Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Lead me not into Temptation ❯ Chapter 1
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By: Serenitas 
Anime/Manga: Sailor Moon Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 09.15.2002 | Pages: 2 | Words: 2.5K | Visits: 820 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Sailor Moon Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 09.15.2002 | Pages: 2 | Words: 2.5K | Visits: 820 | Status: Completed
Hello all! This is the second fanfic story I've attempted to write, so once more I ask for you to please be kind and NO FLAMES please. This is another Usagi's strength one, but unlike my other story "Don't take me home," Usagi is not running away, rather she is a girl who cannot allow herself to feel any emotion for anybody and when someone gets too close she pushes them away. She is, of course, Sailor Moon and the senshi are involved in this. I would place this I'd say once again post Stars only Usagi and Mamoru never got back together after R and now her memory torments him. Once again I say that you should NOT read this if you like REI or CHIBI USA because I hate them and therefore am not kind to them. In fact Chibi Usa will be in this as little as possible. I also made Mamoru a law student instead of a med student because I'm sick of the whole med student thing and wanted a different spin on things. So I hope that everyone likes this story and I write based on reviews, so if I don't get any reviews, I won't continue the story, so review and be kind for reviews are my life!
Temptation, that's what she was. She stood on every street just beyond his headlights. He saw her everywhere, standing on every corner and calling his name. She was his one obsession, his one joy and the one person he could never have. He longed to possess her, longed to be with her but she was someone else's and she hated his guts. Sighing, he kept his secret to himself and turned back to his law textbook cursing that hand that was called Fate.
Temptation, that's what he was. He inflamed her senses and distracted her. Caused her more detention than she actually deserved and it drove her mad. Her boyfriend thought things were strange because every time she saw him she fought with him, they used the verbal parry and thrust to it's full advantage, driving everyone around them insane, and not caring. She would find out why he was the forbidden temptation to her and then she would think of him no more. She could not give herself up to the feeling of love, could not want or need anyone, could never allow herself to feel that emotion, though she was tempted, for he was pure temptation.
Damned irritating, that's what they were. The brunette and the blond exchanged glances shaking their heads in disbelief. They truly had no idea how transparent and obvious they were about each other, rather thinking their thoughts were unseen and unheard. They dated others who were so wrong for them, but bore striking similarity to some aspect of their personalities, unwilling to admit that mortal enemies who would rather kill each other than kiss each other had some aspect of attraction to them. Having entered into a bet, nine girls, two cats and three men had decided to throw these two together or die trying, though given their stubbornness, death loomed for them all.
Tsukino Usagi let out a sigh as she entered the arcade, wincing as she saw her ex boyfriend Mamoru sitting at the counter drinking his never- empty cup of coffee. She was convinced that caffeine was part of the reason he was such an ass. She had never forgiven him for breaking her heart two years ago, nor for leaving her with such a piddly excuse. She had found out about his dream when she began having it herself and confronted him with it, but stubbornness knew no bounds when it came to dealing with Chiba Mamoru and she found that after a time she could no longer care. She figured something must have occurred in the future because Chibi Brat was still alive and screaming. The thought of her future daughter made her head ache. She truly had no feeling in her heart for that little spore, all emotion having died after she had leapt off the top of a building after her to save her life and all she had done once they landed was scream at her for being so irresponsible that she had been thrown off in the first place. After that incident occurred, Usagi stopped caring. She distanced herself from the child as she had from everyone, putting her on the other side of that invisible wall that she kept around her heart. No one got past her barriers and she preferred it that way, she thought love made people act like they were fools and wanted no part of it.
Sitting a few seats down from Mamoru, pointedly ignoring him, she smiled at Motoki and ordered a diet drink, forgoing her normal milkshake. She ignored the startled look on both his and Mamoru's faces as he brought the drink. "Usagi-imouto, are you ok?" Motoki questioned, concerned.
"Hai oni-san," Usagi replied, sighing. "I'm just fine."
"You seem a little…off." He persisted, not believing her for a moment.
Usagi eyed him. "Motoki it's none of your damn business, so push off." She snapped. "I don't need any more people probing into my life."
Motoki backed away grinning. So Usagi was in one of those moods today! He knew better than to talk to her when she was crabby so he lifted his cloth and proceeded to wipe down the counter near Mamoru who was watching her intently. "You are a moron." He told him as part of their daily ritual. Motoki had never forgiven Mamoru for breaking up with Usagi all those years ago nor for the hurt that he had caused or for how Usagi shut herself off from human affection afterwards. He told Mamoru that he didn't give a damn if he was Tuxedo Kamen or not, he was an insensitive prick who didn't deserve what Fate had obviously been so kind to give him.
