Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ A new horizon ❯ The beginning ( Chapter 1 )

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Hi there. This is my first story and I need someone who says how I did it. So please read and review.

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Thunderclouds were upon Toyko.

Luna looked worried out of the window. spring has again found it's way to Tokyo. It had been now nearly a year and they still hadn't found the princess.

'How could that be? Hasn't Queen Serenity given me the mission to find the Senshi's, to train them so that they could protect the princess.... if they finally found her? How could i have failed my Queen? Wasn't I her faithful servant and Royal Advisor? And now I can't even train a ditzy, clumsy and irresponsible girl to be true heroin!'

The black cat with the halfmoon on the forehead looked worriedly at her charge who was snoring peacefully under her blankets. Her golden hair was dishevelled and flown over everything near the girls head and her pillow that she had in her embrace.

Her pink pyjama with bunnies as well as halfmoons on it was a stark contrast to the white blankets and Luna winced internally as she wondered how she could teach this drooling girl to be Sailor Moon.

Luna was happy that she had found 3 other Senshis who were everything that Usagi was not. But... that had Luna to admit to herself that Usagi was still the most powerful of them.

Sighing she decided she should Usagi sleep and go hunting...
'I wonder what for nice mice are out there today' With an leap she was out of the window and faded than into the night.

Just as Luna disappeared did it seem that the mood changed in the room.

Usagi began to turn and toss in her bed seemingly living through an nightmare for an outsider. What they didn't know was that Usagi wasn't having an nightmare but she was living him. And not even one... no over hundred thousand at the same time. Suddenly a golden Light filled the room. It was the only thing that could help the girl to stay sane. The golden halfmoon on her forehead and the infinite Power from the Lunariens.

Then as fast as the light has come it disappeared again and what left was a slightly shining halfmoon on the forehead of Usagi...


Gasping Usagi sat up! Heavy breathing and still fighting against the binds she looked around her and blinked. Sunlight and the cold spring breeze came through the open window and the singing of the birds. The sun seemed to have just coming above the horizon. Slowly Usagi looked around her room that should be familiar to her but didn't seem real. Looking down she saw that the bonds she had been fighting only moments before were her blankets and no danger was there.

Stunned she blinked again.'Okaaaay anyway I am in a reaaaaally weird dream or this is the house of my parents and my room and I am again a teenager.' Looking down at her bust and after a short "inspection" of it.. 'yep i am really again sweet 15'

Slowly Usagi untangled herself from her blankets and stood up. From the inspection of her room nothing seemed different from a normal teenager but as she looked closely she saw her transformation brooch at her discarded schooluniform as well as she looked in her spacepockets (what the normal teenager doesn't have) she found her moonscepter and communicator.

Smiling wistfully Usagi stared at the things that had been once her connection to the Senshi's and a memory at her time with them. Sighing she looked again around but didn't found what she had been looking for. There weren't pictures of Mamoru and her. Neither of Chibi-Usa and them all together.

She swirled once again around but didn't find her royal advisor and step-mother. Usagi decided that probably only one could answer her questions so she would just have to fill in the place of 'Tsukino Usagi' until she would know how to reverse things or at least gain the knowledge why SHE was here.

SHE who has seen everything there was to her soul. SHE who had lived longer than her husband and daughter as well as their incarnations and those of her friends. SHE who was the only one who deserved the Name Sailor Cosmos.

"Sooo now we will just concentrate and see which memories I have and if those of this Tsukino Usagi, in this dimension, are there as well." contemplated Usagi as she looked in the mirror to see her 15 year old reflection.

Usagi slowly sat down on the carpet and concentrated only on her breathing. The random thought of how the Ray in this dimension would react if she saw her usually ditzy friend meditating made her smile ruefully. How she had missed the Girls and now she could see them and Mamo-chan again.

Usagi's deep breathing relaxed her further then she saw suddenly over milliards of memories and lessons as well as experiences she had made in her incarnations before her inner eye. But then she felt something that pulled her nearer.

