Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Lead me not into Temptation ❯ Chapter 9

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]
Hello all! Thank you for the lovely reviews I've been receiving, I really appreciate them. For those who mentioned the 'vieux' when it should have been 'veux' that was deliberate and intentional, not a mistake on my part since French is my first language. I have not only been working on this fanfic, but I am editing a novel I wrote - which is not a fanfic and am occupied with writing the sequel at the same time, so writers block does get to me. In any case, please read and review and be kind. I hope you all enjoy! Standard disclaimers apply…I don't own SM as if you didn't already know that so don't bother to sue me. Thanks to my best friend Necton_Minako for being my sounding board as usual and letting me test drive ideas on your very small brain (kidding!).



Setsuna had no intention of letting them out of her time bubble. She watched as Usagi turned her back on Mamoru, refusing to say anything more and she shut her eyes in frustration. "Where she goes, time will tell." She shook her head. "She roams all by herself."

"He's headed for a single destination, he doesn't care what's standing in his path, he's the line between two points of separation." Haruka sighed. "Where he goes, time will tell. He rolls all by himself."

"Yes but every now and then he offers her a shoulder, and every now and then she overflows." Michiru said. "And every now and then a bridge crosses over and it's the moment that every lover knows."

"Poetically put." Setsuna nodded. "The problem isn't getting them to talk, since they have already said everything that needs to be said, but getting them to lay down their pride and barriers."

"Usagi follows the path of least resistance." Haruka said, despair in her voice. "She twists and turns with no regards to distance, she never comes to a stop. She just roams through her life now and she can't live that way, not kitten."

"The stubborn force and the immovable object." Michiru confirmed. "What can we do?"

"Minako is making a love and truth potion, perhaps…" Haruka shook her head. "What am I saying?"

"I think we need to eliminate Minako from the picture, then at least it would be safe for them to walk the streets." Setsuna said musingly.

"Why hasn't Queen Serenity gone to see her daughter, after all she's been through…"

"Because she can't stand to see the Princess like this," Setsuna said sadly. "She doesn't know what to say or what to do."

"Maybe all Usagi needs is a mother's hug and love. Since her family was killed, she hasn't known love like that at all."

"I mentioned that to her Haruka, but where do you think Usagi gets her stubbornness from in the first place? Queen Serenity is afraid to face her daughter, afraid she'll treat her mother like she's treating Mamoru."

"Kitten would never do that." Haruka shook her head. "She's not capable. No matter how much she says she's gotten rid of all emotion in her heart, trying to kill herself by forcing the ginzuishou to bow to her will, there is still some shred of hope and love in her heart. She's too pure to be as cold as she lets on."

"Agreed." Michiru nodded. "But how do we get her to see that?"

"No one can force Usagi to do anything, no one ever could." Setsuna explained. "It's one of the reasons Rei and Luna were always so frustrated with her. Her will is stronger than anyone I've ever seen before, and that is the problem right there."

"So since Usagi is a write off, what else can we do?" Haruka asked, frustration in her voice.

"Take Minako out of the picture." Michiru suggested.

Setsuna nodded. "That's our plan of action."





Usagi didn't dare turn around and face Mamoru. "What else can I do?" she whispered aloud.

"What do you mean Usagi?"

"Not a damn thing. I wasn't talking to you." She snapped. "I was thinking aloud."

"When people talk to themselves, it's a sign of insanity…"

"Shut the hell up." Usagi snarled.

"Usagi, if you don't change, then all through eternity you'll roam alone."

"I'll be long dead by then. I feel the weakness setting in from the weak ginzuishou."

"If there is nothing left inside the ginzuishou, then how can I give it to Chibi Usa?" he questioned.

"She has much life and energy in her, and the ginzuishou will respond to her. I will speak the incantation to formally give it to her, so don't worry about your precious daughter."

"I wasn't concerned about her." Mamoru sighed. "I don't love Chibi Usa, I love you."

"Then you've changed your opinion rapidly." Usagi turned and faced him. "You always took her side over mine, never believing me on anything I said about her."

"I was wrong."

"There's a phrase I never thought I'd hear out of you." Usagi said scornfully.

"At least I can admit when I was wrong and what I feel inside. Why can't you do as much?" Mamoru grabbed her by her shoulders, almost shaking her. "Why can't you open up?"

"I hurt inside!" Usagi screamed into his face. "I burn inside! I feel so much and yet nothing at all! I can't contain what I feel inside. It terrifies and thrills me at the same time. I can't deal with this constant bombardment. I love you and yet I hate you. I'd forget you, but I'm afraid to. You love me…or did you? The only thing I know for certain, in spite of my hurting is that I'm yours and I don't want to be. From laughing to crying, from living to dying, from heaven to a heartache, that pretty much describes everything you've ever put me through."