Mamoru glared at Motoki. "So you keep saying. What's got her in a twist today anyway?"
Motoki shrugged. "You think I'm going to irritate her when she's like that? You must have stones in your head."
Mamoru held his cup out. "Fill me up."
Motoki shook his head. "I think you've had enough Mamoru."
Mamoru fought a grin. "Yes barkeep." He chuckled, turning back to his book.
"Studying again? All you do is bury yourself in those dusty law books." Motoki sighed. "There's a whole big world out there that you should be living in, a world where there are people and flowers and girls…" he trailed off. "I keep up a good front for you for Usagi, but I know full well you haven't dated anyone since her, though she has moved on."
"No one interests me." Mamoru replied offhandedly.
"No one will." Motoki shot back. "You love her, you want her and you can't have her and it's driving you mad."
"No, you are driving me mad." Mamoru snapped. "My love life is none of your business."
"Your love life is six feet under with lilies on the grave!" Motoki paused, "I know she and her boyfriend are having problems."
Mamoru's eyes lit up. "Tell me."
"No." Motoki replied, grinning like a fool. "Ask her yourself."
"You are evil."
"I know." Motoki laughed, whistling as he walked away.
Usagi couldn't bring herself to focus on the writing assignment she had for homework. Normally she loved writing with a glee unparalleled and it was her writing assignments that kept her grades high, though she could never admit it to the senshi and Haruna-sensei was sworn to secrecy and hated every minute of it. Usagi had never been stupid though she allowed others to think that for it took the pressure off of her. Today had been another of those days where she questioned her own sanity at the end of it. Unable to handle the constant demands and pressure of always being the one who had to save everyone from those damn youma, she had snapped today, gone a little berserk and she knew Rei would bitch at her over it from now until infinity. She glanced over to the door, groaning as she saw the Inners walk in. If it had've been Haruka or Michiru, she would have made an escape, but the Inners would surround her like vultures circling a dying man in the desert. "God damn it and blast it to hell." She muttered glancing around.
"Usagi!" Rei's obnoxious voice broke into her quiet curses. "Glad you're here. What was that form of idiocy that you did this afternoon?"
"Can you vague that up a little Rei?" Usagi asked with saccharine sweetness. "I do so much idiocy in the course of a day that you are just being to generalized for me to know what you are talking about."
Rei blinked for a moment, unused to hearing Usagi use large words in proper context. For a moment Usagi sounded intelligent instead of like the blond ditz that everyone knew she was. "I'm talking about when you tortured that youma before killing it! You had a clear shot and what do you do? You walk up and punch the damn thing!" Rei screeched.
"So next time I'll take my temper out on you? Is that what you want?" Usagi arched an eyebrow. "Consider it done."
Rei's jaw hung open while she tried to find words and Makoto leapt between them, attempting to break up the fight. "Come on you two, knock it off!"
Minako nodded. "Right, lay off you guys!" she sighed. "Usagi it was just that it was unusually brave and coordinated for you, and you have no coordination and we were just wondering what you were trying to prove."
"Or who you were trying to impress." Makoto added.
"No one and nothing." Usagi snapped, tired of being cross examined. "Contrary to popular belief, I do have original thoughts once in a while, and I also am a better fighter than you think. Today was just a crappy day and instead of taking it out on you, I took it out on the youma so lay the hell off! And as for our usual meeting at the jinja, don't look for me because I won't be attending mainly because I'm sick of always going to that stupid jinja! We are always there and I've had enough. I'll call you when I feel more sociable." Usagi pushed past them and out the door, ignoring the stunned looks on their faces and the wide eyed look from Mamoru.
The Inners glanced at each other shrugging. Typical Usagi, acting like a ditz and blowing up when she had a bad day. "So what set her off today?" Minako questioned Makoto.
"She and Hitodri had another fight." Makoto replied. "You could hear them through the whole school."
"Some relationship." Rei snorted. "But she's such a loser no wonder Mamoru dumped her so long ago."
"Rei that was uncalled for." Minako said gently. "You know Usagi and Mamoru had something very special and they still do. They still love each other, but they are both too stubborn to admit it."
"Like I care."