It was a memory in golden light and as she looked at it she realized that it was that of her incarnation in this dimension. Slowly she looked everything through. From her first steps as child till the time where Luna told she was Sailor Moon until finally she came to yesterday.

Even her nightmares, she could see it had been all the memories only She should have, were seen.
Then at the near end of them all; even when they were only short recollections; she saw a silver light and then she saw her mother, Queen Serenity smiling at Her and speaking with Her.

Amused twitched Usagi's brow 'Also she left me a message because she knew I would go through these memories.' Still amused she looked nearer and now fully understood the message the former Queen of the Moon has left for her.

"My lovely Daughter. I know that you have through much pain and sorrow to finally find your place as Sailor Cosmos and Our Salvation And Messiah but I have token your Spirit as well as your memories in this dimension because there was someone who told me it was necessary. Surely you already know that only Sailor Pluto could allow such an manipulation of the complex state of time.

She told that as Protector of Time she has seen that only with your might the fate of you as well as that of the universe was changeable. She told me that since you have become Sailor Cosmos you were lonely and wished yourself a second chance where you could live in peace with your family and ultimately Sailor Galaxia. And even if you won't believe it, because of the natural balance or equilibrium as you would call it, here it is possible for you. Pluto herself told me and you know she is not allowed to lie and especially not when it goes about something this huge and important.

But to really fulfill this dream you have to become one with this memory"

'Huh is she kidding me? To become one with the memory? I have never done this before and I don't even know if that is possible..'

"You have, as far as I know never done that because you would your objectivity and emotionlessness that you need to not totally despair by onslaught of feelings of all your incarnations. I understand that but you must become my daughter and the only way that you could do that were to fuse with this memory and everything that comes with it.

So I beg you to fuse with it and to become my daughter not only in body but also in blood, soul and spirit. I know that you will be then her and no longer Sailor Cosmos but please do it not only for me but for you who are yearning for everything that you have lost and now have a second chance to archive it."

The memory stopped there. Usagi came slowly out of her Meditation and stared blankly at the wall.
'I would be Tsukino Usagi again. I would have my friends, my family, my love, and this planet again.
But should I do it? When I become her real daughter then i would be the normal Tsukino Usagi of this world just that I am no longer ditzy, airheaded and clumsy.

What I have achieved in over milliards of years as well of other lives this Usagi would have achieved now. As well as all the Powers that comes with it..... Well not all because I would be still Sailor Moon the 15 years old and not Sailor Cosmos or even Eternal Sailor Moon or Neo Queen Serenity.

But I would have the matarial arts, as well the muscle picture and the experiences of all fights I ever had..... Is it worth it. To loose myself and hope that I find a better future then to loose everything I love and then die in the last battle with Galaxia where after that nothing exists anymore?
Do I want to see all this again if this here fails?

All the heartache, the pain and sorrow, the depression, the will just to die and then to be reincarnated again instead of to be with my loved ones? Do I really want that?

Yes! I want this Chance. And when Pluto says that it is possible than it just has to be!
She had been the One who told that she pities me because we both share the same burden to be immortal but I have the soft heart and the ability; or the curse; to be able to love anyone no matter who he is.'

Usagi's determined eyes looked once again in her reflection. She had to be totally sure of her decision because she would not only loose herself but change the Tsukino Usagi in this world. She would merge with her and would share every pain and sorrow she had ever lived through.

Slowly nodding to the mirror she began to breathe more deeply and longer to set herself again in the state of meditation.

Without any hesitate she was cradling the memories of this Usagi in her thoughts and slowly merged with them.

Golden Light was enveloping the form of Usagi as she became one with her "twin".

Usagi felt that she changed. She felt the innocence and softheartness seep into her as did a new spirit.
It felt like her view of things were changed 180° and at the same time not.
The last thought was that she regretted that she would now have tainted the innocent and optimistic view of the 15 year old even when they both would now be one and not remember ever being anything else.

As Usagi opened her eyes she looked curiously in her reflections and smiled.
She had still her favorite pyjama's on and needed to get going if she wanted to be ready for school and on time.

