Rurouni Kenshin Fan Fiction ❯ Never for the Public... ❯ I’ll Sleep When I’m Dead ( Chapter 10 )

Never for the public…

Chapter 10 - I'll Sleep When I'm Dead

Chapter Summary - Anoooo, isn't the honeymoon over yet?

 

This story has not been beta'd.

 

Summary: Kaoru's suffered a traumatic experience resulting in anxiety attacks. How does Kenshin plan to cure her? This story is based on the manga and anime up to the end of the Kyoto Arc, and ignores the Jinchuu Arc. However, sometime before this story, Kenshin does confide his past to his friends (same roundtable as in manga, different reasons irrelevant to this story)…

 

Note: The Japanese language is highly flexible and very beautiful. Although I do love mixing Japanese with English to try to keep the story true, I believe there is a limit which can severely decrease a story's enjoyment factor. I decided to ignore Kenshin's changes between his use of “sessha” versus “ore,” although I felt it necessary to keep “de gozaru.” Nevertheless, this story does contain MANY Japanese phrases. I've included a glossary at the end for reference. I apologize to those whom may not enjoy this story due to the intricate language mix.

 

The warning only applies to the first two chapters. Since the rest are “normal” chapters, I'm removing the warning and reducing the rating…

 

Disclaimer: I do not own, nor claim to own, any part of Watsuki Nobuhiro-dono's creations.

Rated: X for one lemon… I clearly marked the beginning and end of the lemon.***

 

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November 25-26, 1878

 

Two days later…

 

Kaoru yawned utterly exhausted, cuddling further under the blankets. Unfortunately, this is the fourth time she'd woken up that day, and sleep finally abandoned her as the late afternoon sunshine burned blindingly through the open windows. She tried to sit up in the futon, gasping out loud painfully as her inner mucles acutely negated her notion. Dozens of voluptuous images flooded her mind of their neverending sex-fest…

 

Their honeymoon night had been filled with one shared, erotic fantasy after another. The next morning, Kenshin had grilled up the remaining salmon into yet another scrumptuous dish for their breakfast's appetizer, then he'd moved on to her for his entree and dessert. Lunch proved yet another new experience when Kenshin had cunningly brought a bowl of strawberries into their bedroom for a “sweet treat.” Surprises were unending when after they had washed themselves and before their bath, he'd introduced her to doggy-style using the furo's thick edge.

 

Kaoru had sighed, secretly in relief, thinking he'd finally reached his limit when he'd artfully suggested they have their dinner on their outside porch. Her very sore and worn-out body had enthusiastically agreed, thinking covertly of Kenshin's extremely shy nature. Surely, he would abstain from his sudden bout of insatiable sexual hunger out in public? However, in her relief, she had only thought of her humbly bashful Rurouni… although they'd started out dinner dressed in their yukatas, the gradually chilling evening air was inevitably pierced with her high-pitched whimpers of ecstasy. Under the full moon's light, the antagonistic Battousai had thrillingly chased her down to the middle of their wide-open vegetable fields no less, where he wantonly ravished her for all of nature to witness. Even washing dishes lost its innocence as they christened their kitchen counter, made vigorous use of the dining room table, and eventually copulated their way back to the still-spread futon for further trials of stamina. The only times she'd found any refuge away from his voracious appetite was in the outhouse! Sometime late last night, they had finally fallen into a deep slumber…

 

<< Mattaku! Are normal men able to have sex like that for twenty-four hours? Kami! I'll never tease Kenshin about his “old age” ever again… >> With slight difficulty, she managed to lie on her side, giggling to herself. A pair of strong arms lifted her from the futon, and she turned to face her husband's beautifully amused, purely violet eyes.

 

“Konnichiwa, Kaoru-Koishii,” Kenshin gently kissed her.

 

“Konnichiwa, Kenshin-Anata,” she replied blissfully.

 

“A bit sore today, are we, de gozaru yo?” he teased, gently settling her on the edge of the short bathing stool inside their bathroom. Blushing wholly embarrassed, she had to sit with her legs wide apart on the stool.