Makoto and Minako exchanged an exasperated glance. "Perhaps we could try and push them back together. They sit and stare at each other when they think we are not looking." Makoto commented. "They tease and tempt each other, irritate and delight each other and yet neither one of them has the intelligence to do anything."
"You know Usagi won't let herself love anyone." Ami's voice interjected, coming up behind them.
Minako turned. "Hi Ami. How was juku?"
"Somewhat dull today." Ami replied. "After the debacle this afternoon, anything would be boring."
Motoki, who had been hovering around the girls shamelessly eavesdropping with Mamoru glided over. "Why won't Usagi let herself love anyone?"
"The same reason she won't let anyone get close to her." Ami replied. "She loves no one, trusts no one, lets no one close to her and if they get too close she pushes them away and run. She won't even let us close to her. The most pure heart in the galaxy has somehow become tainted with mistrust and hurt and we are determined to figure out why."
"Can I help?"
Minako shrugged. "Can't hurt."
Mamoru walked out of the arcade thinking on all he had heard. Had he done that to Usagi? Hurt her so badly that she could never allow anyone close to her again? He felt like a wretch every time he saw her, loving her so much. He saw her everywhere, on every street corner, in the face of every woman. When he drove he saw her just beyond the high-beams, he saw her nightly in his dreams. No matter where or what she did he always saw her everywhere. Wincing he realized that Chibi Usa was staying at his place tonight. That child drove him insane, no longer wanting to have anything to do with her, but unable to turn her out. Usagi had long ago broke the spell she had cast on her family and thrown her out of the house, unable to tolerate her bratty behaviour for another second. In a rare fit of showing her power, she had managed to make Chibi Usa bow to her will and he admired her for it. He thought that perhaps the senshi were right, he had to find out why she had turned inside herself so much and find a way to win her back, because he had made the largest mistake of his life when he had lost her, and he was determined to get her back.
Usagi sighed as she lowered herself into the tub having left her so- called friends behind. She knew they didn't understand her and she didn't care. No one understood, no one could. Living by herself in this big and empty house, surrounded by the memories of a family she had failed to protect, she let herself cry. She could not give into temptation and succumb to Mamoru. She could not fall in love again. She had swept her soul of the last remnants of love years ago, not just because of him though he had been a factor in it, and now she was just an empty shell, not feeling, with a heart that had slowly grown as cold as a winter's night. Hearing the beep of her communicator go off, she swore profusely as she leapt out of the tub and lunged for her broach, preparing to head off into battle. The youma were attacking again.
So that is the end of this chapter. Please let me know what you think and if I should continue on with this story! Please R/R but be kind. NO FLAMES. The Outer senshi will make an appearance in the next chapter and for the rest of the story. I hope you enjoy and remember I write on reviews, so please review! I'm hoping to top the 292 I got for "Don't take me home!"
Ja ne!
Temptation, that's what she was. She stood on every street just beyond his headlights. He saw her everywhere, standing on every corner and calling his name. She was his one obsession, his one joy and the one person he could never have. He longed to possess her, longed to be with her but she was someone else's and she hated his guts. Sighing, he kept his secret to himself and turned back to his law textbook cursing that hand that was called Fate.
Temptation, that's what he was. He inflamed her senses and distracted her. Caused her more detention than she actually deserved and it drove her mad. Her boyfriend thought things were strange because every time she saw him she fought with him, they used the verbal parry and thrust to it's full advantage, driving everyone around them insane, and not caring. She would find out why he was the forbidden temptation to her and then she would think of him no more. She could not give herself up to the feeling of love, could not want or need anyone, could never allow herself to feel that emotion, though she was tempted, for he was pure temptation.
Damned irritating, that's what they were. The brunette and the blond exchanged glances shaking their heads in disbelief. They truly had no idea how transparent and obvious they were about each other, rather thinking their thoughts were unseen and unheard. They dated others who were so wrong for them, but bore striking similarity to some aspect of their personalities, unwilling to admit that mortal enemies who would rather kill each other than kiss each other had some aspect of attraction to them. Having entered into a bet, nine girls, two cats and three men had decided to throw these two together or die trying, though given their stubbornness, death loomed for them all.