"Blame your problems on me if you want."

"But I don't want to! I have to take responsibility for my actions, for the first time in my life. Yes some of my problems originate with you, but you did not cause all of them." Usagi shook her head. "I grew up Mamoru."

"Your problems always began with me. When I turned evil under Beryl and tortured you, when I forgot you with Ail and Ann, and then when I broke up with you." Mamoru began.

"Yes," Usagi wrapped her arms around herself. "You could have torn my heart out with a grappling hook and it would have hurt less."

"And through it all you still loved me and never gave up on me."

"Loving and hoping gave me life and the will to go on."

"Until I left you to be hurt by that man." Mamoru concluded.

"That was when I stopped believing and hoping in you, stopped trusting you, but I never stopped loving you. No, that came later." Usagi sighed. "I remember, I saw you with some pretty red head girl out on the lake, you were having a good time and laughing. I watched you help her out of the boat and kiss her gently. I knew then that it was over. I finally accepted that fact and I let you go. I didn't waste any of my time on you again…or perhaps I spent all of it thinking of you." She said musingly.

"I was trying to get over you, and it didn't work. I always loved you Usagi, and you always loved me and it's as simple as that." Mamoru felt her starting to weaken, her barriers starting to crack. Her verbal attack wounded him, but he understood she had to let it out.

"Is it?"





Minako held up her creation and stared at it lovingly. "Now come Motoki, we must find Usagi and Mamoru and drop this in their food or drink."

"Minako I'm begging you, don't do this." Motoki pleaded. "Come on."

"Now darling, you have to trust in me." Minako pinched his cheek. "Oh you're just so cute."

"What do you hope to accomplish with this?"

"Motoki, it's a fine line between love and hate," Minako began noticing his eyes bugging out of his head. "What?"

"You got it right!" He exclaimed. "She got the metaphor right!" he began dancing around. "She got it right!"

Minako blushed. "Stop it. Now where are they?"

"Wellllllllllllllllll," he drawled, unable to believe he was about to do this, but knowing that Usagi and Mamoru were making progress on their own, and if Minako kept meddling they'd never get anywhere. "Haruka phoned while you were making that concoction, and she said Usagi and Mamoru are at her place. She's on your side."

"Excellent." Minako rubbed her hands together.

"You worry me." Motoki sighed.

"Touché, touché." Minako grinned. "I am a wishy washy girl, but it's a wishy washy world!" she flung her arms out. "C'est la vie, la vie. That's what you get when you get me. I have the right to change my mind at least a couple hundred times."

"Come on, let's go before Usagi and Mamoru make another infamous escape." He closed his eyes in pain. Minako was going to kill him!

Minako was currently dancing around the arcade. "My whole world's changed with you and my wonderful fix up projects."

"Maybe if you left them alone to work things out…?" he winced at her evil glare.

"The reason I'm strange is…"

"I don't want to know." He interrupted.

"Go away, no wait a minute!" Minako snapped her fingers. "Let me grab my potion and we'll go to Haruka's house."

'Give me strength.' Motoki beseeched to the goddess.



Setsuna opened the time bubble at last. "Ok you two, get out."

"Finally." Usagi breathed leaping out the opening.

"You didn't resolve anything did you?" She put her hands on her hips.

"Actually I felt we made progress Setsuna." Mamoru said, a funny look on his face. He turned to Usagi. "I won't bother you any more. You need time to yourself to process everything and come to terms with what you are feeling and thinking. I'll leave you alone and wait for you to come to me."

"Hell might freeze first." She retorted.

"I'm willing to take that chance. You know where to find me and my number if you want to talk or change your mind." He nodded to Setsuna and walked off towards his apartment.

Usagi watched him walk away and glanced at Setsuna who watched him with a speculative look on her face. "What?" she snapped.

"You don't get much more honest than he's been Princess." Setsuna told her. "Perhaps you've fought long enough and it's time to drop the barriers. You can't do it all by yourself. Go to him Usagi, you need him and he needs you."

Usagi shook her head, confusion lancing through all her carefully thought out plans and excuses. In the end, they were excuses. "I'm so afraid." She whispered. "What if he hurts me again? What if he betrays me?"

"You think he'd allow that after this debacle?"

"I need to think this through." She leapt on the excuse to delay.

"The best excuse is no excuse." Setsuna said firmly.

Usagi looked at the senshi who was normally so kind and understanding. "Why are you doing this?"