 

“Mou Kenshin, I think you're making up for the ten years between Tomoe-san and myself!” she whined, feigning irritation. He chuckled, kneeling down on the floor between her legs. Kenshin carefully held her close, kissing her affectionately. Kaoru eagerly returned his kiss, embracing his shoulders.

 

“What is it with men enjoying leaving bruises all over a woman's body anyway?” she looked down at herself, noting the innumerable hickies and large hand-imprints covering her from head to toe, in addition to her healing scars. Kenshin definitely loved using his teeth… Said demon rubbed her breasts in his hands, leaning in to suck on a nipple. She gasped, feeling instant wetness in her nether regions regardless of her overly-used muscles. Scenting her strong arousal and still massaging her breasts, he smirked up at her.

 

“I don't see you protesting, Koishii?” Kenshin chuckled smugly, “OROOOOO!”

 

He looked sideways at her, the huge bump on his head a reminder of her passionately quick temper. Thoroughly annoyed at being instantly aroused with just his touch, she shoved him away.

 

“Maa maa!” he laughed delightfully, leaning back in to hug her once more.

 

“Koishii, I took a bath earlier, and restoked the fire for you, de gozaru yo. It's still nice and steaming, de gozaru. Dinner is almost done and I need to get back to our laundry, de gozaru,” he said, his eyes and voice softening sweetly. Karou felt her heart ache with the intensity of her love for him. She cupped his face and kissed him lovingly. He held her hands on his face, then wove their fingers together. She rubbed her forehead on his.

 

“Aishiteru, Kenshin,” she breathed out.

 

“Aishiteru, Kaoru,” he kissed her again and left the bathroom, considerately giving her some much needed privacy.

 

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They decided to spend the day indoors, both needing to recuperate from their athletic all-night, all-day marathon. Kaoru suggested they read together. Kenshin readily agreed and she dug out two action/adventure novels for each of them.

 

The evening cooking fire lightly blazed, barely warming the room with its light. Kenshin sat with an arm around Kaoru against a wall, cuddled under a blanket in their yukatas. The fire slowly died out over the past hour as they were each entranced in their books, comfortably sipping tea. Kaoru yawned, closing her book and leaning her head back on Kenshin's shoulder. She smiled as he affectionately nuzzled his cheek on top of her head. She peeked at his book amused, realizing he was in the middle of reading an exciting sword-fight scene and would not be easily pulled away. Looking up, she watched his eyes flash across the words, his mind miles away inside his imagination.

 

Kaoru stood up and put away her book. She picked up their tea dishes, washed them, walked over to Kenshin, and adjusted the blanket over him from her previous spot.

 

“Oro?” He slowly dragged his eyes away from the pages, looking as if he was snapping chains to force the movement. Kaoru giggled at his adorable involvement.

 

“Good night, Anata,” she whispered, and kissed his forehead. Praying for a full night's rest, she went to their bedroom. Kaoru lay down and snuggled into the futon, unaware of Kenshin's unexpectedly close presence. She startled as he slipped in behind her, warmly spooning himself to her body. He laid his arm around her waist and nuzzled his nose into her neck lovingly. She blushed, annoyed that her body now associated his simple touch with less innocent activities.

 

“Kenshin?”

 

“Hmmm?”

 

“Ano...” Kenshin leaned up on his elbow to see her face. Kaoru turned onto her back. They gazed at each other for while. She reached up and gently pulled his head down. Their lips met in a soft, sweet kiss. She tugged on his hair tie, freeing his silken locks, causing him to laugh.

 

“Koishii, I just don't understand your fascination with my hair,” he lamented jolily.

 

“You may as well save me the trouble and leave it down when we're alone together,” she winked at him, running her hands through the red flames. She held her breath anxiously when he scooted down and rested himself between her legs. Kenshin comfortably laid his chin down between her breasts, keeping as much of his weight off her as possible. She cautiously resumed stroking his hair, lulling him to sleep. Kaoru watched him doze peacefully on her chest, his face childlike in his sleep. Realizing he was going to let her rest that night, she smiled; she hugged her arms around his shoulders, and laid her head back.