Tsukino Usagi let out a sigh as she entered the arcade, wincing as she saw her ex boyfriend Mamoru sitting at the counter drinking his never- empty cup of coffee. She was convinced that caffeine was part of the reason he was such an ass. She had never forgiven him for breaking her heart two years ago, nor for leaving her with such a piddly excuse. She had found out about his dream when she began having it herself and confronted him with it, but stubbornness knew no bounds when it came to dealing with Chiba Mamoru and she found that after a time she could no longer care. She figured something must have occurred in the future because Chibi Brat was still alive and screaming. The thought of her future daughter made her head ache. She truly had no feeling in her heart for that little spore, all emotion having died after she had leapt off the top of a building after her to save her life and all she had done once they landed was scream at her for being so irresponsible that she had been thrown off in the first place. After that incident occurred, Usagi stopped caring. She distanced herself from the child as she had from everyone, putting her on the other side of that invisible wall that she kept around her heart. No one got past her barriers and she preferred it that way, she thought love made people act like they were fools and wanted no part of it.
Sitting a few seats down from Mamoru, pointedly ignoring him, she smiled at Motoki and ordered a diet drink, forgoing her normal milkshake. She ignored the startled look on both his and Mamoru's faces as he brought the drink. "Usagi-imouto, are you ok?" Motoki questioned, concerned.
"Hai oni-san," Usagi replied, sighing. "I'm just fine."
"You seem a little…off." He persisted, not believing her for a moment.
Usagi eyed him. "Motoki it's none of your damn business, so push off." She snapped. "I don't need any more people probing into my life."
Motoki backed away grinning. So Usagi was in one of those moods today! He knew better than to talk to her when she was crabby so he lifted his cloth and proceeded to wipe down the counter near Mamoru who was watching her intently. "You are a moron." He told him as part of their daily ritual. Motoki had never forgiven Mamoru for breaking up with Usagi all those years ago nor for the hurt that he had caused or for how Usagi shut herself off from human affection afterwards. He told Mamoru that he didn't give a damn if he was Tuxedo Kamen or not, he was an insensitive prick who didn't deserve what Fate had obviously been so kind to give him.
Mamoru glared at Motoki. "So you keep saying. What's got her in a twist today anyway?"
Motoki shrugged. "You think I'm going to irritate her when she's like that? You must have stones in your head."
Mamoru held his cup out. "Fill me up."
Motoki shook his head. "I think you've had enough Mamoru."
Mamoru fought a grin. "Yes barkeep." He chuckled, turning back to his book.
"Studying again? All you do is bury yourself in those dusty law books." Motoki sighed. "There's a whole big world out there that you should be living in, a world where there are people and flowers and girls…" he trailed off. "I keep up a good front for you for Usagi, but I know full well you haven't dated anyone since her, though she has moved on."
"No one interests me." Mamoru replied offhandedly.
"No one will." Motoki shot back. "You love her, you want her and you can't have her and it's driving you mad."
"No, you are driving me mad." Mamoru snapped. "My love life is none of your business."
"Your love life is six feet under with lilies on the grave!" Motoki paused, "I know she and her boyfriend are having problems."
Mamoru's eyes lit up. "Tell me."
"No." Motoki replied, grinning like a fool. "Ask her yourself."
"You are evil."
"I know." Motoki laughed, whistling as he walked away.
Usagi couldn't bring herself to focus on the writing assignment she had for homework. Normally she loved writing with a glee unparalleled and it was her writing assignments that kept her grades high, though she could never admit it to the senshi and Haruna-sensei was sworn to secrecy and hated every minute of it. Usagi had never been stupid though she allowed others to think that for it took the pressure off of her. Today had been another of those days where she questioned her own sanity at the end of it. Unable to handle the constant demands and pressure of always being the one who had to save everyone from those damn youma, she had snapped today, gone a little berserk and she knew Rei would bitch at her over it from now until infinity. She glanced over to the door, groaning as she saw the Inners walk in. If it had've been Haruka or Michiru, she would have made an escape, but the Inners would surround her like vultures circling a dying man in the desert. "God damn it and blast it to hell." She muttered glancing around.
"Usagi!" Rei's obnoxious voice broke into her quiet curses. "Glad you're here. What was that form of idiocy that you did this afternoon?"
"Can you vague that up a little Rei?" Usagi asked with saccharine sweetness. "I do so much idiocy in the course of a day that you are just being to generalized for me to know what you are talking about."
Rei blinked for a moment, unused to hearing Usagi use large words in proper context. For a moment Usagi sounded intelligent instead of like the blond ditz that everyone knew she was. "I'm talking about when you tortured that youma before killing it! You had a clear shot and what do you do? You walk up and punch the damn thing!" Rei screeched.