Fast she sprung up and showered. Dashing back in her room she saw that it was already 7.10 and that she had to hurry if she wanted to finish her homework and be early at school so she could study a little bit before classes begin.

Clothed in her schooluniform and finished with her homework 20 minutes later, she walked downstairs to say good morning to her family and grab a little breakfast.

To say her family was stunned was an understatement.

Mama Ikuko stared at her daughter as if she was an alien and her father even looked up from his newspaper to see his little Bunny sit down at the breakfast table.

Her decked place were normally nothing but show nowadays because Usagi's parents knew that she would never get up early enough that she get the chance at a normal breakfast on a weekday and sometimes not even at the weekends.

So it stunning to see their sitting at the breakfast table and starting to eating relaxed and very very very well mannered her breakfast.

"Usagi-chan is everything all right? Do you have a fever? Or are you not feeling well?" rushed Ikuko to say as she lay a hand on Usagi's forehead and looked at signs of illness by her strange behaving daughter.

"No no Okaa-san. Everything is alright. I just decided that i should change my behaviour for the best of us all. And I didn't wanted to came late to school. Could I have please another pancake Okaa-san? You really made them delicious today!" chirped Usagi happily while reassuring her parents that she was totally okay.

But now they were even more concerned for their daughter. Early at school? Changing behaviour for the best of their family??

"Uh Usagi-chan has something happened in school? Has someone teaed you again? Did someone harass or bullying you? Or with your friends? Did you argue? You have to know we all love you like you are! Well it has it's benefits if you would study more, be more responsible, bring good notes home,.... but we all love you just the same! You really don't need to change just for the benefit of appearance!"

Usagi's father was going slowly to the edge of hysteria. His little girl was suddenly not only well mannered and seemingly concerned of her appearance in school, no she hadn't even looked as if she would be in her own world when he told her that they loved her unconditionally and had smiled at him.

It seemed she had even heard what he had said and could now answer accordingly.

"Tou-san. I know that you love me unconditionally and I didn't say that I would change my habits because I don't believe that. No I just realized that I couldn't live with myself like that anymore. It had always been like that. I didn't like to be myself but the more I tried to be like someone else like Okaa-chan or Ami 'The Genius' the less concentrated and more ditzy and clumsy I got. I now I finally understood what I was making wrong!"

Usagi looked wistfully and a little sad outside the window. And so didn't see that her father looked at her with a sorrowful expression and her mother crying even when she tried to hide it with her hand.

"I tried so hard to be someone else. To make you proud and happy. I tried to be what you wanted me to be and what everyone else wanted. And over that I forgot the most important thing. It really doesn't matter if I'm a clutz and a air-head. It wouldn't even matter if I had no hair or would have another skin colour.
It wouldn't matter if I were fat or even if I were a genius. Because all that matters is that I am myself.
And that isn't something what others can show. No I have to discover myself all alone and with that all my talents."

Smiling looked Usagi surprised at her sobbing mother and her father who wished embarrassed at his eyes.
Both her parents looked now at their daughter in a new light. They hadn't known from her problems or her plans to change herself. How would they? Usagi never talked about it because she was too embarrassed herself that she couldn't be that what she wanted. All her silly dreams had been the wish to be someone that other could love and respect. Not the clumsy little ditz who everyone picked upon.

Especially Mamoru she had wanted to impress because she had been secretly admiring him for years.
He had been always in the Crown Arcade so that she could spy on the good looking man. She hadn't known his name but she had dreamed that he would just one time see her and acknowledge her.

He had been since her 10th birthday the man she wanted as boyfriend and later as husband.
She had always dreamed of a Ballroom where she would dance with him and sometimes even kiss.
She hadn't known then but it had been her memories of the Silver Millenium. And her "air-headness" had been not just only dreams or that she would be in another world, no, it had been because she had remembered every lesson Queen Serenity had taught her.