 

“Aishiteru, Anata…” she whispered as she fell asleep. Kenshin barely opened his eyes, smiled knowingly, and closed them, drifting to sleep.

 

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~LEMON~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~

 

Kaoru woke up with the sunlight shining through the paper windows on her face. She rubbed her eyes, figuring it must be around ten in the morning, and turned to Kenshin behind her. She covered her mouth, desperately trying to keep her laughter silent. Kenshin was sleeping in she had long deemed the “Yahiko pose”… on his back, arms and legs lying helter-skelter, snoring widely through his mouth, his hair a fiery curtain around him. She's watched Kenshin sleep countless times in the past year, but he's never made any noise, or even twitched, in his sleep. Kaoru instantly noticed his mistake when his right eye moved subtlely…

 

“Kenshin, get up!” Kaoru teased him, whacking his face with a pillow. Kenshin grabbed the pillow and made a show of turning away from her, hiding under the pillow. He snuggled further under the blanket, moaning obnoxiously. Kaoru laughed at his silly antics, then looked at him deviously.

 

“Ok, you asked for it!” He heard her stand up, then silence for a few moments. Just as he tilted the pillow only off his face, tempted to turn around, her yukata dropped on his nose.

 

“ORO?!” Kenshin clumsily disentangled himself from the yukata, pillow, and blankets to turn around. His heart stopped. There was his Kaoru, lying on her back posing for him. Her left leg lay flat upon the futon; her right knee bent sensually tipping her body slightly towards him. Her hair lay billowing around her head (how did she unbraid it so quickly??). Her left elbow rested on the futon, her left hand rested below her breast. Her right arm curled above her head with her palm open. She was smiling at him, a loving smile that was meant just for him.

 

“Kaoru.” The sound of his own voice jump-started his heartbeat. Kenshin fumbled with untying his belt and shoving his yukata behind him. Kaoru giggled at his enthusiasm. Kenshin smiled as he laid himself beside her.

 

“Mou! Are you laughing at me, Koishii? I might have to punish you, de gozaru…” he leaned in and kissed her. Kaoru hugged his shoulders, already starting to breath heavier.

 

“I think you're enjoying sex quite a bit, Anata,” she leaned up and kissed his ear, teasing him back.

 

“The sex is the least of my total enjoyment…” he kissed down her neck, fondling a breast in his hand.

 

“So then, you're saying you don't enjoy sex with me?” she gasped as he skipped pretenses and ran his hand down to her core, stroking her mercilessly. He licked his way down to a nipple, kissing and suckling as he continued to taste her.

 

“I never said that, Koishii.” he purred, slipping a finger into her already wet depths, followed immediately by two fingers...

 

“Then what are you saying, Anata?” she sighed, talking becoming a difficult labor to keep up. He rose up to kiss her passionately, his tongue mimicking his fingers.

 

“I love the way you moan and sigh…” he slid between her legs and slowly joined himself with her, both of them ignoring Kaoru's painful hiss.

 

“I love the way you run your hands through my hair…” as she pulled him closer to her, tangling one hand on the nape of his neck. Kenshin wasted no time setting a hard, quick pace.

 

“I love hearing you breathe in my ear…” he suckled her ear.

 

“I love your fierce temper…” kiss, “your kindness…” nuzzle, “your compassion…” sigh, “your courage…” moan, “your warrior's strength…” suckle, “your innocence…” breaths gasped as their dance strained for its ending.

 

“Most of all… Kaoru-Koishii…” gasps seized oxygen, “I love the way you say my name…”

 

“Kenshin!” Kaoru's body convulsively squeezed his own. Kenshin breathed hard in her ear, thrusting thrice more following with his groaning release. Gradually hearts slowed and soft kisses were exhanged. Kenshin started to pull away, but Kaoru held him in place.

