Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Letting Go ❯ Life Continues On ( Chapter 2 )

Chapter 2

 

Usagi twirled her umbrella as she walked towards nothing. Her eyes were closed at that moment, listening to the sloshing ice under her yellow boots all the while keeping her balance by holding her out arm to keep her balance. Her head was also down, watching her feet going from left to right, left to right, each hitting the ground then coming back up and swishing the ground. She did this for no apparent reason. Maybe to just listen, to get away from this time for just a mere moment in time, or maybe just because she was Usagi, the half witted one of the group of Senshi. Well anyway, she was not paying any attention to where she was going or to who was in front of her. She seemed not to care what was ahead of her nowadays, only wanting to live in the past.

 

Wham! Usagi stumbled a little then fell back, slipping on the ice, landing on her ass hard. The umbrella flew out of her hands. She instantly blushed, “Ah, Sorry! Forgive me!” She rubbed her ass as she lowered her head, hoping for forgiveness from whomever she had hit.

 

“Usako…” Usagi quickly lifted her head, thinking she heard the word that meant so much to her, hoping to see her Mamo-chan, praying beyond on disappointments. She then focused on the man's soft face, “Usagi, isn't it? Let me help you up…” He offered a hand to her, which she took then got to her feet quickly. She looked at him, staring at him as the snow fell around them. She held her hand close to her body as she blushed slightly still.

 

“How did you know my name?” Usagi eyed at him, looking like a child to him, but also a bit suspicious of him.

 

He laughed at her cuteness, his voice booming as he did, “Your jacket and umbrella are covered with rabbits, and unless you are nuts about rabbits then I was guessing that was your name. Am I wrong?” He smiled at her, revealing the wrinkles of time that had slowly formed on his face from his long life of happiness.

 

She laughed weakly, trying not to be rude, “Yes, my name is Usagi. I would like to apologize for running into you-”

 

“Nonsense, my child, it was my fault entirely, I wasn't looking…” He kindly smiled at her, giving her a sense of warmth, “Maybe we will meet, again, eh, Usagi?” Usagi nodded, watching the man walk off. As she watched him walk away, she looked strangely at him, wondering who he really was.

 

“Wait!” She called out reaching for him, but it was too late he was already gone, “You, didn't tell me your name…” She looked down feeling a bit of disappointment as her voice trailed off at the end.

 

She then continued to trudge on, finding her way to the park. She stared at the playground, remembering all the times she played here. She smiled to herself. She then remembered all the times Chibi-usa had played here, watching Chibi-usa play with all the other children then sometimes getting hurt, the memories flooded back into her mind, and once again she started to cry. She missed how Chibi-Usa would run to her wanting a band aid or some other medicinal treatment. She then remembered how Chibi-Usa grew up, and started to help herself. She sat down one of the swings, putting her hood up on her raincoat, closing her umbrella, and then set it softly against the swing set.

 

`This is the park where I meet him…no her…' She stopped swinging for a moment then lowered her head. The snow chilled her small body as she sat there, `Seiya…' She also missed Seiya dearly, but she had no right to call Seiya back to her, but she so wanted to go back to him.

 

There she sat alone, cold and lonesome. She thought about all the things that were going on and about everyone. The tears more by more came to her sweet blue eyes. She was all alone; no one was with her anymore. Everyone had moved on and left her behind to become grey and elderly. No one loved her anymore. Usagi's mind made up many lies, feeding them all to her innocent mind as she sat there, and the more she thought about it the more childish she felt, but she couldn't help but believe her own deceptions. She knew they all loved her very much and that they would never hurt her for any reason, but lately she couldn't stop these thoughts of betrayal. Had one of them betrayed her? Their own Queen?

 

“I am all alone…” Usagi softly said, looking down, tears dripping down her face. She then felt a warm hand reach down and lift her head. She met that person's face with a bit of shock but with a bit of love.

 

“I wouldn't say that now, my little kitten…” An all too familiar voice lifted her head, smiling at her, “Usagi…”

 

Usagi weakly smiled at the lovely woman, who always seemed to be so under control of all her feelings and actions, “Haruka! You and Michiru are back in town? I am glad to see you…” Usagi faintly smiled at her, looking directly into her alluring eyes.

 

“Yes, we were traveling through the city and thought we would stop for a little while. Good to see you again, Usagi. But-” She was cut off short before she could finish by Usagi.

 

“Haruka, I-” Before she could say anything to her, Haruka put a finger to Usagi's lips, hushing her.

 

“Usagi, you have many friends and they will always love you, including myself. All of the Senshi would take your place in anything. Even in death, we would take your place in less than a second. You are by no means alone, even if we are gone and are not coming back. You must believe in us and yourself. We live in your heart, as you live in are hearts.” Haruka bent down to her, getting to eye to eye level, sadly smiling at her. Since when had Usagi questioned her Senshi's loyalty?

 

“But-” Usagi tried to speak again, but once again hushed by the strong, but lovely Haruka.

 

“I promise they are suffering just as much as you are, in fact even more…”

 

“But, Mamo-chan…”

 

Haruka stopped smiling, and then seemed to act a bit envious now, “Mamoru,” She looked down for a moment, not wanting to look into Usagi's eyes. Was Mamoru such a great guy for Usagi? What had he done for her, except cause her great pain? Why did she love him so?

 

She then looked back up after a few moments of sinful thinking, meeting with Usagi's eyes, “He will always love you…” She leaned in close to her, their cheeks softly resting upon each other, foreheads together, “I will always love you…” Haruka whispered then quickly leaned in closer, meeting Usagi's soft, pink lips with her red, dry lips. There they stayed for that short time for the first time as one. Usagi's face beet red as Haruka's was just a little pink, blushing slightly. Had she been so bold to kiss the queen that she has promised her undying loyalty?

 

Haruka then pulled away from her, touching her lips. She sadly smiled, small tears could be seen in the corner ducts of her eyes, “The same as always…I guess it really is just a one sided love…” She rubbed Usagi's head then ran her hand down her face. Her fingers seemed so cold when they touched Usagi's face.

 

“What?” Usagi asked shocked but curious too about what she meant.

 

She laughed lightly at her, taking her hand away as if she felt great pain from what the girl had said, “That is what I love about you, Usagi, so innocent…” A glazed look came to Haruka, something that came rarely to her and one that was rarely seen by many people, “Forgive me, Usagi,” She smiled at her, “Good bye, my kitten…” She walked off, the snow slowly blinded Usagi from seeing her slender figure anymore.

 

“H-Haruka…” Usagi sat there, blushing like crazy, unsure what had just happen between them both, but she knew that she had just become connected to Haruka. Something that almost no one had ever achieved, beside Michiru, and she had done it with out even trying to swoon the bold woman.

Disclaimer- I don't own Sailor Moon or any of characters in the Sailor Moon original series. I wish I did b/c I would be so rich, but sadly I don't, but this is my story and it is not to be used without my permission. Also, any characters not seen in the original Sailor Moon belong to me.

 

I hope you enjoyed this one. I always loved the relationship between Usagi and Haruka. I have always wanted them to go to the next level past friendship. I wanted to explore a love connected between them. Well, please leave any comments you have about this chapter! I will have the next one updated soon!

 

Update- This story has been update on March 11, 2005. I have corrected the grammar and added some more sentences to complete this chapter. Please, if you see any grammar or anything that doesn't any sense please tell me by reviewing, but it is up to you. Hope you enjoy