Naturally at the beginning she had told her mother from the treaties of the moon as well as of the princes and princesses of the other planets. But as her parents told she shouldn't tell such lies and fantasies she had started to repress them and told nobody anymore from them.
Now that she had finally accepted herself she could be what she should have been from birth.

A true Princess in style, behaviour and self-respect.

Anyone who would now look at her would no longer see the little ditzy Usagi but the self-assured Usagi who was worthy to be a princess.

Smiling at her parents she started to wash up her dishes and get ready for school.

"Have you known that she had made such high standards for herself koishii?" Kenji asked his wife as Usagi disappeared upstairs. He hadn't known that his little Bunny was plagued by their steady tirades at how she should do this or that. Kenji blamed himself that he hadn't seen that she tried so hard just to make him happy. But he should have known better. His little usagi had always loved her family so much that she would have done everything to make them happy.

And to think that he had just wished yesterday as she had come home with another failed test that he had an other daughter than her. No he wouldn't trade his daughter for anyone else. She was a really magnificient girl. No even that she wasn't anymore. She was magnificient and wonderful young woman who had learned to mature even with the stones he had laid in her way.

Ikuko looked worriedly and still sobbing after her daughter. No she hadn't known as well from Usagi's self-worth problems or that she would do anything to please her. Her little daughter had become a wonderful young woman without that she had even realized it. She should have been there on her way to maturity but had just been an onlooker.

She remembered very good as she had been 15 and had met Kenji. The confusing time of hormones and steady self-consciousness. And now she had a daughter who had finally found herself admits all the crazy world around her. Had Usagi even an boyfriend? Had she had more than one? How often had she seen her little girl cry herself to sleep or to come home crying.

But she hadn't realized that it could have been boy troubles or even heartbreak. No she just thought that someone might have teased her or that she had a lousy test. 'I didn't even saw who my little girl really was. What a bad mother I am not to realize that she was growing up and has so many problems! But now I will stop that! Tonight I will talk with her from woman to woman and will become reacquainted with her.'

" No anata I didn't know about her problems and sorrows but I want to remedy that. Do you think you could maybe take Shinta in the cinema and Usagi and me, we make a little woman-night? Do you think that could you manage?"

"Sure koishii. Shinta has wanted to see this one movie all week so that wouldn't be a problem. But you should ask Usagi about that. We don't know if she doesn't has already something to do. May be a meeting with the girls if I don't understand why they meet so often.... Or could she have already an boyfriend?"

Kenji wondered. 'Not before I know him nearer. The Boy, or man who has captured my Bunny's heart has to have to show me that he's good enough for her, Especially now where I know how much my little Usako has hurt!' Determined to find out if she really has an boyfriend he decided to tell his wife from his plan.

"Koishii do you think she could have an Boyfriend? maybe you will know if you two have an woman-night?
I can't believe our little one is already so grown up. I'm sure you will tell me if something important has happened in her life.(?)"

Ikuko smiled about the behaviour of her husband. He had always been a little jealous about the attention from his women.She had known that he would like to know about any male attention that Usagi might receive but she also knew that if she let her husband meddle with her daughters love-life Usagi would be very unhappy.

"I don't know Kenji if I will tell you about Usagi's secrets and life if you're already jealous just because of the possibility. But I promise to tell you about everything important that may include your relationship with her!" Then looking at the clock and hearing Usagi and Shingo coming down bickering, she considered how to have a woman-night with Usagi.

"Usagi." Ikuko looked nervous in her daughters laughing face where even her eyes sparkled with happiness.
" I would like to have an conversation just between us two as well as an nice evening. Have you time today? I would be very happy if you would have time and when not than it isn't bad. We could have any other one too.(?)"

Usagi looked happily in her her mother nervous face. She knew that her mother didn't want to pressure her and at the same time would be happy to talk with her know more about her now more mature daughter.

It had been funny to see Luna nearly falling out the window as she saw that Usagi wasn't only awake but fed and ready to go to school. Luna had scolded her for scaring her and than demanded what was wrong with her.