 

“Kenshin,” she smiled her smile, just for him. He kissed her tenderly, laying his head back down into the crook of her shoulder. The lovers lightly napped that way, Kaoru's legs sliding down Kenshin's sides as they relaxed. Kaoru eventually stirred and rubbed Kenshin's back, enjoying the feel of him still inside her. All of his muscles were completely relaxed as he dozed blissfully on her shoulder.

 

“Kenshin,” she kissed his shoulder, unconsciously arching her hip into his. Kaoru trembled from the pleasure which shot up through her. A memory came to her mind, and she flipped Kenshin onto his back, awkwardly pulling him out of her. Kaoru sat on top of his legs, studying his limp member. Thinking of their first bathroom tryst, she took him in her hand, immediately feeling warm blood rush to the skin beneath. She slid her hand up and down, mimicking the movement he would normally make within her. Kenshin moaned, his head shifting to the other side.

 

Kaoru squeezed her hand a bit tighter and stroked harder. Her effort paid off as he sluggishly hardened. Eager for his penetration, Kaoru leaned down and sucked hard on his tip. She trailed her teeth down his shaft, nipping him here and there lightly. Opening his mouth to breath easier, Kenshin's moans increased. Kaoru grabbed his mostly-erect arousal and positioned herself. Her inner muscles screamed as she lowered onto him, tightly spasming around his manhood. The response was immediate; he became fully aroused.

 

“Kenshin,” she called out to him as she began to move over him. Kaoru unconsciously tightened her inner muscles, shots of pleasure coursing through his body, snapping him awake. Kenshin opened his eyes to see the erotic sight of his beautiful wife stimulating herself on him, her hands back on his knees supporting her. Her hair tickled his legs as she arched beautifully, neck fully exposed and mouth open in awe. Kenshin's hands moved of their own accord and caressed her breasts, tweaking her nipples, further exciting Kaoru. He rubbed down to her hip, firmly guiding her movements. Speed accelerated with each jolt of her body. Kaoru shifted, suddenly crying out as he snuck his hand between them and massaged a finger into her clit. Kaoru landed on her inner jewel, and waves of indescribable pleasure rushed through her.

 

“Kami Kenshin!” she cried out as a powerful g-spot/clit combo orgasm ripped through her frame. Kenshin gave her no time to rest as he swiftly pulled her off of himself. He roughly pushed her to her hands and knees, and plunged back in halfway through her orgasm, easily hitting her jewel with every thrust. Kaoru collapsed down to her elbows, pleasured tears trailing her cheeks and shivering uncontrollably as he prolonged her orgasm. Her fingers dug into the futon to hold her in place as Kenshin shoved her knees wide and seized her hips bruisingly, increasing his lascivious torment. Another orgasm rent her body, yet still Kenshin ravaged her. His hands were all over her, frenzy welcome in their laborious state. She felt like he was going to split her in two, teetering on the delicate border between pain and pleasure. He leaned over her, planting both of his hands to the sides of her body giving him more leverage and power; he used all of his strength and speed, his tip barely staying inside her each time he pulled away only to savagely ram back in. He reached under her and twisted her core between his fingers. The pleasurable onslaught was too much…

 

“KENSHIN!” she screamed hoarsely, her orgasm sending spots of white behind her eyes. Her body gave out, strength exhausted, as sweet darkness claimed her.

 

“KAORU!” Having successfully held back for so long, Kenshin happily succumbed to his celestial orgasm. He crashed down on top of her, gasping desperately for air. Feeling sleep straining to join him with her, he used the last of his strength to roll off her. He wearily turned his head back to her, reaching the back of his hand up to caress her cheek. Kenshin closed his eyes, contentedly seeing Kaoru as he succumbed to welcome oblivion.

 

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ END LEMON~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

 

Evening fell around the sleepy home. The lovers had shifted in their sleep, Kaoru snuggled up on Kenshin's shoulder. Senses sharpened as awareness returned. A stomach grumbled angrily in the darkness, a chuckle hot on its tail.