"So next time I'll take my temper out on you? Is that what you want?" Usagi arched an eyebrow. "Consider it done."
Rei's jaw hung open while she tried to find words and Makoto leapt between them, attempting to break up the fight. "Come on you two, knock it off!"
Minako nodded. "Right, lay off you guys!" she sighed. "Usagi it was just that it was unusually brave and coordinated for you, and you have no coordination and we were just wondering what you were trying to prove."
"Or who you were trying to impress." Makoto added.
"No one and nothing." Usagi snapped, tired of being cross examined. "Contrary to popular belief, I do have original thoughts once in a while, and I also am a better fighter than you think. Today was just a crappy day and instead of taking it out on you, I took it out on the youma so lay the hell off! And as for our usual meeting at the jinja, don't look for me because I won't be attending mainly because I'm sick of always going to that stupid jinja! We are always there and I've had enough. I'll call you when I feel more sociable." Usagi pushed past them and out the door, ignoring the stunned looks on their faces and the wide eyed look from Mamoru.
The Inners glanced at each other shrugging. Typical Usagi, acting like a ditz and blowing up when she had a bad day. "So what set her off today?" Minako questioned Makoto.
"She and Hitodri had another fight." Makoto replied. "You could hear them through the whole school."
"Some relationship." Rei snorted. "But she's such a loser no wonder Mamoru dumped her so long ago."
"Rei that was uncalled for." Minako said gently. "You know Usagi and Mamoru had something very special and they still do. They still love each other, but they are both too stubborn to admit it."
"Like I care."
Makoto and Minako exchanged an exasperated glance. "Perhaps we could try and push them back together. They sit and stare at each other when they think we are not looking." Makoto commented. "They tease and tempt each other, irritate and delight each other and yet neither one of them has the intelligence to do anything."
"You know Usagi won't let herself love anyone." Ami's voice interjected, coming up behind them.
Minako turned. "Hi Ami. How was juku?"
"Somewhat dull today." Ami replied. "After the debacle this afternoon, anything would be boring."
Motoki, who had been hovering around the girls shamelessly eavesdropping with Mamoru glided over. "Why won't Usagi let herself love anyone?"
"The same reason she won't let anyone get close to her." Ami replied. "She loves no one, trusts no one, lets no one close to her and if they get too close she pushes them away and run. She won't even let us close to her. The most pure heart in the galaxy has somehow become tainted with mistrust and hurt and we are determined to figure out why."
"Can I help?"
Minako shrugged. "Can't hurt."
Mamoru walked out of the arcade thinking on all he had heard. Had he done that to Usagi? Hurt her so badly that she could never allow anyone close to her again? He felt like a wretch every time he saw her, loving her so much. He saw her everywhere, on every street corner, in the face of every woman. When he drove he saw her just beyond the high-beams, he saw her nightly in his dreams. No matter where or what she did he always saw her everywhere. Wincing he realized that Chibi Usa was staying at his place tonight. That child drove him insane, no longer wanting to have anything to do with her, but unable to turn her out. Usagi had long ago broke the spell she had cast on her family and thrown her out of the house, unable to tolerate her bratty behaviour for another second. In a rare fit of showing her power, she had managed to make Chibi Usa bow to her will and he admired her for it. He thought that perhaps the senshi were right, he had to find out why she had turned inside herself so much and find a way to win her back, because he had made the largest mistake of his life when he had lost her, and he was determined to get her back.
Usagi sighed as she lowered herself into the tub having left her so- called friends behind. She knew they didn't understand her and she didn't care. No one understood, no one could. Living by herself in this big and empty house, surrounded by the memories of a family she had failed to protect, she let herself cry. She could not give into temptation and succumb to Mamoru. She could not fall in love again. She had swept her soul of the last remnants of love years ago, not just because of him though he had been a factor in it, and now she was just an empty shell, not feeling, with a heart that had slowly grown as cold as a winter's night. Hearing the beep of her communicator go off, she swore profusely as she leapt out of the tub and lunged for her broach, preparing to head off into battle. The youma were attacking again.
So that is the end of this chapter. Please let me know what you think and if I should continue on with this story! Please R/R but be kind. NO FLAMES. The Outer senshi will make an appearance in the next chapter and for the rest of the story. I hope you enjoy and remember I write on reviews, so please review! I'm hoping to top the 292 I got for "Don't take me home!"
Ja ne!