Even if Luna might be able to better understand what had been happening to her she still was too set on finding the princess and making Usagi and super-senshi so that she could pat herself on the shoulder.
Usagi knew that Luna was just making that because of her rivalry with Artemis because he had already found his charge and made her a super-hero as Sailor V.

But Usagi wasn't really angry at Luna for that. She was just content to let Luna scold her until even she was red under her fur. Laughing she had joked that Luna should go and learn anger management before she would explode and then fast skipped out of her room and away from and a furious cat.

Outside her room she had bumped into an shocked Shingo who has, after he had finally regained his wits, started to bicker with her and argue her about her mentally derangement. Smiling had Usagi only said that it lay in the family and then they had a good word-fight while she had him in a headlock which she released him at the top of the stairs.

Smiling Usagi nodded once and told her mother that she hadn't anything planned for tonight, except that she might have to go to save the people from youmas, what she naturally didn't told her family, and that she would be happy to spend it with her.

Ikuko glowed with happiness as she told her daughter to be at least at 7 p.m. here and gave her the bunny lunchbox with her food.

Usagi smiled again, thanked and nodded to her mother. Then she kissed her and her father on the cheek, ruffled her little brothers hair and wished her family a good day. Skipping outside and looking at her watch and she saw that she had nearly 40 minutes to go to school. So she wandered relaxed and happy for once to see her surrounding not only in a blur, down the street.

As she arrived at the school she saw that she was one of the first and that many looked curiously at her and started whispering. Smiling Usagi was going down the halls and greeted teacher and students who were looking at her as if she an abonimation. But that was normal for Usagi. Even before there had always been whispering and stares wherever she would go. But now she could look at them with superiority because of her new found self.

Smiling she got into her class where Mizuno Amy was already studying. Smiling she took the place beside her and waited till she acknowledged her.

Amy was surprised as she saw that someone sat in Usagi's place. Surely it couldn't Usagi herself because she never got up until short before school start. Amy was still pondering how Usagi couldn't get up for school and then come every day late for school. It was an mystery for her. Also her homework and notes.
'Maybe it's because Usagi has just no discipline. I have always asked myself how she could be so.. so.. so.. terrible in school and still a senshi for love and justice. For Justice you have to know what the laws are but when I see Usagi and her studies I don't know if she even knows them herself....'

Sighing Amy saw that the seat next to her still occupied. Thinking that it might be someone who needed her help with their homework she looked finally up, just to gape at the person next to her.

"Usagi! What are you doing so early here? Has your mother thrown you out or..." whispering she continued" or was there an youma attack this morning? You could have called me then you know? I am always before 6a.m. awake!"

Usagi just sat there smiling and shook her head. Slowly she told Amy that she wanted to change her habits and she had been so early up because it seemed the best to start with. "Well and then I made my homework. Even my parents were totally surprised and asked me if I were alright!" Giggling she told in an undertone that even Luna was upset with her because of her early start even if she had been the one who told her always to get up earlier.

Amy shook slowly and unbelieving her head. This was the same Usagi she had been going with to school yesterday? She seemed to have turned 180°. Well she still was her bubbling, giddy and giggling self that was sure but it was still strange to see her so serious about something and that she has even managed to pull it through. Even if Amy suspected that tomorrow or even this afternoon everything would be normal again.

"Usagi maybe I should look your Homework through. Last time you didn't even get the easier ones right and Ms. Haruna has given us a lot more difficult for today." Amy was happy that Usagi had at least tried to make them and so had showed the will to do something for her notes.

Sighing Amy took hold of her rubber and pencil to see the tasks through and to correct if anything wrong. But now she got the second shock of the day. Everything was completely right! Usagi had even made the bonus tasks and some more difficult than they had made here in school. And even then she had made everything completely right.

"U-usagi. It's correct! Everything is correct! How did you do- I mean who helpe- Usagi just what have you done??" Amy stuttered not completely sure to trust her own eyes. 'How could Usagi have the brains to do this? Maybe her parents helped. But Usagi alone, no! I don't believe that until I see it with my very own eyes!'
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To be continued...