 

“Yareyare, yet another first in my life...” Kenshin bantered. “I've never stayed in bed all day unless I was recovering from injuries, de gozaru.”

 

“Hmmm…” Kaoru yawned lazily.

 

“We should get up, otherwise we'll get no sleep at all tonight, de gozaru.” Kenshin said.

 

“Hmmm…” Kaoru replied, crushing herself against him.

 

“Kaoru?” Kenshin called to her, highly amused.

 

“Hmmm…” Kaoru nuzzled her cheek on his shoulder. It was obvious she wasn't getting up anytime soon without some encouragement...

 

“Oro? My poor tanuki-chan is all worn out?...” Kenshin flew out of the bed, dodging her first punch. He ran into the living area and shoved himself against a wall, darkness blending him into the surroundings. Kaoru gave chase, but stopped when she couldn't see him.

 

“KENSHIN NO BAKA! When I find you…!” Kenshin quietly stalked up behind Kaoru and grabbed her to himself. He quickly bound her wrists with his hands and placed his feet tightly on the outer sides of hers, keeping her still. Kaoru thrashed for all she was worth, but couldn't get free.

 

“Kisama!” she huffed in her typical brief fury.

 

“You called, de gozaru yo?” he taunted, nuzzling her neck sweetly. Suddenly, Kaoru's stomach let out another wretched-sounding rumble. Kenshin laughed and kissed her cheek.

 

“Let me cook dinner for you, Koishii,” he cajoled in her ear.

 

“Masaka Kenshin, you just teased me on purpose, didn't you?” Kaoru asked annoyed. Kenshin suckled her earlobe.

 

“Orororo?” he whispered huskily into her ear, his rolling tongue sending tingles down her spine. Seeing that she had calmed down, Kenshin let her go and fetched their abadoned yukatas. Kaoru prepared the bath while Kenshin cooked dinner. They peacefully ate dinner and cleaned up. Kenshin stretched and yawned.

 

“I've never been so lazy in my entire life, de gozaru!” he exclaimed goofily. Kaoru giggled.

 

“Watch out, Kenshin… you're turning into a lazy bum in your old age!” she teased him.

 

“Mou! Why does everyone pick on my age, de gozaru?!” he joked back laughingly. He grabbed her up in his arms and ushered them to the bathroom.

 

“The Hiten Mitsurugi Ryuu must be a fountain of youth for you and Hiko-shou to look so impossibly young!” Kaoru pinched his cheeks. They both laughed jovially as they washed each other, joking the whole time. Kenshin stepped into the tub, leaned over, and grabbed up Kaoru from outside the tub. He sat them down into the steaming water, Kaoru hissing sharply when the water lapped over her private area. Kenshin gently lowered her onto his lap sideways. He hugged her close to himself.

 

“Gomen Koishii… I shouldn't have been so rough, de gozaru,” Kenshin apologized. Kaoru giggled.

 

“Don't apologize… I really like that position… a lot,” she blushed embarrassed, missing him blush in manly satisfaction.

 

“Did I hurt you, de gozaru?” he asked. She looked up into his eyes.

 

“No, you were wonderful.” He pulled her up and kissed her. Kaoru wove her arms around his shoulders and deepened the kiss. Kenshin pulled away laughing.

 

“I think we should take a break, otherwise you won't be able to walk tomorrow, de gozaru yo,” he simpered.

 

“Oh? I didn't know we had anywhere to go?” she tittered. He pulled her to his shoulder and relaxed into the water, both of them closing their eyes.

 

“Tomorrow…” she began.

 

“Hmmm?”

 

“I'd like to practice all day tomorrow, if you don't mind, Kenshin?” she looked up at him.

 

“That sounds good. We have a lot of laundry to do, de gozaru,” he replied softly, opening one eyes to look at her. She smiled.

 

“Kenshin, I think you're the only man alive whom likes to do the laundry!” she laughed.