"It's time to stop running and face your inner demons Usagi. It's time to let them go."

"I can't." Usagi murmured. She gave Setsuna one final look and then ran away.



"Hi Haruka. So where are they? No sense in delaying." Minako looked around the entry way eagerly.

Haruka rolled her eyes. "They're not standing in the middle of the foyer silly."

"I knew that." She shoved Haruka aside and barged in. "Hi Michiru!" she called out.

Michiru had just finished cleaning one of their closets and had a slight layer of dust on her head. "Hi Minako. Would you come over here and hold something for me?"

Minako set her potion down and ran over to help. "What am I holding?"

"Forgive us, but this for the good of the earth." Michiru whispered as she shoved Minako in the closet.

Minako only had time to give a startled shriek and she heard the lock turn. "Motoki! Let me the hell out of here!"

"I'm so sorry Minako, but Usagi and Mamoru have to do this without your help. Forgive me." He pleaded through the wooden door.

"You are a dead man!" she screeched.

Motoki turned to Haruka and Michiru who were shaking hands and congratulating themselves. "We have to let her out of there." He declared.

Haruka held out a box. "Earplugs?"



Usagi knelt at Rei's temple, her mind awash in confusion. "What do I do?"

"Oh it's you." A nasty voice said behind her.

She turned. "Chibi Usa." She said in a flat voice. She could think of nothing else to say to her future daughter.

"Why are you here?" Chibi Usa demanded.

"I have some thinking to do." Usagi replied.

"There's a first, you thinking." She snorted.

"Why do you hate me so?" Usagi asked in a small voice. "Am I so horrible?"

"You wanted to keep me from Mamo-chan, you're a klutz and a ditz, you're stupid and moronic and no one really likes you." Chibi Usa said, ticking them off on her fingers.

"I see." Usagi murmured. "I never knew everyone regarded me that way."

"We don't," an acidic voice broke in. "Chibi Usa how dare you talk to her that way."

Usagi looked up to see Rei. "Hi Rei."

Rei smiled at her friend. "Hi Usagi. Feeling any better?"

"Can I use your phone?"

"You know where it is. I want to have a little word with Chibi Usa."

Usagi nodded and headed to her phone inside the jinja. She dialed the number she knew so well, the number she had never forgot, the number she hadn't dialed in years. His answering machine answered. "Hi this is Mamoru. If you're calling about the computer, I sold it, if this is Tuesday night I have research group, if this is a telemarketer you're wasting your time, I'm not buying. If it's anybody else, wait for the beep and you know what to do. If this is Usagi, I still love you."

Usagi dropped the phone.



Minako had finally stopped trying to break the door down, or so Motoki assumed because it was no longer shaking. He had a feeling of foreboding and noticing Haruka had a suspicious look on her face as well. The door was blown open as Sailor Venus stood there, surrounded by a glowing orange aura, seething mad. Taking the earplugs out of his ears, he smiled. "Minako, love, now put your arms down…"

"Venus…" she intoned, furious.

"Come on now Venus, calm down. It was necessary and it didn't hurt you." Haruka held up her arms.

"We needed you out of the way for a little bit. You're a bit of a disaster. We couldn't let you drug them!" Michiru added, trying to keep her from exploding.

"Love…"

"Please don't mess up my living room!" Michiru asked.

"And Beauty…" Minako's face had turned and interesting shade of red.

"Duck!" Haruka yelled abruptly.

"Shock!" Minako threw her attack, managing to destroy most of the living room.

By the time Motoki, Michiru and Haruka were able to see through the debris, Minako was gone with her potion. "Great, now we have a furious Sailor Venus on the loose and dead set on one purpose." Motoki groaned.

"We should have taken her henshin rod." Michiru added.

"You think?" Haruka asked furiously.

"What do we do now?"

"Hunt her down and chain her to a chair." Haruka said, no joke in her tone.

"I'm a dead man." Motoki moaned.

"Stop complaining and start hunting!" Michiru snapped. "Find Usagi and you'll find Minako I'm certain."

"Call Setsuna, get her here to help." Haruka instructed. "Motoki, you just get going."

He couldn't get out of there fast enough, fearing Haruka's wrath worse than Minako's.





And that ends that! I almost ended the whole story in this chapter, but decided to add one last chapter to fully cover all the bases. I hope you enjoyed this, and to those who emailed and asked me, yes I have another fanfic idea in the works and I'll give a mention of it at the end of the next chapter and see if anyone is interested in reading and reviewing anything else I write. I do hope people like my work! Read and review but be kind. No Flames please. Emails and reviews keep me sane, so email me people! Check out my websites too!