Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Depression ❯ Chapter 1

i do not own sailor moon or any of the characters.

this is a very angsty suicide fic. read at your own risk.

this fic is all in Usagi's POV.

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today just had to start out this way. there was no way i could have avoided it.

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BEEP! BEEP! BEEP!

* Ugh just another five minutes, thats all i need* Usagi rolled over and hit the snooze button and fell back into oblivion.

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Her door slammed open and she jumped up from her sleeping position. Usagi stared at the person at her door and knew there was no delaying in gettin up this morning.

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during the mad dash for school all Usagi could think about was the battle with the youma the night before and the fight that happened afterwards.

~~FlashBack~~~

the youma is at the park where most of the attacks occur. * arriving late as usual Usagi* thinks Sailor Moon mentally kicking herself.

"Dammit Sailor Moon, we needed you here sooner. Why are you so lazy?" screamed Sailor Mars.

" Gomen nasai, minna!!" appologised a very sorry Sailor Moon.

just then the youma decided to attack while the sailors were distracted. his attack smashed into the backs of Mercury and Jupiter sending them crashing into a tree. Sailor Moon tried to push them out of the way because she saw the attack coming but fell hard to the ground.

*damn! that hurts* thought Sailor Moon, thinking about her injury from a previous incedent.

The other sailors thought she had another klutz attack and was furious at her. " Shit Sailor Moon what are we gonna do about you?" yelled Sailor Venus as she went in for an attack against the youma.

" MARS FLAME SNIPER! "

the fire arrow hit the youma in the middle of the forehead and killed it. Mars turned around and glared at Sailor Moon.

" how could you have a klutz attack right in the middle of a battle? you got Mercury and Jupiter injured." yelled an irate Mars.

" but...but.." stamered Sailor Moon. not knowing how to explain to the scouts about her injuries and what is going on in her life. but after a second she realized that it was her fault and didn't explain to them why she fell.

" i don't wanna hear any excuses from you " said a severly pained Jupiter.

after that was said they powered down back into their clothes. the whole group cornered Usagi by some trees.

" i don't think you deserve to be leader of the group" suggested a still pissed Rei.

as this was said, all Usagi did was turn around with her head pointed to the ground feeling giulty. she started to walk through the trees taking the longest way out of the park walking home fearing what was to come. somewhere in her head she could hear them yelling as she was walking away.

~~~End FlashBack~~~~~

in sight of juuban middle school Usagi started to cry. * if only they knew, but i can't tell them. all they will think is that i am weak. HA! they already do. they probably wouldn't believe me anyways.* thought a very depressed Usagi.

BONG! BONG! BONG!

*shit, shit, shit! i am late*

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at lunch Usagi hid in a secluded area on campus to avoid the others and to eat lunch. as Usagi took a deep breath of the fresh air she winced at her sore ribs.

* DAMNIT!! they hurt so bad. why does this happen to me?* thought the ever depressed Usagi. little did she know that Ami was watching her hold her ribs in pain.

" hey Usagi!"

* Fuck, and when i thought i got away for a minute.* scowled Usagi. she turned and said in a fake cheery voice " heys guys!" looking at Ami, Minako, and Makoto.