 

“It's relaxing… my mind becomes quiet, de gozaru,” he smiled.

 

“Kenshin…” He opened his eyes and met hers.

 

“Will you tell me, the real reason you love doing the laundry so much?” she asked quietly. He sighed heavily and kissed her forehead, leaning back to close his eyes once more. Kaoru laid her head back on his shoulder, believing that he wasn't going to answer…

 

“I could never wash it off me… all day, every day, in my clothes, on my swords and sheaths, in the sake I drank every night and the food I forced myself to eat, in my hair, all over my skin, even in my sleep… I could still smell it…” he said softly.

 

“Smell what, Kenshin?” she asked.

 

“Blood,” he answered.

 

“Do you really remember your past that much… still, I mean?” Kenshin looked at Kaoru surprised.

 

“You can be quite perceptive at times, de gozaru, Koishii…” he teased. She slapped his arm in retaliation. “The past was always at the forefront of my mind, however, since I moved in with you…” he kissed her forehead.

 

“Since I moved in with you, the smell diminished into the background. The scent which now holds my mind all day, every day, is your lovely jasmine smell, Kaoru.” Kaoru blushed flattered, hiding her face in his neck. He stood up and reached his hand to her.

 

“Time for bed, Koishii.”

 

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*** Author's Note: At the beginning of writing this story, it was so long I had to create a dated outline. I'll eventually repost the old chapters with the dates, but for now, starting with this chapter, I'll add my imagined dates.

 

Special Thanks:

I'm posting this the same day as Chapter 9, so to Neko-sama, Jenniebennie-sama, Ginny-sama (aka Kokoronagomu), and all of my dedicated non-reviewers - Katajikenai, minna-san.

 

Glossary:

 

-chan = an honorific pronoun suffix addressed to someone whom is younger, or equal to, in age, or for friends

-san = an honorific pronoun suffix addressed to someone whom is older, or is a stranger

Aishiteru = I love you

Anata = in this story, a term of endearment usually used by the wife

Ano = an exclamation, “Ummm”

Baka = idiot

Bakumatsu = The Late Tokugawa Shogunate period in Japan's history from 1853-1867, ending with the Boshin War of 1868 and the final battle at Toba-Fushimi

Battou-jutsu = (Quick Draw Technique) by whipping the sword out of its sheath, one can increase its speed twice- or three-fold, which can kill with one blow without taking a single blow from one's opponent. This is a real-life kenjutsu technique.

Battousai = Kenshin's name during the Bakumatsu Revolutionary War per his sword-fighting specialty, Battoujutsu… the -sai at the end designates him as a Battoujutsu Master, having perfected every Battou-technique possible

De gozaru = an obsolete phrase of extreme politeness added to the end of sentences, roughly translated to “that it is”, a form of “to be”… (I only use one conjugation of de gozaru to keep things simple.)

Furo = Japanese bath tub… traditional baths required the user to wash their bodies outside of the tub

Gomen = I'm sorry

Hiten Mitsurugi Ryuu = the killing style of swordsmanship that Kenshin fights with, allowing him to swiftly slaughter a multitude of opponents at one time

Hitokiri = Assassin

Kami = God

Katajikenai = Old Samurai language, now obsolete… Thank You formally; grateful; indebted

Kisama = the most vulgar curse for “you” in the second person, most typically used as Bastard or Asshole, or against an enemy you're about to/are in the middle of fight/ing

Koishii = a term of endearment usually used by the husband

Konnichiwa = Hello

Maa maa = an exclamation to soothe a conversation, or calm someone down

Masaka! = Unbelievable!

Mattaku! = Good grief!

Mou = geez

Ore = “ I “ (typical brash male pronoun)

Oro = an exclamation, only slightly similar to the English “huh?”

Rurouni = homeless wanderer, vagabond

Sake = Japanese wine

Sessha = this humbled one

Tanuki = Raccoon

Yareyare = an exclamation made in exasperation, relief, annoyance, or disappointment

Yukata = a very light kimono worn to bed