant to be. Forgive me. '

"Shin." A voice said putting their hand on his shoulder. "Are you still angry with me?" It was the blue haired archer.

"Touma… I couldn't ever get angry with you."

"Then… is it the letter?" Touma asked sitting down by him. "I'm sorry. When I found it… I read it."

"That's fine." Shin said nothing else about it.

"You're going to miss your chance." Touma smiled to him. Although, he seen he wasn't going to get another answer. "Shin… he loves you. You've given up so much for us. Are you really going to give up this to?"

"Love and friendship can sometimes be one in two. Sometimes it can collide. Sometimes it can combine and reroute the world. Each one has the power to do it by its self. When it comes to us, Touma. There must be five. Besides… when it comes to family. There's nothing I wouldn't give up."

Touma sat a while thinking of what he told him, then again about the letter. Then to when he was gone and he had slept with Seiji. "Shin, about when you were gone. Can I explain something to you?"

"If you think it'll make you feel better. I already told I'm not angry with you."

"The truth is… that I wanted to find out why you were so interested in him." He sputtered out. Getting only silence in response. So, he continued. "I wasn't after him, Shin. I wanted to know what he had that I didn't"

"Touma!" Shin said with a giggle. "That's one of the things I love about you."

"What's that?" He wasn't sure what he meant by his answer.

"You're inquisitive nature. I just love you for who you are. You think too much."

"Tamahome was right about you." Touma said smiling as he got up to leave.

"And what might that be?" Shin smiled to him.

"You do shine beautifully. Come on in. It's getting dark."

"I'm right behind you." He told him as he seen the sunset. With that he thought a thought of completion.

Love and friendship can sometimes be one in two. Sometimes it can collide. Sometimes it can combine and reroute the world. Each one has the power to do it by its self. There must be five. Some destinies were written in the stars... some fated to be. Funny how when you get to the end. You're back at where you started. Right where you should be. Tamahome… you're exactly where you should be and will be forever. In my heart.

The end…